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Sunday, October 12, 2008 

The Disposable Reader Interview With The Incredible Sam Mcpheeters!

Sam's art show flyer
Sam & I, from punk rock flyer, 1990's

Well faithful readers, here is your Disposable Reader's first ever interview, and this one is a doozy!


Sam Mcpheeters is probably the greatest living writer that I have had the pleasure to know personally. I would not be who I am today without always wanting to write something (even as a teen) that in my mind's eye would make Sam chuckle. Sam was in the seminal NYHC band, Born Against, Men's Recovery Project, The Wrangler Brutes, and created the fanzines, Plain Truth (a fanzine) and Dear Jesus. Sam currently writes and creates silkscreen art from his home in California and is the dutiful husband of artist, Tara Tavi. What follows is an e-mail interview.


Sam, thank you for answering our questions today, you are a great American!....

That is not a question but I thank you.

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Please give our readers, who might not be familiar with your bio, a little info about you.......

I was born in Lorain, OH and raised in Albany, NY. In 1989 I started singing for Born Against, and then later I was in Men's Recovery Project, and then even later I was the lead singer of Wrangler Brutes. I've been married 6 years. I'm typing this on a Mac Powerbook G4 I am still making payments on.

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You are probably one of the few hardcore luminaries who can comfortably know what it is like for a Mackaye or Rollins to be asked questions about their old bands, do people still ask you a lot of questions about Born Against?....

I'm not a luminary. Born Against is remembered as a minor star of an unimportant decade. I can't think of a single person I personally know who hasn't been in a crummy hardcore band at this point. The last time I was in Albany, a stranger walked up to me and asked if I was in the band Against Me, and I looked off into the distance and said, with pride, that I was.

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I'm not a fan of Steven Blush's "writing", but I agree with the central premise of "American Hardcore"; that it stopped being innovative after 1986. That definitely applies to any band I was ever in.

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I apologize if this has been reported much more so in other places, the only reason I ask, is because I was not terribly privy to the events at the time, however, please describe the events that led to the dissolution of Born Against?....

It stopped being fun. This was in spring '93, the same period when a lot of other life events transpired for me and Adam - relationships ending, friendships severing, money evaporating. Sometime that May or June our landlord gave us the boot, so it seemed like god was providing us with a clear set of signals. There was no animosity, and Adam and I got a big house in Virginia with Neil (our first bassist) and Brooks (our sixth drummer) and had all sorts of crazy adventures that following year.

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Did you and I say farewell before I split? I don't remember. I do remember that a lot of people from the ABC No Rio crowd quickly disowned me that spring, I was pilloried in local zines, and Esneider from "Huasipungo " publicly rebuked me at Reconstruction records for disappointing him, and, by extension, the scene and all of humanity. So I was feeling rather vulnerable at that stage. Sorry if I didn't say bye. Nothing personal.

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I noticed that post-B.A. you seemed to make a conscious effort in your writing and through MRP to explore much different, Devo-ish, or perhaps a Feederz like Da Da-ist approach. Was this intentional or just a natural progression or rejection of the intensely issue laden realm of B.A.?....

I'm not sure how to answer this. MRP's "Get Your Dick Out Of My Food" is just as political a song as "Maggie Thatcher Curb Stomp" or whatever that one BA song was.

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I have always been a big fan of your writing, from The Plain Truth fanzine to your current, Clog.....

It is with tremendous gratitude and humility that I must ask you to rephrase this as a question.

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When do you remember discovering your gift for verbiage?....

I don't have any gift for verbiage. I just spend a LOT of time writing. If you do anything long enough you will get competent at it.

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Were you always a good writer?....

Ibid.

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Did you do well in English classes?....

I was a solid B student, K-12. Although my only F, coming the month after I was accepted into college, was indeed in English class. I wish I could remember that teacher's name. If I did, I could mention it in this interview and then one night, when he's parked his drunk divorced ass in front of the family computer, he could Google himself and read this paragraph and understand how I have triumphed over him.

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Did teachers praise your writing early on?....

I think most of my teachers thought I was a wiseass. Or maybe I'm confusing them with the girls I went to school with.

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Where do you think your sense of humor developed from?....

You have put me on the spot and I cannot think of a funny answer to this question. Pants?

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Why and when did you stop doing your column for Maximum Rock N Roll?....

I did two columns for MRR. The first ran from '89 to '93, and the second ran from '00 to '03. I stopped the first for the exact same reasons Born Against broke up; it stopped being fun. In the interim I had a convoluted friendship/antagonism with MRR owner Tim Yohannon, who frequently pissed me off, and just as frequently dispensed fatherly advice. After he died in 1998, some of their staff approached me about giving it another shot, so I gave it another shot. What I found was that I had no connection with MRR readers, and I got tired of reading online how "crazy" I was and how my columns made no sense. Also they don't pay their writers, and that got a little old. I owed them $300 from Vermiform ads, so - after it felt like I'd given $300 worth of quality writing - I resigned.

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I know that you retired your Vermiform label and moved to California a number of years ago, describe what your current life is like?....

I'm a freelance writer, which means I work a wide assortment of unfunny non-writerly jobs to pay the bills. I like California because it has palm trees and there aren't as many Sbarros as on the east coast.

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I know you do some mainstream writing for (insert paper's name here...) which is L.A.'s equivalent of NY's Village Voice(?) as well as producing fine art pieces.....

I've written for The Orange County Weekly, which is Costa Mesa's equivalent of the Village Voice. I'm not sure if I am still writing for them.

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Is it important for you to keep a foot in the mainstream?....

I no longer see a difference between mainstream and independent. If there was a difference back in 1991, there certainly is none now. Everything is all mixed up. You could post this interview online and the next thing you know the Queen of England is reading it on her laptop. Try doing that with Marching For Trash fanzine 15 years ago.

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Describe for us what your art is like, what mediums you use and where you have been displayed, because I know you recently had a gallery showing in NYC?....

I just opened a show of silkscreen prints and sharpie drawings at a gallery in Echo Park. I have some doubts about fine art and my role in it, so instead of charging low prices for my stuff I jacked the prices way up and will give the money to Veterans For Peace, the St. Louis based activist group. I am going to bitterly regret this decision when the show ends and someone hands me that big cardboard check.

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Tell us about your recent tour of readings and your new magazine Clog.......

This August, Tara and I toured up to Seattle and back, her playing Chinese hammer dulcimer and me reading amusing stories. My spoken shows have thus far been just readings of short humor pieces. That will probably mutate into something more ambitious soon.

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My new magazine is all the funny parts from my writing with none of the boring bits. It's like when you go to a diner and you tell the waitress you want extra ham on your sandwich and she gets so fed up she comes out and slams an entire canned ham on your table and instead of being bummed at her unprofessionalism you're just like, yes! More ham!

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What are your current perspectives on the progressive left, like Moveon.org, Michael Moore and entities like Air America radio? Are they successful ultimately in what they are trying to do?....

I might have listened to Air America once, when I had the car radio set for "search". I'm not a fan of Michael Moore as a filmmaker, but if he ever makes another movie as good as "Roger And Me" I'll gladly attend. Am I right in remembering that I saw that movie with you and Joe Martin and Charlie Animal Crackers and a bunch of other jokers? And weren't you talking loudly and got shushed by some lady?

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"Set your A.M. dial for white empowerment" was prophetic in that it foretold something about the Karl Rove/Thomas Frank's "What's Wrong With Kansas" era of white folk voting against their economic interests, why do you think that the left hasn't been able to set up, as of yet, as significant a presence, what with Air America being not much more than a tax write off?....

Both sides have their own spheres of influence. There aren't many good lefty radio shows just like there aren't many viable conservative alternative weekly newspapers.

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I didn't know who Thomas Frank was and had to look him up just now, while typing this interview.

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What are your feelings and perspectives on the current 2008 Presidential contest, specifically Obama/Biden, McCain/Palin, et al.?....

I would like Obama to win. I would like Palin to catch shingles.

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Any misgivings about the lack of a viable third party contender save for Bob Barr and the much minimized and maligned Nader?....

I used to be the kind of person who made the "Coke/Pepsi" analogy about national politics. Now I'm the kind of person who realizes that giant democracies require bland and/or infuriating elections to forestall bloodbath. Obama has to say things I don't agree with because that's what you do when you want to rule over 300,000,000 people. Americans aren't any stupider than any other people, but we have our share of stupid people, and democracy means they get a say in how things are run. That's the cost of representational government.

