I understand feeling small and insignificant as humanly possible, and how actually ache in places that you didnt know you had inside you.

It doesnt matter how many haircuts you get, or gym you join or how many drinks you drink with your girlfriends, you still go to bed every night going over every detai, and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood, and how in the hell for the brief moment you could think that you were happy?

Sometimes you can even convince yourself that she will see the light and show up at your door! And after all that however long that may be, you will somewhere new and you will meet people who make you feel worthwhile gain, and little of your soul will finally come back. And all tha fuzzy stuff, those years of your life you wasted that will eventually begin to fade..

You see who I appear to be, but only a few know the real me..Dont you remember the real me? You only see what I choose to show, there's so much behind my smile you just don't know! Now I prefer being hated for who I am than loved for who I am not, I must be a pretty good liar for you to honestly thought that everything was alright..When I was me u didnt care..then it was too late and the real me just..wasn't there.. For that Im gone, I dont forgive, what kills you makes me live, what makes u cry makes me smile. That's me, the new me cause suddenly..I see.