Your always right here,
closer than anyone else ever was,
you never know what will happen in the future,
maybe,
I just figured it had been long enough,
just a casual thing,
he's an idiot,
I thought you would be stronger,
you'll never be able to see him again,
you really think you can just stop talking to me,
I love you.

Your too pale,
do you always wear black,
you need a hair cut,
are those your only pair of shoes,
I'll make you into something that someone will want,
watch.

They're ruining my life,
and they know it,
you don't know what it's like,
no idea,
your never on my side,
sometimes I want to walk off a bridge,
that would make it easier,
I love you.

I do,
I never went and it's all because of you,
I'll come in a month,
I am not coming,
I am sorry,
what if,
we didn't until it was over, 
I regret not coming.

I like you... kinda,
your fun,
I am bored,
I am sad to be leaving you,
too bad we just met,
your not important,
that's not my name,
give me my Pjs back,
I hate you,
fuck off.

So I tried,

stupid me,

I knew it was coming, I just knew it.  What the hell was I thinking?

I am delusional, ignorant maybe?

reality is a cunt,

she turns me into the idiot,

I need to cut my losses,

and,

reset.

P.S

Fuck off.

how much some people can fucking suck?

Out of all the times I didn't deserved to be punched in the face, and didn't. Why did my 23 year strike of not getting decked come from a random drunk dude as I walked to my car? Well, it interesting you bring that up brandon,  lets discuss.

The funny thing is, I am not even mad. I am just confused.  How could the drunkin bro mistake my quiet innocence as I walked past him for shit talking?  Last time I checked, I don't have mind powers(even though I've tried many times to leviate the cat), so I couldn't have projected the shit talking into his mind. Maybe he misunderstood the way I passively ignored him as I walked by as a sexual come on?  And by him punching a random stranger he might have been justifying his homosexuality?  ... heres a thought, Daddy might  have come on to him in the exact same way on their first father/son picnic(date).

Or maybe in the intial confusion when he grabbed me, and asked if I was "talking shit", he mistook the words I said "eh, what?" for.... "Yah heard me right, I am your momas pimp, you little bitch, You ain't takin that fat slut for a ride, TILL after I break her in with the donkey!"... Hmm, the 2 accounts of what I said are very similiar, I know what I wish I had said.

In my own little world(which you all live in, and I am presidente), I am gonna say I projected the nasty insults into his mind as I walked passed him.  He was right to hit me when I wasn't looking! Damn, i am such an asshole... and to think I promised only use those mind powers for good, not EVIL! 

I am not much of a fighter,  and I don't really care whos tougher than who. But drunk dude, you hit like a bitch.  I wasn't even looking at you, and the sucker punch you throw at me, didn't even knock my glasses off (Yes, I am a nerd, I wear glass, shut it, or I stomp on your foot). but let me apologize for the shit (i didn't) talk to you as I walked back to my car. I am sorry.........really..... daddy didn't love you, and your most likely gonna fail in life, the weak punch you hit me with, will most likely make up for your entire life of failures.  I am sorry you didn't knock me off my feet with your wimpy hit, I am sure your sitting around with your bro's and homies telling them on you busted my face in. 

Anyways, I am sure we'll meet again next time your begging for change on the corner near streetlight records, I might even give you a quarter if you ask nicely!

So the message of it all is,  don't use mind powers to torment sexually confused bros after they've had a wholesum night of drinking, and anal sex.  WHY? because its wrong, mmmmmkayy!!

:)

heathbarre19: I'd better not piss you off
heathbarre19: wait, I can totally beat you
heathbarre19: I'm a ballerina
heathbarre19: everyone knows ballerinas always win
SquirelBasttard: ahh, you use the ballerina style, do you?
heathbarre19: indeed
SquirelBasttard: that style is weak, i can defeat it easily with my spanking style...
heathbarre19: HAHAHA
heathbarre19: we'll see about that...seeing as how I have nothing to spank
SquirelBasttard: brandon's spanking style is undefeatable,  Heather can do not, but be spanked, and she will pout
heathbarre19: and probably slit her wrists
heathbarre19: but at least the story will have a happy ending
heathbarre19: and I'll ge to be first in the credits
heathbarre19: because everyone feels bad for me
heathbarre19: I think we're both getting tired
SquirelBasttard: ....
SquirelBasttard: suicide is bad mmmmkayy
SquirelBasttard: heather shouldn't commit the suicide mmmkkaay
SquirelBasttard: cause its bad
SquirelBasttard: mmmmkaaaaayy
heathbarre19: haha
heathbarre19: yes, sir
SquirelBasttard: isn't that right mr. hat?
heathbarre19: whaoh
heathbarre19: random
SquirelBasttard: Heather is a b*tch, and I think she needs to die!
SquirelBasttard: MR.HAT!!
SquirelBasttard: now you can't say that!! mmmmkaay
SquirelBasttard: thats bad... mmmkkkaayy!!
SquirelBasttard: ok, so suicide is bad mmmmkaayy!!
heathbarre19: ....
heathbarre19: would you feel incredibly stupid if I just signed off right now
SquirelBasttard: ....
SquirelBasttard: stupid? no? Wait, lemme find that teen crisis number for you!