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The upside is that we don't have elections ending in bloodshed. The Mexican election just two years ago ended in Congressional fisticuffs, and I think that's kind of pathetic. The Algeria election just sixteen years ago ended with 150,000+ deaths, and I think that's kind of scary. It would be easy to have either situation here.

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Does the historic significance of this one make a third party seem pat and pointless?....

I'm not sure how you mean that. All elections feel historic when they're happening. At the time, 2004 felt like a referendum on apocalypse.

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Does Obama's candidacy quiet the need for one?....

I'm not sure.

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I found myself supporting Hillary, perhaps mostly for a longing for the 1990's and because of that Clinton Alpha quality, how about you?....

I defended Hillary for a year before the California primary. By election day I'd long since soured on her, but by that point I'd shot my mouth off so much I felt obliged to give her my vote. When the actual moment came to punch out the chad next to her name, I had one of those crazy flash-forwards like in "The Dead Zone" when Christopher Walken shakes Martin Sheen's hand and receives a nightmare vision of nuclear Armageddon.

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I'm glad she lost. Her comments about "obliterating" Iran should have gotten her kicked out of Congress. Any Hillary supporter who votes McCain because of Palin should be sent to Garbage Island. It is tom foolery.

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What is something that our readers would be interested to know about you that you have never uttered in a public forum?....

That I am a large mountain range located in the east-central interior of British Columbia?

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Do you still meditate/use relaxation techniques? What brought you to this practice? When I read David Lynch's book, "Catching The Big Fish", which illustrated that a lot of his creative process came from transcendent meditation, it really made me want to start up a practice, but alas, I still have not.......

I never meditated; maybe you're thinking of that little bio-feedback machine I had? I was given that as a teenager after I was diagnosed with a migraine condition, which is like having migraines only you just get the visual auras and stuff instead of the headaches. I'm saving meditation for my 60's, along with yachting, and pot.

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This is a good example of the kind of sentence that could get me falsely accused of sarcasm. I meant that quite literally. I am literally going to be exploring meditation, marijuana, and sailing in the 2030's.

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I have not physically seen you since MRP played the Knitting Factory, I think in 1999. And I missed your art show in Brooklyn. When are you coming back here?....

The last I saw you was in 2001, at the Brownies MRP show where I instructed you to drag me off the stage and into the street and beat the hell out of me at the end of the set, and you subsequently dragged me off the stage and into the street and beat the hell out of me at the end of the set. Good times. Hopefully I'll be doing some spoken shows in NY early next year...

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We both have significant others named Tara, and my Tara is from Albany, NY, which is where you grew up. Isn't that weird?....

Suspiciously so.

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Tell us about Tara Tavi, how did you meet? What does she do? Where is she from?....

I met Tara on tour, through my friends in Man Is The Bastard. She's from southern California. Tara was in China on a research grant in 1999, and I was in Japan on tour, and those two countries are like two centimeters apart if you look at a globe, so we remet in Tokyo and decided it would be stupid to not be married. I was living in Rhode Island at the time. She gave the east coast a shot. At a certain point we both got fed up with snow and jerks and decided to move to California.

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Tara has a blog called Pony Venom. You should do one of those HTML things where the last sentence links to it.

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What do you currently listen to, read, etc.?....

I listen to whatever channel the car radio is tuned to. I haven't been to any shows in three years, except to meet friends and then go elsewhere. I'm hoping this is just a lull, and there will come a time when I can enjoy new music again. I remember a large stretch of years where crazy punk music was my entire life. It weirds me out that this is no longer the case.

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Right now I'm reading a biography of George Washington.

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I'm unclear what the "etc" part refers to, but it sounds ominous.

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Well, Sam, I've always been one of your biggest fans and whenever I get an envelope from you crammed with your latest writing or music it is truly a happy day. Is there anything else that you would like to say or plug?....

My new magazine is here; www/clogmag.com

My blog is here; http://loomofruin.blogspot.com/

My website is www.sammcpheeters.com

Pony Venom is http://ponyvenom.blogspot.com/

Veterans For Peace is http://www.veteransforpeace.org/

Sbarro's website is http://www.sbarro.com/

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Well, that's great. Thank you so much for your time today. I love you man!....

I love you too man. But what about my wife?


Link: http://richardsoliver.blogspot.com/2008/09/disposable-reader-interview-with.html
Monday, November 06, 2006 
I'm just gonna put the link on here.

http://www.sammcpheeters.com/music/ba-shows.htm
Friday, September 08, 2006 
- Murders Among Us     7" comp.     Combined Effort/Vermiform 0    1989 
- Forever     7" comp.     Irate    1990    
- Eulogy     7" single     Vermiform 0.5/Dear Jesus Zine    1990    
- Bllleeeeaaauuurrrrgghhh! - the record    7" comp.     Slap-a-Ham 7  1990    - Our Voice, Pro Choice     7" comp.     Hands On     1993    
- 5 song 7" (Industrial Relations Dept.)     7" single    Vermiform 1     1990    
- The Dignity of Human Being is Vulnerable     LP comp.     A.W.A.  1993    - Give Me Back     LP comp.     Ebullition    1991    
- split w/ Suckerpunch    7" flexi    Ebullition/No Answers Zine    1991     
- Nine Patriotic Hymns for Children     LP     Vermiform     1991     
- Battle Hymns of the Race War     10"     Vermiform    1992    
- split w/ Universal Order of Armageddon    7"    Gravity 5    1993     
- God's Chosen People     LP comp.    Old Glory    1993    
- Superpowers    tape comp.    Troubleman .5    1993?    
- split w/ Screeching Weasel    7"/CD     Lookout!73    1994    
- split w/ Man Is the Bastard     8"     Vermiform 16     1994    
- Patriotic Battle Hymns     CD     Vermiform    reissue     
- The Rebel Sound of Shit and Failure    CD     Vermiform 20    reissue    
- Xmas Eve 4     7"     bootleg    live     
- My Country 'Tis of Thee...     7"     bootleg    demo     
- split w/ Yuppicide     7"     bootleg    live @ ABC
   
Wednesday, September 06, 2006 
"Recent" projects by former members. Many of these projects are also dead.

Sam McPheeters

Homepage: www.sammcpheeters.com
Men's RecoveryProject: www.killrockstars.com
Wrangler Brutes: www.wranglerbrutes.com

Adam Nathanson/Woodrow/Against
Young Pioneers: www.killrockstars.com

Brooks Headley
Red Eyed Legends: www.redeyedlegends.com
Skull Control: www.touchandgorecords.com
Wrangler Brutes
Universal Order of Armageddon:
www.killrockstars.com

Tonie Joy
Moss Icon: www.killrockstars
The Convocation Of...: www.goldstandardlabs.com
Universal Order of Armageddon


MORE MEMBER INFO COMING SOON...






Monday, September 04, 2006 
*Of course, this site is in no way affiliated with Born Against, any of its members or involved record labels.


As far as site approval goes. I contacted Sam and he replied with a thumbs up.


**If you have any photos, artwork, lyric sheets, flyers, etc. please post or send it to me via e-mail and I'd be happy to post it.


For a more comprehensive Born Against HTML site visit:
http://members.tripod.com/~xjwalkx/born.html
Sunday, August 27, 2006 
No Answers ..10


Interview by Kent McClard

Transcribed by J.W@lker for the Born Against Webpage The much more pleasurable paper version of this zine is still available from Ebullition Records. Send them an SASE for a catalog. It also features interviews with Amenity, Suckerpunch, and lots of great HC stuff.

This is perhaps the longest interview that has ever appeared within these pages, but Born Against seems worth it. As for an introduction, I give you Sam Mcpheeters, asshole extroardinaire... - Kent


KENT: My first question is, you guys have both the reality and the reputation for bad mouthing a lot of other bands and a lot of other people in the scene, what do you think makes Born against better than most people and bands that you bad mouth.?

ADAM: Were not better than them we just want to call them out on stuff that no one else will. We really dont want people to think that we think were superior to someone or better than them, but it is just gross when nobody calls out a band on their willingness to self-censor themselves or...

SAM: Punk rock shouldnt be about the comfort of saying, Oh I have these certain friends of mine and I'm not going to criticize them, or Oh these people are my enemies and they might beat me up if I call them out on this. I think it is very important to constantly maintain that level for stirring up the shit. Adam especially is the one who should take credit for this. He was doing things long before other people in New York, like a lot of ABC people, he was handing out fliers at the...

ADAM: At the Hawker is Hardcore show.

