Always
I may not always tell you exactly how I feel,
However, the love I have for you will always be real.
You mean so much more than you will know
I will always love you whenever you may go
Therefore, when your days are rough
And you do not know what to do.
Remember the words I am saying now,
I will always care for you.
Good by
I loved you once,
I loved you twice,
Maybe three times would be nice.
Although my love
Is flowing strong
Somehow I feel
It would be wrong for
You to say you love me.
Then you do not
I could still love you
However, I will not.
I am oh so tired
Of all the lies.
I've had too many
"Good old cries"
I wish for once
It would be gone
That same old memory
That still lives on
Please for once
Leave me alone
Do not call me; do not talk to me,
Do not telephone me
I need some time
To be myself
Though without you
There is not much left
Just say you love me
One last time
Then that is it
I draw the line
Good bye my love
Once and for all
I will survive
I will not fall
It hurts to be in Love
It hurts to be in love, when the only one you love,
turns out to be someone who is not in love with you,
It hurts to love him so, when deep down inside you know,
he will never want you, no matter what you do.
Therefore, you cry a little bit to be in love,
Oh, I would die a little bit to be in love,
Day and night
Night and day
It hurts to lie in love this way.
How long can I exist?
Only wanting to be kissed,
Nevertheless, he gives all his kisses to somebody else.
He thinks I am just a friend, though it hurts I must pretend.
The only way to keep him is to keep it to myself.
So I cry.
As I sit here shaking
My body says why
My heart is breaking
I feel very sly
Why do you do this to me?
My body is telling me
It hurts to know you do not care
you are killing me
Please no more I cannot handle this so
Stop hurting me so, I can grow and rest
1/31/1984
Running blind, running scared
Want to love but do not dare
Running lonely, running lost
Want to love but can not pay the cost
Running quickly, looking back
Is someone on my lonely track?
Running madly, running wild
Hiding like a frightened child
Running through the broken days
Found a path but lost my way
Running through the tear filled nights
Try so hard to hide my fright
Slowly now I take a step
Out comes the sadness that I have kept
An inch or two and then a mile
Never did but now I smile
Walking through the woods
All day long, I knew I could
Walking down the sandy shore
No longer fighting the inside wars
1/30/1984
Memories are just another world away
We keep them there to remember the good old days
If they weren't any memories
Where would this world be?
Probably nothing but we will see, maybe.
2/8/1984
I have not talked to him in awhile
Maybe he thinks I forgot about that smile
He seems so sweet and nice
I do not think I could break the ice
I hope to see him later today
He will bring me up from the grey
So later hours I will speak to you
2/3/1984
Memories
Memories tucked away
Upstairs in an old chest
Of the time we spent
Pictures and old love letters
Made the tears fall
What happened?
Was it me?
We had so much fun
Holding hands, days we spent in the sun
Now it is gone
As I shut the chest
The memories are once again
Tucked a way lance
But never gone.
1/6/1984
We even planned to get married just the other day
Now that is a dream just floating away
I am hurt and upset because I do not understand why
Was it because I got wild
I love you and nobody else
Now you are set on yourself
You want to be friends but I want to be lovers
You say never so I guess I could say
Its all over now between us
I am sure our lives will go on
However, the love I feel for you will never be gone
I will be leaving now and be riding on.
2/3/1984
Running Wild
Its lonely sitting here all alone
Nobody to talk to, nobody to listen to me
All I need is somebody who cares,
Please listen to my fears
There are oh so many tears
I cannot run away so please somebody take me away
My life is up and down
My mind still is not bound
All these places I must go
I wish they would not come so slow
I have to get away from this
My world is such bliss
I know that some day I will leave
And finish my roam
So please wont you just let me go home
10/21/1983
Feelings
When I am upset, I go for a walk
I wish I had someone with whom to talk
Instead, I keep my feelings bottled inside
Can anyone see the emotions that
I am trying to hide.
If you look deep into my eyes
My feelings cannot be well disguised
I need someone to guide me through
All my feelings are strange and new
I want someone to help me through
And hold my hand true
I cannot deal with my problems alone
Maybe we can talk together on the phone
I just need a few moments of your day
For you to listen to what I have to say
Maybe if I say what is on my mind
The answers will be easier to find
Will you please listen and help me learn
I would do the same for you in return
10/21/1983
Best Friend
Whenever I need a friend
You always seem to be there
You help me with my problems
And our joys together we share
I cannot imagine life without a friend like you
Once we get together, we are the invisible two
All the fun I shared with you
Can never be replaced
Together we have had many good times
And conquered the problems
We have had to face
Therefore, I want you to know
That I am always here
If ever you need a friend
Remember that I am always here until the end
So come to me without no fear
Be Patient
You say you love me
But you can't see why
I pull away and seem so shy
It is just that a guy has hurt me before
He left me crying
As he walked out the door
I do not want to feel that sinking feeling again
Of not being loved
Like I did back then
You say you are different
And you're not like him
That you wont run off
On some silly whim
You do treat me special
Sending flowers each day
You show you love me
In impossible ways
But I hope you'll be patient
Until I have learned
To give you the love
That you faithfully earned
Hi, I am a Martian!
I have been transformed into this piece of paper.
Right now, I am having sex with your fingers.
I know you like it because you are smiling.
Please pass me onto a friend I am horny.
Thank you.
Martian