What is love really? Is it a bond that travels across the centuries, as did the Count from Transylvania, or some comfort zone created from years of living with another person. How many people feel they have experienced "true" love as opposed to an obsessive lust that dominates every waking moment. It is difficult sometimes, to tell the difference.

Love and relationships, do not always go hand in hand. A marriage of convenience, or a love destroyed by poverty are the stuff of film scripts written and rewritten, never tired of by a empathetic public. Some of us love too much, while others carry a heart made of stone.

A culture that allows us to love one another without seeing it as a sign of weakness, this is something we have not yet achieved. Yet this ability to love is what gives us perfection as human beings, blesses us in our lives with happiness and satisfaction. Someone dying does not think "I'm happy because I've got a Lexus in the driveway" but "I'm happy because I am loved". When you think about it, it is love that we seek to keep us from being lonely.

Take a look at people walking by on the street and imagine each one motivated by finding that soul mate, the other half that makes them feel complete. A lot of people spend their whole lives looking for that "one", often mistaking what they think is love, for a biochemical reaction. At times the search itself becomes more important than anything else in peoples lives, they become blind to the love that is already there, in the love of their children. It is the lack of love in our lives that makes us impoverished, as any child who has been made a ward of the state will tell us.

Love, really?

brokenmuzes

Something to amuse myself. Seriously, for all the art businessmen bastards and purveyors of rhetoric who destroy the lives and work of real artists.

It was Zulu Records 25th anniversary at skateshop Anti-Social, Dec. 16, 2006.
I went with Danice who used to play violin for UJ3RK5, I wanted to stay for the whole set, but she told me she was going outside to get a cab, so I went outside and couldn't find her and thought she left so I spent the next 2 hours waiting for buses going to the Media Club where we were supposed to go and then to get home. I hate that, because I wanted to stay with the pink mountain tops. films of doreengrey

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PART 1 - bovary's children, the unwanted, or the life and death of dreams

(see videos at FILMS OF DOREEN GREY)

One of my friends was questioning my title. He wondered if it was appropriate. Part 1 is a film about punk/art rock in Vancouver, what does it matter what it is called.
I call it what ever I want to call it. I don't have to have an explanation but ....

bovary's children - WORK IN PROGRESS

Madame Bovary is a novel based on a true story, written by a not too obscure writer named Gustave Flaubert. To understand my reference, it would help to read the book to get the point about materialistic useless lives. MB was selfish to the point of being destructive to everyone around her, not unlike many people now. Her child ended up an orphan, working in a factory at the age of 8. My point, is that there is a state of selfishness that we live in, as a society, to be unable to recognize the value of our culture, our ability to change water (the brain) into wine (sustenance for the soul). These works are like our children, created by us, then devalued and put on the open market.

Another reference is more personal, my own experience of abuse as a child, knowing you are unloved but controlled and possessed anyway. "the unwanted" speaks to alienation, the feeling that our work is unwanted.

Genesis of Part 1
People hated punk rock, you could never find a venue in the early days, only the ugliest booze cans in the worst areas. The cops would raid the practice spaces and have the landlords shut them down. Art/Punk rock was a political movement bringing unwanted issues to public attention, prisons, radiation poisoning from nuclear energy, racism, environment. In the middle of all that there was the desire to make a living by making music.


bc pt1 is just the beginning, a few rough cuts of video I did between 1978 - 1983. It wasn't easy work, video equipment weighed a lot, I usually ended up moving most of it myself. I knew next to nothing about sound recording. No one paid me to do this work, I did it because I saw a whole culture of music happening like it had happened in the 60's and making films then next to impossible because access to equipment was monopolized by the men. How women artists were treated by male etc. counterparts is the topic of another film.

Access to the tools of production did not get much better in the late 70's and 80's, it was still controlled by the patriarchal "alternative" art establishment groups and their self created hierarchy. I was lucky and fell in with a political and social justice media group called Metro Media. MM was the production arm of a non-profit society called the Vancouver Community Television Association which advocated, community television.

In this edit of bc part 1, the first band is the Subhumans, with Jerry Useless on Bass, Mike Normoyl on Guitar, Jim Imijawa (aka Jimwit) and Wimpy (Brian Goble); the Police, before they got famous; an interview with Active Dog (Terry Bowes guitar, Jerome Wong guitar, Robert Bruce drums, Ross Carpenter bass, Bill Sherk writer/singer; UJ3RK5 with Rodney Graham(artist), Jeff Wall(artist), Denise McCleod(violinist), David Wisdom(CBC radioshow host), Ian Wallace(artist), Kitty (?), Colin Griffiths and some other guy who turned out to be criminally insane; Active Dog at the Windmill; interview with Rachel Sweet; Young Canadians(Ktels) with Art Bergman, Jim Bescott(rip), Barry Taylor on drums with I Braineater painting in the background; AKA with Dense Milt, Alex Varty;

A good description of the Windmill Club is punkhistorycanada I recommend you check out Peter (the great)'s videos, maybe he's added my footage of the K-Tels "Hullaballo Girls" that he edited, he also has a great digital video mix of HG by Jim Bescott.

