Check out this video: GATECRASH 21ST AUG!







LOL!

It started out with 'mmm I'll just have a quiet night in, and dinner party with a few friends' but then I wanted to film it. And because of the recent problems I had with people not wanting to be recognised around me - I thought, 'well in that case people should be disguised' ...
Not to mention the fact I had just been to a most amazing set of events called the iconography of mask at the resistance gallery. Disguises have a whole other level of device behind them which is great for a party. And the buzz still hasn't left me.
The only problem is, finding venues that will actually serve food, allow guests in masks, and filming... so what do I do?

I went to tycoon Lord Dave West, and blagged the evening there, in his wonderful restuarant and russian club... It's perfect for this Harley Quinn! The deal is.. If you turn up in disguise on my guest list, then you get in for free - thats it ENTRANCE FREE! whereas normally his club entrance fee is £20 - But you do have to be on my guest list - how else will I know who you are?

The reality is I dont mind who gatecrashes the party. I was lucky to know Lord Dave West enough to know he had an understanding of my strange aura and the fetish friends I attract. And he welcomes it - AS LONG AS YOU'RE IN DISGUISE!!

If we're really really good, he might crack open a surprise in his lair for us... GOD I WISH I COULD LET YOU KNOW BUT I CANT HEEHEE

anyway, In line with fetish friends, the lucky lady of the night invites all masked disguised co villains and rebels...

Start Time:

Friday, 21 August 2009 at 20:00

End Time:

Saturday, 22 August 2009 at 02:00

Location:

ABRACADABRA BAR AND RESTAURANT

Street:

91 JERMYN STREET

Town/City:

London, United Kingdom

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FREE ENTRY IF YOU TURN UP IN DISGUISE
DISGUISE NEEDED AS THERE WILL BE FILMING ON THE NIGHT
FELLOW BANK ROBBERS, MASKED HEROES, COMIC CAPERS, HELMET WARRIORS, NINJAS, LUCHA WRESTLERS, BAROQUE MASQUED MISTRESSES, BEARDY WEIRDY MAGICIANS, HANGMEN, HOODLOVERS, BENDY RUBBER JESTERS (ME), CATWOMAN, QUEEN OF HEARTS, RUBBERDOLLS, COSPLAYERS, CATWOMAN, FETISH LOVERS, CROSS DRESSERS, WELCOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (there's even secret lush lobbies to hide away in)

FOOD IS AVAILABLE, THIS IS A PROPER MASCOT BALL, DANCE IN SEPERATE HALL. :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cd-q21xm-v0

LOL LOL LOL I'LL LET THIS SPEAK FOR ITSELF FUNNY MOMENTS

LAUGH OUT LOUD
After going to the effort of costumes, time, design, making, forethought, preparation, expense, location, transport, making cups of tea for people, post production, teams of cohersing people, contributed efforts, materials, other people's time, sound foley and finishing touches...

....how many people do you think write to me in retrospect and revert on their involvement - after everything is done?

"Hi slut
***** Now we found out about what you do for living and both of us
are appalled. We both have a socially respected profession
and this video taken with you, whatever the contents and
intention will cause us tremendous damage. I am extremely
ashamed of even writing this request to you.*****"

! from a girlfriend of a participant in one of my mermaid videos.  - ah this was nothing, I've had worse from the bitch.

"I work for a christian charity and cannot have my face and name on the video. If it were just my name, no-one would know it was me, but to have both my name and my face is not ok. Please blur my face and remove my name."

! ANOTHER RIGHTEOUS someone who assisted on a feature film set with me. THATS IT! A FEATURE FILM, NOT A FUCKING SEX FILM!

"Dear ****, This is to notify you that we have received a privacy
complaint from an individual regarding your content:

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I went to a mask ball with a difference. It has everything to do with disguise and masking. From rubberdolls, to catwoman, superheros to villains, wrestlers to comic capers; steampunk, facepaint, prosthetic aliens, baroque masque mistresses, and sinister henchmen, every kind of mask you can imagine. It was a visual spectacle. Much as I love to go clubbing, it pales if the atmosphere is not curated in some way - be that the venue, or the people there, there has to be something.
This had everything:
great people as entertainment in themselves, art installations, odd performances, something slightly awe inspiring, sinister even kinky.. it was all there - OH except for BDSM lovers - the 'play' scene.
THANK GOD.

