Okay...me and the paramedic went to KC the other day so he could get some new work boots from Paramedic Supplies Galore and Other Crap You Don't Really Need on Noland Road.  We went, he shopped, and I was bored.  It would have been so much better if we had gone to Nursing Crap You Don't Need.  After his selection was picked we left to go to some other stores along Noland, mainly Old Time Pottery and Hobby Lobby.  One guess as to picked those stores ha ha. 

Anyway...as we were driving down the aisle minding our own business in the parking lot to stop and go in, we crossed paths with not one, but two cars, hap-hazzardly darting cross-ways across the parking lot, right in front of us, not paying attention.  Jay, of course being the OCD "safety" trained ambulance driver that he his, basically yelled out to these other cars asking them WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!!  DON'T YOU KNOW HOW TO DRIVE??  Or whatever version of that you can imagine.  He was a lot nicer than I would have been.  Not really yelling AT them, but more just yelling out.  Our windows happend to be down since the weather was nice.  Well, we parked, and proceeded to get out to go to the store.  And I'll be damned if not one, but BOTH of these stupid assholes who were driving where they shouldn't have been in the parking lot to begin with.... took the time to turn around and pull up to us, asking us if WE had a problem with the way they were driving!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Both of these crazy people were trying to pick a fight in the parking lot just because.  At the same time.  All I was thinking is Great...I'm going to get shot and I'm not even in the hood...and I hope the stores have cameras in the parking lots so they can show it on the damn news tonight....  I mean really!  What the hell are people thinking when they do stupid shit like this??  Over something as ignorant as parking lot driving. 

They must take great offense to being called on them driving somewhere they shouldn't have been to begin with.  I can see why people get shot over tennis shoes and hamburgers if this is the mentality of today's world.  How sad this whole situation was and a bit scary for a few minutes.  I will say that for once, I was glad the paramedic was still in his work uniform, so he looked kinda cop-like, and one of the "perps" who looked all of 16 backed off and left.  But come on people!!  That's what rules are for.     

So...another year is just about gone.  '07 was a good year over-all.  Sure started with a bang for me, being stuck as a patient in the hospital...on the other side of things, which wasn't much fun.  But I wasn't a horrid patient like some I've taken care of.  I've learned a few things this year, regretted some things, and have been reminded that I am a strong woman who will continue to survive, no matter the size of the bump in the road.  As usual, people never cease to amaze me with what some are capable of, or how low they will stoop.  I just have to remember and remind myself to not go as low as they have, and I will admit to failing several times this year on that point.  But that is what part of New Year's is all about...new year and new beginning, forgiveness and moving on...again.

I've been busy thinking of the annual resolutions that I will make.  What pops to mind first is health related, since I have no desire to be on the other side of the healthcare fence again.  Second, is to remember that no matter how much I've changed, some people never will admit their mistakes or that they were out of line, and that I must not dwell on that.  Yes, it may still peeve me and depress me for the shortest milli-second, but in the end, I can still hold my head high and know have nothing to be sorry for, and definatley no apoligies to make to some.  Third, I must continue to work on having a positive attitude...and I know for those that know me who are reading this are thinking HA!! but that is something I'm trying to do.  Fourth, keep on with all my goals I have set for myself this year, especially school related, but also for my house and the millions of projects I wish to complete and/or involve my girls in.  Fifth, to show more patience when waiting in lines, from being at walmart behind the person in the express lane with 50 items too many, to being stuck in traffic...I hate slow moving lines, as it is such a waste of time.  Sixth and last, I resolve to stop and smell the roses, and take many mintues for myself to rest and rejuvinate. 

So, what is on your minds to work on in '08?  

Well...I found out this week that I have been named as one of the new charge nurses at work.  I am excited and glad about this.  I have been filling in off and on for the past three years when the powers to be have needed me too.  Now I have the opportunity to grow and learn more as a Nurse I believe, as well as help my fellow co-workers take care of our patients.  I will also look forward to being able to make the position "mine" and put my stamp on how med hall is, and take on some additional responsibility. A smidge more moola never hurts either.  I will miss the one on one contact that I had with "my" specific patients, but will never hesitate to help anyone who needs it....well, except for myself at times ha ha.  But that's a drawback to being a woman I think...we are programmed with the mindset of always putting others needs first.   I really do enjoy nursing very much.  I feel sad when I hear other nurses who are burnt out, as it is rarely the patients and usually administrative issues that lead them to feel that way.  But we all have those moments of hating our jobs.  I just hope I keep the faith that everyone has put in me for this position, and I never get set in too many of my ways or beliefs, or definately on any kind of high horse.  I realize I do not know a lot about many many things, but hope to learn something new everyday, as I usually do in the course of being an nurse.  And if I do mess up, someone out there better not be afraid to tell me.  Right then and there too.