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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 31
Sign: Pisces

City: Cedar City
State: Utah
Country: US
Signup Date: 10/23/2006

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Monday, May 11, 2009 

The First Amendment Applies to Hip Hop Too Guys!

English 1010-11 Reaction Essay


I read an article once that talked about the first amendment. It focused not just on the amendment itself but in particularly the freedom of speech portion of the amendment. The author mentioned that in his opinion the most important attribute of a citizen in regards to this amendment is the ability to fight for the rights of people to publicly say words we may hate. I had to think about that for a minute. The concept itself is staggeringly profound. The idea that we live in a place where individuals have not only the ability but the right to articulate almost anything they see, feel, think, believe, or just plain want to put out there, (short of slander that is) is marvelously extraordinary. Many countries kill for such blatant displays of freedom.

The first amendment states:

Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.

What exactly does that mean? I wonder sometimes if our forefathers thought this through completely. My understanding of this right is not that we may say whatever we choose providing it does not hurt, anger, or offend anyone else. To me it means that we may use language whatever language we may choose(i.e.: English, music, art…..) as a medium to express ideas and emotions any way we see fit, be it through journalistic prowess, poetry, painting, and even lyrical content. I don’t always support someone’s position but if they are being suppressed I will vehemently fight for their right to express themselves. This brings me closer to my point.

I grew up in South Jersey as we residents fondly refer to it. Growing up there I lived in a rundown town riddled with drugs and crime, a “ghetto”. We had a great deal of racial tension there when I was a child due to the segregation of the area. It happened that in a time when everyone was working hard to be “P.C.” the town I lived in was the quintessential segregated urban population. A town that was literally separated down the middle by the rail road tracks, a city where all the blacks lived on one side of those tracks and all the whites lived on the other. There was one elementary school on the far end of either side of the tracks within the city limits. As a way of curbing attention the “bureaucratic powers that be” decided to forcibly integrate the community by way of the school system.

The solution was to have K, 1st, and 2nd grade attend the school closest to each locality. ALL of 3rd and 4th grade would attend one school and ALL of 5th and 6th grade would attend the other school…….make sense? Talk about a hotbed of disaster.

The tension built and built for years and by the time I hit high school it was virtually explosive. People said and did all kinds of vile things and there was little respect for your fellow man. Hip Hop crossed the boundaries for both sides. It was the one thing we all had in common. For the first time we had something to relate to.

Here is some guy who we have never met, from an entirely different side of the globe, who was having the same life experiences we were. I actually remember being afraid to walk to school because you could get stabbed or shot for walking by a drug deal and looking up from the sidewalk at the wrong time. There was a man who was stabbed to death across from the police station and left there. I was in fifth grade at the time. He laid there until us grade schoolers found him and someone ran across the street to tell the police.

Faced with these kinds of tribulations there has to be a release. I wonder if these people who have such negative things to say about Hip Hop have ever been exposed to the kind of violence I grew up with. I gather “no”. If they had they would understand the relief you feel when you find something to connect with.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think all Hip Hop is uplifting. Some of it’s crap. A lot of it however has much more substance and more positive moral messages than its harshest critics are willing to merit. I think it is sad when anything becomes defined by its least positive examples. Look up a song by Spice One called The Ghetto you can find it on Youtube. It talks about the harsh reality of growing up in a place where violence rules and no one cares enough to change it.

No matter how you feel about Hip Hop, the truth is, it’s established and it is not going anywhere! Get used to it. Enjoy it, detest it, let it provoke you to think and grow and maybe even infiltrate a subculture of America and get to know it better. You don’t have to like it to learn from it.


Saturday, January 31, 2009 

Current mood:  contemplative
“Apart from the chameleon, man is the only animal who can change his skin to suit his background. Indeed, if he is to function successfully he must do so.....
When a child puts a chameleon down to the earth and it does not turn brown we know the creature is seriously ill.”~Alison Lurie

I think there is something to be said for Alison Lurie's astute analogy. People are quite like chameleons. I find that to be true more often than not. We change to suit our environments. Have you ever had a group of friends outside of you “circle”? A whole other circle of people you only would show a particular representative too. This representative looks like you, sounds like you, but that's where the similarities end.This other personification of your Self is still you, no? I am sure that it is. Just a different side of you.

