the dates for the upcoming Billy Corgan + Spirits in the Sky shows around the Los Angeles area are up. They will be very cool and very intimate shows. I think most shows will be in small venues. I'll be along for the whole tour so if you are going to go to one let me know! :)
here are the dates.

Wed Aug 26 - Tazzaria - Visalia, CA - 
Thu Aug 27 - Muddy Waters - Santa Barbara, CA
Fri Aug 28 - Open - Long Beach, CA - 
Sat Aug 29 - Pappy & Harriet's Palace - Pioneertown, CA - 
Sun Aug 30 - Che Cafe - San Diego, CA - Pre-sale tickets only available on location at Che Cafe.
Mon Aug 31 - Hotel Cafe - Los Angeles, CA

there are some buy tickets links on smashingpumpkins.com
go get them before they sell out!!!

here's the poster i made


i'm talking to people about it on facebook.com/lindastrawberry
if you are on facebook add me. i write back. ;)

its a fragile day. my emotions are ping pong balls jumping all over the place effortlessly. im sitting here on the floor thinking and trying to be productive. putting off the outward appearance of calm. i look tired. tired eyes. the weight of my world leaning on the lids.
im alright. im just letting some new shit pass through the conduit. it births new outrageous ideas.
it used to be that when i got this feeling id get drunk stay drunk and be nuts.;)  now im still nuts just more sober. more calm.
i can recognize when the things stressing me are out of my control. my life is wonderful. i am just sad. the age of anxiety makes us second guess every little thing we do or feel. the so called self help industry would have us quoting nonsense at each other and pretending we aren't feeling. "that everythings fine 'cue smile with gritted teeth'" i don't subscribe. i think passion is good. throw something, scream, yell, cry.. be petulant. they are just a valid of emotions. tell people to get out of your space. don't call back. do what it is you are feeling. if its the truth then that's the best place to start from.
not to say to take your feeling out on other people carelessly but if you bottle all that stuff up its going to give you cancer or an ulcer or you'll get so far out of touch with yourself that every day will be a monotonous walking death  or slowly you turn into mount st helens - one day blow up - cut your hair - blow up your life and have to start from scratch. know what i mean?
like midlife crisis. people get so good at censoring themselves and not giving certain dirty or messy parts of themselves oxygen that one day they just freak out. its better just to lay it all out there.. life is messy sometimes, life is painful sometimes. we all feel anxiety that things aren't right, that we aren't good enough, that things would be different if (fill in the blank).. that if we could go back and change (fill in the blank) it would be different. its not true. life is a mess. you have to give something to get something.
not that anything in particular is making me need to write this, i know that now.. i don't worry about it.. its just a feeling. just the pain of love and the pain of life becoming more acute.
im working on so much stuff that i love to do. at the end of the month i get to go on an adventure with some of my favorite people. i have an amazing husband and an amazing family. i try to focus on these things til i dig back out.
i've just always had these blue moods. i go deep down into the abyss to purge it from me again. its always been this way. its just part of what i am.
for a few days every once in a while my world goes black. i go into a coma. its where my best ideas have been born.
its why i have my phoenix tattoo.
speaking of tattoos im dying to get another one.. have any of you gotten any new tattoos recently? link pictures so i can be jealous of you..
xx

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ive got that uncomfortable 'scarletta' feeling.
drowning in my own uncomfortable restlessness. its a good thing. i get this way before i explode somehow.
its like diving really really deep under an ocean of muck to find a diamond.
you get so uncomfortable you just don't give a shit anymore about the results.
the choices are 1. stay here 2. break out
ive been feeling pressure in myself to tone it down, to color in the lines, to not be as explosive. but at least when im letting it all hang out its all true.
and truth is where i want to come from.
as ugly or as uncomfortable or as explosive as it is.
i dont want to die ladylike. i dont want to sit with my legs crossed. dot my i's and cross my t's and be careful not to rock the boat.
i want to crush the boat. and i want to dive into the water.
growing up is bizarre. so many people have so many rules about what is age appropriate. what is this future? i won't tone myself down more and more til i am a empty crust ready to file away into a coffin.
i want to get more and more passionate and extravagant and expressive.
i want to say all the things people are afraid to say. i don't want to live in fear of what others think of me. that is the prison we all keep each other in.
the fear that stifles us and keeps us from doing what we really feel.
i draw my lines where people i love are concerned. i don't self destruct and i respect people.
expression has nothing to do with being a jackass. or slowly killing yourself. i don't find it romantically tragic to see people die in addiction. its just stupid.
what im talking about is that nebulous pressure to look and act and speak a certain way. the critic that keeps you from creating. that tells you its not good enough.
that tells you that you can't use certain words and you can't talk about certain things.
the people that tell you what is cool and what is not cool and you can't wear that and you can't look that way and you can't write that way and you can't act that way.
miss manners. the style police. the online army of haters. the cool kids. the worst dressed list. art world snobs. that pick apart the meanings of things and think they are the expert on knowing which expressions are valid. fuck critics.
i have to just rant this out. i hate feeling like im in a box. that i can't do exactly what i want to do and what i know i can do because of the outside world. we are all in this boat.
so im gonna be trying to break out of it. and im ok with people not liking what i do as long as im being true. people pleasing is a losing game.