SAM: That was the thing that started it all. That was it.

ADAM: Let me make it clear that this was only the main thing that started a resurgence of people thinking about big label connections because before me there was... most people havent even heard of him, but there was a fanzine called State of Fury done by a guy who was in a band called Urgent Fury and they just got back together, and there was another fanzine called Smash Apathy, and the guy who did that, the first one, Abe, and the other guy, Dan, both did the exact same things that weve been doing lately, but they just didnt get that much attention for it. Dan did for a while. He boycotted the Rock Hotel and the Ritz and Chris Williamson and stuff, and there was a big controversy about it in the letters section of Maximum Rock N Roll about six years ago. He got thrown up against the wall and threatened by bouncers. basically it didnt achieve anything except inspiring us because the Ritz still has shows and they (Dan & Abe) have gone away.

SAM: I think it achieved what we achieved in that it made it into an issue, at least partially. Maybe weve been a little more successful at making it effective. Were not trying to organize some kind of boycott of In-Effect or any other label. Were not an anti In-Effect band. I could care fucking less what In-Effect does. Im going to hassle them as much as I would hassle any other big label.

KENT: On that subject, what is your main beef with a big label?

SAM: With a big label? I think maybe we have been presented as being overly dogmatic. My thing with big labels, I mean there are a couple of different things. Maybe to use In-Effect as an example, and this is only an example, just turning... with them it was specific ways in which they were turning hardcore into a commodity, very specific ways. The whole sloganeering thing, the Harder -Than-You thing I found really disheartening.

ADAM: There are other labels that are doing it too like Caroline with the On the 90s Tip. Its not even just the slogans, its the packaging, the loss of control.

SAM: The fact that you cant even print the word shit on an In-Effect record. Thats obvious, thats obvious stuff. Thats not something complex.

ADAM: Thats not a lie. You can, but you shouldnt kick the shit out of us for saying that you cant print the word shit on your record, although many people would like to kick the shit out of us for bringing up obvious facts like that you cant print the word shit on a record.

SAM: Were not saying anything terribly complex, or Freudian, or out of the world....

ADAM: Were saying that this stuff was totally, totally taken for granted in the beginning of 83, I imagine. Even when I came into the scene which was a lot, a while after that, it just didnt seem... even the bands that were on big labels and the bands that seemed to make compromises or be the most popular bands werent making compromises of that magnitude, they werent doing things like that.

SAM: And were not trying to present ourselves again as... were not saying you cant compromise. Of course not. Were using vinyl that's made out of petroleum that the U.S. is going to fight for, and oh yes, we use Con Edisons energy as pointed out by a couple of brain surgeons in New York. Its so obvious, you have to make compromises if youre going to be in a band.If youre going to be a radical environmentalist I would strongly suggest that you dont go into the business of putting out records because there are so many things that you are going to have to compromise on, but at least you dont have to compromise your message to the pathetic sad state were you cant print the word shit on your own records.

ADAM: Just by the fact that youre born into this society, in some sort of way youre sort of obligated to at least function or live in society, but nobody forces you to join a hardcore band or put out a record. So you might as well do it well if youre going to do it. And all these people saying to us, Oh you might as well become a bunch of fucking hermits and move to the woods, I mean, to argue against a totally moronic argument, if we all moved to the woods there would be no more woods and then we couldnt be hermits and we would all build a city in the woods.

SAM: And most importantly the sole fucking reason we appear as people that talk shit about every single band in the world is because no one else is willing to call out their friends or their enemies on the really important shit. The vast majority of most HC punk bands are too fucking chicken shit to call out record labels on the crap that they do, to call out....

JON: Even to the point of just buying bad records.

ADAM: Not by name but what do you mean by the action of that?

JON: People are just blindly buying up...

ADAM: Consumption.

SAM: Of course were not anti-money. Ive heard that thrown at us. Der, were anti-money. All right, OK, thank you. We are, I am anti being a good consumer. Im not going to be a good consumer. Im not going to be a good fucking consumer that goes to the mall and buys my fucking street mosh record. Im sorry but thats not what I got into punk rock for.

ADAM: And there is a difference between, like I heard people say, Well, hey, I saw the Lifes Blood record at the mall, the point isnt that the Lifes Blood record was at the mall, and that the Killing Time record was at a mall too, and that makes me a hypocrite because I was in Lifes Blood. It doesnt because Combined Effort and Lifes Blood were controlled by no one, and the money... we know exactly where the money went except for whatever sleazy money Important took for it. Its a totally different thing for people to say to us that when we personally go out and sell our stuff and have it under our own control that it is the same thing as selling your record by being on a major label and going through a major distributor. It just doesnt make sense.

SAM: I think it is important that hardcore becomes more of a threat and less of a conformity.

KENT: But a lot of people argue that by staying away from the larger labels you remain very small and underground and therefore you never really become a threat.

SAM: You have to work at it. No one is going to fucking hand it to you. I mean, yes, people will hand it to you like large labels. If youre going to do it yourself, as were learning right now, it takes a lot of fucking work. I put a lot of time on starting my own label, Vermiform Records. Its no easy thing, but...

ADAM: But also, like in Dan OMahonys column in a couple of Maximum Rock N Rollss ago he says that maybe we can break into the market with hardcore if we put enough great hardcore records out on major labels. And I just... thats like totally backwards, its so backwards I cant believe it. What we should be doing is building an alternative to challenge it. Something that it is as powerful or more powerful, and it is never going to become that way if everybody thinks that you have to get on a major label and kiss their ass to.... I mean you cant rip it down and build it up at the same time.

SAM: And that just shows you how dogmatic we are because four of us are staying at Dans house, well not tonight but tomorrow.

ADAM: We like Dan, I mean its not like something I havent brought up with Dan. Were not talking shit because I drover No For An Answer around the weekend they played the Hawker is not Hardcore show, and I handed him the flyer before I went and handed it out to John Bello and Wrecking Crew and stuff.

SAM: They were staying in my apartment around the corner.

KENT: What about... Dan doesnt like to play small shows because he doesnt feel like he is reaching enough people...

SAM: I dont want to get into too much of his ethics because thats not... thats Dan.

ADAM: We like small shows because we think there are less assholes there usually.

SAM: I had a fucking wonderful time today at the Barn and last night in a kids garage. It was fucking wonderful.

ADAM: Yeah, the kid who put on the show in this garage in San Diego was like, Im really sorry this is in a garage and stuff. Look, we played to more people than weve almost ever played to before.

SAM: We got paid sixty bucks at that garage which is more than weve ever been paid for a show in New York.

ADAM: Weve only been paid more than that once. ABC NO RIO... if youre a local band... its very important to pay the touring bands a lot of money, so since we all live a subway ride away.

JAVIER: Whats the most we got paid..at Catinas in Massachusetts?

ADAM: Yeah, we got paid 100 dollars there and they apologized to us too.

KENT: Is there any kind of a door price that you feel is a reasonable type thing?

JAVIER: We always like to play the five dollar thing if we can.

ADAM: I dont know, we havent had a real band conference about it but unless it was like 35 bands and a two weekend thing, then I wouldnt want it to be... like the Rock Against Racism thing was like 30 bands and all you can eat and they had accommodations and that was like 15 dollars.

SAM: That was up in Canada in Ontario in Ottawa.

KENT: Didnt you do one of your War Prayer things about that?

ADAM: Oh that was in Mind Set. It wasnt any kind of attack on the Rock Against Racism show, that was an attack on New York attitudes again.

SAM: Us always the shit talkers, ha ha.

ADAM: Those people in Canada were making due with what they could get and ten people can only do so much.

JAVIER: They tried their best and everything, it just didnt work out.

ADAM: There were only a few people and they were just trying to organize a huge event and the enthusiasm was just lame.

KENT: What was your big beef with Nausea on that whole thing?

ADAM: Well, weve talked to Al, and I had a really long talk with Al just recently. It was really something that I made a big deal out of, well, Sam too, we just didnt understand why their record said Pay no more than $9. We didnt understand why it didnt just say pay no more than $100.

SAM: I havent talked to Al, I havent talked to anyone.

ADAM: What it comes down to is... weve exchanged letters with Profane Existence, weve been on the phone with Profane Existence. I probably had an hour long conversation with Al about it. It just comes down to, were on the same side and it is just a difference of opinion, and the record doesnt usually get sold for that... I guess it really just turns into semantics because it is just something written on the record and it doesnt really get sold for that.

