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Gender: Female
Status: Divorced
Age: 15
Sign: Sagittarius

City: LEXINGTON
State: Kentucky
Country: US
Signup Date: 10/19/2006

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Sunday, September 13, 2009 
this isn't going to be the best piece of writing. in fact, i didn't get much sleep last night because i was (drunk) rambling to a boy a million miles away about how i'm sorry that i told him i love him and sleeping on this guy's couch without pants because i either puked or spilled beer on them. and i feel how jack kerouac felt, that he was a mess and sleep deprived and probably still a little tipsy, woke up this morning too early and had to walk all the way across his shit house to use the bathroom, couldn't go back to sleep after that.
this is how i get when it's too early to text someone to see what they're doing today or send some phone signals to that boy in the far far south telling him how i can't be held responsible for my misplaced consonats because i smoked all my menthol cigarettes and couldn't find something much more entertaining other than that couch where i watched the wackness with an acid burnout that held my hand, smelled faintly of a dumpster, and who i was mentally begging to just. kiss. me.
i lost a lot not so long ago to someone i used to eat mushrooms with and talk about driving to california. they left with the promise of coming back, never did and still hasn't, and i'm sure they won't. i used to call them my sunshine, and they're gone, but the plants still grow on a cloudy day, you know. but right now. i smell toast and my room's too cold even though it's the middle of september, and i want a pair of woolen socks because i don't feel like i'm growing anymore. i feel like i'm trapped in some loamy soil and that there's a lot of light shining in from the windows and i can see the church across the street but i feel like i have no natural instinct to spring from the underground, and that's what's holding me back, you know. that i need to be plucked from the soil by very precise hands, or i need it brushed away from over top of me so i can grow and be a bean plant that little kids preform experiments with the ph of the soil on, not a failed science project that leaves you wondering why didn't you just do the baking soda and vinegar volcano that everyone else fucking does. 
but that's where it ends, right up when my fingers are falling into even more esoteric analogies about life and bean plants because i know if i went on that i wouldn't be making sense. because really i hate everybody and everything for little tiny microscopic things that you'd never guess, like the way they laugh or the fact that theyre incredible, intelligent people but all their friends are dumbasses, or that they wear nice shoes but their feet are too big. but the thing is that everyone i just want to sit down and talk to, not about me, not like this, but get drunk and smoke cigarettes in my garage all night and ask them how they feel about themselves. so i don't know what that makes me, but on your birthday i coughed up toothpaste all over my mirror and my throat bled and i want to sit on the floor of my shower until the water runs cold, or sleep all day or get drunk and tell people's future. 
but before i reach an exhasperated claim and shout at the top of my lungs into my keyboard that i'm some sick sychophant's child of anti-seduction, the reverse card of the hanged man, where i'm rightside up when i should be upsidedown, i'm going to fall asleep. and it's different now, because it used to be that i didn't care what waited for me when i opened my eyes again, but now i just don't want to wake up this tired.
Thursday, September 27, 2007 
a collection of my playlists. some I've cleaned out.

