My Choice

Here without you

As each day passes by,

It gets harder and harder,

To think of what could have been.

What happened in my past,

Effects my future.

And will have an impact on my life's decisions.

I can not change the past,

Although I have tried.

Helpless is how I feel

and I become it.

Eternity is a long time to wait,

Patience Is a virtue that can not be attained.

I can no longer sit

And wait for you.

As hard as it may be,

I must move on,

To something that,

Will let me live my life,

The way I want.

Your warm embrace as the sun chases the stars away. Staying awake with me all night just cause you don’t want the night to end, And our time be over. Have Faith enough to gaze into the depths of my soul through me eyes, and see what truly matters. Our time together is never enough. Hold me in your arms while everything else races by. Don’t let me stray and get swept away into the intensity of what surrounds me. Kiss me tenderly with sincerity of what you feel. Caress my hands with your thoughtfulness. Whisper words of purity into my ear. Sing melodies of love. Strengthen me with your thoughts of encouragement. Don’t let me fall, hold me tight, never let me go. Don’t break me, even though I feel you make me.. whole.. All this trust I put into someone that will do all these things and more. That will kill me slowly and not care. That will take my heart and rip it out of my chest. And then stomp whatever love I had in there. You have to love yourself first before you can ever love me.

My thoughts consume me as I begin to think of what could have been . what started out as a simple kiss ended in a disastrous bliss. Something so unexplainable that the human mind can not begin to comprehend “why” Sometimes the unknown is what describes a persons soul with out ever saying a word. We look at everything with such blindness. Words flowing out of your mouth as water pours from the sky on a rainy day. Yet they mean nothing. Losing its meaning with each blow to the ego. I have lost a part of me that can never be regained. Part of my being. The emptiness incinerates any hope of life, as others see it.

1. Well i loved you with all my heart and you dropped me for the first new thing that came along.. in fact i still love you to this day.. you were someone who helped me out so much i can never repay you.. i just wish things wouldn't have ended the way they did.. but you will always hold a special place in my heart.. even though what goes around comes around...

2. You are so wise and you are just great.. i dont know what i would do without you.. you have helped me through so much and its funny how something drastic had to happen before we got 250% closer.. but i have and will continue to enjoy your company.. You are you and i love you.. you are not a replacement to someone else.. but an improvement on all others that were before you..

3. You are soo freaking funny.. everytime we talk we laugh and i think thats what i enjoy most about you. i wish you didn't live so far away.. im glad that our friendship lasted longer than other relationships.. remember you better be nice to me i still have pics of you sleeping.. lmao i luv ya too....

4. Well i have known you since high school... at least we stuck through all this shit together.. even though at times we were being told otherwise... you have to potential to be the best person i know... but it seems like you don't take it for granted like you should.. i dunno.. i know that we have had our ups and downs but you are still one of my best friends.. its just harder to tell you things.. like how i feel and stuff.. anyways keep trying and you will succeed at everything.. i love you!!!! whether you know it or not..

5. you are the one person i never thought i would still be friends with.. cause i stole you from another... well things just sord of fell into place with you.. we were having hard times at the same time and we just hit it off.. don't ever change lil one.. you are one great person... love ya

6. i have known you since middle school and no one will ever compare to you.. one of my truest friends.. we can go months without talking and then all of the sudden start talking again and it would be like we never stopped.. its plain and simple i love you mucho..

7. you are my new shining star.. i havent met you yet but you seem to be a great person.. still  young in age but great no matter what.. i can't wait to see you..

8. you are a bold and strong person don't even change i have always told you reach for the stars and you will catch them... i love you with all my heart... no matter what anyone says..

9. i met you through a friend.. and you're freakin hott.. anyways great times with you homie... lol... and many more to come..

10. you were there to talk to when i needed someone the most thanks.....

11. sometimes i wish that you were still in my life but i think that you woulsn't ave let me ge to the places that i am right now.. but thanks for starting me on the right path.. i hope that you are doing well..

12.. you were the first person that i can actually say that i loved and you used me and you suck.. but im forgiving and i know that youre happy now and to me tats all that matters..

13. you were a crappy boyfriend and an even crappier friend!!!!!

14. you are so qwarky and funny i have a blast when im with you... you freakin raging alcoholic... lmao...

15. i met you at work and we hit it off from the beginning. too bad you live so freakin far away now.. but its cool cause we have this thing to keep in contact.. but you are great.. oh yeah and its funny that we had a crush on the same guy.. lol

16.you are related to me but you are more than family.. i just don't know how to put into words how important you are to me.. you are ALWAYS there. no matter what. and i sometimes dont know that i would do without you... i can always count on you.. i love you with all of my heart... eh eh ehhhhhh... lmao...

17.. you both look alike but i have raised you from babies you are like my own and i just want to let you know that i will always be there for you. i love you

18.. you are still very young and you don't talk yet but i love you i am already attached to you.. lol

19.i met you in high school and you brought me chicken noodle soup to school.. im sorry that i denied you.. but i had a crush on you.. but you are taken now but still.. thanks for being there for me in h.s....lol

20. you came on a lil bit too strong but youre still cool..