Fetishist I may be, but I prefer to keep my relational activity at home. I love fetish styling, but not seeing the raw beaten arses, and that interupting whipping noise. Luckily for me this was a happy medium, I was enjoying the club scene, without the intimation of 'play' that often comes bound with the anticipation of defering some question of play by some bottom admirer. I like to dress up and and go out, but without the segregation of protection confined away from the normal world. Due to the nature of fetish style dress up, even if I go out o a normal club scene, I would expect a chaperone on hand - in case there is any kind of innapropriate gesture, which happens even within the fetish world.

Here, fetishistas rubbed shoulders with every other kind of minority geek. In turn probably overlapping every corner of the majority - every one of us has a mask of personality we would like to be. Fetish freaks haven't spotted the way out into acceptance. Fetishists normally become a world unto their own, and that in itself is like a church of accusing people on the outside as the perpetrators of austricising us. I believe us fetish people often revel in the fact the occasional few of the majority demean us through ignorance. This act aims to strengthen our bonds between us through tribalry, in itself more segregatory from the real world, not abridging our own confinement. There is more rebellion in that than anything of the vanilla majority. It is an attitude rife with angst and parrallel to the nature of religious minorities crying out their perpetration. In truth the majority who don't understand a niche religion, sexuality, or class, dont care much to interfere or involve themselves with it.

Here, fetishists could be as one normal people, just like the cosplayers, wrestlers, burlesque beauty queens, masquerade carnival queens, baroque mistresses,  henchmen and antiheroes. By wearing our masks we find we have something in common with everyone else, and we become confident for exposing our truths under guise.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=34j2_TOrJfE

Doing a long breathold for modelling underwater

Not sure if it's overwork, it's not overstress thats for sure. Life's too short to be worried about stressing. If I were to die tomorro, I'd be happy I'd have achieved all I could in the meantime, but I have a gift to do more, it doesn't give me the right to live or deserve to live longer than anyone else.  I am talking about deep feelings. I feel as shallow as puddle, and only want to splash and make a noise, but something feels missing. I'm not sure what. Here's my solitary world underwater I can contemplate in while I fathom it out.



Maybe it's a sign of pure contentment, that I have no fear of loosing, maybe it's too many brain cells dead from drowning lol.
I have two girlfriends who would like to join me alternately on a next underwater shoot when I am offered, so at least thats a fantasy I can share with everyone again. I get regular photographers writing to me now for shoots, but few of them try the underwater stuff, because they believe it is so costly.
It puts them off before they even begin, which is a shame. If I told you, you could get your fantasy underwater picture performed for £150 wouldn't you snap it up? I've acquired equipment, locations and techniques to allow even the amatuer photographer a chance in on a wet dream.
Maybe I am missing the comforts a person cannot give me? I substitute everything in my innate fetishes, and solitary fantasies, there is no room for anyone else, except to broadcast how I can be happy in chaste. When you have no desire to find someone, do you give up altogether?
Has the fire in me gone out for good, except to revel in the simplest sensations like a child's new experience.. Wouldn't it be good to meet a like minded soul who actually felt what I felt, and if I cant, then my only desire is to communicate it cathartically to the world, and hope you can close your eyes and feel what I feel.

Here is one I saved for Later...




Going back to the saying of men don't change when women want them to. Thats why there is a very good use for gimps. Women change and men want them to stay the same. They've had it then because we move on. We go through phases, like our bodies live on a different clock. We change our looks all the time to keep our mystery, our seductiveness, and finally that keeps us attractive.
Our opinions may change over time too, we are a fickle lot. Seeing as our bodies go through growing changing phases of youth and woman hood, and even put us through an emotional monthly cycle; We - are entitled, no matter how confusing it is to the genetically inferioir and less complete race of men.. to rewrite our wants and needs.
Men however... are just dicks.
You might find a useful dick to fit your phase of life for a while, but owing to our changing nature, we'll get bored of them, we've sampled their genepool of missing chromasomes, and when they start talking too much about themselves, pull the fucking gag out ladies. He forgot he was just a sex object. Talking about ourselves, is a woman thing, men are just supposed to listen and be supportive, try and stick to our changing gameplan. If a man starts talking about himself too much, I would have to be a lesbian to love him, but I cant cos he has a dick.
Don't get me wrong, I like men. All kinds of men. But they are just for my toybox. Pull one out when I need one, ideally a rubber one. Gimps don't talk and bore me with their idiosyncracies. I can adore their muscular beauty like a man wanks over his shiny new car. A Lithe slim gimp is also a seductive object to me, more feminine and respectful of women. They are attractive because to me, gimps are a distilled version of manhood. Without wobbly fleshy disgusting bits, safe to use, aesthetically pleasing, sterile... There is nothing less manly about them to be attracted to, if anything, for me, only the best properties on show.
Rather like romans selling their slaves, I think there should be a gimp trade. If as a woman I need someone to masculinely rough me about - I would still want it to be a matter of fact gimp. Like some hooded henchman hangman, gimps are not there to be weak and pathetic for me. They can be braun, without the self opinionated rambling I don't want to hear. Keep one in the wardrobe for later.

