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Gender: Male
Status: Married
Age: 38
Sign: Libra

City: fayetteville
State: ARKANSAS
Country: US
Signup Date: 2/28/2006

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Friday, August 24, 2007 

Current mood:  bouncy
Category: Blogging
    recently i've changed the myspace page
to reflect a more demure and appropriate
vision of a rememberance of my sweet kitty.

since erin and i have finally gotten a lot of our
stuff in place @ the new house we have been
posting develpments of such on a new blog that
is located here:

the new bne blog

but now that we're kinda moved in i'm going
to break out all of the olde pix of spike and bruise
and get them scanned so i can post them here.
i think it'll be a better representation of him than
the multitude of pix i have here that are when he
started to decline so rapidly and severely.

we got the new place back in june and have been
trying to make it a new place altogether by taking
everything out and starting over.

i'm going to probably make that our new interface
with the WWW since i've already had more hits on that
blog than i've ever had views on myspace in less than
5% of the time i've been on myspace.

so come and see us there and continue to remember
my sweet bruiser boy:  'the best kitty EVER'
Currently listening:
America Dreaming
By Punkinhead
Wednesday, April 25, 2007 

Current mood:a little blue
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
during the first few days without bruiser
we tried to 'normalize' our lives.  movies
are great for background noise so i've
been running trilogies.

i love this line from Raiders of the Lost Ark
by Sallah when they are taking the children
out of the bar from which they rescue Indy.
i think that profound statements like that are
wasted on ears that have no empathy.

things are getting better, though.
life does, indeed, go on.
Thursday, April 19, 2007 

Current mood:  crappy
Category: Life
yesterday erin and i said goodby to bruiser.
bruiser was the best damn cat on the planet.

when he was born he was the 'runt' of his litter
and the only one playing with him was his sister,
spike.  they chose erin and i from all of the other
little kittens in the play pin.  bruiser especially;
he climbed up the webbing on the side of the
playpin to me when i first began petting him.

both spike and bruiser were born on April 27, 2003.
they both grew incredibly fast and strong.  they both
have been described by friends as 'two of the biggest,
healthiest cats i've ever seen!' (almost always with an
exlaimation point)

they did just about everything together and were just about cuter and sweeter thana normal person can stand.

when erin and i were home, they were always with us
and always wanted attention and love (and tuna-
treats!).  i could not sit @ my computer without bruise
almost instantly taking over; he always wanted to help
like a good little kitty.  he slept on us, he sat with us @
dinner, movie-time, or reading.  one of his neatest 'tricks'
was to go from sitting on the floor to my shoulder in one
swift and sleek stroke.  then he would sit on my right
shoulder and 'perch' over my left arm making biscuits.

erin and i moved out of our house in elkins and into our
apartment in fayetteville last summer.  in august of 2006
we took both spike and bruiser for booster shots.  in october
we noticed that bruiser had lost some wieght and showed
some signs of anemia.  the only real diagnosis we got was
that he had contracted Feline Infectious Anemia (after
months of vet appointments and medication treatments).
also, bruiser lost most of his eyesight due to fluid pressure
in his eyes which caused detached retinas in both.

from October 2006 to April 2007 we attempted to nurse him
back to health through myriad medications, countless diet
alterations and, in a last-ditch effort, a regimin of homeopathic
remedies.

in that time he went from 14 to 6.25 pounds.
his face and eyes were riddled with strange
pustule-like sores that didn't heal from the time
they appeared in december to the time of his
untimely death.

despite his decline in health, he continued to love
and spend time with us as if he were healthy.
whenever we would let him outside he would
chase leaves, scatch his back by rolling back and
forth, and lie in the sun for a catnap.

my heart and my head are o'er-flowing yet i feel
so empty and helpless inside.  holding him and seeing
his tail stop and his chest finally come to rest on the
near-skeleton which he had become will haunt
me.  erin saw the light go from his eyes when he was
finally still; i could not have seen that and i fear erin
will be haunted by that as well.

we are having his little body cremated and will abide his
ashes so that we will always have him near despite
the heart-breaking way he had to spend his last days.

