I just got finished watchin this documentary called Slippin which was focused on street gangs in L.A. Now at first I was really ready to feel sympathetic for the guys bc I know being a black man in America is hard. But after about 10 minutes that shit went out the window. I started to realize alot of shit that was happening too them was brought upon themselves. I grew up in the hood (still live here) and I know crack destroyed our neighborhood and that racism exists. That as black ppl we struggle more and we get the short end of the stick. But at the same time what happened to PERSONAL RESPONSIBLITY!

 At some point u need to take action and stop reacting. STOP blaming ya neighborhood, family, friends, white man, and the world for ur problems. Ok ya mom was on crack u neva seen ya dad well u 25 NOW dont u think its about time to put that in the past and move on. There are plenty of black ppl who r in the same situation or worse but they mad the CHOICE  to do sumthing different. If Hakeem down the street can become a college graduate and become a lawyer . Why cant u??? I know why bc they scared of failing, scared of success, scared of trying. They rather take the easy way out by not doing nuthing at all!

 Its hard its extremely hard for black ppl but think about slavery. To me that struggle was way more harder than it is now. We are at a disadvantaged bc of poverty, lack of jobs, poor schooling but there are so many more resources now than it was in 1867 for black ppl.

 As I continued to watch the documentary and couldnt understand why these men would want this life. Killing, robbing ppl, shooting guns like it blew my mind. But what was crazy was that when they homies died they couldnt take it. Like are u FUCKING KIDDING ME! Death is never a good pill to swallow. But if u LIVE BY THE GUN U DIE BY THE GUN! If u kill they homie they gonna come kill u! Its a cycle that never ends. How can u think that u can kill ppl and no one can come kill u! Aint nobody invincible or a damn superhero so what drug u smokin! I kno what drug its called WEED!

 Which bring me too my next point. All these grown ass men did was smoke weed, dring 40 oz., eat chicken, load guns, fight each other, and complain about the world all day. What happen to getting a fucking JOB! Sellin crack will get u fast money but fast money dont last. Unless u turn that fast money into good money but niggas waste it on beer , guns and stupid shit.

 I did start to feel sympathetic but more so bc they were mentally enslaved. None of them gave a fuck about life, their life and definetly not anybody else life. They never tried to make anything of themselves or be a better person. They couldnt see that life is a gift ( AND HOW EASY IT CAN BE TAKEN) and that they could BE SOMEBODY! They felt no one loved them and that they back was against the wall. So they went out and killed ppl and other nonsense. which leaves them nowhere. But they put their back against the wall and they didnt care or love themselves bc if they did they would'nt be doin this nonsense.

In conclusion, I have to say its sad too see black men throw they lives away so easily. I dont kno if its bc they have no postive role models or they cant see pass their environment, or maybe they dont belive in themselves. But I know this we all wake up with a CHOICE! To do good or do bad. As adults we know right from wrong. U have the choice to pick up a gun or pick up a book. To sell crack or get a job. Hang with ya homies or go to school. Drop out or graduate. Go to college or stay on the block. We all make conscious choices with our lives. So its about time that black men make that choice. And hopefully its the RIGHT CHOICE!

-gERa

I was watchin X-Men Last Stand. At about 2 am Im a insomaniac lol And while watching I realized the drama happened bc wolverine ass didnt listen to the Professor when he said dont mess with Gene bc she is crazy now. She the phoenix. She dangerous. But he just had to to talk too her and try to get sum pussy. Men!! So Disgusting!! Thats anotha topic. But here he go woke her out her coma and and all hell broke loose. Dumbass!! Now the Professor dead bc he aint listen. She blew that nigga to pieces literally. Damn wasnt that a shame tho. I almost cried in the movies. lol

But after watchin Mission Impossible 3 and Hills have eyes and otha movies I realized ppl in scary , action, really all movies  the drama got started bc they ass aint listen!!! But this is in the real word too. Ppl fail to listen and not only that they fail to comprehend and undersatnd things bein told to us. For example the biggest example is Eve ass!!! Adam and Eve they didnt listen and look what happened. We all got to live in this shitty world now. If they had listened to God and not eaten the apple we would be all perfect living it up butt naked disease free eating mangos off trees. (do mangos grow on trees?) who knows? And if Adam wasnt so scared of not getting sum pussy. Bc u kno thats y he ate the apple. U kno eve said, "Nigga u betta bite this apple or we aint fuckin tonite!" lol I mean what otha way could it be. Adam couldnt of been punk. See ladies we have more power than we think. And its right btw our legs and its pink inside and gets wet when aroused. lmao

