.....But you are gonna have to rock without us this time around.We just cant make it this time round.

Aw fuck.

I knew that no one would update y'all so here I am .The bearer of totally shit news.

Reasons?

Too many at this point and I know that I should detail it a little more but....

I start writing on the new album with Ashley on tuesday and that should be one hell of a thing with stuff.

What else.....So many people have been up in my shit because I dropped the ball on "Whitetrash" so hard.I just got sick of myself to tell you the truth.Anyway if I tell y'all about this I will shame myself into action.Metzy being the all round star that she is has got me back on track....

So go check it out....

www.michelemadden.com

No shit.

We..still have plans for europe come the summer.So sorry to all who were looking foward to seeing us with Onslaught....Its been a real cunt of a summer what can I tell you.

I am going fishing.

Stay sick.

M

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See you in Austin!

You heard me right....

March 12th to 15th I think.....more details to follow.

My face hurts from smilin' so hard.

SF4L

M

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Home.....

Phew.

So I said my goodbyes and walked back to the HOD for the last time this year.I felt like a character in a David Bowie song as I made my way up the ramp for the last time.

I get inside thinking that I will have time to pack and clean up before going to the airpost at 4 in the morning...Sigh....No such luck...BTW,My bag weighed an ass shattering 36kgs....

"Michele!" says Shrodey as I walk in all damp and sighs "You gotta call Ross,You have a show tonite!"

"Huh???" says our dumbstruck heroine.

The boys had just spent the whole day taking all our backline home to the record company and even if we had a show how were....???

Fuck it ..So I call the bass god.

To cut a long fable short we ended up opening for Wednesday 13 at the Logo,Going to the Komit,Saying Goodbyes,Flying Hamburg to Frankfurt-(2 hrs)-Frankfurt to LA (14 Hrs) -8 Hrs stuck in LA ....Me and Ross went to the beach,LA to Sydney (14 Hours) and then I missed my connecting flight home....

It was like the last scene in Platoon man....On my Knees as the string section swelled and travel shot me in the back again.....

The jet lag really kicked the snot out of me this time but we have been back round a week now and I figure that I better get movin' once more.

(Soundtrack."Ramblin' man" The Allman bros)

heh.

The boys have all written to me and sound well.Its nice being able to take a bit of a break from eachother before it all starts again.They all sound well and thats all I ever want.

I met my goddaughter for the 1st time.7 months old and she owns my ass.I told her of all the mad assed shit we are gonna get up to and she made fart noises at me.Gotta be a Madden thing for sure.

Thanks for the letters about the new album.To all who dont know Utopia in Sydney are spreading the love for us here in Australia.They will send you a copy where ever ya need it.

All the euro distro links are on our page.

So many people have fallen away from me while I have been away so I figure that I am just gonna keep my head low and creep into my old life...What I am tryin' to say is that I will see ya when I see ya.

Just thought that I would let y'all know whats up....

SF4L

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Things are going to get completely messy from here on in so I thought that I would write while I still have the chance.Before 3 days of my outlaw life are sucked into the vortex that is international travel.

Before I get into my usual boring bullshit I want to thank every single sickfuck new and old who flew the flag for us this year.who fed us,let us crash at your houses,got merch and spread the word.....we are sweet fuck all without you and you rock.....

The last 2 shows were great.Thanks to all who showed up AND who looked up my skirt while I flung myself towards the cealing 15 feet in the air on my beloved swing at Whitetrash on friday night to Skid row.....
And yes,its on video....
Shameless really.

It took me the whole day to strip down my whorehouse of a bedroom.Trying to fit 8 months of your life into one bag really sucks the high hard one.
I have got a huge box of shit to store at the record company....Ross and Quigs are taking the backline out there tommrow.
I guess that I will stay here and tie up the last of my bullshit.
It started snowing as we were leaving Berlin so I know that my number is up here for another year.....

I hate the cold with a boundless passion.....

We recorded live tonite up at the studio.I blew my voice out.Super tired and all that....Ross has gone out so I am gonna eat and pass out....

So thats that then.We came,we saw,we blew in its face....

See you next summer....As for Australia?
Brace yourselves...we're commin home.

SF4L
Michele
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Heya....
Sleep is playin' fucky with me yet again.I shut my eyes and it floods me....My life, how its all gonna change again in the blink of an eye and a fuckin' long plane trip.
I think that I'm ok with it but ...well....you know what its like.
I walked past Quigs room before and sat on the stairs to listen to him play awhile.Killer.
He and Ross have had a kind of Bohnam/ Jones jam thing going on and its really kept me on my toes jamming with the drum and bass action.I like it.

