I understand it in due time my life is going to slide behind
the curtain of uncertainty the pearly gates to the fire,
cuz I'm a rambling man, a gambling man
so when the shit hits the fan my plan is to stand as a man,
my canvas is bland painted the perfect picture
but my tears made the paint run; I need an eraser but shit ain't one,
the critics looking at the picture saying it feels dark
but you critickin my art baby is still art
I know some people that respect me for me
I know some people that neglect me for me
And so it pans out so now when I pass
and the last of my breath has been breathed,
at ease...
Momma don't cry for me I'm watching over you
I'm still doing the same thing your son is opposed to do,
so if you love me love me and everything is fine
we're gonna reunite in the sky
in due time

discouraged i ler my life erupt
became corrupt... but ive had enough
tired of quittin too soon and giving up
people trying to help me and me tellin them i dont give a fuck
time to make a change time to bounce back
time to change my ways so i can get my life back
time to switch the attitude and learn how to act
and ignore the things that set me off and learn how to react

In my life ive had some let downs
to some i was a let down
early on i learned to properly wear a frown
never show emotion thats how you get let down
its time now for a change gotta get back on my grind
stop letting small things fuck with my mind
show you how im top of the line
i have to step up be man and take of MINE

Tryna make a comeback, this is the first step
gotta give to get respect
gotta forgive to overcome regret
high expectations are always gonna get
you down and let you down, how much can you expect?
everytime i trust someone i get fucked no latex
Backstabbed thru the chest.. tears runnin down my neck
but it wont happen again.. im rebounding.. Yes

Lost my path let my head get the best of me
went thru love couldnt have thought any less of me
my own shadow wont even stand next to me
but god comtinues to keep blessing me
caught the rebounds.. went for the layup
buried all the past grudges with my enemies i made up
reasy to take a step in the right direction
corrected the things i refused to think needed correcting
im in the hotseat my life needed directing
rhabilitated my life.. now good things im expecting

The good.. thats what i wanted but i expected the worst
thats the only way i prepared myseld to get hurt
always been told on my life there was a curse
wishing it were easy to just put my life in reverse
but god kept me bouncing ahead with no time to rehearse
i bounced back got my life back like it was reimbursed
me and my past? well we dispersed
no time to look back im ahead of the future.. im going in head first

You know that time changes
Rips right through all our pages
And there aint no going backWe've run through all these stages
Sent here from many places
And I'm still coming backI've watched you stand
Oh I've watched you fall
It aint changed nothing at all
But if I'm still your man
And we've been through it all
To me that's beautifulAnd when the tide changes
You can see me fall
They'll just go masquerade themselves
And never bleed for you at allBut if you lift your arms up now
Cause the lion's off your back
Your blood is pumping so damn fast
Now imma bring you backWell I've watched you stand
No I've watched you fall
Well it changed nothing at all
But if I'm still your man
And we've been through it all
To me that's beautifulWhen them bullies gone
And the wine goes through
And all those hungry ladies
Have slept all their life about you
When you're empty and so tired
You can't seem to find your mind
Well the sun is on your back my friend now
Time to take what's mineWell I've watched you stand
Oh I've watched you fall
Well it changed nothing at all
But if I'm still your man
And we've been through it all
To me that's beautifulBut if you lift your arms up now
Cause the lions off your back
Your blood is pumping so damn fast
Now time to bring it backWell I've watched you stand
Oh I've watched you fall
Well it changed nothing at all
But if I'm still your man
And we've been through it all
To me that's beautifulBeautiful, beautiful
Yeah to me
Yeah
That's beautiful

theres no use
cuz my muse
has refused
to induce
all the truths
that ive used
in the past
to relax
and its sad
cuz i act
as if nothing, is bad
but it is
cuz i miss
all her smiles and her kiss
which would lead me to bliss
but im stuck now with this
in some pits and thats it
she is gone
homeboy won
now im not number one
and its hell
cant you tell
that im missing her smell
her touch and the way she made everything well
its no more
i went pooor
didnt care if id score
fuckda alcohol and money, i wanted her more

so I make a big decision. one unlike any before. everythin g I know is irrelevant. but this feeling is fresh. addicting. I want to everything posible to mae this feeling keep coming. yet I am so lost in this new world. this is way over my head... help! but it doesn't come. slowly this begins to turn to fantasy. now the ecstacy turns to emptiness.. my dreams begin to fade... so quick. I will never forget this high.. yet its pushing me..

so I make a big decision. one unlike any before. everythin g I know is irrelevant. but this feeling is fresh. addicting. I want to everything posible to mae this feeling keep coming. yet I am so lost in this new world. this is way over my head... help! but it doesn't come. slowly this begins to turn to fantasy. now the ecstacy turns to emptiness.. my dreams begin to fade... so quick. I will never forget this high.. yet its pushing me..

so the new has begun... hopefully it will be better than 08... I don't think I've ever been more anxious to kill off a year, but 08 definitely took the cake... s here's my resolution... drink even less.. live more, run more than ever before..and after four years... finally go back to school... I plan a being a better person than I have been up to this point.. I plan to take full advantage of every day of life that I am given.. this includes that significant other.. I plan on making every effort to make every one of your waking days the best it could be.. any way folks.. wish me luck if you're reading.. out. semper fi and all that motto shit..

I Think I'm In Love With You

I don't know what to say
Or even what to do
All I no is that
I think I'm in love with you
Every time I hold you close
Or put your hand in mine
I feel like just maybe
I won't let go this time
I know that you don't see it
But it's a feeling all so new
I don't know what's happening
But I think I'm in love with you
I want to tell you how I feel
To let you no It's true
That maybe just maybe
I'm in love with you
This may sound crazy I know
But I needed to let it out
Because there is something there
I know without a doubt
And I think you realize my feelings but
I think I'm in love with you

The world has turned and left me here Just where I was before you appeared. And in your place an empty space Has filled the void behind my face. I just made love with your sweet memory, One thousand times in my head. You said you loved it more than ever, You said. You remain, turned away. Turning further everyday. I talked for hours to your wallet photograph And you just listened. You laughed enchanted by my intellect Or maybe you didn't. The world has turned and left me here (Do you believe what I sing now?) Just where I was before you appeared. (Do you believe what I say now?) And in your place an empty space (Do you believe....) Has filled the void behind my face. (....eeeve?) Do you believe what I say now? Do you believe...eeeve?