But my point is we must start to listen. Including me. lol  If ya mom say dont go outside. Than dont go. Bc if sumthin happen. Oh well. If ya dad say dont play in the street. Dont. Bc when u get hit by a big ass SUV. Dont say I shoulda listened. If ya girlfriend has to tell u sumthing. Listen. She could be pouring her heart out too u. When ya bf talks. Listen. He may be tryin to tell u he loves u or he dont want ya fat ass no more !! lol If ya friend tell u they shooting around the corner. Dont go and see who shooting. Dummy. Stay ya ass in the house. Unless u want to be shot. If the doctor say u need to lose weight bc u got high blood pressure and diabetes. Dont go eat mcd's and say fuck the doctor.

My point is we would get further in life if we listen. Look at Adam and eve. Thats the biggest example to explain to u how SERIOUS and IMPORTANT it is to LISTEN. From them not listening look at how the world turned out. Enough said. Im not saying do what everybody says. No. Do whats right for u. But if someone is generally tryin to help u in the right way. Listen to them. U neva kno the outcome. U may like the result.

GERA

Now I kno everyone been thru this. but i have a problem wit ppl tellin me what too do. period. so when u tell me it makes me not what too do it. but when u do it on myspace. i want neva do it.

if u request me . i got it. i kno u requested me. tom posted a big ass red sign tellin me new friend requests. but unlike u im not quick to add ppl. i'll add when im ready. i didnt kno it was a deadline on addin ppl. so dont send me no damn messages askin me y i aint add u yet. bc dickhead i didnt. so fuck off!!

now if i kno u and lets say i havent talk too u in atleast a month. and u find me on myspace and u expect me to put u in my top. lmao not going to happen. if u dont have my # ur not goin in my top. if u r a long lost family member dont think u bein in my top. if u a old classmate who i really dont kno or like ya not in my top. if u kno me or r related too me dont think u have a guranteed spot in my top. like i really need to kno u. its my damn choice anyway. i put who i want.and if u r a close friend and i havent put u in my top or u dont like ya position please dont complain. ya position shouldnt matter at all. bc if u my friend u my friend . dont let myspace ruin us lol

besides i cant put everyone in my top!!

xoxoxoxoxox

gera

y r ppl page private. that disturbs me. what do u have to hide? whats so damn special about u?i'll tell u nuthin at all. ppl just want to feel special. thats it. as if theres something exclusive about  they page which its not!! and dont u hate when u go to a person page its private and ur debating on rather u want to request them or not. so u finally decide yeah. and than when u go to they page its the dumbest page in the world. i mean u were expecting something to explain too u y the page private. but theres none. lol

so for all the ppl with private pages. think to yaself y ya page private? like really why? bc if u didnt kno u cant hide on myspace. there r ways to view ya page. now im not going to list em lol but kno theres ways. so u not hiding nuthin from nobody.

ppl on myspace r fools.

Now I kno Im not the only one going thru this bc me and my girlfriends talk about it all the time. Now men who are reading this please take heed and if u get mad bc im writin this or think im concieted u are the type of guy im talkin about.

