The Nitzer Ebb show is approaching and we are eagerly practicing and anticipating this!  Zeph and I were watching youtube videos of their current tour... Industrial Complex Tour... and they are INCREDIBLE performers!  We are honored to share a stage with them.  This night is going to be quite an awesome line-up with them, us, and the lovely DJ Robin Roth.

This is a very important show for us!  We have an amazing opportunity to show what San Diego can bring in terms of our dark scene... We will do our absolute best to represent...  And we need your help!  Please come out to this show and buy your tickets early at casbahtickets.com  When you get there, they will ask who you're there to see.  Now I know that's a tough question but believe us, Nitzer Ebb is going to have their crowd and in terms of numbers... they are watching us!  Please show your support and help us show that we have a strong supportive community here by letting them know you want to see The Tragic Tantrum!  This would mean a lot to us.  We really do need to show what we can do for this show and it really depends on your support.  This is a very big deal for us!!!

You all have kept us alive and we are dependent on you now to keep us going and show the bookers of this show that we can bring a crowd!

Thank you all and a very lovely Holiday full of Tantrums and Bites ^^
Yours~
zOe

I am sitting in my studio with piles of TTC shirts around me.  Some of them I am modifying by adding dental floss.  When I was hitchhiking dental floss was a staple.  It's thicker and stronger then regular thread and it looks great as stitching on shirts.  It takes probably way too long to do and is not really practical but I do it.

So is the story of my life. Impracticality, creativity, and doing things that make no sense but for the art of it. 

There are lyrics strewn across the desktop of music we've been working on and I am still surprised to see that they are typed.  ME, who hates computers and typing and would rather a beautiful little leather bound notebook to scribble incoherent thoughts in to be pieced together later for a song, has taken up to typing them.  Even this blog is on the computer.

It may seem silly to have pride in something like this but I am very traditional.  I like my slow impractical way of having messy notebooks stashed under beds and in drawers.  I like hand stitching floss onto shirts even if it takes an hour per shirt because I am a slow stitcher with clumsy hands.  I like just jumping into song with out any kind of "warming up" or pre-thought.  And I like to feel things out on impulse rather then analysis.  I am a feeler, not a thinker.  A doer, not a planner.

But this project of ours has forced me to grow.  I maintain some of my traditional habits, but I have learned computer programs and how to upload pictures on the web.  I am now looking at time lines, to do lists and press kits.  In order to grow my voice I have learned the importance of warming up and a regular practice of vocal exercises.  And this is not natural for me.  But it feels so good.  It feels right to take responsibility for my art.  Otherwise I would just be another flailing artist with tons of potential but no destination.

I am grateful to my partner who thinks and acts very differently from me.  Zeph is an analyzer and critic.  Sometimes it drives me mad and has been the cause of a few disputes between us.  But in the end I am growing.

There is a box each of us places ourselves in.  It defines us.  The box tells us what type of person we are, the clothes we wear, the food we like, the music we're into, extrovert/introvert, type A or B etc.  I am used to thinking outside of the box, but as for my own personal box... well it's rather comfortable in here.   But it will suffocate me and our project.  I can see that growth does not happen the rest of one's life if they don't want it too.  I have met many people who have chosen to stop growing because they are comfortable with where they are at and don't feel the need.  That is fine.  But with a project like this it HAS to grow, or it will shrivel.

As of October 1st, 2009 the Tragic Tantrum Cabaret will have a manager.   Not just any manager either, but our beloved Robin Roth.  This is new, exciting and a little scary.  We, who have managed everything up to this point will be handing over the role.  I am grateful that we have found someone that loves and respects our project the way she does.  It may seem exaggerated to an outsider, but it really is like having a baby and then letting someone else take over and parent it for the first time.  We have incredible trust in Robin and know that this is the right choice.  It is part of our growth. 

My traditional way of doing things has gotten me far.  And I will always maintain that part of me.  But I am expanding my box.  My limits are being pushed further and further out to make room for the dream.  There really is so much in store for us this year.  And it's time. 

I am frantically, eagerly, ecstatically preparing for Devil's Night Ball.  We have a meeting every night this week with someone concerning the Ball.  We have music that we are finishing, and costumes to plan.  (Sidenote; anyone know how to extend dreads?)

