I posted this to respond to what a lot of people were saying on this "poll" about Michael Jackson having his own day... Of course they were being hateful and judging and critical about him and his life... And of course I had something to say about it!

Innocent until proven guilty. That is our court law in the USA. Why everyone doesn't abide by it, I will never understand. Elvis was a drug addict, and a huge racist. Nice how everyone can forget about that... Im not the biggest Michael Jackson fan, but I am a fan of people being treated equally. Just because he was weird, and did odd things, does not make him any less of a person than any one of us. Think about that before you start to slander someone's name, whether it be Elvis, or MJ. They both made mistakes, and they both had their issues, as do all of us.

And last time I checked, we do have a "Jesus Day" its called Christmas oh thats right.. and Easter.... Why dont we have a tooth fairy day?? Because some people dont believe in that. At least with MJ we know he actually existed and actually did some effing good for this world. Break away from the patterns that you were taught by your family, and second guess yourself, it will make you a better person, or possibly believer.

Now.. The funny part!!
I got a reply back from a very non-judgmental, sweet, caring lady... Here is her post.

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um cassie u need serious mental help...what does having a belief in God or Jesus have anything to do with the poll question ?? what an angry uptight hatefilled control freak mentally jacked person you are! Telling people "to breakaway for what your family taught you" LOL who do you think you are??? amazing! Please, JUST ANSWER THE POLL QUESTION and leave your ranting hate crap out of things! GEEZZZZZ

And of course, if you know me at all!!, I had something to say back... yet I was very sweet and delicate, and had no sarcasm in my post what-so-ever! :)

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Dear Doreen Jawad, I guess you got nothing out of my post.
Thank you for proving my post to be 100% true and correct. Judging someone you don't even know based on an opinion or an action of theirs is exactly what my post was prejudice against.
Notice you are the only one that had anything to say about it.
Thanks again. You made my day! :)

P.S My name has no 'E'.

So just in case you were wondering... Yes, I am an angry, uptight, hate filled, control freak... yadda yadda yadda.... Because I want people to question their values and their faith to better themselves as people and as, possibly,  believers.  I want people to look at themselves before they judge others actions or opinions.

I really wish that everyone could be more open minded to others beliefs and ways of life... Understand that not everyone can live with their head buried in a Bible, with an Anarchy sign around their neck, with the "right" life partner, or not having an option to get an abortion.

There are a lot of issues in this world that I have very strong feelings about... 99.9% of them deal with people hating on another person's way of life. The government controlling our minds and decisions with laws saying that we can't do this and we can't do that. What ever happened to this being a free country? Us having the free will to do as we please?

Okay, I am done with this topic now.

If you have something to say, don't be scared. I can't bite you through the computer. :)

Things I hate:

1. Being tired.

2. This crazy blister on the top of my foot.

3. The way alcohol burns.

4. Hurting.

5. Retards that can't drive.

6. Old people that drive like they own the roads.

7. Being awake.

8. Not sleeping.

9. Getting out of bed.

10. Being sad.

11. HAVING NOTHING TO DO!

12. Getting in trouble.

13. The way yarn hurts your teeth when you bite it.

14. When new artists redo old classics and expect them to be big hits. (Stupid Kid Rock)

15. Buddy being stressed.

16. Not having coffee in the morning.

17. That I dont take enough pictures.

18. When my dog won't poop.

19. Wearing shoes.

20. The way hand sanitizer smells.

21. People that talk really slow.

22. The feeling of polyester.

23. When my glasses get dirty.

24. My glasses.

25. People that blow their nose at the table while other people are eating.

26. The sound of coughing.

27. That one of my computer monitors is shorter than the other one and I have to prop it up on pads of paper.

28. When people over use sticky notes.

29. Work.

30. Mayonaise. (I hate it so bad I dont even know how to spell it)

31. Mustard.

33. The smell of tuna.

34. When I get forced to try something new.

35. Country music.

36. Meaningless tattoos.

37. My printer being 7 feet away from me.

38. The color pink.

39. Paying bills.

And lastly, I really hate that song Chicken Noodle Soup and still to this day I cant figure out why in the hell they thought it was a good song to let people hear... And why in the HELL it got so big that people decided to make a dance to it. Same with that dumb Superman song. Ugh......

Today feels like Monday.

Yes it is 3:56 pm on a Monday and I am not working. Doesn't suprise me today because I am feeling so ridiculously unmotivated.

