God was teaching me the other day, while i was driving in my van, that we are created to be captivated by him. Sometimes i get caught up in my problems or trails that seem difficult or overwhelming to look at and/or overcome. yet, when you stop and realize that our soul purpose in life is to be captivated by God...When we let that happen, it overflows to others, it ripples into the rest of our lives. It also makes our problem seem small and more manageable when we realize their not suppose to be our focus. So how do you let yourself be captivated by the one and only? You let him love you, so that we can love him in return. When we let him reveal his love and accept it into our lives, let it affect the way we live, we find ourself being swept away by his beauty. We find our thoughts and actions echoing his greatness and love in worship.

I feel like i am busy all the time. When did this happen? I am tired and need to catch up on sleep, but i seem to always fill my time so that i am just out over reach of getting enough rest. I am ready for bed... but i had a nap this afternoon and i know if i try and go to bed early it wont really work. I will be back to normal in no time. I just need to figure out my new routine with my new work schedule.

Wow... God keeps switching stuff up on me. Its weird because i think my life is headed in one direction and then it ends up going the other way, or new things just appear that i never even thought of before. For instance... i am now the baker at Elice Cafe. I don't know how that happened. I like the change. I still serve on top of that, but it is still something new. And with church... i am so pumped to see how God moves this year with all the youth. I have been getting together with Ramona putting together the lesson plan for this year and i know its going to be good. I can't wait for the new year to start. I am ready for the fall.

On a slightly different note, i am really hoping i get a new computer soon because not having ready access to the internet to talk to all my dear friends abroad is making me miss them. If you are one of these dear friends reading this... i have not forgotten you, i just have limited internet access. Love ya all.

So i am going on a road trip. That is right, my friend josee will be going with me. Where will we go... i am not sure. Anywhere we want. I can't believe it, i am so pumped. I was talking it over with my mom, and she just encouraged me. Instead of telling me why it wouldn't work, she told me how it would work. Wow... God is so exciting sometimes. Sometimes i wish i could hug him or give him a high five or something to celebrate this awesome adventure i will be taking.

I am so pumped. We can bring walkie talkies and everything. I love it when i let God take control.

Alright, so i was making my little map of where i have been and i don't know what i should put on there. For instance, i have been to hong kong. I have it stamped on my passport (twice). THough the first time i was only in the airport and passed through to meet someone, the second time i was only there over night once and went straight back to the airport. No touring around.
My other place is Thialand, its stamped on my passport but i only went for half a day and i was sick the whole time. I didn't really see much, or even have time to enjoy it because all i wanted to do was sleep. I have also been on a many roadtrips with my family and been many places in Canada. I just don't know if i should or want to put it all on there.
What do you think? What would you do?

I think I have figured it out. Figured out what you may ask... well my love language. I don't know if all of you have ever heard of the 5 love languages (the way you show and receive love best). The five of them are Giving and Receiving gifts, Words of Affirmation, Physical touch, Quality time, and Acts of Service. Anyways, there is a book about the five of them. Anyways, I have been debating which one I am for the last few months; since I read the book. Some people find it easier than others to figure out what theirs is, but mine took some time. But this evening as I was journaling, I came to the realization that I am differently first and foremost 'words of affirmation' I do have traits of the others at times but this is my first and front one. Just thought I would put that out there. Do you know what your primary love language is? If not, it's something to think about.

Alright, so... I sometimes wish i could have little captions under my songs on myspace, saying why its my song. Yet, even if this is possible, i don't want to spend an hour trying to figure it out for only a few words. So here i am writting a little 'blog' on my song. Right now it is the song 'there can be miricles' from 'The prince of egypt'. Why have I picked this song? Well... its my song. It has my name in it. Yep, thats right, it has my name right in the middle. I'm not making it up. My name is Hebrew. It is to be saide she-ra in the original language. If you listen to the song, at the end they begin to say my name. Anyways, that is all i wanted to say. Probably could have said it quicker, but i like the added words. Have an awesome day, you who are reading this, and God bless.

So.. i love being happy. I love the feeling i have right now. Being content with life is such a good feeling. Knowing your in the right place doing what God has asked you to do.... nothing could replace that peace he gives you. Do I know what my future looks like...Nope. But that doesn't bother me. I know it will all be good and work out. Where would the adventure be if you always knew where that road headed?

I felt like pouring a bit of my heart out to someone and so here I am going to try and make since of it in words. I don't know if my rant can be understood, but it makes since to me. I know that as soon as I put it into words it losses some of its edge as, I know I and God are the only ones who will ever fully understand what I am trying to say, yet I had to try.
How can you describe being the most content, yet most discontent at the same time? I am enjoying life. I enjoy my job, I love my friends and where God has put me. I love how God has trusted me in minor places of leadership within the youth program at my church. I love how he has grown me up in my faith so much and is continuing to grow me and teaching me knew things. Yet, I want more. I want more God. I want to see my friends; I want to have more adventure. I want to.... I want to... I want to go everywhere, see everyone, experience many cultures, learn many different languages, and see everything God created. I want to bring my love for God to the nations. Yet, I want to stay here in my city, and help all the kids here that have poor lives and need God. There is so much out there to do, and it seems like so few workers, and I feel like I..m doing nothing when I look at the big picture. I want all God has for me; I want to do everything that he has called me to do. But how can I do anything when I am so imperfect. I don't want answers to these questions, I know them. I just wish God would get more of the love he deserves, a love that I know that even I fail to give him because of my sinful nature.

So if you have ended up on this page it is because you were trying to check out this blog. well as you can see i have not really posted anything as of yet on this page. up until this point i have been posting random things now and then on a different blog. (because i haven't always had myspace). As of yet i am undecided about weither i will continue on, on my old blog or start one here or not do anything at all. So here i am to inform you that my other blog is at shiragamey.blogspot.com so if this is my only post then you should check out that site.