It's that time of the year again...

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?

-So many new things. Here are some of them.

A. I used alcohol.

B. I went on a date.

C. I made really bad grades in a class that was not math.

D. I became seriously addicted to coffee. My new record is seven cups in one day. Before this semester, it was four.

E. I fasted. It lasted about 40 hours.

F. I got a job.

G. I made out with people. Three guys and a girl.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

-I didn't make any. I take each month as it comes.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

-No one really that close.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

-No.

5. What countries did you visit?

-My own.

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?

-A better perspective, more mental energy.

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

-September 3.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

-Coming out of the closet (on September 3).

9. What was your biggest failure?

-Not doing well in school because I was too preoccupied with something else.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

-A psychological preoccupation that made me unable to focus on schoolwork, and caffeine addiction.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

-A lot of books, a DVD burner, and maybe the PhotoReading course.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

-I don't really know.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

-I would rather not focus on that.

14. Where did most of your money go?

-Books. So very many of them.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

-Going back to school (which turned out to be a royal disaster, but worth it nonetheless).

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?

-I heard more music this year than almost any other year.

January: 'Safe Passage' by David Arkenstone.

February: 'Stars and Boulevards' by Augustana.

March: 'Here We Are' by Breaking Benjamin.

April: 'This Pain' by Kamelot.

May: 'It's Beginning to Get to Me' by Snow Patrol.

June: 'By the Way' by Hinder.

July: 'Open your Eyes' by Stream of Passion.

August: 'The Runaways' by Anberlin.

September: 'No Roads Left' by Linkin Park.

October: 'Through the Years' by The Crash Motive.

November: 'No More, No Less' by Collective Soul.

December: We don't know yet.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

I. happier or sadder?

-More distressed, but also closer to achieving inner peace.

ii. thinner or fatter?

-About the same.

iii. richer or poorer?

-A little richer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

-Going to the gym, studying, fasting, facing fears and doubts instead of stuffing them down. Basically, just being healthier instead of brooding about the futility of life.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

-Drinking coffee, worrying, being a perfectionist.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

-With family in Cleveland.

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?

-Not really.

23. Are you still in love now?

-See above ^.

24. How many one-night stands?

-None. I didn't get quite that drunk.

25. What was your favorite TV program?

-Family Guy. lol

26. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

-I don't hate. Ever. I don't have the energy.

27. What was the best book you read?

-I read SO many books this year, but the best was definitely Goethe's 'Faust'.

28. What was your greatest musical discovery?

-Kamelot's 'Epica' and 'The Black Halo'. I had heard them before but I just really 'got' them this year.

29. What did you want and get?

-A job, better friendships, a school I will probably actually stay at.

30. What did you want and not get?

-Inner peace.

31. What was your favorite film of this year?

-The only 2007 movie I remember seeing was Beowulf, and it was okay. Otherwise, the best movies I saw for the first time were Fight Club, Running With Scissors, and the sequels to Pirates of the Carribean. I also watched a lot of horror movies, something I've never really done before. The one that truly scared the hell out of me was The Ring.

32. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

-I was 19. I don't really remember much from the day.

33. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

-Better understanding of the inner workings of my brain.

34. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?

-Homeless.

35. What kept you sane?

-I came very close to having a nervous breakdown on several occasions. I responded horribly to things and was not emotionally stable. I think the only thing that kept me sane was that I just have a fairly stong mind that isn't prone to psychosis.

36. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

-I didn't really think about public figures very much.

37. What political issue stirred you the most?

-I started thinking more about nationalism.

38. Who did you miss?

-The old me.

39. Who was the best new person you met?

-I met too many people, sorry.

40. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:

-The life span of a yellow sun is ten billion years.

Everything else is captured in that.

41. Did you get a new job in 2007?

-Yes. I worked at Jenkins Deli for about three months.

42. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

'The Cheyenne Line' by The Ataris. This truly sums up the year. 'Becoming the Bull', by Atreyu, was my 'coming out' song.

Survey:

1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?

-Let's see...

A) Made almost straight As for an entire semester.

B)Hiked 18 miles.

C)Graduated high school.

D)Moved out of my parent's house.

E)Became a legal adult.

F)Went to college.

G)Actually went to a gym a few times.

H)Witnessed some paranormal stuff.

I)Got stranded all night.

J)Went to Panama City Beach.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

-I made none. I will make no more. New Years Eve means nothing to me.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

-I don't think so.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

-A few pets, two acquaintances, but no one really close.

5. What countries did you visit?

-My own.

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?

-A job, a little more money, a college I will actually stay at, a driver's license and maybe a car, better friendships

7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

-May 13 (I Graduated high school), June 26 (My 18th birthday), August 18 (I moved into Medlin), and December 6.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

-Making a pretty good ACT score the first time, Graduating high school, getting through a semester of college (My GPA was 3.64), and many other things. It's been a productive year.