SAM: That was another case where people were just flabbergasted that we criticized them because were friends with them, but whatever, if you do something that I disagree with them Im at least going to ask you about it. I did ask one of the members of Nausea beforehand and he just got pissed so Adam wound up doing it in a more public way. We dont have any hatred of Nausea, theyre our friends.

ADAM: We dont have any hatred of the Alley Way bands. When we were at the peak of all that stuff of supposedly so-and-so is going to kick your ass I called Anthony, the singer of Killing Time, and I had been friendly with him for three years before that. He was totally civil with me and asked me how school was going, where you living now, and stuff like that. I was civil to him. I dont know, we dont have vendettas because we hate people, we see things that are fucked up, were not like nasty people.

SAM: I dont go out of my way to be an asshole to anyone, but it is extremely important to call people out on stuff. Its of utmost of importance in an independent scene to maintain that attitude of constant upheaval.

ADAM: Also, you got to remember that were not one big happy family. Thats just stupid. I dont think we should ever strive to be one big happy family, this scene united, or anything like that. Everyone should complain if there is a problem, and people say, oh you wouldnt like it if it was on the other foot. Thats a bunch of bullshit because Ive had kids become decent friends of mine, who I met because this did a totally shitty review of Lifes Blood. Oh yeah, youre the one who said were a total Void rip off, and I become friends with the kid and hes like, Im really sorry. I didnt mean to write that bad review. I would much rather see an honest bad review than one thats like, this is a good record, its got that New York sound.

SAM: I dont want to be involved in some sort of scene or sub-culture where everyone is friends with everyone else and theres no possible chance for change or anything. Thats fucking mainstream garbage. Thats the cover of an Insted record. Thats that kind of attitude.

ADAM: The first one, Bonds of Friendship.

SAM: Yeah, because the second one rules [sarcasm], oh there I am talking shit about a band again. I just dont want to be involved with anything where there is no criticism, where there is no chance of challenge or...

ADAM: Our real friends tell us if we totally bit the big one when we play and stuff. Like some of our friends said that we shouldnt even put out the record, the 7 that we put out,Oh, I dont know, that 7 sounds terrible, you shouldnt put it out. Theyre still our friends, theyre our great friends.

SAM: Weve sucked live in such an incredibly big way at times. Up in Canada, god I wouldnt even have wanted to... I think we were the worst band ever in Canada. Ive never seen a band as bad as we were at that show.

JAVIER: It was because Sam wore a dress.

SAM: Yeah it was because I wore a dress, that was the main reason.

KENT: Didnt you have some debate with In-Effect on some radio station?

ADAM: That was more like people as representatives of entities, like Charles who does Mind Set and sings for Rorschach, and me because Im a big mouth, and Sam because of Vermiform and Dear Jesus, and weve basically covered it before, but all I would like to say is...

SAM: It was the three of us versus Pete and Lou from Sick of it All and Steve Martin from In-Effect.

ADAM: And it was supposedly mediated by Marlene, who is a DJ for Crucial Chaos which is a hardcore show, and Sam Evac from Evacuate Records. They didnt really mediate. The only problem to me was, and weve said it in interviews before, we thought there was going to be a certain common plane that we were both going to be approaching the problem on, and the problem was in the middle of whether they were just commercial garbage or not, whether they were bending to the powers that be or whether they were, you know, a great rock band, and we werent on the same plane. We were trying to approach it from... Okay, now go ahead and justify yourselves based on the hardcore DIY ethic, and they were like, No, fuck that, this is our job. This is rock and roll, this is the business, this is what Im going to do for my life. So it was just out the window before we started. We didnt realize that they werent talking about the same kind of hardcore we were talking about. Hardcore as defined by Pete, and kick my ass if you will, but this is just a quote, Hardcore is about being hard, its about kicking some ass. So thats hardcore all right, thats why the debate didnt work. They yelled and we tried to talk. We looked like total assholes. We brought notes.

SAM: Actually we didnt bring notes, we brought fanzines.

ADAM: Yeah I brought fanzines with like stuff highlighted... we looked like idiots.

SAM: Yeah, Im glad we did it, but it was stupid. Im not going to attempt any more dialogues with people, Im just going to continue on with my business.

ADAM: Well it depends on what the situation is because it should go on.

SAM: And also the most important way for us to combat what we see is wrong with the major label thing is by building up our own label and thats what Im putting most of my energy into right now.

KENT: Theres always a lot of criticism of other bands and stuff, but do you think that any kind of hardcore is really doing anything?

SAM: I dont understand the question.

KENT: Well you always find bands saying that what other bands are doing is not legitimate as hardcore, but is there any hardcore that is legitimate as some kind of... as more than simply music?

ADAM: I think so. It sounds stupid, but when I was in high school and suburbia if I didnt stumble across hardcore I might be dead right now. So many people, I know I have friends that... if we didnt have hardcore we would just be like total fucking wash-ups, total losers. We would be in drug rehab with our friends or living with our mothers or working in a gas station or dead...

ADAM: It just in a sense that it has saved the total suburban white kid.

SAM: A lot of people dont seem to realize that the medium for a large part is the message, and this is a very ugly form of music or at least it should be. A lot of so called hardcore bands are nothing more than dressed-up metal bands or a subgenre of metal. I mean this is a very ugly form of music, and I think, I mean are you talking about specific bands?

KENT: No not in specific, just in general.

ADAM: Do you think it has potential...

KENT: Does it have any potential to do anything?

SAM: I think it has a lot of potential, but maybe not in the common sense. I dont think it has the potential in the grand sense of changing things immediately. Someone talked to us in an interview and said, Dont you think there is going to be a revolution soon? I dont think there is going to be a revolution in the common sense, but hardcore is and of itself revolutionary in that it is extremely ugly, it will forever remain non mainstream...

ADAM: Well, its not very ugly right now. Born Against might be ugly, and like maybe Econochrist or Neanderthal or something, but its not ugly music always.

SAM: The point is, go to a friends house where their parents are very normal and say, Listen, I have this tape of some really ugly music that I would like to play for you, put it on the stereo and theyre going to get upset, and theyre going to tell you to turn it off, and that is a good thing because youre challenging something that...

ADAM: And thats fun. Youre not even really challenging, youre just pissing them off and youre having fun.

KENT: When youre talking about ugly music, it seems like, I cant help thinking of the whole grind core thing and that seems to be the most non-productive cliquish little sub-genre of nothing that theyre just so...

ADAM: Were not talking about that when we say hardcore.

KENT: I understand what youre saying, but they play the ugliest music that is being played right now and I think it is totally irrelevant to everything.

ADAM: But by ugly we mean flying in the face of...

SAM: Ugly as unacceptable, ugly as in you cant dance to it, which is why as much as I like... say for example... I hate to use examples because then we get accused of talking shit, but as much as I really admire Fugazis stances on a lot of stuff, I dont dig their music. You know why? Because you can go to a college dorm room, pop it into the tape deck and people will dance to it, and I dont consider that extremely challenging or threatening because you can fucking be-bop around the room to it.

ADAM: But then again, I kind of do like some Fugazi.

SAM: Oh, and I shouldnt even say that because I fucking totally dig some Fugazi.

ADAM: Dig? is that the new thing now?

SAM: P.S. fuck you.

JAVIER: But go into the same room and play Napalm Death and youll get thrown out.

SAM: And thats good because it disturbs these people. It doesnt fit into their fucking framework. The parents of some of the people in Rorschach took one look at the fucking front and back cover of that record and they were like, What in the hell is going on here? They couldnt even understand it, it was beyond their point of reference.

ADAM: I think back to when I brought In God We Trust Inc. and a Suicidal Tendencies album home and showed them to my mom...

JAVIER: Try telling my mom Im in a band called Born Against.

KENT: But does shock for shocks effect mean anything? Isnt there a lot more effective things to do?

JON: Enough of the time it leads to a deeper appreciation. That one percent says Hey, whats this? Thats the people were hanging around with, going to shows with.

SAM: Shock shouldnt be used as a means to its own end. John who is our roadie on this thing was in a band called Thirty-Seven Mutilated Homosexual Babies and Im sure if you gave their demo to an adult they would go, Hey, what is this? That doesnt really accomplish much because thats where its effectiveness ends. Its shocking once and then it gets thrown in the trash.

ADAM: Thats the example of shock thats dog shit.