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SquirelBasttard: wait.. did you say cock?
SquirelBasttard: say it again
heathbarre19: you said it first
heathbarre19: typed it
SquirelBasttard: ok, type it
SquirelBasttard: do it
heathbarre19: why?
SquirelBasttard: cause I just wanna make sure I read you right
heathbarre19: haha
heathbarre19: cock
SquirelBasttard: what?!
SquirelBasttard: louder!! in caps this time
heathbarre19: !COCK!
heathbarre19: happy?
SquirelBasttard: sigh,  not totally but I am satifisied
SquirelBasttard: for now...
heathbarre19: you're easily amused
SquirelBasttard: only when I am dealing with myself!

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ChrisConleYtine: hmm
ChrisConleYtine: you weirdo
SquirelBasttard: wait, how does that make me wierd?
ChrisConleYtine: youre talking crazy talk
ChrisConleYtine: you know what i mean
SquirelBasttard: when do I not?!
SquirelBasttard: did I not start off our IM friendship with pirate talk?!

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Tobenmor: belly buttons full of lint. DO SOMETHING!
SquirelBasttard: ZING, its the moon
SquirelBasttard: its made of cheese!
SquirelBasttard: Something needs to be done bout it!
Tobenmor: Bullshit, its made of man jam!
SquirelBasttard: I say we build a rocket, govna, a rocket that will reach the moon
SquirelBasttard: than we can eat it!
SquirelBasttard: ZING!
SquirelBasttard: Jam!?  where are you getting your INTEL?!
Tobenmor: oh no sir i ain't eating that moon.
Tobenmor: my intel is of the highest calibur!
SquirelBasttard:  the moon is made of cheese flavor JAM!
Tobenmor: Cheese jam... strange foul... good maybe.
SquirelBasttard: and it must be eaten,  we just need 2 piece of bread the size of china, than we can truly make the most brilliant peanut butter sammich this side of the galaxy
Tobenmor: Well spread my princess, cause I'm in the Jasmine! Lets get us some yeast!
SquirelBasttard: so bush won, I think I am gonna take up professional roulette
SquirelBasttard: the kind with a gun.. and a bullet
Tobenmor: the russian flavor?
Tobenmor: ah yes
Tobenmor: the finest ... flavorTobenmor: i'm angry but'll deal
SquirelBasttard: I have a question for you
SquirelBasttard: Would you sell your sister to the devil for a dollar?
Tobenmor: ...what kind of dollar
SquirelBasttard: a magical one
Tobenmor: magic you say?
SquirelBasttard: if planted it would grow the worlds only money tree
Tobenmor: what will the devil be doing with my sister?
SquirelBasttard: Do you really care, its your sister, and not you.
SquirelBasttard: you get the tree man.. the tree.. focus on the tree..
Tobenmor: how much money does the tree have per year?
SquirelBasttard: Depends on the soil, sun, and watering conditions
Tobenmor: can it be killed?
SquirelBasttard: optimal conditions: 1 million a year
Tobenmor: answer me damn you!
SquirelBasttard: Yes, but only if a hippie pees on it,  because hippies are the enemy of capitalism
Tobenmor: ....................
Tobenmor: i'll need gaurds.
SquirelBasttard: you will
SquirelBasttard: So you would?
Tobenmor: hippies eh?
SquirelBasttard: yes, and you can plant it anywhere you want
Tobenmor: replanting?
Tobenmor: okay?
SquirelBasttard: If yes, because it can only be killed by hippie pittle, damn it we went over this.
SquirelBasttard: would you do it or not?
Tobenmor: i'm just... looking at all the options
Tobenmor: hmmm... yes I would
SquirelBasttard: DEAL!
Tobenmor: whoa there... i'm not dealing with you.
SquirelBasttard: your dollar is being process,  please package your sister in the poper bubble wrap, and send her to 338 swift st!
Tobenmor: get me someone with more authority. then we'll talk
SquirelBasttard: deal is done fucker, and a verbal agreement is binding!
Tobenmor: i personally think that a skinny bitch like yourself could never make a deal like that.
SquirelBasttard: I am the FUCKING DEVIL's cousin's friend of a person who worshipped him once.
SquirelBasttard: now send me that sister now!
Tobenmor: you are shit and have no say in that dollars destiny.
SquirelBasttard: the dollar is mine!! I t'll you, its already in the mail, I'll stomp on your foot, and poke you in the forehead if I don't get that sister
SquirelBasttard: I have cleaning, and sammichs to make
SquirelBasttard: and i need it done yesterday
SquirelBasttard: I am on a tight schedule, with all the lawsuits
Tobenmor: well you just lost yourself a magic dollar there my prince of sinful pudding pops.
SquirelBasttard: I hope you don't like your eyes
SquirelBasttard: because eventually you need glasses, and than you'll be sorry
SquirelBasttard: ZING!
Tobenmor: BAZING!!
Tobenmor: or BAH-ZING!
Tobenmor: buzzing
Tobenmor: buzz...
Tobenmor: BEES!! oh shit!
SquirelBasttard: I'll captured our moment in a blog
SquirelBasttard: now everybody will know about your lies
SquirelBasttard: I hope your happy
Tobenmor: .... OH YOU ASS!!
Tobenmor: I'LL KILL YOU!!