I have decided that I am going to work on letting the retarded things go. The things that people say or do that piss me off that really shouldn't have gotten to me that bad at all. I am so tired of being sensitive. (I hide it so well)

You know those moments when you are thinking to yourself (I have those all too often) and you get your mind going in this crazy direction freaking yourself out that something is going to happen that probably isnt going to?  So you get yourself all prepared for this event that you have TOTALLY made up in your head just to get blown away by what really happens.... Okay after re-reading that I should be pretty happy that I am on some form of medication................................ Could be a lot worse, right?

Well, anyway, I had one of those. I have to say it was the best moment that I have experienced in that fashion. I have been getting myself all worked up for like a month now.... A whole month of freaking myself out that I was going to be torn apart (basically) and today, sitting here thinking about what all actually went on has brought me so much closer to my, for lack of a better word, desires.

Things could not be going any better right now and I have GOT TO STOP freakng myself out like I do. Like I always have. Like I probably always will!

I can't wait until January. I can't wait until things get more stable than they are. I can't wait until my life starts to become more clear. I can't wait for things to start happening that I never thought would really happen.

I just can't wait.

So I want a new job.

Thought I might start this out with something I love to complain about but can be summed up by one sentence.

So many changes have happened in the past few months, some of them were horrible, some what they might call blessings in disguise, others were just the most fantastic thing ever.

Starting with the best things ever! Stopped talking to DRAMA filled persons. Ended a lot of relationships with friends that were secretly toxic. Those relationships that are nothing but love but bring nothing but stress and drama to the table...?  Yeah. No more of that. Thanks. ha 

3 days marks 6 months with the boy. Have to say that is a huge mile stone for me... That might sound sad, but I have never had a REAL boyfriend for longer than like.... a month? Maybe? ha   Im sure sometimes Buddy wonders what he got himself into, but thats expected with me... I royally suck at relationships (friendships as well as the "romantic" ones), but luckily I found someone that has some kind of patient side.

Had a few things happen a week ago that is going to be quite a test for Buddy and I.... I know that we will make everything work, but its one of those things that you'd hope wouldn't ever happen... But it did... And it sucks... Lots of money will be spent to fix it, so again the brokeness is my best friend. As is the dollar menu at McDonalds. And QT...... This would be the blessing in disguise I was referring to ^ up there... When it happened I bawled my freaking eyes out, but now that its all over with I see that it was for the better. ANYWAY! Enough of that.... :)

Im not really in any mood to be writing, I guess Im just wasting time because there isnt much to do right at this moment.... So sorry for boring anyone with my.... every few month update? ha

You know what drives me insane? I mean the one thing that actually pisses me off more than someone driving 25 in a 45 in the fast lane...  People that are naive to no end. People that get slapped in the face with reality time and time again and still refuse believe that harsh reality is real. People that are so retarded that they actually give up stable parts of their life just for that unstable thing they think they need.

I just dont understand how people can be so reeeediculous, obnoxious, and self destructive. I have known so many capable and bright people that have chosen this one path as opposed to another one and completely corrupted everything that they had going for them. Lost their happiness in 2.3 seconds. Compromised their promising future for something that promises nothing but pain and regret.

I had always tried to live my life as an example to those people. An example that you dont need what the people in the world make you think you do. I never really had a way to execute that though. Never had a great outlet. I still really dont, but Im still not complaining about it. I know that what I have is something that I can appreciate everyday and something that appreciates my presence everyday. I know that my life is full of things that I can never even imagine, and thats the way I like it. I know that the second someone makes me compromise too many things that I want I will not deal with them anymore because I know I dont need them to be happy. I know that when people bring more stress and drama into my life than happiness and good times that they arent even worth smiling at when in the same room as myself.

I have come to the realization that I have all I need and am fine without all the other bull crap. Im tired of caring about things I cant change and Im sick of being worried about people that couldnt give a shit less that I care to begin with. Im tired of the phone calls every 6 months to play catch up when you all of a sudden decide to care, and Im absolutely outraged when people think thats what a friend is.
Im disgusted by people's definitions of the word "friend" and Im not going to give more than I receive anymore. I deserve good people around me and I think I have plenty now.

Thanks for all the good times dearest past but the present is awaiting me and it looks much sweeter than you ever did.

So Im not really in a funny mood, but I thought I would try it out anyway.