SAM: Pick up a Born Against record and we have a picture of a woman in bondage right next to a picture of a monkey in a restraining device as a means to communicate a message, not because it is an ugly brutal picture, or a set of pictures - it is - but because it would also hopefully lead to a deeper investigation of why those two pictures are next to each other. Gee, why would someone put a picture of a woman in bondage next to an animal in bondage? Whats the connection? That is what we are trying to achieve and I think in that case shock is very effective.

KENT:This is kind of changing the subject drastically, but since you bring that up, do you think there are a lot of connections between animal rights and sexism?

SAM: Totally, Adams the best one to talk to about that.

ADAM: Well, I didnt really think about it until I read a flyer that I got from a N.O.W. chapter from a group that I think is from San Francisco or Berkeley called Feminists for Animal Rights. All you really have to think of is what are women called that is derogatory? Every derogatory name for a female is an animal, and its derogatory because you are calling them an animal, which implies that the animal is an inferior piece of shit.

SAM: Youre lower than the white male.

ADAM: Theres just like outrageous connections between sexism and speciesism, like I was paging through Sports Illustrated and I saw this thing about a rodeo where you knock down a calf and put womens underwear on it. And it is pretty much of a chuckle, but there is really something there. There is something in peoples psyche of male domination that makes them do that besides the fact that it is just wacky. There is really something there for why people are doing things like that. Just anywhere you go, I wish I could think of some more right now, but there are so many gross examples like that.

SAM: Im reading a book by Andrea Dworkin called Pornography, and she has a long thing about a picture she came across looking through a Hustler magazine of two guys in a pick-up truck with a woman spread eagle on the front naked, and they both have shotguns, and shes tied to the front and the caption reads Beaver Hunters. That says it right there. One of the reasons that were trying to point this out is because there is this new slew of people, some of them associated with the Hard Line thing, and others just acting independently, who are real into the whole veganism thing and who are really straight edge, but abortion is murder and you cant be a faggot and all of this stuff. They dont make the most fundamental connections, and I think its really tragic that people who have gotten to that point where they are interested in veganism and not exploiting animals arent also making those same connections about the exploitation of women. Read through the Hard line statement. Im not talking about the band statement, Im talking about the political statement as drafted by this Sean from Vegan Reich. Its full of little things like that. You know, mans mission, and sexual deviants, and its scary and frightening and sad at the same time that something which had the potential... people have apparently have the drive to be so motivated as to alienate themselves from 99% of the hardcore scene cant make the simple fucking connection that all of these things are connected and that yes, a woman does in fact have the right, the very simple right to control her own fucking body, to have control over her own womb, and this is connected to the fact that an animal raised, a veal calf that was factory farmed doesnt have the right to its own life. Its all a part of the same big fucking mess.

ADAM: Although I wouldnt want to give any of those fore mentioned bands or people much credit for being anything real at all because they dont play any shows...

SAM: And in six months theyre going to be back driving their Camaros.

ADAM: Nobody knows who are in those bands, theyve been around forever and no one cares about them. I just hope that no one ever does care about them, and if you read some of their warroir-learn-a-martial-art-use-plastic-explosives stuff they just reveal their past. Theyre all Dungeons and Dragons freaks or something. Thats not real. Its like that Hüsker Dü song Real World. Thats just not real people stuff, and theyre not going to do it, they dont do it.

SAM: This isnt to discredit groups like the A.L.F., there are real people doing stuff extremely dangerous, putting themselves on the line.

ADAM: But theyre not Sean Vegan Reich. Anyone with a brain in their head, anyone who has read a paragraph about the A.L.F. knows that someone who is in the A.L.F., someone that even knows someone who has done something for the A.L.F. doesnt fucking speak a word about it in their entire life or the C.I.A. will be monitoring them, and there will be all kinds of people monitoring them and it will be the end of their freedom as they know it. You do not make flyers about blowing things up.

SAM: If youre doing real shit and youre not careful about it then youre going to end up in prison for a long time. Ive seen a lot of pamphlets in New York about how to blow up a Shell station. First of all, the people handing out these pamphlets, as much as they are friends of mine and good people, and this is not in anyway a slag on the peace punk scene in New York because there are great wonderful people involved in that, but no one is going to be blowing up a Shell station...

ADAM: If they do it is cool but...

SAM: And if any of these people are going to blow up a Shell station and they advertise it then they are going to get thrown in jail for a very long time and they wont be doing anything else but eating jello on Sundays and mash potatoes on Thursdays and living up to the strict jail regiment, and well bring em new 7s and come visit them on Sundays.

KENT: Back to the issue of abortion, how would you counter that argument, like Vegan Reichs argument is simply that you have this care for life... how do you define it as not being murder? In your mind how have you decided that a fetus is not a living being?

ADAM: We dont decide, its my girlfriends and my mothers and his mothers and his sisters decision.

SAM: Yeah, first of all, I dont think its an issue to be quarreled over by white males alone, and thats not to say that we dont have some hand in it, but primarily its not our issue.

KENT: But couldnt you then extend that to like a one year old? Whats the difference between...

SAM: The difference is that no one has the right to appropriate someone elses body, and as far as you go there is no legal precedent in this country or any other country for someone to use someone elses body. You cant use someone elses liver if your liver is in trouble. Im sorry, no judge in the United States of America is going to let it happen, and if youre a fetus - great, then you will evolve into a human being, wonderful, good luck, but you dont have the right to use your mothers body if she doesnt want you in there. Thats the bottom line. Also, where do you draw the line? Do you draw the line at preconception? There are a lot of slippery slopes that get crossed extremely quickly by the people of the conservative ilk, do you ban contraceptives in the US? Ban dating? I mean...

ADAM: Yeah, a lot of people who are conservative... this doesnt really answer your question about where we stand, but a lot of people that are conservative or even just people that are against abortion are against birth control because they think it is the same as abortion, and especially the pill because they say you are aborting the egg or just not letting it implant in the wall, or they are against the I.U.D. because it does the same thing. They dont offer any solutions except like castration and chastity belts.

SAM: Or dont be promiscuous. Okay, great, thats really good advice...[sarcastic] I can understand where some of these people come from, partially because I used to definitely be pretty anti-choice, definitely not as publicly vocal as I am pro-choice now. I understand those connections, but what it comes down to is the fact that if the fetus is a life then what about the woman? Is she a human being too? I think if a lot of these people examined their values theyre going to find that theyre not according a woman even her simple right to be a human being.

ADAM: Also, something that is really important that I have talked about with my girlfriend, and with other women too, is that males, to stereotype for a second, are being objective, and scientific, and philosophical and all this crap, but its a totally emotionally charged... Its more of an emotional issue for a woman than we could ever imagine, to decide whether there is this thing growing inside you that may have some capacity for life, whether to get rid of it or not... I dont know. Its just so beyond our comprehension. I think it is wise of us to accept the fact that it is beyond our comprehension, just like I think it is wise of us to accept that there are no answers as far as like Krishna being a big snake with six arms and a womans head and a green dress, and Jesus being up on a cross with a beard and blue eyes and stuff... We cant hold on to all of these absolutes. I think it would be really intelligent of us as people, as males we will never know or we will never be able to come up for the right answer for that, and as humans in this physical world we will never be able to come up with the right answer for that, and as humans in this physical world we will never really be able to come up with the real answer for all these silly questions that Krishnas and... well theyre not silly questions, but silly answers that Krishnas, Christians, and Mormons come up with.

KENT: On the Krishna subject, from your position how do you think it is justified that you can say that someone is dead because they have joined the Krishnas?

SAM: That song is totally metaphorical.

KENT: I understand that it is metaphorical, but I think that it goes deeper than that.

SAM: The guy who the song was written about, youre talking about Eulogy. Steve Reddy wrote me a letter, and I havent answered it. I just have it lumped in a big pile of mail, and I dont know what the fuck Im going to say to him. He said, Hey look, Im still alive. and he sent me a little picture of him feeding this cow on a farm. Great, wonderful, but I have all the values that he has and I didnt have to surrender myself to some higher power, or pray to someone elses words, or go through the rules... you got to wear the beads and you got to do this and that... its just a metaphor, hes still alive. Also I think hes going to be out of it in a few years. I know very few Krishna people that have stuck with it just because the simple fact that you get too fucking...

ADAM: Because theyre hardcore kids. Theyre all confused.

SAM: Yeah, and also it takes a massive amount of energy to adapt your psyche to this rigid ideology, to fit your mind to this ideology. Sooner or later youre just going to run out of that energy and youre going to say, Fuck it, I cant deal with this anymore.

ADAM: Were not saying that we have the answers, were saying that were totally confused, but when theyre saying that they have the answers were saying bullshit youre confused too!