sleeping and driving as/of 10/8/09

song - artist

Neon Bible - The Arcade Fire
Here - Pavement
The Fuel - Sneaker Pimps
Everything We Had - The Academy Is...
Mist - Tsutchie
Mary's Magic - Pogo
Sunday Morning Coming Down - Johnny Cash
Munk Was a Genius - The Mean Star
Marvelous Things - Eisley 
White Winter Hymnal - Fleet Foxes
Tell Me What to Swallow - Crystal Castles
Gypsy Death & You - The Kills
What Are They Doing in Heaven Today? - The Be Good Tanyas
Recycled Air - The Postal Service
Army Corps of Architects - Death Cab for Cutie
Grey Flats - Endless Hallway
Girl With One Eye - Florence and the Machine
One Thousand Tears of a Tarantula - Dengue Fever
The Singing Sea - SEATBELTS
Umbrealla - Scott Simons
Cotton - The Mountain Goats
Changed - Dakota Floyd
A Hard Rain's A-Gonna Fall - Bob Dylan
Limp - Fiona apple
Moon on the Water - The Dying Breed
Dance Dance Dance - Lykke Li
Naive - The Rentals
Fuck, Was I - Jenny Owen Youngs
Tumbling Tumbleweeds - Leo Kottke
Staring at the Sun (Diplo Remix) - TV on the Radio
Vapour Trail - Ride
Must've Run All Day - Glassjaw
Elevator - Hot Hot Heat
Everything Will Be Alright - The Killers
Weather Systems - Andrew Bird
And It Rained All Night - Thom Yorke
Jet Black - Jawbreaker
Have it All - Jeremy Kay
Eraser - No age
Stay With You - Lemon Jelly
The fairest of the Seasons - Nico
Don't You Fall - The Be Good Tanyas
Noah's Ark - Coco Rosie
Only in Dreams - Weezer
April 29, 1992 (Leary Remix) - Sublime
Mongrel... - DJ Shadow
The World is Not Enough - Garbage
Beautiful Morning With You - The Pillows
Everything in Its Right Place - Radiohead
Overkill - Colin Hay
Stars - Hum
I Hung My Head - Johnny Cash
The Stranger Song - Leonard Cohen
Hereldeduke vs. The Snowman - Hereldeduke
Love Come Down - Barry Biggs
All the Trees of the Field Will Clap Their Hands - Sufjan Stevens
Sleeping In - The Postal service
Something About Us - Daft Punk
Brustreet - SALEM
The Vision - Mood
Slumming It With Johnny - Say Anything
Risingson - Massive Attack
Waves Goodbye - FFTL
Not Enough - The 88
No One Would Riot for Less - Bright Eyes
The Beginning is the End is the Beginning - Smashing Pumpkins
Holland - Sufjan Stevens
The Limp Twins - The Dub That Sank My Sub
Blackhole - Beck
God Bones - Saintseneca
Scythian Empire - Andrew Bird

playlists from years ago VVVVVVVVVV

summer reggae playlist
(ordered by artist in reverse, generally shuffle it; this playlist is available on isohunt.)

Dreadlock Holiday - 10cc
Look Whos Dancing - Ziggy Marley & the Melody Makers
No Letting Go - Wayne Wonder
Lady - Wayne Wade
Kingstone Town - Ub40
Hello Darling - Tippa Irie
Now that We Found Love - Third World
Girlie Girlie - Sophia George
Mr. Bombastic - Shaggy
Mr. Loverman - Shabba Ranks & Chevelle Franklin
Mockin' Bird Hill - Roots Syndicate
South Africa -Revalation Time & Ruud Gullit
(You Gonna Walk) Don't Look Back - Peter Tosh & Mick Jagger
Baby Come Back - Pato Banton
Pass the Dutchie - Musical Youth
Goh Deh Yaka - Monyaka
Some Guys Have All the Luck - Maxi Priest
Someone Loves You Honey - June Lodge & Prince Mohammed
Sunshine in the Music - Jimmy Cliff
Night Nurse - Greogory Isaacs
Sun of Jamaika - Goombay Dance Band
Ok Fred - Errol Dunkley
Cocaine in My Brain - Dillenger
Shy Guy - Diana King
Mississippi - Dennis Jones & Pussycat
Stop that Train - Clint Eastwood & General Saint
Murder She Wrote - Chaka Demus & Pliers
I Want to Wake Up with You - Boris Gardiner
Sun is Shining - Bob Marley
The Tide is High - Blondie
Amogo - Black Slaste
It Keeps Rainin' - Bitty McClean
Dancehall Queen - Beenie Man
I Would Stay - Beef
Love Come Down - Barry Biggs
Shine - Aswad
Boom Shak A Lak - Apache Indian
Uptown Ranking - Althea & Donna
Me Julie - Ali G & Shaggy
Reckless - Afrika Bambaataa & Ub40



summer breeze, feelin' kinda fine.
(when's summer, again? 4/18/08)