i will cherish all of my memories of the few years which
we had our sweet kitty kitty.  he was the best kitty friend
that i've ever had and i will miss him terribly.

farewell, my sweetest boo boo.

bruiser
April 27, 2003 - April 18, 2007
Monday, July 10, 2006 

Current mood:  blank
Category: Life
old friends and family.

you can't pick your family.
you must love them,
but sometimes you don't like them.

friends sometimes have a way
of changing or staying the same.
is it the changing that keeps them
as friends or is it the sameness?

we should change.
we should be cognizant of the past
but it's a hard place to live in when
the rest of the world keeps spinning.

old friends sometimes are like
'old grey', the best t-shirt in your
drawer that only you and maybe
your good friends or family (or not)
ever get to see you in.

friends sometimes wear like 'old
grey' insofar as they are still your
favorite to put on, take off (with),
or just lie about in.

but 'old grey' doesn't stay bright
and shiny; it is 'OLD grey' for a
reason.  it's been worn in and worn
well and has a comfort and familiarity
with which you identify immediately.
that's why you have to always dig for
it @ the bottom of the drawer, or discover
it (months after the fact) in your car's trunk
when you threw it back there for a trip
or a day-time excursion and forgot about it.

i love friends that are 'old grey'-like.
i love people that fit like 'old grey'
when your first bought 'old grey'.
although they might be 'new grey' at
the time, they definitely have the 'old grey'
potential. deep inside of them you
just know they'll be worth digging through
your old drawers for. they will always
be comfy, unpretentious, and only care to
be worn, or identified, or folded.

i spent some time over the last few weeks
with friends and family and i have realized
that there are a lot of people around me that
i love very dearly, but i don't always like them.

found an 'old grey' friend in a flick recently
and it's poigniant to this monotribe in that
it addresses the ideas of best friends that
for inexplicable reasons grow apart.
it's about making new friends and realizing
that it's still possible to have an adventure
with 'new greys' without sacrificing or discarding
the good 'old grey'.

look it up, watch it, and enjoy.
thanks to Rob for introducing me
to this one:

ghost world,
2002
Tuesday, June 20, 2006 

Current mood:  content
Category: Food and Restaurants
   ok folks,
if you find yourself in the fayetteville (arkansas) are
you must stop by the best new eatery on the southside.

The Greenhouse Grill
Der Gruenhaus Grille
La Casa-Verde Cantina
La Maisson du Verde-

you get the idea.

my dear friend Jeremy Gawthrup and
company have finally dropped all pretense
of having persuits other than culinary and
have begun a true vegan-friendly, organic-
based and not just for the yogurt-sprout-eatin'
fools restaurant with wine and spirits to boot.

the vegetarian fare will spin the heads of the
biggest t-rex wannabe meat eaters, and there's
plenny of protien for them as well.

can't say enough about it;
just go, eat, enjoy, TIP BIG!
and then spread the word.
Currently watching:
Night Watch
Release date: 20 June, 2006
Wednesday, March 15, 2006 

Current mood:  thoughtful
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

'beware the ides of march'

the day before my eldest brother's birthday.

happy pre-birthday eric.

 

the time for spring and bloomin' trees is soon

to be uppon us here in northwest arkansas.

in aspen the aspens are budding thier apple-flavored

chewy swee-tart coats in preparation for the cottonwoods

to gush forth thier tufts of downy seed.

 

the midwest weather lately has been crazy/sexy/cool

(to borrow one from TLC...Lisa Lopez RIP...love you, girl).

 

about 30 minutes before bed a few nights ago there hung

a cloud of purest white and poof about 5 miles from my

house; hanging o'er fayetteville.

has anyone seen War of the Worlds, or Independence Day?

this hanging firmament over fayetteville had all of the ear-marks

of an alien invasion.  lightning non-stop for 30 minutes, and that's

just what i saw.  this flashing boil of atmosphere made no sound.

just lights and lightening over and over.  the wind must have been

howling @ 20 knots but that cloud remained motionless...

 

simply incredible to witness.

 

i hope everyone that has had a house pulled from out

thier feet by weather like the midwest can deliver is

safe and secure and alive.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006 

well, here we go.

my thoughts