why cant i sleep, why cant i stop thinking. my teeth grind as i lay awake for hours until the sun comes up,playing out scenario after scenario. what will i do if i get sentenced to time for my class b, c, and d case. will i live with a warrant and wait to get picked up. why does everyone always doubt me. i need support. i wonder when i will die or when somebody close to me will die. am i going crazy. i talk to god as if he were walkin with me, as if he were my best friend. my mind is constantly in overdrive and it is uncontrollable.

do people like this song? should i change that word? maybe i should do it again, or use a different beat. if i had money everything would be so much easier, when is that kid gunna pay me back? why am i in constant fear of losing my loved ones. my only outlet is rapping. my mind is released only when i write. i dedicate my life to this fully. i need something to make ends meet. maybe i will hustle, nah then the junkies will call my phone at 3 oclock in the morning. i hope i dont fall back into those same temptations. and why the fuck do i keep lightin up cigarette after cigarette, what the fuck is wrong wit me?

my doctor said i need to sleep with a mouthguard so my ears stop ringing from grinding my teeth. i dont know, whateva. will anybody in this world eva know who deetalks really is? i listen to my songs over and over again, i havent heard anotha rappa in a month. why is my vision blurry, oh ya its from grindin my teeth. my music is on, a cigarette is lit, a movie is playing and i sit on this computer and release myself. its 12:00 on sunday night, dec 11 now. work is in 5 hours, sleepin pills are on the way to being dissolved but will i wake up in time for work?

 who knows