ok Y is is that when guys approach u on they street. u tell em u have a man they tell u i dont care i just want to be ya friend. now seriously if u had a girl would u want her having male friends. i think the hell not u be pissed. if i tell u i have a boyfriend dont say i just want to be ya friend. I DONT NEED FRIENDS NOR DO I WANT YA ASS AS MY FRIEND!! SO LEAVE ME ALONE!! dont say how long u had that problem. dont say i dont want to be ya man i just want to be ya friend. dont say u cant have friends damn ya man control like that. NAW NIGGA I JUST DONT WANT U AS A FRIEND!! no i dont need u to take me out or show me things my man cant. do u even kno what man do for me ? NO U DONT! please dont say u can treat me betta may be u can but the fact remains i have a dude and i dont WANT U!!  please IF A FEMALE TELL U SHE GOT A MAN RESPECT THAT AND LEAVE HER ALONE. DONT HARASS HER AND TRY TO CONVINCE HER BC IT WONT WORK TO BE HONEST 97% OF THE TIME WE LYIN WE DONT EVEN HAVE A DUDE ( i dont i just be tellin ppl) lol THATS THE LINE WE USE WHEN WE NOT INTERESTED IN TALKIN NIGGAS! BUT ITS THE FACT THAT I TOLD U AND U SHOULD RESPECT THAT!! SIMPLE AS THAT.

if i tell u im gay dont say i dont care i just want to be ya friend. if i say im a lesbian dont say me too. if i tell u i dont mess wit dudes dont say me either. and dont try to convince a female that she needs dick or a man or u in her life. even tho 90% of the time we lyin still not try to tell me otherwise. if  she gay she gay RESPECT THAT AND MOVE ON SHE DONT WANT YA ASS

if i tell u im good dont say i kno u are DICKHEAD GET AWAY FROM ME WHEN I SAY IM GOOD THAT MEANS IM NOT INTERESTED IN U LEAVE ME ALONE!! if a female says she ok , fine, etc that means she dont want to talk too u SO STEP OFF LOSER!! DO NOT HARASS HER WIT QUESTIONS DONT FOLLOW HER AND ASK HER A 1000 QUESTIONS LEAVE HER ALONE!!!!

dont ask me can i walk wit u HELL NO i can walk on my own i aint 8 and u dont really want to walk wit me u goin to stop the moment i give u my number LOSER!!

and if u callin a girl from across the street or beepin ya horn at her and she dont look at u or she dont pay u no mind or respond smile anything LEAVE HER ALONE!! DONT WALK YA ASS ACROSS THE STREET AND DONT PARK YA CAR OR DEF PUT YA CAR IN REVERSE UP THE STREET!!! U LOOK DESPERATE AND LIKE A LOSER!! and if for three whole blocks she keep tellin u she good she got a man etc and u keep rappin to her  GO JUMP OFF A BRIDGE bc u playin yaself LOSER !! WHEN WILL U REALIZE SHE NOT INTERESTED!! real talk if a female wants u she will give u eye contact not a glance but EYE CONTACT A SMILE if she dont she dont want ya ass so LEAVE HER ALONE

and neva touch a female u dont kno her thats not ya girl dont touch her butt hand elbow arm leg ear NUTHIN IF U HAVE TO TOUCH HER TO GET HER ATTENTION THAN SHE NOT PAYIN YA ASS NO MIND!!

and if a female gives u her number dont call the number in front of her on ya phone to see if its real R U THAT DESPERATE NIGGA!! GO JUMPOFF THE EMPIRE STATE BUIDING RIGHT NOW!! it not only makes u look bad but its just plain tacky and if u aint goin to believe  me y ask me and it embarasses the girl bc 70% of the time the number fake, disconeected, or one of our girlfriends number. and ladies if u eva get caught givin out a fake #  just tell em u left ya phone at home and if that dont work the moment he call it curse him out tell him u dont mess wit desperate dudes and walk away works everytime :)

Lastly dudes understand that females dont have to talk too u there is no written book or code that says that just bc a guy approaches a female she has to talk too him theres no rule so respect a female choice when she tells u she got a man or she good not interested whateva DONT HARASS HER DONT FOLLOW HER UP THE STREET DONT SCREAM OUT YA CAR WINDOW STOP ASKIN HER QUESTIONS IF SHES NOT RESPONDIN OR GIVIN U ONE WORD ANSWERS JUST REALIZE SHE DONT WANT YA ASS AND MOVE ON THERE R A THOUSAND N ONE BITCHES IN THE WORLD RIGHT WHEN SHE LEAVES ANOTHA GIRL WALKIN UP THE STREET SO PLEASE TAKE HEED AND STOP EMBARASSIN YA SELVES N GET THE DRIFT SHE DONT WANT U!!

LOVE

GERA