9. What was your biggest failure?

-Underestimating a college psychology class and making a B in it, not making enough friends in high school, and taking college too seriously.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

-Yes! But very mild.

A) What I call a 'touch headache' for 3 months.

B) Strange chest pain which has not completely left.

C) Leg pain, probably from exercising too much and not stretching enough.

D) A cold, back in February.

E) A really bad cold or flu, or bronchitis, or something. I'm just getting over it.

F) I had a sinus infection last fall which infected the first 3 days of January.

G) Chronic good health.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

-'Fable' for PC, some CDs and books (a yearbook that I haven't gotten yet), and some other things. But I don't buy much stuff anymore.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

-I don't really know...and that's kind of sad. I had some good teachers, met some good people, but 'celebration'...I don't know.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

-A few people. I'd rather not think about that.

14. Where did most of your money go?

-Books, laundry, lunch (when I was in high school).
 
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

-Graduating high school (actually, that was kind of bittersweet), and starting college.

16. What song will always remind you of 2006?

-Many. I heard alot of songs this year.

January: That song by Deathcab that was really overplayed, and 'In years to come' by Thrice.

February: 'So Strange I Remember You' by Thrice.

March: 'Kali Yuga Part II' by Therion, 'Eleanor' by The Gathering.

April: 'Enjoy The Silence' by Lacuna Coil (Depeche Mode cover).

May: 'Memento Mori' by Kamelot, 'Speed of Sound' by Coldplay.

June: 'Warning Signs' by Coldplay.

July: 'Bleed Black' by AFI.

August: 'Shades of Blue' by Nick Lachey.

September: 'Rhythm of Red' by Yasunori Mitsuda.

October: 'Rise Inside' by Killswitch Engage, 'Harvest' by Opeth.

November: 'Within Me' by Lacuna Coil, 'A Fond Farewell' by Elliot Smith, 'Through Glass' by Stone Sour.

December: 'Bleak' by Opeth.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. happier or sadder?
ii. thinner or fatter?
iii. richer or poorer?

-Let's see:

I. At the moment, not extremely happy, but fairly happy.
ii. Fatter. YAY!
iii. Poorer. But I will get a job soon.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

-Social events, reading, and writing.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

-Homework (believe it or not), taking things too seriously, shutting myself off in my room.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

-At home with my parents.

22. Did you fall in love in 2006?

-No...I didn't date anyone.

23. Are you still in love now?

-See above ^.

24. How many one-night stands?

-I haven't even had a three-minute stand.

25. What was your favorite TV program?

-I didn't watch much TV...the one I remember the most is That 70s Show.

26. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

-I don't hate.

27. What was the best book you read?

-1984 by George Orwell.

28. What was your greatest musical discovery?

-Kamelot, Opeth, and 'Sailing to the World' by Yasunori Mitsuda.

29. What did you want and get?

-A high school diploma, college (for a semester), friends, etc.

30. What did you want and not get?

-People who tolerate me.

31. What was your favorite film of this year?

-I only remember two 2006 movies that I watched...'Mission Impossible III' and 'Saw III'. I'm sure there were more, though.

32. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

-I was 18. I had two friends over and watched '50 first dates'...lol.

33. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

-Better friendships.

34. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?

-Whatever was in the closet.

35. What kept you sane?

-Using school to mask my problems.

36. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

-Steve Pavlina, lol.

37. What political issue stirred you the most?

-War, I guess.

38. Who did you miss?

-They're all still here, for the most part. I guess myself.

39. Who was the best new person you met?

-I can think of a few.

40. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:

-I learned WAY too much this year:

A) People are not always what they seem like on the outside.

B) A high GPA is only worth so much.

C) Sometimes people can disagree with each other and both be right.

D) Dogma counts for very little.

E) Western civilization sucks.

F)People are not always dependable, even those with good intentions.

G)Attachment leads to jealousy. The shadow of greed, that is.

H)Wealth leads to fear; namely, the fear of losing wealth.

41. Did you get a new job in 2006?
Hardly.

42. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Look these up yourself:

'Stare At The Sun' by Thrice.
'Beautiful Day' by U2.
'The Road I'm On' by 3 Doors Down.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I graduated from Bradley on Saturday. That felt really weird, and it went by so fast. I didn't really think about it until I had taken my last final. Then it was over; I never went back. Then Graduation day. . .and I slept in on Monday morning.

I have been bored to tears ever since. I actually caught myself playing Pokemon at the computer.

I need a job.

I graduate tomorrow morning. I'm constantly torn between wanting to stay and do more (I've hardly done anything there), and wanting to leave for something better.

Maybe it's like when you have a friend on life support. You know you can do nothing to bring them back to what they were, and yet a part of you wants to keep them on as long as you can, whatever the quality of life. Even when death brings closure.

Whatever the case, it's over in twelve hours. This is my childhood on life support.

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