Sooo I must say that I took full advantage of my little Christmas break.  I think I had a little too much fun, it seems like now i'm coming down with a terrible cold... uggghhh and I'm not gonna lie, I feel really bad (lol!)

I had a great time though... and I did a lot of different things I'm never able to do because I always work during the week.

tiny recap:

Tuesday - Score with my two fav. boys (Tony & Carlitos)... as usual, it was really fun and really good music.

Wed. - Family dinner... then after I ended up meeting up with the crew at Tony's and we went to Discotekka... Disco was a blast as always, GREAT music... I can't wait till we finally have LUST on Fridays... it's gonna be really good, the excitement is def. growing as the date gets closer.

Friday - Glow Party @ SPACE....  We met up at Chilis to drink before heading out and it was so cute... we had a huge table of around 10 / 12 people all dressed in white... we looked like a bunch of Santeros (lmaO!).  Then after we ended up heading to Space and the craziness began.

This night in particular was a blast... so insane, but def, worth it... it was nice to just dance and hang out with everyone... and it was really really messy, but we had an awesome time... i must say i'll def. attend the next one.   :-D.

Saturday - My bf Paola was in town from New York... so hanging out with her and Sandra is always fun, and we don't get to do it too often... I spent Sat. night with them and we had dinner at this little Italian place on Brickell that was really good.  After we ended up going to White Room... which for me, had a very different crowd that what I'm used to... but the music was good. The place gets really hot, it's kind of small but it was packed.

Today I woke up feeling a bit tired... and def. slept a lot... met up with Paola and Sandra in the afternoon and attempted watching a movie that ended up being sold out... and since I started feeling bad... I went home.

We did so many things... the only thing missing was my Carlos (he was in NY from Wednesday for the festivities) but Anthony was my partner in crime. I <3 you!!!

Back to work tomorrow... work tomorrow and Tuesday and then I have off Wed. and Thursday... so I'm really excited, but i'm def. taking it easy these upcoming days...

All I can say is that I had an amazing time... and it's allowing me to get closer and meet some really cool people (you guys are awesome!!!) MUAH. <3.

4 months ago, I was so uncertain of what would happen to me... now i know that just like i suspected... i'm fine... starting over was difficult, but def. needed.

Everything happens for a reason... and I will never look back.

<3.

Why is everything so complicated? I want simplicity so bad.... I hate games and dishonest people... and it seems like everywhere I turn that's all there is.  People can be so inconsiderate. I'm a good person, yet I feel as if I have the worst luck in the world and i'm always too nice.  I know that I do put myself in situations that do potentially make everything in my life worse/complicated... but I can't help it, it seems those are the situations/people i'm drawn to.  I can't wait to stop being the nice girl... I wonder when the day will come that I'll stop giving a fuck.  I'm just so tired of everything... i'm tired of the way I deal with things... i'm sick of being so sensitive and caring so much... I feel like I just can't get a break... yet the ones that have fucked up seem to get everything handed to them in a silver platter.  At the end of the day it shouldn't matter and I should focus on myself right now... but I can't let it go... too many emotions are in my head right now and it's keeping me awake.  I just wanna shut everything out...

      Ok today is finally the big day... i'm finally 21! lol what is the first thing i am going to do.... um buy liquor of course! lol and proudly show my ID to the clerk... oh well not like i could not drink before.. but u know... at least now i can do it legally!  Thank you everyone for the comments!!.. unfortunately my myspace is being retarted today and it's not letting me sign on to my home page... i wanted to write a bulletin thanking everyone.. :-/ but can't...  luckily i can at least write comments from people's pages...:-) and my blog... go figure... Thank you guys... muah <3.  I'm leaving work early today and just gonna enjoy my day...and be wih my family... i'll party hard on the weekend... hehe. ;-)

-Nat.

So much work... i gotta register for school again... financial aid... i gotta figure out what i'm gonna do... but for the moment i'm calm... taking everything step by step... and day by day... i hope it's not too late to change... or too late to start over... I have a lot to do... for myself... not for anyone else... :-) My life has been the same for too long... and frankly... i'm bored of it... i wanna grow... as a person, financially, emotionally... and get out of this repetitive cycle i am in... blah boring... and i hate boring... so here i go, we'll see how things turn out this time...

                                                                                       -Nat

I don't understand people... I keep trying and trying... and it just feels like i'm losing.... i fear that at the end I won't have anyone that really matters left... I feel lost...  I do not know if i am making a mistake... I feel misunderstood...  and at times I have no idea what to do... :-/

I was browsing through someone's profile today and I found this quote...

"Find a girl who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on her,who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.Wait for the girl who kisses your forehead,who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much she cares about you and how lucky she is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to her friends and says "that's her"

 :-x

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