Tom Robinson - 2-4-6-8 Mortorway
10cc - Dreadlock Holiday
Beck - Nitemare HIppy Girl
The Misfits - Where Eagles Dare
Richard Hell - Love Comes in Spurts
The Vines - Fuck Yeh
Benny Benassi - California Dreaming
Jawbreaker - Save Your Generation
The Undertones - Teenage Kicks
Rancid - Travis Bickle
Bob Marley - Sun is Shining
Andrew Bird - Don't be Scared
Lil Wayne - Walk it Out Freestyle
50 Cent - Touch the Sky (ft. Tony Yayo)
Beck - Summer Girl
Texas is the Reason - Do You Know Who You Are?
Paul Wright - Flip-flops
Blondie - The Tide is High
Beat Crusaders - Hit in the USA
Death Cab for Cutie - The Face that Launched a Thousand Ships
The Ramones - I Believe in Miracles
Beck - Go it Alone
The Vines - Sun Child
Bayside - How to Fix Everything
Sage Francis - Mourning Aftermath
Goldfrapp - Strict Machine
Beck - Soul Suckin Jerk
Dashboard Confessional - Heaven Here
The Automatic - You Shout You Shout You Shout
Paul Oakenfold - Starry Eyed Surprise
Jets to Brazil - Milk and Apples
Althea & Donna - Uptown Top Ranking
X-Ray Spex - Oh Bondage Up Yours!
Rave Allstars - Hardcore Vibes
Shaggy - Mr. Bombastic
The Ramones - The Crusher
Black Flag - Wasted
Weezer - Keep Fishing
Pitck Black Afro - Matofotofo
Patrick Wolf - The Magic Position
Jawbreaker - Boxcar
Mewithoutyou - Tie Me Up! Untie Me!
Ben Kweller - Sha, Sha
The Fall of Troy - FCPREMIX
Cascada - Everytime We Touch
Bright Eyes - Drunk Kid Catholic
Ben Lee - Gamble Everything for Love
Deepsky - Ghost
Dead Kennedys - Kill the Poor
The Buzzcocks - Ever Fallen in Love (With Someone You Shouldn't Have)
The Vines - Animal Machine
50 Cent - I'll Still Kill (ft. Akon)
Gabriel and Dresden - Tracking Treasure Down (ft. Molly)
The Clash - White Riot
Fiona Apple - Across the Universe Cover
The Flaming Lips - Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots Pt. 1
The Ramones - I Wanted Everything
ATB - Ecstasy
Andrew Bird - Don't Be Scared
Gambafreaks - Natural Woman
Barry Biggs - Love Come Down
Nada Surf - Bad Best Friend
The Undertones - Get Over You
Bright Eyes - The Calendar Hung Itself
Jawbreaker - Bad Scene, Everyone's Fault
The Automatic - Monster
The Pink Spiders - Stereo Speakers
Michael Franti and Spearhead - Ganja Babe
Jawbreaker - Jinx Removing
Black Eyed Peas - Smells Like Funk
Sage Francis - Sun vs. Moon
The Vines - Highly Evolved
The Flaming Lips - It's Summertime
The Vines - Fuck the World
Scary Kids Scaring Kids - Locked IN
Drogonette - I Get Around (Van She Vocal Mix)
Chiodos - If I Cut My Hair, Hawaii Will Sink
The Stooges - Search and Destroy
Zola - Ghetto Scandalous
Sage Francis - Slow Down Ghandi
The Network - Transistors Gone Wild
Aiden - The Sky is Falling
The Undertones - Teenage Kicks
The Specials - Ghost Town
Ziggy Marley - Look Who's Dancing
Daft Punk - Digital Love
Justin Timberlake - Summer LOve
Dead Kennedys - California Uber Alles
Transplants - Gangsters & Thugs
Brigh Eyes - June on the West Coast
Blue Man Group - Mandelgroove
Dashboard Confessional - Stolen
Sufjan Stevens - Holland
The Stranglers - Golden Brown
The Ramones - Outsider
Kanye West - You Can't Tell Me Nothin'
Saves the Day - Nightingale
Bouncing Souls - That Song
DJ Sammy - Take My Breath Away Remix
DJ Irene - Rave til Dawn
The Ramones - I Believe in Miracles
Nada Surf - Blond on Blond
The Vines - Don't Listen to the RAdio
Milk Inc. - Oceans




(trip to the beach house 12/26/07, thought i needed a new one)

things that go 'bump' in the night
(illigitimate lovechild of 'fog: the inevitability of winter' and 'sleeping and driving')