Oh and yes, we are still recording.  To all of you who donated, your money is not lost, it is in the works.  This process is long and takes a lot of work the average person does not see.

For now I am finishing up my coffee and getting ready to go to work.  The money job, not the TTC job.  But at work these days my mind is only on one thing.  I can not wait to not have to work a "muggle" job anymore.  I can not wait to get out on the road with our music.  I can not wait to get this CD done and I can't wait to announce to the world the details about the Ball.  And I know it's all in due time.

Zeph and I are heading over to Chrononaut this Friday at Queen Bee's.  The event is a Steampunk event hosted by friends of ours who are true artists with a vision for San Diego's Steampunk subculture.  Please join us in supporting this event.  It is going to be fun!  Throwing events is A LOT of work and especially when it's something new and different and you as the artist are taking a risk.  It is well worth it though and we hope to see you there.  If not, we'll catch you at the Ball!

Ciao~
z0e

We have been performing for two years now and love every aspect of it.  So it pains us to think that we will be taking a break from the stage until October!  But our album needs to get recorded and we have some music in serious need of writing.

We have not had a break from the stage since we've started this project and are very excited to explore some new territory with our music.  Please come to our last show and support us.  We are going to miss you greatly but can not wait to come back with some new tunes and our first album for all of you!

Please let your friends know this will be their last chance to see TTC for a while.  RSVP by clicking below!

Love and TaNTrUmS~

z0e, Zeph and the TTC

WE WANT YOU TO COME OUT AND PLAY... at Ruby's Diner in the Mission Valley Mall SATURDAY APRIL 25TH  at 2:00 PM!!!

DRESS UP IN YOUR BEST DARK CABARET ATTIRE AND JOIN US AS WE TAKE OVER RUBY'S! 

We'll be discussing plans for the future of our new all age venue Carnival Noir and how YOU can get involved and HELP OUR DARK CABARET SCENE IN SAN DIEGO!  Prizes given out to best dressed on Saturday :) 

Bring all your friends and an appetite as we munch on some yummy diner food and bring you all up to speed on our plans for the Street Team.  Also... bring your ideas!  We want to now what you want to do... where you want to go... how you want to help!

See you soon Dearest Dark friends ^^

~z0e, Zeph and the TTC~

Mark your calendars everyone for MAY 16th for our very first official night of residency at CARNIVAL NOIR!  The April show has been cancelled due to unforeseen events.  But starting in MAY Carnival Noir will be EVERY THIRD SATURDAY.

We are also going to start up a street team. But this STREET TEAM will be UNLIKE ANY OTHER.  We will dress up and raid the city in Dark Cabaret attire!  We will go to events together, movies, dinner.  The whole idea is to HAVE FUN as a group!  We would LOVE for you to join us! 

We need promoters, computer wizards, artists, and ANYONE WHO WANTS TO BE PART OF THE DARK CABARET MOVEMENT IN SAN DIEGO!

If you are interested we will have our first meeting in April so STAY TUNED!!!

Thank you all who helped us land this residency!

xxXx~
z0e, Zeph and the TTC

So it's official!  We have made a home of Carnival Noir at our new residency at 8Teen Center!  Starting April 18th we will have our first official event as residents.

So for all who enjoyed Carnival Noir please MARK YOUR CALENDARS AND TELL YOUR FRIENDS!!!!  In order for us to keep the residence we do need to keep a high attendance.  Which we don't anticipate as being a problem since we will be having all the lovely goodies we had at the last event and more.  The goal is to grow this thing into a Dark Cabaret MONSTROSITY!!!  Please stay tuned for details about our first street team meet up this month if you would like to get involved!

WE NEED YOUR INPUT, HELP and CREATIVE MINDS!  This is FOR YOU!!!!!

Thank you to everyone who helped make this happen.

All our love to you and we'll see you soon!

xoxo~
z0e, Zeph and the TTC

I am selling a lot of old stuff I have!  Clothing, knick knacks, and stuff for your walls... Selling of my things will begin this weekend on the 15th.... That is Sunday.  So skip church and come buy my stuff!!! 

I live on Wilson Ave off of El Cajon Blvd.  One block east of the Radio Room and right next to North Park Produce.  I live in the cottages.  Come in the small gate and I will be on the grass.

The money I make will go to helping me pay off some bills this month :(  Student loans are the DEVIL!!!