I have at least 50 (more) hours of music to transfer from 3/4 to digital. It seems to have taken a long time to get it transferred, WAKE UP YOU STUPID BASTARDS OR IT WILL DISSAPPEAR. One of my friends told me I have a whingy personality and that takes away from my good points....

I would like to thank the following for giving me support, encouragement, advice, and or technical expertise to get the project this far in my trademark incomplete and chaotic way: Dermot Foley, Don Betts, Dennis Mills, David Wisdom, Ron Obvious, Jim Bescott(rip), Marcus Rogers, Michael Turner, Chris Huston, Denise Macleod, Scott Fulmer, Ross Carpenter, Pete Lipski, Jim Cummings, Heather Haley, Rodney Graham, Ross Carpenter, Gary Cramer, John Mackie, Gary Bourgeois, Colin Preston, Barry Taylor,

see also: spirituslocii
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PART 3 - FIRE IN THE BELLY - Valentine's Day March For Missing Women. This was a painful but liberating piece. The year I was seven contains keys and answers to much of my past and present life, the ability or awareness of empathy, a plea or calling out to nature for nurture during times of extreme hardship, learning how to resign to fate without anger.

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melrose ave is a work
that represents
my experience
/ aesthetic
the ugly reality
that constantly surrounds
us. it also
represents the beauty
and magic of symbolism
and meaning of
reflections from the
material world

perceived through
a darkened glass

the fleur de lis
super imposed
on a white

chariot
the curve
of this hidden cross,
coinciding with
a modern day wheel,

the red body of
helpless man, driven
and dragged by lust
and love, the exposed

heart, the olympics hat
worn by the canadians
and the red maple leaf flag,
the white slash
of paint across the
frozen mouth and
eyes representing

the inability to see
or speak, the symbol
of sex as a commodity
and the separation
of heart
from an act of love

blow blow thou winters wynd
thou art not so unkind
as man's ingratitude as man's ingratitude
thy tooth is not so keen
because thou art not seen
although thy breath be rude
although thy breath be rude

freeze freeze thou bitter sky
thou does not bite so high
as benefits forgot as benefit forgot
though thou the waters weap
thy tooth is not so sharp
as friends remembered not
as friends remembered not

Robin Williamson

ok so this is just the beginning, click on the following....

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bios by bill bissett

bill bissett: painter, poet
originalee from lunaria now erthling thru halifax nueva scotia bin heer 300 yeers lunarian time sound poet writr vokalist n paintr based mostlee in toronto goez 2 vancouvr a lot 4 reedings n shows n th pacifik northwest th centralians areas or aria nyc thru out ont estern see bord n europe nu book narrative enigma n northern wild roses bothr from talonsbooks n nu seedeez rumours uv hurrican with composr bill roberts n deth interrupts th dansing with pete dako composr both from red deer press wanting all wayze 2 xpllor sound n image storee n non narrativ in writing n painting

bill roberts: Original Music/Composer
brillyant composr living now in london ontario composd all th mewsik 4 rumours uv hurricane 2 whom bill bissett wrote text lyriks ovr a three yeer collaboraysyun in th niagara regyun ontario his composisyuns ar manee facitid gemini in theyr reech moovment xpressyun he is now working uv kours on nu work wch has a startling melodik n disturbing qualitee rumours uv hurricane cd is produsd n releesd undr th red deer press bannr

lenore herb: filmmaker
also not from ths erth originalee tho th sources uv ths partikular birthing ar 4evr obscurd in mysteree her film work video n dvd work her editing n archival preserving ar both xtraordinaree n mirakulous her vizual composing is amayzing n stirs th senses shes bin working as well 4 a long time on erth as a poetree n visual art organizr n produsrn writr n was in th band sonik horses

th seleksyun th wizard uv time bill roberts mewsik bill bissetts words is th sound track 4 lenore herbs gorgyus vizual pome th wizard uv time with bill bissetts paintings she has creatid thru magik photographee fluid n brillyant editing an amayzing n sew mooving journee 4 th eye n heart

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