Im pretty sure that I have throat cancer (of course Im kidding) I have been coughing non-stop for like.... a year (melodramatic). I am currently on my 3rd day of sitting at home being non-productive and probably getting fat (not kidding). I have been ordering from Mazzios so much that I am now beginning to bribe the delivery guys into doing my everyday arrands so that I dont have to leave my house. So far mission unsuccessful, but they will eventually fall for my traps. You just wait.

I have a doctor appointment tomorrow so that I will know for sure how much time I have to live... But right now I am not hopeful. Im not going back to Jesus, pronounced Hey-Zues, suprizingly, but I still call him JESUS because he preaches to me and he wears a white coat. I want medicine, not a church sermon so that's the end of me going to him. That could just be me being negative, or whatever, but I dont care. Bleh.

cough, cough, cough.

I am having another fit of coughing so Im going to stop this while I have a brief break.

Happy effing Tuesday. :|

I have tried my whole life to feel like I feel now. I feel weightless. I feel happy. I feel like any thing is possible.

Im never a bitch on purpose, it really just happens. (insert nervous laugh here?) I think I have lost the worst and gained the best. Though losing the worst was a tough decision, I'll tell ya, I dont regret it one bit. Gaining the best though.... Well that just happened because of my dashing good looks, my amazing personality, and my ginormous boobs. (ha)

I cant say that I have gone one day in the past 4 years without having SOME form of drama in my life, and now... I can finally say, that crap has dissapated. Dissapated is my new favorite word by the way. I say it all the time but in order to type it out here, I must confess, I had to google it to make sure I was spelling it correctly. (oops)

Now that I have been real, I shall (dissapate?) no. Stop being annoying. (Yes.)

PEACE!  (Just kidding.)

Sharing- sharing is good. Share everything. Example: food, your bed, money, and jokes. What you dont share- girlfriends/boyfriends, STDs, bad advice, and bad jokes. -the end.

When you get a ticket... Pay it before the court date... Seriously..  My morning went as follows:

1. Got lost trying to find the freaking court house. Went in about 12 circles on each side of downtown until I finally recognized where I was. Then realised I was already late..

2. Got lost trying to find the actual building I was supposed to be in, walked for like 12 miles Im pretty sure.. Then realised I was much later than I was before..

3. Couldnt find my name on any of the dockets for any of the court divisions.. Getting frusterated cause now I am really late.

4. Had to wait in a line of slow people to get my name added onto the division 1 docket. Then the lady failed to tell me to actually go inside the court room... So I sat outside of it, where she told me to sit, until I asked someone if I was supposed to actually be in there.. They said "Yes.......", then I got really mad.

5. Had to sit inside the court room for almost an hour and a half, next to a lady that kept touching me, waiting for my name to be called. Then when it was called I could recite everything he was going to say to me since I had been sitting there for so long.. Minus the suprise "Next time you come to my court room, dont chew gum."  Wasnt expecting that one...

6. Ended up having to pay $165.00 instead of $130.00 due to lame court fees.

7. Had to sit inside the court room STILL, waiting for 30 minutes at least, to get this paper telling me when my ticket was to be paid in full.

8. Had to walk all the way back to my car, 15 thousand miles of parking lot, just to see that my meter was expired.  Thank God that there had been no parking lot police there or else I would have thrown a freaking hissy fit. I mean litterally kicking and screaming.

So in conclusion, dont go to court.... Its is ridiculous.

Okay, so you know how my life plans change just about every week.. well I think I have finally thought of something that will work for me. After having conversation after conversation with my sister, I just might have thought about it enough to stick with it.  Are you ready for the plan, cause you should be excited right now.  :)

Okay. Step one. Turning 21. I am staying here until I am 21 for sure. I want to be able to go out with all my friends for real one last time. And you might be asking why I am saying one last time thats cause step two is moving. Moving where?? Oh probably Austin, is what I am thinking right now. Maybe Houston, just have to figure that out. I like the beach and all that, but I also know that Austin is a younger city.. so.. My sister and I need to work that part out, but we will in due time. 

Step three.. This is a big one. haha  Going to Cosmetology School.  I dont know that I want to go to hair school here, cause if I move then I will have to transfer my license and take the board test again and all that crap... and I dont want to have to do that. So I think I might wait until I move and I will go to school in Texas. I know they have awesome schools in Houston and Austin.. So it might work out for the better.

Okay.. thats all the steps that I have for right now.. haha  I dont know what step four would be.. maybe.... Start my career? haha  I dunno.

What I do know is that I am good at doing hair, I enjoy it, and I have said that I was going to go to school for it.. well for a really really long time. So I might as well bite the bullet and go for it.