So I’ve just returned from my baby-less vacation. Just me and the hippie farmer infiltrating Wyatt Earp territory and discovering the real bat cave...Carlsbad Caverns. Turns out not all those from Tombstone see Wyatt Earp and his familia as saviours...many see them as the first "PIGS" of our society. Friend or foe, we shall never truly know. Ah, yes..and the bat cave....deep, deep into the earth, with stalactites, stalagmites, rocks, and bat poop ready to fall on me at any given time and the most danger I faced was the possibilty of climbing 2 plus miles back to the surface because the elevator was broken. Alas, after waiting about 1/2 hour the problem was fixed and I once again felt the sun shining on my face. Sounds like a bunch of craziness, no?? Oh but the best part is yet to come...All of this excitement was nothing compared to traveling in our "new" (see "recently purchased" in dictionary for proper definition) 1986 Isuzu P’up. Why would we buy this you say?? Ah Daniel-son..it is a earth lovin vehicle!! Veggie oil only baby. Take that gas man!!! Even more exciting was taking Route 9 back to Texas. For all you with a lack of knowledge of Route 9, let me explain....it runs on the southern border of New Mexico with barely anything to see except one or two litlle shanties, some cactus and a whole lotta border patrol and minutemen. Those crazy minutemen! Living in huge tents and sitting on hills with their binoculars, helping to keep those gosh darn Mexicans out of our beautiful US of A. What more can I say...

Sooo.....my life right now consists of waiting for a few free moments of time when the little guy is not hungry, bored or upset, which usually means he is crying. Luckily for him he is so damn cute, I forgive him for his crankiness. Ha!

My life is SOOOO different now especially being down here in west TX. I never thought I'd be a mother, nevermind a mother living in TX. It's a wonderful, amazing experience having a baby, but it is really hard.

I do miss my old life. Mostly the freedom. If I hadn't gotten pregnant, I'd still be back in my apt., probably chattin with Kara or yelling at Aiden to stop peeing on something. Ah, who knows.....Then again, I was kind of floundering......

But as much as I may boo hoo about my life now, when I get all sad and stressed, all I usually have to do is look at Wyatt. I've never loved anyone or anything so intensely before. It's a strange new feeling, but a great one.

Well enough rambling for now.......

So my life has smacked me in the face and said now is the time....Grow up now and fast! Not only am I moving to a state that I never would have thought I'd ever live in, but I am also going to be a mom! It's so crazy and sometimes I think it's all a dream. I'm not even supposed to be able to get pregnant for god's sake! Well, I guess I proved all those doctors wrong!! Heh, heh....  But seriously, its just so unbelievable sometimes. I always thought that if I ever even got married, that I'd be in my forties or something, struggling to try to have a child. But lo and behold....life threw me a big suprise. I was scared and freaked out at first but am really happy about it now, even though I do still have bouts of doubt. But I have this feeling in my gut that everything will turn out alright. All these happy, pregnancy hormones are making me a positive person! Strange, I know.....

Ok, I definitely have too much fun hanging out with work people. You guys are a bad influence!!!! They twisted my arm, I swear! Yeah, right......

Ugh....too much Chinese food and those weird Asian drinks in glasses with dragons on them.

That's it....rootbeer only from now on.....