Today, some one came up to me and complained about their life, want to know what... I had to explain to them why they should not go emo, or kill themselves... and I guess I hope anyone thinking of that can also read this...

Life is like a roller coaster, their will be ups and downs, but you got to go down every now and then, it cant be all ups or what type of roller coaster is that?

I had a horrible past on this roller coaster... I saw nothing but downs, with very little ups...

I use to goto a HORRIBLE school, the principal was a sexist, belived all girls over guys, and belived that girls didn't lie, he even said that flat out in my face, and I even had my father come in to talk to him about a suspension, and when my dad went to another room, before the principal followed him, he said to a teacher "CAN YOU BELIVE IT, HIS FATHER IS DEFENDING HIM!" he was rude as hell... and belived the first word... so I always gotr suspended...

My father use to be a complete asshole, I've watched him do really stupid things, he use to be over critical, and would practically beat the shit out of you if you did something he didn't like, his face would always be red as a bull, and veins popping out of his neck, not anymore though... but don't get me wrong, he's still an asshole at times...

And I use to get bullied by EVERYONE.... it wasn't the greatest life...
I didn't really have many friends till high school... and nothing really changed till I entered gr 10, I didn't get bullied as much, and theirfore didnt get susspended for maybe self defence, or swaring cause I was pissed, I had a much better attitude toward life... but my attitude to life still sucked for about the first half the year, was failing 3 or 4 subjects maybe, and ended up by the end of the year, kicking in my rear, and passing all but 1 class...

Their was times where I let go, and almost fell off the roller coaster that is life, but barely managed to stay on...

And now I know to always hold on through ups and downs, as their will always be more ups... They do come, so life doesn't suck, remember, lifes a roller coaster..

And for others with parents that tell you you will never go any where, or that you were a mistake, then think to yourself, they don't control your life, now don't get me wrong, they do keep a roof over your head for most people, so helping them with small things every now and then should be their, but they dont control your life, remember that...

They cannot tell you that your a going to fail at life, you decide by how much effort you put into life... for any one with troubles... I hope this can help in anyway... I know theirs people with a worse life then me, and honestly, read this, and remember that lifes a roller coaster... and this is not a rant of how my life sucks, it's to help others from commiting suicide about stupid shit...

   And turning around and going back would be so lonely. I'd cut myself off from reality, and hook into the false sense of reality that is gaming. That or, emo.

Can anyone figure this out? Can anyone guess whats wrong? I don't know.



Edit: july 16 - 1:40am, I think I have chosen a direction, I'm moving forward. Where it leads, I guess I will find out soon. Where it ends, I hope it doesn't end for a while if it leads to where I hope.

Edit: I sound stupid in here, but whatcha gunna do, Im stupid, so what...