My alarm clock didn't go off this morning. I awoke to the sound of my text messaging, oh how I love technology, asking me where my roommate was. Needless to say I didn't know where my roommate was and at that moment I didn't really care to know. I know what you are thinking, "Why can't I have mornings like that?" To tell you the truth it really didn't bother me all that much, although I did miss the class that I technically can't miss.

 My thoughts begin to wander, onto something a little more promising. I think that some of our finest moments shine through when we spend time with the people that we are most real with.  You may be asking yourself what it is to be real, I mean yeah there is living, breathing, eating. There is also opening up who you are, with all of your downfalls, without fear of rejection. 

 I find that there are moments when I can be real but the only time that I feel that I can be completely real is when I am with my best friend Brenna. Why is there such a fear to be who I am, what makes me, me? Rejection, the fear that I know that we are such conditional creatures. A good man once said,

"I would rather live on the verge of falling and let my security be in the all-sufficiency of the grace of God than to live in some kind of pietistic illusion of moral excellence- not that I don't want to be morally excellent, but my faith isn't in the idea that I'm more moral than anybody else. My faith is in the idea that God and His love are greater than whatever sins any of us commit."

So is it so bad to think that we are ok just as we are? I mean there is always something in our lives that we feel needs improvement, but just as we are is that ok? I think so. Why can't I portray that to others as well, that they are fine just the way that they are, and that I will love them that way? Rich also once said,

"I will be my brother's keeper. Not the one who judges him. I won't despise him for his weakness. I won't regard him for his strength. I won't take away his freedom. I will help him learn to stand."

I know that I have that kind of support from my friends, am I that for them? Maybe that is really what we need, not just for ourselves to be real but to be love in a sense that people know that it is ok to be just who they are. So now I must step into the world and not be scared to be real, or who I  really am, because I know that there are people in this world who support me and that God and his love are greater than whatever sins that any of us commit, and I hope to be that support for those around me.

They always tell you to keep your eye on the ball right? Well whoever they are anyways, I don't think that the ball is the main focus. You see there are so many other things that you could focus on, am I in the right stance, is my swing going to be enough, what has this guy been throwing anyways? The main focus isn't about the ball at all. It isn't about the swing either or the stance. The focus is about you. All of those different factors come together and all depend on, well, you. Just like any other event or day in your life, it all depends on you. Am I going to swing, will I leave on time to make it to work. These are all dependent on you. You make the choices, will they always be right? No, just like if you keep your eye on the ball it may not work everytime. Sometimes the pitch may be too fast, or a change up, but we do our best to make the decisions that  we feel are fitting or right. Just know that everyone makes decisions that don't always turn out the way they worked them out in their heads, but we keep making them, don't let one bad decision slow you down. You have the ability to change anything just by making one choice.