I recently received this email from a supporter of my music and I wanted to share with you her thoughts and my response.

She said:
I had a chance to peep a few of the other tracks... I guess I wish you would have a larger spectrum of what a black woman is on "The black girl's in trouble" I almost felt ASHAMED of who I am just as I was made to feel ashamed as a child by so many of my classmates and family members... its hard to know who you are when it seems that no one thinks you are "BLACK ENOUGH" to pass... inner racism is worse than the racist that are outside of our race... and to be honest... I have actually lost a good friend because of ignorant comments she made to me about my skin (dis) coloration and hair (non) texture... and that somehow I can't relate to her because I don't spend hours in the beauty shop "getting my do DONE" or my weave tightened... I am no less proud to be a black woman because I don't possess the "TYPICAL" features associated with being "African" American... I am not chastising you and perhaps you meant no malice toward other women of color and I truly believe the song was meant to uplift women that possess features that have become less coveted by society... however... for those of us that simply ARE who we ARE... and not Relaxing and Weaving a DREAM image in our hairstyle... for me... I felt as if somehow I am being chastised for my NATURAL features... you know you're still my favorite dude though... and therefore you deserve no less than my COMPLETE honesty at all times... ~E!~

My response:
This song was meant for the black women that hate their features. Women that think having a wide nose, coarse hair or dark skin are a bad thing. They want to conform to what Hollywood deems beautiful. These features are what make black women who they are. Jewish and Indian people have signature noses. Asian people have signature eyes. These features are a part of who you are. I just made the song to uplift black women and tell them you're beautiful because of the features you have. Hell we all are mixed at then end of the day but don't try to run or alter what you have in order to fit in. Some black women hate their complexion and physical features, which are so funny cause so many women try to achieve these features by having their lips, chest and ass done and also tan like crazy. In some ways I'm happy that mixed people are now considered beautiful cause back in the day they had it the worst. Many did and still do deal with identity issues because of that. It really all goes back to slavery. The white man told us we were ugly but every chance he got he was raping and fathering children by our women. This song was for certain black women that needed to be told they are still beautiful. I feel this way but I also am a part of this hypocrisy. When you grew up and there were no beautiful black women on TV and your only reference point was Farrah Fawcett and Loni Anderson you feel like thats what beauty is. So a Black or Spanish version of them is what I'm attracted to. I myself am more attracted to the very features I sing against. It doesn't help that society is all about exotic women and features. Now I have a clear understanding of what real beauty is. It's all-good through because every ethnicity are getting together and having children. Soon we will be all one race. THE HUMAN RACE! The lyrics in this song are in no way meant to offend any women. You know I love and are attracted to you all. I'm into beauty inside and out and I love women that have features that are apart of their heritage. That's what makes each and every woman special and different. If you have some thoughts on this please send me a blog or email. Thank you

Fanatic
Alpha Big Mama

This is for all the beautiful Black women on Myspace.
Check "The Black Girl's N Trouble" (the last song on my player)
I know its hard to find love these days.
Society had a lot of people confused and in this business sometimes people, myself included loose sight of what REAL beauty is. I understand and though I can be contridictive at times
just know I truly love you and I'll never forget how beautiful and unique you are.
This one's for you.

Fanatic
Alpha Big Mama
PS Listen to the words and may they inspire you to remember what's important and at the same time feel good about yourself. Leave me a comment and let me know what you think.

Today Alpha Big Mama aka Fanatic is the featured artist on Blackplanet.com!
The staff at Blackplanet.com and Vibe magazine have decided Alpha Big Mama and their music is something you should hear.
Go to music.blackplanet.com to check it out.

I'm glad all my hard work is not going unoticed. It feels good. I am currently in the studio finishing up 4 new songs, a incredible music video, new photos and putting together the live show. We will mos def be on the radar this summer!

The Fanatic Experience has even more new music!
Lately I've had a lot of things on my mind that I am writing about. Everything with the Fanatic Experience is not just about erotic encounters and relationships. With this latest song, "Andy Go Home" I have some very strong opinions but don't care to speak about them at this time. Once again listen closely to the lyrics an let me know your views on this topic.

Listen as Fanatic, disguised as the voice of society
and Louis Cifer team up to laugh at the effects they have had on the world today. Listen closely to the lyrics and answer this question: Has society got the best of you?

Birthday party? Keep it moving! Today I celebrate with only God. We talked for an hour. First I got down on my knees and thanked him for allowing my to make it through another year and keeping my sanity in tact. We then laughed a little, had a moment of sadness and then he screamed on me about a few things I need to work on in my life. He told me to keep striving and everything is gonna be ok. He then told me "I love you Fanatic". He be looking out for me. I'll introduce you to him if you want. He's a good person to know. Well anyway please no presents. Just say "Happy Birthday" and get yo ass back on your grind! Till next year.....

NOTICE: to all those who want to post a comment on my page.
I can no longer just add comments for those who are just posting advertisements or sending the standard comments. Experience the music. If you like where I'm going musically let me know but SEND ME A REAL COMMENT PLEASE! What is the use of having someone listed on my comments list if the love is not real. Love me and I'll love you back.

I'm currently in EROTIC CITY, NJ writing, producing and recording. I've had some new experiences that I want share with you. From myself and others around me I've found that love will take you in many different directions but we all need it and can't do without it. If you are going through an experience (good or bad) and think it would make a great song that people could relate to let me know about it. I'll take it in the lab and see what I can come up with. This may help you or others get through a situation. Thanks again for all your support.