Ash came in last nite when Ross and I were carving pumpkins with Scott and handed us some of the new tracks for the NEXT album....
He has been locked in his room writing away and down the end of the hall I am doin much of the same.
Some horrible emotions that make me blanch are making themselves known.I have to do this....

I know,when I read this shit back,these songs,that I may not be a good person but I am an honest one.

I have been packing all my shit up again and made Ross scan some old pictures ...he stuck em' in the gallery last night.

Remember the motto when you see the one of my lip...

"Michele Madden.All class.All the time"

*snort*

Thanks as always for all the letters and love.
Y'all rock.....

SF4L
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Oh my God!
2000 miles in 3 days and we did it!
The guys are all passed out and shit but due to pain and looking and feeling like I just did 10 rounds in a fight club I am awake but its all good.
I cant thank the Sikfuks who came out and scared the rest of the crowds that we played for [ I am talkin' To YOU Belgium crew!!! Stef,Evil,Michele,Quentin...] It lit me up like the 4th of july knowin that y'all were out there for us....

The 1st Doro show was great.She and the band made us feel totally welcome.After driving 700kms to do that show we loaded out and drove another 200 to the hotel to cut time off the next 300 to the Metal Voices fest the next day.


Got to hang with my mate Nick who plays bass for Doro and just raise hell.Huge stage and I went apeshit up there.They dodnt know what to make of us at first.Or of my white fur.Heh....

Met a heap of Sickfucks that I only knew from up here and did a killer signing session after the show with a million photos taken so I expect that alot of dodgy pictues will be showing up really soon of what Miss Amber Asskicker from Bug girl call "Your hybrid eminem axl look" Its funny cause its true.
I was the only person that I saw all weekend in a Lynard Skynard tee shirt and track pants thats for sure.
Style.Uh-huh.Thats right.......

Got em by the end....

Another hotel and Ross sleepin in the car with the gear and I am hurtin' by now....

Another huge drive to Berlin where I was showered with hello kitty stuff [purrrr!!!!] by the faithful who know what a geek I am.Spoilt!

We owned this one.
I really didnt know what it was gonna be like.A venue called the K-17.We packed the room and gave it our all.I was standing on monitors screaming 'Lemme see you fuckin hands you cunts!!!!" Ahhhhh !!!! Dreams are made of such moments.

So we bailed on Berlin at god knows what time and made it home to Hamburg.I passed out in the shower and felt bad for Ross who turned around and took the van back to the hire place.

I am on his computer right now...Bless him.

So if I can get my shit together tonite will find me side of stage at Status Quo.Gonna be cool to have a night off and watch it from the wings...
Doro are opening....I figure I should spoil myself as I have another round at the dentist with Dr Mengaele on monday....sigh.

Having a brainfart...sorry that this isnt more exciting but I am dead in the water....

Thank y'all again...
SF4L
M
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Got a little fable for you and as I dont usually pull this shit I want you to listen and then help Me out ok?

Valentines day in '05 and I didn't think that I could have fallen any lower.Been Stuck in Canada for god knows how long and my health was failing fast.We had just recorded "Sicksence" and I was at the end of my rope

I ended up back in Hollywood and was taken in my one of the coolest chicks I have ever met.I was a spastic by this point and she took the most amazing care of me,made me feel like I was worth the effort.
Now,if you have been as royally fucked around with as I have in my 20 odd years you know that shit like this is rarer than rocking horse shit.
She believed in Me,the band and the whole "Sickfuck" credo when I couldnt even believe in myself.

I owe her more than she knows....

Her name is S1N FIST3D.
Dancer,Model,Actress.....You name it and more often than not she will kick your ass at it.If you read my liner notes on the albums she always gets a mention.Yup,That cool.Shes the fox that y'all wanna be when ya grow up.....
Half Hello Kitty,half Tank Girl...I shit you not.....

I know that at that point in my life that I would not have made it with out her. My broke ass still owes the woman rent for christs sake and yet she is still there for me! lol!

I got a message from her today.Her profile got wiped.nixed.fucked....She had been building it up since I was living with her...Y'all know the hours that this shit takes right?....imagine logging in one day and its all gone....

This is where y'all come in.
She is in our top friends list.Yup,thats her on the cover of "Private Dancer" Magazine.
Now click......
Go and add her.She is tribe and we take care of our own right?