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hanna s p l i t: my song doesnt have lyrics
SquirelBasttard: Yah?
SquirelBasttard: I wanna hear it >.<
SquirelBasttard: you cheater, I sung you my song
hanna s p l i t: lol
hanna s p l i t: its nothing really.. i was just playing on fruityloops
SquirelBasttard: omg, your not gonna play it for me..
SquirelBasttard: ...... your such a cheater, nubs.
hanna s p l i t: LOL! you didnt say to trade songs!
SquirelBasttard: ..... you lying hussy
hanna s p l i t: i didnt lie!
hanna s p l i t: i just said i was making a song and you started singing yours!
hanna s p l i t: not even singing.. TYPIIINNGGGG
SquirelBasttard: I didn't know you were employing decectful korean tactics...
SquirelBasttard: UH
SquirelBasttard: but I was singing along as i typed them...
hanna s p l i t: LOL NORTH KOREAN TACTICS!
hanna s p l i t: that doesnt count!
hanna s p l i t: you're the cheater you cheater!
hanna s p l i t: cheating cheater!
SquirelBasttard: Don't make me come over there, rough you up, and than trap you in your room with a 3 mile mine field...
SquirelBasttard: cause I am american.... FUCK YAH!
hanna s p l i t: LOL
SquirelBasttard: !!

SquirelBasttard: you don't mess with americans, cause were crazy, CRAZY, did you see what we did to that little cuban boy ellian?! WE KICKED HIS ASS OUT OF OUR COUNTRY?!! 
SquirelBasttard: little fucker was cockeye'd, and we didn't like him anyways...
hanna s p l i t: that was so sad
SquirelBasttard: sad?! we're americans.... FUCK YAH!
hanna s p l i t: i'm not american
hanna s p l i t: yet
SquirelBasttard: not american!?
SquirelBasttard: omg, I'll have you kicked out of america..... FUCK YAH!
hanna s p l i t: lol
SquirelBasttard: HOLD UP!
SquirelBasttard: your just trying to divert my attention away from the real issues
SquirelBasttard: and thats you.. singing... me... MAH SONGS!!
SquirelBasttard: i know what your doing now.. your making another one.. as we speak... your gonna hoard that song for your ENK(Evil north korean) ways
hanna s p l i t: LOL
hanna s p l i t: if i send it to you
hanna s p l i t: promise you wont laugh?
SquirelBasttard: ..... your my good friend... why would I laugh at you?
hanna s p l i t: you laugh at me all the time!
hanna s p l i t: either that.. you make fun of me
SquirelBasttard: only because I like you
hanna s p l i t: and i laugh at myself
hanna s p l i t: fine fine i'll send it anyway
hanna s p l i t: even if you laugh at me
hanna s p l i t wants to send file haaah.mp3.
SquirelBasttard: ....
SquirelBasttard: I am not laughing, its good, now I don't have to kick you out of america

SquirelBasttard: 2 WORD NANCY!!
pair 0 socks: sorry
SquirelBasttard: Your fired!
pair 0 socks: ;-)
pair 0 socks: from what?
SquirelBasttard: from the club!
pair 0 socks: ok
pair 0 socks: I never liked your club anyway
SquirelBasttard: well the club council thought you dressed like a coozed up gyspy anyways
pair 0 socks: ya well you're old
SquirelBasttard: you have a booger face

pair 0 socks: you suck
SquirelBasttard: I WIN!
pair 0 socks: jerk no you dont
SquirelBasttard: the council has deemed your comeback inadequate... you are THE WEAKEST LINK!

pair 0 socks: I'm gonna kick you

SquirelBasttard: not in the face please, cause if you mess it up, i'll have to sue you