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xx

my booky wook is my favorite book title. russell brand is entertaining. i haven't read it yet but im gonna.
i want to write one. ive been asking the creative powers that be what i should do with this feeling ive got and i keep feeling that writing it all out and making art out of it would be extremely cathartic. im just surfacing from a solid year or more of healing, and since its the happiest time of my life im also feeling courageous.
i feel like writing to myself the things that i wish i would have been told when i was 18. or 16. or 14.
some of it just common sense. some of it about the pipe dreams we are fed that can destroy our lives. the myth of sex. the extreme damage we can do to ourselves chasing what the industries market to us as being 'fun' being 'wild' being 'rock n roll' etc.
so that's what i'm doing next.
and the reason i am telling you this is i wanna know if there's something you'd like me to write about.
sex boys eating disorders money fame love abuse sex etc.

something about being married is making me feel really sexy.
like a lithe cat on a hot tin roof
enough gravity to pull the shutters off the windows..

sigh.
im baking in  this heat. no, literally i am baking in my kitchen in this heat.
baking and aching. ha!

im a barefoot housewifey cooking up a meal for a dinner party. i need a frilly apron.
justin does kind of look like desi arnaz. ill be lucy. ive always wondered why i never had 'strawberry' hair.

i think my friend and i should do a video where we take turns being gordon ramsey and berating each  other in the kitchen. ending up with us having a fistfight in a spilled pot of spaghetti. haha

is it too early for wine? is it too early for whine?

i put up the album art for lip distortion.. those damn witches.. they need a video.
lindastrawberry.com/store.html
i put it all up.
well.. timer just went off. wifey better go back to hot tin kitchen.
la la love..

oh.. and tomorrow is a benefit show for our dear departed friend and hippie legend sky saxon. he used to say he invented the term flower power.. well tomorrow billy corgan, kerry brown, kevin dippold.. members of the original seeds, strawberry alarm clock, wilco etc will put on a show. come in all your hippie morning glory..
its at the echoplex and starts at 7.

xx

i'm so happy. It was a wonderful day. I plan on writing more about it and sharing the photos as they come in after things settle down! Kristin Burns took photos and also Ashley Walters so i'm excited to see all of them.
Its all a wonderful blur but here's the summary....
here is me, my amazing dad Rob Rowberry, and my neices Kayla and Natalie right before i walked down the aisle..



Our mothers had lit candelabras on either side of the arch representing the joining of our families and Justin, Cameron (our officiator) and best man Jason Coloma came in during "all is full of love" by bjork..
I almost lost it walking down the aisle I had to fight to keep in the tears. it was so beautiful and surreal. My cute little nieces walked right in front of us spreading flower petals and fighting over the basket. haha.
When I got up to the front there was my handsome Justin looking super hot and glam.. Its a little blurry here because i was so nervous but i remember thanking the people that came and looking out at them they were quite the colorful artistic crowd! :)
then my amazing mother Kit Rowberry said a prayer and Jennifer Coloma said a beautiful thing she wrote about marriage..
Cameron then said some words about marriage and my family and i sang "love at  home". then we exchanged our marriage vows and Justin's vows were so beautiful. (i will give more details later... im a little spaced out still) i barely made it through my vows because i was crying. i love justin so much.
then Billy Corgan, one of my other family members ;) sang a beautiful song on the piano called "spangled" that made me cry more..
then ring vows... and then pronouncement of marriage and kiss! and then we walked out to 'sea of love' by cat power.. sigh.. it was so beautiful...
all of our friends and family came together to help us to make it all happen. I'm so thankful and grateful right now that i don't know how i will be able to repay everyone for all the blessings they have brought into my life.
especially my two maids of honor.. kristin burns and ashley walters. they helped me so much.
well i have to get out of this hot room now and go back into the air conditioning where i am cleaning up the wedding mess. ;)
I LOVE MY HUSBAND!!!


p.s. these photos are by ashley "smashley" walters and i've been grabbing them off my Linda Strawberry facebook.. if you are facebook you can add me and see more..  i don't have time this second to post them all.. love!!!

this hotness will be my husband in three days
so excited i can't eat, can't sleep.. can barely breathe.
;)