Tell her where you come from.Throw down the "SF4L"
You rock.
SF4L
M
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I feel like some clown has set my head on fire and then attempted to put in out with a hammer.
The pain killers here are shit so they are keeping my mood, which is also shit,company.
That mixed with stress and bordom is a killer.
I am lovin' this dental diet though.
I cant eat.
At all.I ain't fuckin' with you here.

They have stitched bits of my jaw up with what looks like fishing line...*shudder*
Soy I am drinking nothing but vanilla soy with what feels like gallons of blood.
How the fuck I am gonna get through these 3 shows in a row is beyond me....I am diggin' crappin' on up here...Its making my "Whitetrash" vein itch again...
I will come back from my year off like Elvis from the grave.
Its not that I didnt have anything to say for a year...Look,Its a long story an I will tell all soon.


Speaking of Whitetrash we are playing there again soon.Berlin! I cant wait.
You will find me hanging with Wally after the show in an excuse of a mini skirt,foxy boots and hanging upside down on the swing in the main room to Slayer.
Again....yeah.

I just coughed blood all over myself.thats right.Michele madden.All charm all the fuckin' time.
If I was a horse they would shoot me.

Thank you for all well wishes and positive vibes directed at my sorry ass at this point....
See ya on the weekend.

SF4L
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Its startin' to kick in with me how long we have been doin' this sonic pirate action for this year.
I think We bailed in April.Fuck.....

Europe in winter and I am the proud owner of a huge white fake fur coat.We rocked up to what was a killer show in Leipzig last nite and not only did the metalheads look at me weird for that but I dont think that they understood my dirty pink Rolling Stones tee-shirt either.Bless em'.

The tribe out here is growing.There's me minding the merch desk and writing away when a pack of sikfuks that we met a Wacken rolled up with poster print photos of me to sign [No,I never get used to this but I do love it!]
And a white pen so I could sign thier Teeshirts.
They were so cute,takin' photos of me when they thought I was not lookin'.
I felt like the subject on "Wild Kingdom" or some such thing.
Made me feel like a million in prizes as my beloved Iggy would croon.

The show was killer.big stage,Couple of hundred people,Mikey drew blood and my suit smells like the south end of a goat...Rock and roll....
Advance reviews on the album are lookin' pretty spanky and I am writing my ass off for next years effort.
The bling is my new belt buckle.
You will see it soon enough......You wont be able to miss it is what I should say.
"CUNT" in diamonds...All Class all the time...Yup! Thats me...

If you hold with religion can you throw a word in with the big man tommrow as I am up for some broodle dental work.Followed by 2 down days and 3 shows that cover what feels like a million miles in a row.
Clutch make me feel better.
So does Slayer.
This is me over tired as hell.I want to thank all the sikfuks who made my much hated birthday fuckin' cool this year.Grantland SF4L outta North Carolina,The Leefish,Miss Metz,Lili White Tiger,The Toddski [NYC],Goochmonster,Jani with the Hello Kitty in Berlin.....
For all the care packs and emails and all the names I didnt write here ....
I am so fuckin' spoilt.
Cheers.

More later.
SF4L
M
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So this finds us kickin' ass all over holland.
I really fuckin' dig it here,Some of the tribe rocked down from belgium as well...cool....
Played with a band called Ripsaw last nite at Ed and Roccos in Gallean.Check em out.The Bar is awsome as well...
I bailed back to the hotel but many blacktooths were sunk.
Miss Anna put us up in Corvoden where we tore apart the Metalfront for the 2nd year in a row.Good times.
Tonite is The Winston Kingdom in Amsterdamn and stayin with Linda.Sushi!!...we are so spoilt by all you sickfuks....
Hangin' on the album ...."Treason Songs" Nov 16th.
Hot Damn.
We are about to start the scratches for the NEXT album....do you believe this shit!?? ha! It never stops man....
Big news for the tribe back home that we are all stoked about is that we are gonna be seein' in the new year with y'all at Club Blink.
Thats right! Commin' home after 8 months that has seen us record in LA and tour all over Europe.
See ya there.
The boys are all well and playing like a fuckin threshing machine!
I spend all my time writing and in the gym...some stuff never changes.
As always thanks for all the letters and support and the way you guys have been spreading the word all over the world...it gets back to me,people come up to me at shows and tell me how they found us and its usually word of mouth.
So thank you.
Peter de wint our kick ass sound guy just came and told me that Im up for soundcheck so I better get gone.
We will keep playin if y'all keep showin up

Keep it loud
SF4L
Michele
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