This side of you can say, critique a piece of art. In this environment you can relax and speak your mind about art and know that others, although they may differ in opinion, still comprehend the basics of the language. They know what leading lines are, if there is a staccato vibe, or if the piece feels is more legato? You know that when you are with a group of other art aficionado's everyone there can speak the same language. Here we feed the hunger of our minds, but is this what defines you? No, this is just that particular translation of you.

Inside lurking there is yet another personality dying to get out. This externalization of an alter ego is quite comfortable hanging out at home talking smack with his peeps, eating pizza on the couch, and having burping contests. Try talking about kinesthetic empathy with these guys. They'll look at you like you have horns growing out of your head. So, you conform to meet the needs and expectations of said group. This identity is the laid back, less sophisticated, version of the doppelganger.

Why do we do this? It is my contention that the phenomena is not as much related to ones need for acceptance, which may be your first suspicion, but more over an inexplicable urge to connect. Humans place a great deal of value on connectivity and
we tend to do the things we need to in order to connect with the right people to further our path or goal.

You might say “that seems selfish.” and you would be right. If you ask me though, I think we have a right to be just a little selfish, and we as humans are by nature. If you buy into the whole “Survival of the Fittest” theory than you know we have to be selfish, simply to survive. Selfishness is the only way to fulfill our needs.

I think there is more to it than that though. I sincerely believe that our ability to blend into any given situation allows us opportunities to grow and gain perspective on not only the world around us but who we are inside.  I look forward to each new personification of my former self as I continue to evolve into “what some day will surely be, the me I'm meant to be.”

The fact is when you dress in a  certain style you attract other people who have similar  tastes as you. People assume that if you dress like them then you must have the same tastes in other things as well. It only makes sense.

I think my clothes can say different things about me every day. Sometimes they might say, “I am FABULOUS!” and other times they might say things like, “Auughh, morning came waay to early today.” Either way I am sending a message to a receiver. How that receiver decodes and then interprets that information is only known by them. All I can do is hope, when it all comes out in the end, I haven't been misread.

Saturday, November 29, 2008 

Category: Writing and Poetry
WHO AM I?

I never really know,
for it changes day to day,
based on a sum of,
experience on the way.

Each person that I know,
acquaintance, friend, or foe,
allows me in some way,
to to self actualize and grow.

People just like you,
who think and question too,
allow for my expansion,
as I discover points of view.

Even those who never wonder,
what it's all about,
reinforce my path is sure,
and I need not doubt.

Who am I? I don't know,
and I suspect I never will,
fully understand,
the grace from which I fell.

But this I tell you truly,
for I know it in my heart,
Whatever I am,
I've been it from the start.

I chose this life you see,
before I ever came,
even though I knew this life,
would include much loss and pain.

Through it all I stand tall,
though sometimes I may falter,
I know whats set before me,
is meant to make me stronger.

So I'll take my lumps,
and the accolades as well,
knowing that one day,
I'll meet my future SELF.

On the day we meet,
the one thing I want most,
is to love whose there before me,
regardless of her ghost.

So, faced with the prospect,
of tomorrows aches,
I choose not to regret,
but to learn from my mistakes.

I swear to have integrity,
in everything I do,
I'll even do the hard things,
that I don't want to.

I promise to laugh out loud,
every chance I get,
the feeling in THAT moment,
I never will forget.

I am grateful for each moment,
that molds and shapes ME,
into what one day I'm sure will be,
the me I'm meant to BE.
~Carin Miller 2008~

"Contemplation" by Willow Arlenea

http://www.heal-your-life.org/Karma_Removal.html


Thursday, October 11, 2007 

Current mood:  peaceful
Category: Religion and Philosophy

I dream of a world which does not exist - at present. A world in which we all have what we need and even occasionally what we want. A world in which we all see truth and co-exist in peace.

The thing is what is truth to you may not be truth to me. Funny thing perspective. It teaches all of us what we need to learn and all of our needs are individual and unique. So where is that common thread. Where does the elusive thread lie? I know it is somewhere just waiting to be discovered. I hear it calling out, "I exist, don't give up on me!" .

