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When I think about everything I've done wrong in my life, I can tie everything into one subject. Seriously, I doubt many people can say that and I think that is a pretty decent accomplishment. You would think this would lead to pretty much nothing but regret, but for me it really doesn't. I've really learned where my flaws are/ how to fix them. Plus, hey, I needed some excitement in my life somewhere I guess. 

If you are going to live you life and be happy, you have to be someone. You can't be a clone of other people, unless that is what you truly want but no one wants that. If you want something, go grab it! Don't settle on secondary desires. If something is important to you, its worth waiting for. Find something you believe and hold to your convictions. Don't give into to pressure, in the end is it really worth it? Don't settle for temporary fixes. Never give up, I'm pretty sure I've felt some of the worst possible emotional pain. How did I get over it? I didn't. Thats why I am sitting here typing this stupid dramatic blog.

-Longest sentence ever-
When you realize someone has robbed you of your dreams, pushing the thought of making you settle or let go of everything, held you back in about everyway possible, made you digress, said caring things with untrue intentions, second guessed you constantly, threatened you with what they call love, hidden things from you and been content with leaving you wondering why, acts towards you with the most mixed emotions possible, loved you and hated you one second later and in short put your heart on a never-ending roller coaster, you'll start to know how I've felt.

And lastly, I've always had it in my heart to want to help people. Its how I was raised. When someone tells you that you are the reason they are alive it really makes you feel like you have a purpose and that you really did accomplish something. Then all the sudden nothing matters anymore, and you might as well be dead to the person. Well if that is how they are going to act, that is what you want...

Right now I could care less what people think. I aim to have no addictions and no secrets in my life. I'm not going to hide what I want. Here are some things you will never EVER see me doing.

DRINKING - Is it fun? Maybe, heck probably. But is it worth it? I seriously doubt it. For starters it impairs your true judgement AND ITS BAD FOR YOU. I have seen it mutilate peoples lives, everyone has yet it has to be Americas favorite past-time activity. I dont know anyone that drinks or has drank alcohol and does not have a negative experience to refer to at some point during that waste of time. Screw you alcohol, you have attempted to ruin my life on multiple occasions.
SMOKING - I'm not even going to bother.
DRUGS - Not worth typing an explanation either
SWEARING- I'll admit, I've snapped at people. Well, at one person. I'm sorry for that. In the end I feel that I am probably one of the only people my age that doesn't have a desire to swear. Why well I don't want to sound dumb, but It fuels anger and negativity and ultimatley gets you know where.
HOLDING GRUDGES- I've found that it is better to forgive and let go than hold a grudge. You could murder my entire Family and I would find a way to forgive you. Why? Well Jesus would have. If you don't believe in Jesus or God or whatever, it doesn't really matter. Striving to model yourself after that concept is going to make you feel good. It does, you should try it.
HATING PEOPLE WITH TRUE INTENT- this goes along with holding grudges. I know sometimes its very hard to not let hate take control. Whether its hate towards a certain person or towards youself, its not good. Hatred only fuels more hardship and trouble.
IGNORING PEOPLE- knowing this is happening to you is pretty hurtful and destructive. Running from a problem is always worse than fixing it or at least settling it.
BEING FAKE- a very dear friend told me this
"dont dwell on things too much. things will work out and you will be just fine. just hold close what you believe and never let go of those convictions. people come and go, and are fickle like the wind. but your convictions, thats what makes you strong." Nobody is perfect, you have to make a stand for something. This statement is SO true. It brings me to tears thinking about it.  One thing i will never do is settle my beliefs so someone else can be happy. You have to do something for yourself. That may come off as me sounding controling.

Well think of it this way: Someone wants to marry you. At the time you think you share enough of the same beliefs to the point where you are compatible enough to make things work. Or in my case, you think you can always fix someone. Well first off let me get something off my chest.

IF YOU WANT TO MAKE A COMMITMENT LIKE THAT TO SOMEONE, MAKE SURE ITS WHAT YOU WANT. ITS SERIOUS. ONE OF THE MOST SERIOUS DECISIONS YOU WILL EVER MAKE. DON'T BE FORCED INTO IT AND DON'T TRY AND FORCE SOMEONE INTO IT. IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE. MAKE SURE YOU LOVE THEM. DON'T TELL THEM YOU LOVE THEM BECAUSE IT  HIDES YOUR PROBLEMS AND MAKES YOU FEEL MORE COMFORTABLE. THAT IS LYING. DON'T FALL INTO THAT RUT. COMFORT IS GOOD BUT DOESN'T LAST FOREVER. KINDOF LIKE BEING DRUNK.

If someone TRULY loves you. They won't change themselves for the worse, especailly when they know all it will do is hurt you. Correct me if I'm wrong but I know I'm not.  You have to draw the line somewhere. If its going to forfeight you being happy, a problem like that needs to be adressed. I BELIEVE THAT IS PRETTY FAR FROM CONTROLLING. considering MY life and the life someone wanted.

LYING/CHEATING YOURSELF- Why distort the truth. I never want to do this. Be true to yourself, man up. The world is yours for the taking if you can HONESTLY conquer this.

These are some things you will rarely see/hear me doing.

CRYING- I haven't liked to do this since I was very young. I'm very easily embarrased and I rarely like to show my true feelings. I don't think I've ever cried from happiness, I have however because i felt extremely strongly about something. 

USING THE WORD LOVE- I'm far from good at this. Love is the strongest of emotions. I don't like overusing it and fear its missuse.

I've been typing this for 3 hours. I'm done for now.

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