SAM: I dont consider myself, weve been tagged as atheists, I dont consider myself an atheist.

ADAM: Im not either.

SAM: Im not stupid enough to say I have the answers. Other bands have said it better than us... if you love god then burn a church and offend preachers with your nasty records.

KENT: Going back to the whole major label thing, what do you think about the fact that Dischord made something like $90,000 last year?

SAM: Great.

KENT: You think its great?

SAM: More power to them.

ADAM: Thumbs up.

SAM: Money is a good thing, make lots of money, know how to do it well, dont fuck over other people to survive, as Seth Tobocman wisely put it. You dont have to screw over other people to make money.

ADAM: Thats the most beautiful example of it ever.

SAM: Dischord is the number one example. They are doing it right. Theyre making good bucks doing good things. More power to them. hallelujah. Thats it right there.

ADAM: Like when we did our debate Steve Martin said to me, Yeah I remember a Lifes Blood interview where you said Fugazi sucks, well youre singing their praises now. Well, whether I like Fugazi, or Fire Party, or the repressed Grey Matter album... its like so irrelevant. Thats missing the point, but his point was that Im a backstabber and that Ill just use anything to further my point.

SAM: Were all cry baby bed wetters as was quoted in Village Noize. Make lots of money doing good things and then put it right back into doing good things.

ADAM: I go to see bands that do good things, that I dont even like the music of.

SAM: You know I plan on making a lot of money with Vermiform Records, the only thing Im going to do with it is put...

ADAM: That sounds a little crass, we dont know if this stuff is going to sell at all.

SAM: Okay, but assuming I do make lots of money with Vermiform Records then Im going to put it right back into helping more people with their bands and putting out good music and hoping possibly to break our scene, especially in New York, out of this stagnant fucking cesspool that it has been in the last four years. And that is why I would like to be your next mayor, thank you.

KENT: On the whole, I dont know if I really want to go into it but what the hell? On the subject of the Mid-East crisis, a lot of hardcore people have been talking about the draft, do you really think that it is any kind of reality?

SAM: I didnt until I went to up-state New York where my parents live. Im visiting my Dad, sitting down and having dinner, he said, So what are you going to do? I said, Oh well, I dont really know yet, you know, hopefully it wont come to that. I dont think it will come to that... I think something bad is going to happen, but I dont think it will involve them calling up a draft because that would be too politically unstable...

KENT: But not even that, do you even think that something could last that long?

SAM: It could, the thing I hadnt even though of that my Dad brought up...

ADAM: Even during the height of the Cold War that I lived through, that I can remember, from like maybe 79 to whatever - 85 or 86, I never heard some of the talk youre hearing now. I mean maybe in three months when this is all over were going to laugh about this and think I was a paranoid idiot, but I never heard terms and euphemisms like weapons of mass destruction, and we all know what they mean, that are being used by Saddam Hussein and George Bush, and if you ever saw this movie called Threads made by the BBC, its like the same exact situation.

KENT: But isnt the fact that they have said that, I mean over December Cheney said that they would use nuclear weapons if Hussein uses chemical weapons, and if they are going to do that then it wont last more than a few days.

SAM: Well what my dad brought up is that as other parties get involved, specifically Israel... Israel is one of the most crazy fucked up racist countries in the world, fucking bonkers, off the wall, theyve got a hundred to two hundred nuclear weapons, and once they get involved with this, with either troops or nuclear weapons...

ADAM: The first thing they say is that if Saddam Hussein finds out that the U.S. is taking military action, a lot of people theorize that the first thing hes gunna do is launch everything he can at Israel to bring in all the Arab people who are supposedly United States allies on the side of Iraq because the war will then be against Israel too.

SAM: And yes, I could definitely see a situation in which those weapons were used in which it was also prolonged in which it was also prolonged in which we just sent troops out to a bombed out desert to keep going at it.

ADAM: Yeah, and who knows what the future holds? Maybe there will be a war fought with the battlefield nuclear weapons that is contained and is just really horrible.

SAM: The United States has small megaton weapons that can be carried by one individual or a group of individuals, and also weapons that can be carried in vehicles that could destroy only part of a town, they would still be atomic, still produce fallout. The other thing that has to be remembered is that the United States fights its war according to the last war, and were planning on this war according to the doctrines of the Vietnam War and World War II because they... the Vietnam War we cant play up too much because we got our ass kicked in that one by the little gooks over there, but anything could happen that the U.S. wont be prepared for because they havent fought a war in the desert, at least not in this century.

ADAM: Yes they have, in World War II in North Africa.

SAM: Okay, I apologize, but anyway we arent prepared for this kind of situation, and there are a million variables which could come up that would throw us totally off, and U.S. forces have even admitted that they dont know what the fuck is going to happen. One of the big wigs over there General-whatshisfucking...

ADAM: Joe Smith.

SAM: Yeah, Joe Smith, he was given the boot because he publicly stated that he didnt know what the fuck was going to happen, if x and x and x happens, and when youve got variables like that, plus the fact that youve got nuclear and chemical and I would assume biological, which is probably one of the scariest things of all, because you cant control the spread of that.

ADAM: Hey, one spoonful of botulism is enough to kill the entire planet, pure botulism.

SAM: Although I dont think we have to worry about that because I think Hussein has proven himself stable enough that he wouldnt introduce that, I mean like it is obvious, if hes done everything else that he has already done, all these horrible atrocities which, yes, are very bad, but were also in part U.S. engineered, then whos to say that if he got his hand on some new fucking horrible weapon and if he was held up in his palace in Baghdad or his office or whatever, his corporate headquarters in Baghdad or whatever, and if he knew he was going to get the fucking shit blown out of him in twenty-four hours anyway, whos to say he wouldnt loose salmonella Strain 31B on the rest of the human population, and a year later we would have 5 billion human corpses laying around the planet. Theres a million things that could happen. And I really hope that were reading issue ..10 of No Answers a year from now and laughing about this, but after my Dad sort of talked to me about this Ive been thinking about it a lot more. A lot of things are possible.

ADAM: All we can say is that every single person we know isnt going which is a good thing. Like no matter what, I mean every single person that I know, that I hang around with that I consider a human being isnt going no matter what.

SAM: In a way its good that this whole thing has dragged out as long as it has because its given the organized left a lot more opportunity to stage a...

ADAM: There is no organized left.

SAM: Yeah, youre right, I shouldnt say that. The disorganized left, its given them a chance...

ADAM: There isnt even a left. There isnt one.

SAM: The splinter-fucks, its give them a chance to at least show some sort of dissent at this.

ADAM: A wimpy ass version of dissent, there isnt any.

SAM: Part of it is that none of us were expecting this, we were expecting a war in Latin America, I was totally expecting that. And sure this has thrown us for a loop.

ADAM: People dont care because it takes about, how long would it take? It would take about five days, less than that for people to organize a massive protest if everybody wanted to go, but nobody wants to go.

SAM: And the first one in New York was really bogus. There were a lot of fucked up things that happened. It took them two and a half months to organize it.

ADAM: Even in animal rights, a protest that I was going to two years ago was attended by six thousand people, this year it was attended by less than two thousand people.

SAM: Its very hard to maintain a level of commitment, and were totally included in that. Its hard to keep up the good work providing your dissent, and if you slip then the fuckers will call you on it. There used to be a series of fur ads in New York about a year ago that were on the defensive. There was one fur ad in the New York Times that was how to answer people when they insulted you for wearing a fur coat...

ADAM: And this year the ad is Fur is the fashion of choice. Its on the sides of all the buses. Instead of like answers for people that heckle you this year the ad says I love furs. My neighbor got one, and now I have one too. and there is another one, Tom got one for Judy, so I got one for Rose.

SAM: And it is because less and less people are calling them on it.

KENT: Do you think that there will ever be a left in the U.S. that isnt just a lesser shade of conservative?

SAM: I wouldnt make any grand predictions for the next ten years, but of course history moves in such huge surges and what may be left in a hundred years may be totally alien to us. It may deal with issues that we have not even the smallest conception of.

ADAM: Its kind of weird because the definition of a liberal as the people who coined the phrase meant it is pretty divorced from what you call a liberal now, so maybe in a hundred years from now what the left wing will be may be totally bizarre.

SAM: Good example: in the post new revolution Soviet Union they use the term left and right in the exact opposite way that we would use left and right.

ADAM: Because the left is the government.

SAM: And yeah, the left is the government over there, and I think the terms are very vague...

