Now I know what your thinking.
This Matt Stonich is now 21, soon to be 22, and doesn't have a career yet, not even close to finishing college yet. He only has like 8 credits under his belt.

But I asure you good folks that I am most certainly still on my way. I may have made some crazy decisions coming out of high school, but that doesn't mean I've settled for being lazy for the rest of my life. No.

I am infact coming back home soon, and gonna get my stuff in gear for fall semester at HCC. There I will spend the next two years working to get my associates degree in network developing, and yes, I'm then gonna shoot for a networking job for the new steel plant in 2010.

I'm pretty sure by the time class reunion meets, your very own Matt Stonich will be well off and set in his career.

I've done alot of stuff since high school ya know. I've really put myself together along the way. I don't regret anything I've done.
And while I may still have one last thing to see to here in the cities, I will be back home soon, happy or broken hearted.

So yeah, hope to hear from you guys soon. There will be many changes when I get back. Don't take me lightly.

Your friend,
-Matt (Flash) Stonich

Well I've decided to just forget doing the regular stuff  and doing what came to mind today, and let me tell you it's feeling awesome!

First, it was the second day of my summer vacation, and I started it off by giving most awesome dudet Laura a ride to school for her finals. Then I sold my math book for some mucho cash ( and her psyche book for her while she was doing her final). It was awesome in a wierd way, cause it was a long line, but I talked to the folks in line for a long time and played solitaire on my brand new phone, the T-Mobile Shadow. So I kinda had fun.

Afterwards, dudet and I mosied on over to an Super America and got uber sweet gas station coffee and gas station breakfast food, with !RULE! gas station donuts. Twisted 'eh!

(Yes, those are my new words for cool. !RULE! , not rule, you must have the exclamation points before and after the word with all caps, and twisted. You may use if you like, courteous of Stonich. That's right I've said my actual last name on the internet. Whatcha gonna do about it?! Wow this is a long side note.)

Breakfast was great cause we just hung out in my car at the gas station and listen to music and stuff. Would have been pretty
!RULE! to hang out with her more, but she was tired and had to nap before going to work.

I dropped her off and went over to the game room at college, where the boys were coincidently planning up an awesome trip to go get soft air guns and pellets. Now I've never held, much less shot an air gun, so this was a most uberous idea to do with my new book money I had.

I got this really sweet pistol, forgot what it was called but I know the initials were D and E so I call it a DE. It's silver with black detail and so rad to shoot. The guy at the gun counter was even good enough to show me how to load, cock, and pop the clip out. Radtastulic!

(Yes, that one too. Radtastulic. rad-tas-chu-lick.)
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So off we go out to the backwoods of my college to shoot soft air guns. Awesome stuff, until Bakhari broke a tree branch that fell on my head. Ouch. Then I had a something like a black out, except it was white and I could feel my body still, but couldn't hear or see anything. Strange.

We get back, and have our selves a fantastic time at the east campus playing Age of Empires ll expansion. Very twisted I must say.

Before work I decided to go and get some subway to see if it will help me feel better about going to work tonight. I did sort of, but I took a nap while waiting in the parking lot.

Now here my most !RULE! friends is where we come to the quandry. If I work evenings and this blog is posted during the evening, how can I be typing this and be at work at the same time? Simple. I F'ING SKIPPED WORK TODAY!

Now I know what your thinking, "Stonich, that's really unbecoming of you to do. I hope you have a very good reason for not working today."
And the truth is I realized that I've been wanting a different temporary summer job for so long but haven't really been proactive about it eversince I decided to move back up. So I said to my most uberous self, " Most uberous self, why do I keep forgetting to go try and apply at Caribou Coffee again? I don't know, but I do know that I'm not gonna putz at this job and put it off for much longer, so finally I went and applied, and I talked to the people at the location I applied for. Tomorrow I'm calling the store manager to get my job.

A little shpeel of statements I wrote down in Algebra as my mind began to wonder. I think it resembles a little bit of a poem, but I'll let you decide:

Our meaning isn't relevent to be aware of.
Our awareness belongs within the scope of this universe.
To know meaning of us is learning meaning beyond us.
We belong in this universe, because it is infinite.
Our learning and understanding is infinite.
There is no boundry beyond infinite.
It keeps going.
There is no boundry to what we learn.
We keep learning.
To know beyond this universe and us is impossible.
Because our universe and our learning is infinite.
So there is no understanding beyond infinite.
There is only endless learning of the infinite itself, us and the universe.
Why we are here isn't relevent.
We are here learning endlessly to infinite.