Hope to see you... Even if you don't buy my stuff... You can say hi ;)

xxXx~
z0e

Okay so if you haven't read the blog before this about Carnival Noir then you should... But if you really don't have the attention span, that's okay too. I'll try and be brief...

We want to make Dark Cabaret more prominent here in San Diego and accessible to ALL AGES much more frequently then it has been. To do this we need your help!!! Below are listed some things you can do to help in no particular order... You can do one or all of these things! Whatever suits you!

1) FEEDBACK ON CARNIVAL NOIR

We want to know what you like and what you don't like. PLEASE DON'T BE AFRAID TO TELL US WHAT YOU DO NOT LIKE! It helps us grow! And we need criticism as well. We may or may not take the suggestions, but they are appreciated all the same. What did you like about the night? What did you dislike? What do you want to see back? What do you want to see removed from the night? How can we improve it for you? What groups/bands/performers would you like to see at Carnival Noir?

2) HARASS 8TEEN AND TELL THEM YOU WANT US TO HAVE A RESIDENCY

Please add and message them here

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=451957652

Tell them you hope we get a residency and that you want us there!

You can also call them and say that you want Tragic Tantrum's Carnival Noir back!
(619) 288-4645

3) JOIN OUR STREET TEAM

We are forming all our "cabinets" for a street team and will have more info on that in the very near future. Please stay tuned for information on that! Certainly by April we will be able to have our first meet up.

4) TELL EVERYONE!!!

We mean EVERYONE. Tell them about Dark Cabaret and why they should check it out. Tell them about us. Tell them we are a growing community and why these events are unlike any other.

5) TALK TO US

We mean it. We like to hear from you. We need to hear from you! Our lives are very busy but we try and keep you all priority! We try to stay connected but we need your help. We need to hear from you too! Let us know your ideas, thoughts, passions, pet-peeves, whatever! Just stay connected and we'll stay connected to YOU!!!

and lastly...

6) COME OUT AND PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am sitting in my living room with candles, sipping on wine listening to the silent humm of white noise in my living room. I am exhausted. I had no sleep last night, worked all day and just got home a little bit ago from cleaning up the venue from the festivities Saturday night...

But I am supremely happy. Never did I think that life would take me down the path it has. I have met the most beautiful people the past three years and have grown so much from it. I have to admit I was a bit nervous about an all age event as they are very difficult... First off there are not a lot of venues for teens and getting teens out to a show seems more difficult then the 21+ crowd. We're used to the 21+ crowd and we know them. I was worried about people not showing.

My fears and reality did not coincide though. And it was wonderful to see the venue filled with all kinds of creative people in costumes and engaging. Special THANK YOU!!!! to those who showed up early and helped us set up... as well as the artists, and performers who shared their talents with us. Rachel, your painting is hanging in our living room and we love love LOVE IT!!!!

Sophia Isadora Circus Academy was incredible to say the least! And thanks 8Teen Center for your help...

Anyway, the list could go on and on but what I am trying to say here is that you people inspire us. You inspire me. There was a point in my life where I couldn't see the point in my life. I was depressed and lost. But when I look around me today and see the love and support and enthusiasm of my friends and fans I am so grateful!

Today my eye is twitching non stop from lack of sleep and I've had insomnia the past few nights. But I am so content. I am awaiting a phone call from Alma to discuss the prospects of a residency and I do hope we can make that happen.

I want to start up a street team with any and all of you who are interested. We'll go to the local Denny's and stuff our faces with mozzarella sticks and bad food and talk about how to grow this thing even more.

Because the truth is it's not really even about me, or Tragic Tantrum, or the Cabaret... it's about all of us. It's about the movement. Dark Cabaret is a movement to me. Events where people can dress up, perform, showcase their creativity and talent in whatever medium it is for them... photography, costuming, performance, design, lighting, sound, promoting, characters, lifestyles, philosophies, lack of philosophies... whatever fuels your dreams or whatever dreams you fuel... This is what it's about.

I get such a high watching others thrive in a creative environment... watching others commune and share an experience... You all get me high!!!!!

If you want to know a few things you can do to help us out, please read the next blog. Otherwise, just keep coming out and making this happen. None of this could possibly exist otherwise.

xoxo~
z0e
(of the Tragic Tantrum Cabaret)