I've been called everything this week, slut-bitch-whore you name it. My first reaction was to be quite angry at the offensive. I can logically take it apart, but then in constructing my reponse while the iron is hot, I know it would only feed more insane bitch fest. So I just let the insults ride. It doesn't mean I have a thick skin, it always hurts, every time.

Some insane mad woman blinded by something starts writing to me accusing me of all kinds of bullshit. I figure it's a part of my trade now, it comes with the shit as well. ^_^
Just that I know I come out smelling of roses everytime because the reality is - I have nice things that I'm excited about and want to show.

This is why I've been quiet this week peeps. I uploaded a video I was very proud of, and indeed so were - I thought - the participants. Only to be told I ashamed them, and that unbeknown to them I was hosting them on fetish sites. Well, thats a funny term for youtube and myspace huh! GO SPUNK YOURSELVES ON MYSPACE AND YOUTUBE.

Um ok hands up, I DO actually. I find great perv material on youtube but thats besides the point. People are BIGOTS. First to judge something, someone they don't know. SHIT even GAY blokes can scream discrimination with this kind of offensive. What's my defence? What do I stand for? that it is I want to teach these ignoramous.

Anyway I just thought I'd paste the response I sent to one certain culprit and hope you catch my drift:

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LETTER SENT TO ONE EEEEEVIL HATE MAILER:

I have removed the video, but it will take some time for the search engine caches to dissipate the rest.

I had no intention of ashaming either yourself or ####. Your words were very hurtful.
I can understand your surprise, shock and disgust at seeing the video unannounced.
You being his partner should be the first to know of anything.

Sadly, it was an opportunity at the time - he was not expected, or known to me, or planned.
I had already managed to secure an underwater cameraman, Brian, who I live with, and diving slot. - He was just there -
and everyone in public thought it was great fun to see.
I am also a well respected profesional, and artist - with an unconventional image.

I am dissapointed that my planned shoot had him nearly entirely in it.
Rendering the 1% footage of me on my own useless, by that time I was tired, and not performing well.
My mermaid tail is fragile - only made of latex, which I make. It did not survive and needs repair.
Now I have to re-schedule a time slot knowing there is already ill affect on the venue to make a decent video of my arts.
It is sad this interesting work demands so much tact and aversion to achieve anything visual against everyone elses' inertia on preconcieved values.

The quicker I can repeat my originally intended shoot, the quicker I can bury all of this and not mourn the waste of my time, post production on the edit, music, and opportunity.
I credited ####, because I thought he deserved it, in case anyone should want to get him paid work freediving,
not to 'drag him down'. Not to 'steal images' but just to show he is a talented professional.

I would not have wished to work with anyone that believes I hold a bad image to drag them down. This has been truly hurtful and slanderous towards me, for my only intention to get live footage of what I make.
I truly hope you two sort it out between you. I think you are right for each other he is in support of you - I have no affect on your relationship, and would not want to be a catalyst in any difficult situation. I have enough of my own, so I can understand.

By the way, the person I write music with - also lives on the other side of the world, I miss him very much, (which was also why I wrote seance, the song) but at least I get to write music with him still. I put up some sexy stuff on youtube to show him what I am doing, but it is all meant in good humour, not bad taste. I am simply hated a lot by women for what I do, but it makes me no less used to it.

I hope you two do sort things out. It would have been nice to know you better before your outburst. Your English is very good (even with the foul language). I have a love of Japanese culture, but never known anyone write or swear so well.

Take care

Onna

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FUCKS SAKE I ALWAYS GO TO THE WASTED EFFORT ON WRITING LONG LETTERS TO THESE PEEPS. WOULDN'T BE SO BAD IF IT WAS POSITIVE STUFF, OR COLLABORATIVE, BUT THIS IS FIRE FIGHTING. TALK ABOUT WASTE OF MY FUCKING TIME.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cGchOj-8H-I

Here is the latex mermaid tail I made, functioning underwater. This is to tide you over with a teaser while I get some other footage ready. I hope you like it, I am planning a new tail construction soon.