I won't give up. I can't give up. I see a beautiful change coming and feel the amazing positivy that is illuminating already. There are many things coming our way! This world is in for quite an experience!!!!!

Saturday, October 06, 2007 

Current mood:  sad
Category: Life

Dear Dad,

Five long years have gone by with out your loving arms around me. Five long years and no kisses on the head or "good night and god bless you"s. It's been so long and yet only moments all at the same time. I dream sometimes and you are there. I can still hear your voice in my head. I can still hear the screach of your fingers effortlessly moving back and forth on the frets making your guitar come alive. Five long and sometimes lonely years. How I long for your encouragement, for your approval, your advice. How I wish I would call and you you would pick up the other end of the phone "yo kid!" instead, "the number you have reached has been disconnected." Yes I still dial the number knowing you will not pick up the other end. Somehow I find comfort in knowing that the number is still yours. I am your legacy your imprint on the world as you so told me. So, old man, is it a good one? Is it the legacy you expected. I am me because of and/or inspite of all that you were, are. I am me and I thank you for that. I honor you for so much more. I miss you daddy.

Until we meet again,

Carin 

Sunday, September 30, 2007 

Current mood:  nostalgic
Category: Writing and Poetry




From the earliest day I remember I shared with my grandmother "the reason I chose my father was because I knew you would be my grandmother." Every time she would giggle. She always knew it was true and still to this day I firmly believe in that truth.

I have been blessed in this life to have such a grandmother. I am many things because of her. I am humble, respectful, grateful, and one hell of a good cook;-)!

I am grateful for the little things like "building memories" We built many memories together, she and I. Our afternoon tea parties and luncheons, the many great movies she shared with me like Singing In The Rain and West Side Story, the stories of her childhood and the history of the little town I grew up in.

Oh, and the food! All of the holidays were always surrounded by lots of family, the sounds of boisterous laughter, and the aroma of fresh bakery and all of the trimmings that go along with such self indulgent holidays.

All of the holidays were wonderful but Christmas time was always especially magic. Many traditions that started in her home I still carry on with my four children. Like opening their pajamas and Christmas clothes on Christmas Eve.

I remember sleeping at her house on the weekends and we would read "each other" to sleep at night. Ragedy Ann Goes To The Carnival. I haven't seen that book since I was 7 but I still remember it well.

What would I be like without her influence? I shudder to think. I am lucky, I know. Some people never even get to meet their grandmother let alone have 29 wonderful years to reflect on.

After I moved away we would talk on the phone several times a week and at the close of each call she would always say the same thing.
"I love you Missy,(my middle name is Melissa) and don't you ever forget it!" I never will grandmom, I never could!
Carin Miller (Batcho) (Cedar City, UT)



Thanks to all who cared enough to read this. Love and Light to all!


Sunday, December 03, 2006 

Current mood:  sad
Category: Life

Today would have been my fathers 52nd birthday. I swear that it is still just as empty as it was the year he died. It doesn't make sense sometimes. But niether does life itself so I suppose death souldn't be any less of a mystery since it's the yin to lifes yang. Still, the knowledge doesn't offer any comfort when I've been conditioned for 25 yrs. to wake up on this very day each and every year and make a big deal for the man that helped give me life. Funny thing, two years after his passing I gave birth just three short days after my fathers birthday. I sometimes wonder if that wasn't just to make sure I never forget this day (as if I could). Who knows???? My point is I miss him and I suppose that will never fade or get easier with time like people love to tell you. Especially on days like today. Anyway thanks to all who care enough to have loved him to and continue to miss himalmost as much. I love you all!!!

Sunday, November 12, 2006 

Current mood:  blank

  Why is it that some days more than other just seem to go by so slow. No matter what there is to do, what has been done so far.... it seems as though the whole day is a prelude to, well, Nothing! It goes, and goes, and.... you get my point.

  The question lingers, "when will it end?"

  Yet there are other days where no matter how hard you try to squeeze every god forsaken moment for all it's worth, you seem to just be spinning your wheels. There's not enough time.

  I beg of you father time. You who holds my future in your hand's. Show yourself, reveal to me who you are, So I can smack you! Who was it that decided time so important anyway? Where was I when the ballot was cast. I don't remember voting.

I guess ultimately the question is "why"

  Got an opinion? Share.