wellll.... what to say jacked up on monster keeps my tears away...
I was in a two fuckn year relationship.. and when it ended i thought i had cryed my eyes too kno return.. my first taste of love.. and yet.. in one week all was forgotten and a new person captivated my emotions and welll... turned that frown upside down=) in so little time i fell in love, and yes maybe it was just a desperate attempt to exscape those old feelings... but yet it was amazing... and well i feel stupid now.. but i think losing a guy i never got the chance to get close too is harder than losing the guy i got too close too...  what to do what to do.. im afraid of becoming attached again and doing this all over again.. my sister.. (FUCKNIN EISTEIN) told me it was too soon and she was correct.. but when when will it not be. i needed someone to hold me when the sky was gloomy.. and now the hole fucking world is caving in because that person isnt here... it wasnt a back up plan... it was life support... and now im really low on air...
 
 
atleast you've never failed me... deliciously addictive and yet horribly bad for you-monster=)