ADAM: I dont think that any of us are politically educated enough to ever make a prediction.

SAM: In terms of there being an organized resistance to the establishment, I think that will come again, probably not in the next ten years. My prediction for the 90s is that it is going to be a big fucking rehash of all the same diarrhea that we were fed in the 80s, only much more cleaned up, much more homogenized. Thats already going on right now, youve got Vanilla Ice the new rap. Rap is no longer dangerous. Youve got the new disco, which is every single fucking pop band. Youve got the new hardcore, every fucking little tiny cleaned up straight edge band that doesnt really want to sing about political issues. They want to sing about friendship and how committed they are to their ideals. Think about the generic thrash bands of 1984, all those bands were singing, Fuck Reagan, and everyone was going, Oh, its so generic, but thats the point. That genericism was a wonderful and refreshing thing when you consider the fact that there were no pop musicians singing, Fuck Reagan. The pop musicians were singing, Now look at me wagging my penis, or, Look at me swing my breasts to the beat of the music. Blah, blah, blah....

ADAM: You havent had much to say tonight.

SAM: I forgot what I was going to say. Hi, Im Sam, Im the singer.

KENT: Um, Im kind of curious because you make a lot of derogatory statements about straight edge bands, but it seems to me that you hold a lot of those same ideals?

ADAM: Totally,but I dont know if we will ever sing about it, and its not really the main thing about the band. its totally generic what Im about to say here because every single band who isnt straight edge says it, but not everybody in the band is straight and nobody in the band abuses drugs...

SAM: Weve had problems with members who were doing some serious shit like sniffing glue.

ADAM: Not serious, just silly.

SAM: I would consider sniffing glue pretty apocryphal.

ADAM: Its self-destructive, but it is just silly. But anyway, the only way that we like to look at it is in an extremely political, the far reaching political sense. Like everybody at ABC NO RIO had a big discussion with Dave M.D.C. about it. It was really cool. We were saying, Why do you say fuck rockn roll, why do you say dont eat meat dont dehumanize people, but then you say: smoke a little spliff? Because you say the government fed you all those other things, but then you decide arbitrarily that the government didnt feed you the idea to go smoke a little spliff, and the government isnt killing people for it? The conversation just meandered with him saying the same thing and us saying the same thing. I think he is a totally cool guy. He changed my life with some of those records, so Im not trying to criticize M.D.C., Im just trying to make an example of the way a lot of people that Im friends with think about drugs and alcohol, and they acknowledge the fact that it is state sponsored destruction and control of people.

SAM: There is a heavy political element to it that took me a really long time to pick up on. Ive never had, I mean like I had a sip of my Dads beer when I was six, but Ive never smoked cigarettes, never taken drugs, never drank any beer, never had any coffee, I was never into it. And right before I got into hardcore, you know when I was like 14 I was starting to wonder what the fuck was the matter with me, and then I got into hardcore and it was like, Great, I have a gang of people that accept me and I can fit in with them and this what Im going to be. And for awhile I was, Id say militant asshole about it, except that I was in a place in up-state New York where there wasnt enough going on to be really militant about, but where I live in New York I would have hooked up with all the people who were really militant ly assholish about it, and it took me a while to pick up on the political context to it, but Im still totally straight and I have lots of friends who drink and do drugs, and the main thing that gets me about it, especially the peace punk people in New York, they dont make the connection that their fucking weed is grown by the...whoever, the fucking Contras down their raping and killing people.

ADAM: Especially with pot you cant always say that.

SAM: Yeah, I cant totally say that with pot.

KENT: Ahh, so much of it is imported from 3rd World countries, I mean probably 85% of it.

ADAM: There was an amazing thing that really disturbed the hell out of me that I saw on a news magazine show called 48 Hours about all these people in Appalachia and Arkansas and stuff, like Ministers and old women growing it in their back yard, and people like the hippies up in Northern California, and I guess they were cutting into the profits of the government or somebody in the mafia or somebody really powerful, and so they were knocking out their livelihood and these people were like, Well, I guess its going to be a lean Christmas this year. I feel terrible for those people, and I say to those people, If you can get away with it then grow 20 acres of pot and go sell it and have a great Christmas, because those people have been fucked so hard. Thats the only thing they can do. And the same thing, depending on who they are going to sell it to, I would say the same thing to the fucking street urchin crack dealer, but I dont know... I would rather not talk about it, in terms of the band, in such personal terms as when I was 14 I did this and that because Im not really sure...

SAM: When we were in Canada me and Adam played with big fat Xs on our hands soley for the purpose of pissing off all the politically minded peace punk people up there, because we knew it was such an easy thing. If we got up on stage and talked about rape, and talked about war, and everything else then they were going to go Yeah, right on and wave their giant 40 ozs at us, but me and Adam got up there with big fat Youth of Today Xs on our hands and went, Fuck Drugs and they went, yeah, fuck you. I dont think we are going to be playing too many more shows with Xs on our hands just because it is so mindlessly pathetic, but I dont disagree with Youth of Today because they were a straight edge band, I disagree with them...

ADAM: Some of there reasons for being straight edge werent the best.

KENT: Do you think that... the problem I have with it, I mean I dont see punk rock being too terribly effective on any level {Actually, I think it is extremely effective in many ways, but some punk is just shit}, but I think the political bands are so much less effective than the straight edge bands because they say all kinds of bullshit but they never do anything.

ADAM: Well, they set themselves up to be, I mean they ask for it, you know? I mean you just ask for it when you make all these promises and pretend that youre going to knock the system over. Conflict was like one of the best bands ever and they didnt knock over anything. They got big universal product codes on all their records now, and theyre distributed by Revolver which is part of E.M.I. and they have a record called Only Stupid Bastards Help EMI only they are distributed by Revolver which is a part of E.M.I. I mean their problem which makes them so ineffectual is that they just totally paint themselves into a corner, so wherever they go they are going to turn into hypocrites. Thats in the best of all possible worlds the reason why they dont do anything, in reality a lot of the reason these people dont do anything is because hey are just as lazy as I am, I mean they like television too.

SAM: I think some of the lyrics on our 7 that I wrote border on that kind of setting yourself up for something, which Im being much more conscious of steering away from.

ADAM: What do you mean, like Half Mast? Because I wrote that.

SAM: No, no, Nine Years Later and Witness to a Rape, to be specific, bordered a little too much towards all encompassing, being grand, like What are we going to do about these problems? And I really dont want to present my own lyric writing like that. The reason that I address those issues is because that fuels me to get up on a stage in front of fifty people and scream until my blood vessels burst, and whearas singing about friendships and blah, blah, blah, wouldnt do it.

KENT: Wait, the friendship part aside, I mean I think that is the cop-out of everybody who criticizes straight edge, to say unity and friendship. I mean my point is that legitimately the things that straight edge bands are talking about are actually achievable and affect other peoples lives, whereas a lot of things that the political bands are talking about dont affect anyone because no one is going to do anything. {Specifically, Im saying that straight edge at its fundamental base is offering a lifestyle change that people can and do achieve, and in that I believe they learn to take control of their lives and the quality of their life is heightened in the process, whereas few people are capable or are even willing to actively strive to achieve political change. Political ideas and discussion has a definite value, but there needs to be ways for people to address these issues in a tangible way. Abstaining from the use of products that are controlled by conservative and damaging corporations is an example of a tangible way to promote change, but it is unrealistic to believe that simply singing a song about war, starvation, or rage will affect these issues in any tangible way. If people decide to address these larger issues then they really need to formulate a realistic plan for action that can be legitimately after an alternative.}

ADAM: When we talk about that, and I know we really cant do it, but we would have to talk real specific because there are straight edge bands that Im into that say this and that, like 7 Seconds...Walk together, rock together, build your own scene, do your own fanzine, of course that was really cool, but Crippled Youth is supposed to be straight edge , ha, ha, too, and K-Town Mosh Crew and Id like to see a skate punk sitting next to a mosh maniac whatever...Theyre both supposed to be straight edge bands, and then you take some ridiculous band like... I dont know, I dont want to talk extra, extra shit.

SAM: We can t even make up a name about that kind of name, though, because all of those names have been covered. If we say Against the Wall, or whatever...

ADAM: No, I was going to use the example of peace punk bands, like you say a peace punk band that stayed small and did a lot of shit for, like, whatever. Like M.D.C. they changed people on a personal level even though they are a political band. I always say it, I guess it is getting beaten to death, but the fucking day I bought Millions of Dead Children I decided to become a vegetarian.

