I'm so disgusted with myself lately.  I don't understand who I've become, or even how I got here.  I used to be on a constant quest of self discovery and expansion.  I used to be the girl who read extensively to devour all the knowledge and theory she could.  Now I just read to escape.  I was the girl who was never without Huxley, Heinlein, Aurelius, McKenna, Nietzsche.  I was the girl who believed CHAOS was a beautiful, beautiful thing of creation.  Now I'm just a placated husk.  It's time for that to pass.  I want to tear myself open, twist inside out and see what happens.  I want to dig down inside of myself and see what doors are still open.  I want to tear it all away, flush it all away, burn it all away.  I'm tired of feeling like I'm just floating through this existence as a casual observer.  I want to reach that next level.  I want to spark evolution and ignite chaos.  I have an intense desire to learn and to grow. 

It seems Maynard has woven himself back into my brain, so 46&2, 46&2, 46&2, 46&2.  46&2 until something happens.

Hosted By:HaVoK - Houston’s Underground Club EventWhen:Sunday, January 18, 2009Where:The Meridian1503 ChartresHouston77003Description:Combichrist with Black Light Burns (feat. Wes Borland) and CHANTClick Here To View Event

Over the last 10 years, I have evolved into a relatively emotionless being. My son is the only person I truly love. Beyond that, I'm almost sociopathic when it comes to emotion. This can't be good, but oddly enough, it doesn't bother me. I think I need to tell everyone who has ever elicited any kind of feeling, that they have. Maybe I'll make a list.

Tue, Sep 9
8pm to 1am. $5 under 21. $3 21+.
The Jet Lounge, 1515 Pease, Houston, TX 77002

Three drink specials this week:
$2 Bloody Vodka Sours (cherry vodka sours)
$2 Redrum and Cokes (rum and cokes)
$2 Bone Star Beer (Lone Star)

Special showing of art and sculpture by Bret Harmeyer and Rachel Robertson.

A night of old school tunes for the old school crew: 80s/90s goth, industrial, and darkwave. Special guest sets by DJs Roy and Franki Fiend.


Hosted By: DJ Hellion and Austin
When: Tuesday Sep 09, 2008
at 8:00 PM
Where The Jet Lounge
1515 Pease
Houston, Texas|44 77002
United States
Description:
DJ Hellion and Austin

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Hosted By: DJ Hellion and Austin
When: Tuesday Sep 09, 2008
at 8:00 PM
Where The Jet Lounge
1515 Pease
Houston, Texas|44 77002
United States
Description:
DJ Hellion and Austin

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Hosted By: DJ Austin and DJ Hellion
When: Tuesday Aug 12, 2008
at 8:00 PM
Where: The Jet Lounge
1515 Pease
Houston, Texas|44 77002
United States
Description:
DJ Austin and DJ Hellion

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Hosted By: DJ Austin and DJ Hellion
When: Tuesday Aug 12, 2008
at 8:00 PM
Where: The Jet Lounge
1515 Pease
Houston, Texas|44 77002
United States
Description:
DJ Austin and DJ Hellion

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