Jawbreaker - Seethruskin
Gregory and the Hawk - Boats and Birds
Nada Surf - Bad Best Friend
Sonny Moore - Moth
The Kooks - Ooh La
Bright Eyes - Lua
Senses Fail - The Ground Folds (Acoustic)
Jawbreaker - Sea Foam Green
Jawbreaker - Gutless
Jawbreaker - Jet Black
Catherine O'Hara - Sallys Song
Fall Out Boy - It's Not a Side-Effect of the Cocaine, I Think I'm in Love
My American Heart - We are the Fabrication
Jawbreaker - PS New York is Burning
Ladytron - Playgirl
Jawbreaker - Outpaitent
Death Cab for Cutie - A Lack of Color
Butthole Surfers - Pepper
Death Cab for Cutie - Tiny Vessels
From First to Last - Emily
From First to Last - Afterbirth
Lifetime - The Verona Kings
Brigh Eyes - Clairaudients (Kill or Be Killed)
The Red Paintings - Mad World (Cover)
Sia - Butterflies
Norman Greenbaum - Spirit in the Sky
Joy Division - Love Will Tear Us Apart
Dashboard Confessional - The Shade of Poison Trees
Postal Service - Such Great Heights
Scary Kids Scaring Kids - The City Sleeps in Flames
Aiden - White Wedding
The Specials - Ghost Town
Add N to (X) - Revenge of the Black Regent
Dashboard Confessional - Carry this Picture
Jawbreaker - Softcore
Gorillaz - Sound Check (Gravity)
Iron and Wine - Such Great Heights (Cover)
He is Legend - The Creature Walks
Mewithoutyou - January 1979
Underoath - Writing on the Walls
Aiden - The Sky is Falling
Sia - Breathe Me
Death Cab for Cutie - Line of Best Fit
Underoath - A Boy Brushed Red.. Living in Black and White
Sonny Moore - Concentrical Mockup
Jawbreaker - Want
Bright Eyes - First Day of My Life
50 Cent - Ayo Techonolgy (Feat. Justin Timberlake, Timbaland) (Prod. by Timbaland)
Death Cab for Cutie - What Sarah Said
Death Cab for Cutie - Passenger Seat
Jets to Brazil - "Your X-Rays Have Just Come Back from the Lab and We Think We Know what Your Problem Is"
Senses Fail - Choke on This
Four Letter Lie - Firecracker
Jawbreaker - Sleep
Death Cab for Cutie - The New Year
Fall Out Boy - Growing Up
Chiodos - Intensity in Ten Cities
Armor for Sleep - Slip Like Space
Death Cab for Cutie - Bend to Squares
Rihanna - Umbrella (Travis Barker Remix)
Primitive Radio Gods - Standing Outside a Broken Phone Booth
The Chiodos Bros. - Rainclouds for Eyeballs
Jawbreaker - Save Your Generation
Bright Eyes - We Are Nowhere, and It's Now
Death Cab for Cutie - Summer Skin
Blue Man Group - The Current (feat. Gavin Rossdale)
Chiodos - To Trixie and Reptile, Thanks
Weezer  - Only in Dreams
Sage Francis - Jah Didn't Kill Johnny
Death Cab for Cutie - Soul Meets Body
Texas is the Reason - Do You Know Who You Are?
Jawbreaker - Kiss the Bottle
Endless Hallway - Eels and Cold Baths
Dashboard Confessional - The End of an Anchor
Flaming Lips - Are You an Hypnotist?
Sonny Moore - Copaface
Bright Eyes - Arc of Time (Time Code)
Bright Eyes - Theme from Pinata.
Sunny Day Real Estate - Friday
Jets to Brazil - Sea Anemone
Nada Surf - Always Love
Beck - Nitemare Hippy Girl
Scary Kids Scaring Kids - Locked IN
Sonny Moore - Mora
Kanye West - You Can't Tell Me Nothing (remix)
Sonny Moore - Equinox
Weezer - Keep Fishing
From First to Last - Populace in Two
Tegan and Sara - Tineteen
Sonny Moore - Nod Love
Death Cab for Cutie - Transatlanticism
Johnny Cash - Ring of Fire
Sonny Moore - Glow Worm
Hot Hot Heat - Elevator
Daft Punk - Digital Love
Armor for Sleep - Flying Above Everything
Klaxons - Magick
Saves the Day - At Your Funeral
Jimmy Eat World - Clairty
Chiodos - A Letter from Janelle
Sonny Moore - Moss
Death Cab for Cutie - Lightness
Sia - Rewrite
Beck - Summer Girl
Rancid - Arrested in Shanghai
The Used - Smother Me
Jimmy Eat World - 12.23.95
Dashboard Confessional - Widow's Peak
Richard Hell & The Viodoids - Blank Generation
Dashboard Confessional - Heaven Here
Fiona Apple - Across the Universe (Cover)
Gabriel & Dresden - Tracking Treasure Down
Cinematic Orchestra - Evolution
Armor for Sleep - All Warm
Sage Francis - Hey Bobby
Death Cab for Cutie - Stable Song
Senses Fail - Steven
Endless Hallway - Grey Flats
Jimmy Eat World - Claire
Jawbreaker - Fine Day
50 Cent - Build you Up (feat. Jamie Foxx) (Prod. by Storch)
The Stranglers - Golden Brown
Dashboard Confessional - Don't Wait
Saosin - Mookie's Last Christmas
From First to Last - Waves Goodbye