So, I just deleted all of my contacts on my Ipod.
AND, after I had spent, LITERALLY ALL DAY yesterday, RE-TYPING them onto my computer so that "just in case anything were to ever happen to them" I would have copies, THEY GOT DELETED TOO.

I'm so fucking..... I am PEEVED.


If it's not too big of a deal,
could people (who wouldn't mind,)
PLEASE send me your numbers again.

First and last name please,
or any additional information that they wouldn't mind me having..

-birthday,
-address,
-etc....


Thanks. :(

There is no one. No one, no one,
no one.
I've spun a web all on my own and have caught nothing
but daydreams and dead leaves.
Watching their beautiful veins dry and whisper away in the wind.
And I can't sleep. But
I can fill my head with intimacy and
make myself feel less alone, but there's nobody here;
except me.

If you want to take these tests, go to...
mypseronality.info


If you take it, let me know what you got. :)

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used &
abused.
used &

abused.
used &

abused.


So amaurotic. over and over. again. & again. I never saw myself revisiting this place. As though I will never learn. As though I would fly into glass 1,000  times until my neck snapped. I feel so. so useless. I am dead.weight, tossed into the ocean,  floating miles and milesssss. away. Bobbing in the waves like I never knew the shore. The sun is so unpredictable; eats my flesh like hugry dogs. I think I'm finally letting this faithless insanity chew me alive. So much anger. resent. boiling from my insides. No direction-no time. exists. Fired off so aimlessly; I let myself get so mislead. How foolish I must have looked groping around in the darkness for something to hold. Something intimate and. my own. So. soundless. May the next time, I shatter my spine.

Though this isn't easy for me to say; it's as though I have nothing else. My trust for nearly everyone is growing smaller and smaller. Everything around me feels like a lie. As if all matter had been manipulated; wearing masks. I want to get as far away as possible. But it's fucking impossible. It's everywhere. It's in the air. In the soil. Bad intentions and all the fucking grime. And though I'd dare. I'd dare to fight this one off but I've got a feeling this is all permanent. You can't shake a feeling like this. You can only bury it deeper. I have never known a more vulgar expression of emptiness and deceit. I can't remember what it was like anymore. I can't remember you. 

Sunday, December 14, 2008
Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)

Your rational thoughts might need to be swept under a rug today, for analysis leads you to one conclusion while your heart says something else. You can convince yourself that you don't need to get involved in someone else's business, but ultimately you are unable to shut down when a close friend or family member needs help. After you consider all the reasons to keep to yourself, toss them aside and do what feels right.

Monday, December 15, 2008
Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)

You might feel a bit scattered today as you try to head off in one too many directions. Although you may not like being stopped in your tracks, instant karma won't allow you to go too far too fast in a wrong direction. Instead of looking at the negative side of things, understand that the current obstacles are reality's way of getting you to stop running around and to concentrate your actions on the most crucial matters.

much that I want to say.

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)

Sometimes you can appear more easygoing than you actually feel. Today, however, you are likely to just push others away if you need time by yourself. It's not that you are antisocial; it's just that you aren't interested in putting up a fake front for the sake of making someone else feel good. Don't try to justify your actions; just be true to yourself while remaining kind to everyone else.