KENT: Didnt we all...

ADAM: SO Im just saying that that was achievable. To be a political band doesnt mean you cant be personal. I think Ignition is extremely political and personal.

SAM: Yeah, Ignition did a beautiful job of that.

ADAM: And I think even some Fugazi songs handle it pretty well, like handle the border between personal and political pretty well, bringing it down to a real level.

SAM: A lot of 70s feminists coined the slogan personal is political and that was mostly for bored housewives that didnt realize that all the shit they had thrown at them from their fucking husbands and their parents, that was political and they werent isolated, and I think the slogan personal is political can be adapted very easily to us tough punk rockers.

JON: An interesting story that my mother told me: she used to go door to door to try to win people over for the E.R.A. back in the early 70s, and one of the quotes she told me a housewife said was, I dont like to sign petitions, I might get in trouble. That was the way of thinking.

SAM: Thats it right there.

ADAM: Getting back to the trivializing the whole thing after he made that important statement, a band like Embrace didnt particularly sing about anything political, all their songs were basically about friendship or... and thats like one of my all-time favorite records. Its the way that it is handled with most of these straight edge bands, its not really what they are talking about, its not really that they are talking about this subject that we have something against, its the way it is handled, and its handled with rhymes like head/dead, die/try, decide/ride... its got that rhyme scheme- A,B,A,B, thing.

SAM: Which renders it useless; which renders it ineffectual.

ADAM: Im kind of insulted that they want me to listen to this thing that they put no thought or effort into, but I listen to the Embrace record and I know they put a whole shitload of thought and effort into it, just like when I opened up Millions of Dead Children and I saw a big giant fucking poster and the music sounded really cool and everything else. I wasnt insulted because they took me as a person that was worth all this different information and that was intelligent enough to take it all in, but when I pick up the new Apocalyptic Genocide record on Earache and all the songs are just like...

JAVIER: Hugh, hugh, hugh, hugh... [fast]

ADAM: Yeah, thats insulting unless youre just into it for the music, and some of those bands Im pretty much into for the music.

JAVIER: Im just into the music.

ADAM: Were not stupid enough to go out and make political theories out of grindcore bands, but we do like them.

SAM: I feel a little weird doing a fanzine and being in a band now, especially because the last issue I put out had our record in it, because Im totally critical of all these other bands and then I put myself on the line...

ADAM: Thats good.

SAM: Yeah, its very good. Im glad Im doing it, yeah Im glad Im doing it because its one more kick in the ass to Sam Mcpheeters, but...

ADAM: And he needs many more, and after this interview comes out hell probably get them.

JAVIER: Not only in the head, but in your ass, ribs, back...

KENT: Where do you think you fit in, or do you think you do at all?

SAM: I think a lot of people dont know. Our plan right now is just to be totally fucking productive motherfuckers, just do as much shit as possible in the shortest amount of time and make people decide for themselves. We were having a problem with that for awhile. We had a lot of member problems, but things are pretty solid right no and were moving at a good pace and well be recording our LP in a couple of months, and doing a tour in the summer, and record after that, and get this record label going, and...

ADAM: I know we always bring it back to some hardcore band, but...

SAM: Thats good, I think its good that were rooted in our own history.

ADAM: In a bad way, or maybe in a good way, Im narrow minded enough to always be making references to hardcore like Im some fucking history teacher or something. The reason that I would imagine that the Teen Idles or Black Flag started is because those people didnt fit in anywhere, and not to say that there arent people that we fit in with because there is a whole room of them out there that I like, but thats the reason to get a band together. Even though those people started at a lot more of a square one, we feel in some ways like we are starting at square one. In ideas we are starting at square one, whereas they had to start at square one materially as well. I mean, they couldnt just go out and sell their records to people. There wasnt even a way to sell them.
Sunday, August 27, 2006 
BORN AGAINST
notes on "The Rebel Sound of Shit and Failure" and "Nine Patriotic Hymns for Children + Battle Hymns of the Race War"

Living from day to day when you are on fire with a gigantic idea is not only hard on you, but on those who must live with you.
- George Lincoln Rockwell

Bands may feel like larger, more complicated marriages to those involved, but they rarely act like divorces after the fact. Not many failed marriages are followed by years of enduring merchandise and reissue questions. And not many ex-couples come under such pressure, internal and external, to reunite. Since there really is no threat of a Born Against reunion, this month's CD reissues on Kill Rock Stars will have to do duty as the band's 21st century comeback. Double duty, actually; Vermiform Records, B.A.'s parent label I started in 1990 with a surprise lump of family cash, has recently gone belly up. For a few years Vermiform was like my private jumbo jet, able to take me anywhere in comfort and style. Then, for a long period, it was like a crashed jet whose hull would at least protect me from the elements. Only last year did the sheltering metaphor enter its inevitable third phase - Vermiform had become a sinking jet at sea, one whose carcass I would have to quickly find my way out of before being dragged down into the depths. There are many bad parts to this bankruptcy, but loss of the Born Against catalog is not one of them. I'm happy to finally get some distance from this stuff, and honored that KRS would so readily agree to raise these two little orphans (Prank takes on the vinyl, starting next month, for which I am similarly thankful).
Although Born Against was a part of a small, influential hardcore revival in the early 90's, I should note that this was a band formed in and shaped by the eighties. B.A was ambushed by 1991, blindsided not just by the year's bookend political shocks - war in the gulf and collapse of the USSR - but by cultural mutations, by grunge and Riot Grrrl, by the popularity of Fugazi and Lollapalooza. Of course, some of this is a little hard to remember. I try to describe my reasoning from this era to friends now, and all I can compare it to is the freaked out logic of cokeheads. Much hysteria was afoot during this band's tenure. Friendships were severed over petite inanities, under the guise of "calling people on their shit". Incoherent arguments were had. Bad writing was published. Speeches were given.
Two summers ago I arrived at the Gilman Street club in Berkeley with Men 's Recovery Project. An hour later, after our bass player announced he would not be playing the night's show, or any other shows on the three week tour across America, we set up a small, humbled merchandise table with fresh Born Against shirts, the only products certain to sell. This is an enduring ceremony of the touring band; convert merchandise into cash, convert cash into food, convert food into cellular energy to survive.
But Born Against itself was acquainted with this survival ceremony on an opt-out basis. The band had an underwriter. There is no way to honestly write about all this without addressing my money situation. And there is no way to address my money situation without treading into territory far too personal and painful to make public. So for years I just didn't discuss the band. Observers have since noted the obvious - that it is obnoxious for those with funds to critique those without funds, especially over issues where money is involved (and certainly there is something deeply gross about a song like "Well Fed Fuck" when sung by someone who is in the process of shedding a small personal fortune). This internal contradiction might have become an overpowering obstacle, if certain staggering mental problems on my part hadn't made the issue moot by '93. When the last of the money dribbled away that spring, my financial ineptitudes were included in a list of indictments by the same New York crowd I had helped financially even a year earlier. It's not exactly karma for cokehead behavior, but it's close enough.
The band probably would have been doomed to irrelevance even if it hadn't lost its financing. Shows that in 1989 had attracted middle aged hippy couples and kindly squatters and benevolent, bucktoothed skinheads were, by 1993, a sea of disinterested young boys with backpacks. At a certain point, time invested outweighed artistic potential. Our last practice was held in Tonie Joy's basement (a joyful little museum cavern of lost junk, one of three underutilized treasures of the final incarnation of the band, along with drummer Brooks Headley and Tonie himself). Afterwards I walked down the quiet rural Annapolis street until I was completely alone, leaned on an aluminum guardrail and blubbered like a schoolgirl. I was crying not only out of band grief but because one of my last tenuous links to a normal life had just been severed. I was heading into a few terrible years of rootlessness; no job, no money, no girlfriend, no ambitions. The thin line separating me from the sad souls I saw in our audiences had been this band.
So these aren't the best memories to have been the gatekeeper of. I'm grateful to those who take on the responsibilities. Good luck with the CDs, Slim, Tobi, Tina, Maggie, Sasa, Aaron and Tricia. Good luck with the vinyl, Ken. Have fun with this stuff.

Sam McPheeters
February 2003

PS - If you like these records, I recommend buying one or both of the Articles Of Faith CD reissues, released on Alternative Tentacles this last fall. My liner notes are better, but in all other respects AOF were a towering JFK to Born Against's chubby Bill Clinton.
Currently listening:
Complete, Vol. 1: 1981-1983
By Articles of Faith
Release date: 15 October, 2002