As you know, your dear friend Stony has spent much time living in the cities and going to school there. It was planned that he would finish his degree there, and perhaps get his first professional job there aswell.

Well I must let you all know, that this summer I don't plan on taking any summer courses.

It was a stressful descision with alot of factors in mind, but I've decided to finish the summer out here in the cities. Before fall semester begins at HCC in Hibbing, I will be back living at home in peaceful Side Lake, Minnesota.

I discussed much with my father, and Rex and Tina( the family I'm living with at the moment ) this morning, and it was a huge desire to stay in the cities, but also huge for getting my degree and getting a great start. Thats why I've planned to finish the summer out. I want to be able to enjoy the cicites for as long as I can be fore i have to really work for my future back at home.

I've taken alot of people and things into consideration, and I feel at a loss over alot of stuff that I would leave behind. Believe me, I didn't forget anything or anyone. It was a very heavy desicion, but I remember that this is for me, my present and future, not for anyone else.

So yeah, the king of spades will return to his deck of cards so to speak.

If you have any comments, questions, or conserns, please do not post them as a blog comment here. Send them in a private message. I know there alot of people that will be happy, sad, and upset over this and I don't want any fusses so yeah, private message please, whether it's good or bad. NO BLOG COMMENTS FOR THIS BLOG!!!!

I REPEAT! NO BLOG COMMENTS FOR THIS BLOG> SEND A PRIVATE MESSAGE!!!

Your caring friend, Matt E Stony (Flash)

In high school, times can feel like you have it all in control, especially after graduation. Those are the times when it's a saturday night and you have nothing planned, you can get a hold atleast one of your buddies and then BAM, instant gathering of festivities and fun. You arrive at the venue, and a couple of your buddies are doing something outrageous in the next room, while others are playing cards or having a conversation. Or maybe perhaps some are playing with some cool features on their brand new laptops. Whatever the case, things are happening, and you feel at home to enjoy yourself with the fellow posse. Somebody could up and suggest to go out to somewhere and eat or go bowling, maybe a movie. Fun things will happen, and your right there with the moment, taking in every second of it's glory. Some people can't put a value on this kinda hangout, especially if money is no object and options are limitless.

Put this in a picture perspective for a moment. Times like these spawn drama that keep life interesting as it goes along. Some people in their passing days look back and cling to the memory of it so tightly. Yes, the value of these times seem priceless when you look back on them long after they happen. For some of us, those times won't end. For others who make descisions that take them away from it all, it can make starting over very hard.

Now think of starting in a new place. No family near by. None of your friends anywhere within miles. No rumors of you circulating. Not even any notice from the environment around you. A stranger to a new home away from home. Many get scared right away, cause the familiar is gone. You stay secluded for awhile until your new home starts to feel comfortable to you, and you do what it takes right away to make it comfortable for you. This transition from settling to new home is tough. You have to revert back to when you were a child. How did you first meet the people you new back home? By putting yourself out there in your regular routine and running into people one at a time. It can take perhaps a week, maybe a few years. Nonetheless, it happens. Settling in is tricky in itself cause there are many times you forget where you are and try getting a hold of an old friend, but then realize that your not there anymore, and that those fun times are at a stand still for you. You get a feeling in your chest that tightens up, kinda like searching for a breathe of air, except its a breathe of socializing that your looking for.

We as human being are phenominal social creatures, and to put yourself in a position of not having whats familiar to you feels like walking into cold water. You take alot of slow steps that overwhelm you each time you put your foot in the water. Over time the water will warm up, but it takes so long. You keep wishing that it would happen already, but it doesn't just yet. So now on a lonely saturday night when you have no plans, what do you do? What chances do you take to feed your need for socializing? Where do you go?

It's tricky, but we get through it and become comfortable once again. We discover things about ourselves that we didn't know before cause time was so fun. We develope, just as we did as children, but again and become more advanced in how we react to our surroundings. You could say that completing school is like growing up. After high school, we can choose to take what we've learned, gotten familiar with and stay where we are, or we can go to college, move away; use what we know to stay above water and then grow even more.

The experience of living in a new place and starting over is an amazing thing, and we all benefit more by taking in those new experiences, just as long as we are not afraid of taking those first steps into cold water, the unfamiliar. It can always be familiar once again.