2 weeks til i'm a wife.
im very excited. the excitement outweighs the stress.
i decided to write here its been a while.
since i'm always twittering things daily i forget to write now.
www.twitter.com/lindastrawberry
but there are so many things that cross my mind that i want to rant out and after the wedding and lip distortion stuff i'm going to get back to pouring out my mind on a regular basis.
there's so much going on around us. in this age of super communication and all our new devices attentions are even shorter than they were before. i wonder how it will be in the future. will be able to relax and follow a long train of thought at all?
i think back to the time when people would have a long dinner and then sit around a radio together and it seems like such a slow pace i think i would go mad. i'm always multi-tasking. if im watching a show i have to be sewing or painting or doing yoga. if im waiting in the car i have to write a message or read through my schedule. if im on hold i have to go online. etc.
so i've been trying to leave an hour when i wake up and an hour before i go to bed where i don't do anything but stretch or read a book. its been really stress relieving.
i feel like alot of times these days we feel guilty if we ever slow down and relax.
so much to be done - so much to write - so much to create - so much to do - so little time - so many bills - etc.
well, i had an amazingly funny bachelorette party thanks to my wonderful friends. we went to a karaoke bar and i had to wear alot of funny stuff like - veil with penii on it. lol. <--- i love lol now. its been adopted into my thoughts. lollipops. so anyway.. yes bachelorette party was very fun. and because of that yesterday i took the day off. haha. and i just ate all the bad foods i have been avoiding and watched movies. well......
happy late fourth of july - which is also my little sister Liahna's birthday. :)
what did you do? i didn't even see one fireworks this year. oops!
i have a growing list of things to do before the wedding. i was overwhelmed completely a few days ago but since i had a day to just rest i feel alot less stressed.

i just remembered i have a song called bachelorette - doesn't everyone? its such a great word.
some people say she's been annihilated//she laughs it off and draws blood//where's your baby?//she's in the backseat of someone's car//moonlit and gushing//getting her guts ripped out//wolves are feeding//soft hearts are heating up to a crackle//bachelorette//she's the steel tongue//violette that never forgets

my heart is aching for music. so much needs to happen to get music back around here. so much. i feel like its a lost love. i have no piano. i have no music equipment. life has stolen music from my days. or i pawned it. i can't remember. but survival isn't kind or gentle. and im still alright. and im still in creation mode. im still going. im still trying.
still mourning the death of a dream that had to pass to give birth to another.

we are many people. not just one. one vision is not all there is. we are many people. sometimes we have to give one thing up to get to the next thing we need to become. it doesn't mean it won't come back. it just means that its not time. we are not one thing. i feel like that is a trap. some people just can't let go of one thing because they are afraid that is all they are and they won't have an identity. but its not true. we are ever changing. what we are now might not resemble what we will be at the end of our years.
i want to keep pushing as hard no matter what it looks like.

i feel like i'm leaving one phase and passing into another. i know everything is going to change. im excited for it. i need it. i'm leaving magnolia in the past. her dress doesn't fit me anymore. hers is a scene i can't exist in. her drugs, her lust, her showmanship.

i don't know who i'll be next.
well, i have to go sample cupcakes now.
au revoir

LIP DISTORTION!!! YOU BITCH!! PRINT YOURSELF UP PRETTY AND GET HERE ALREADY!!!
haha
and you preorder loves will get stickers. xo

R.I.P. Sky Sunlight Saxon

i don't believe in death. only a passing from one dimension to the next.
i am tired and speechless..

here is the video of the wonderful time we all spent with him. (billy kerry kristin, smashley, justin, djin, sabrina, gary)


to hear the finished song and see a slide show of rare and previously unreleased photos
GO HERE
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1206396999888&oid=96318878434&ref=nf






CHOOSE TO CHOOSE LOVE

I thought of a fun idea this morning when I was ordering stars for my dress. The Stars cost 2 dollars for 4 to 6 of them. So I figured its a cheap easy way to celebrate the wedding with us. Ill add the stars to my dress and after the wedding ill send you back one of the stars in the mail with a thankyou card. :)
here's the link
lindastrawberry.com/wedding.html

there's also a link to our registry and honeymoon fund. :) if you get us a gift i will send you a thankyou card with a photo momento.

LOVE YOU ALL!

www.lindastrawberry.com/wedding.html

Hi everyone! ive been so busy with the wedding planning and getting all the little things done for lip distortion. i'm so excited for this release! i feel so tied to it. these songs mean so much to me. i put up the cover art on lindastrawberry.com
what do yo think?

i'm gonna try and post up a page for the wedding tonight. :)
oh! gotta go. the beautiful kristin burns is shooting us today for the invites.
x