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Last Updated: 12/7/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 20
Sign: Taurus

City: REDDING
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 4/4/2005

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August 10, 2009 - Monday 

Current mood:  high
I fucked her dead and then she bled all over my dick and my bed if she could wake i'd slam her head full of my cock til it was cleansed then fuck some more just for cred cause this is taped, and she'd been raped until she gaped and in prison so would I.
January 27, 2009 - Tuesday 
we should be learning why history happened not when.
and you shouldnt have to break a law to enforce it.
The major car companies sent there jobs overseas and obama just got there ass out of debt, by paying workers overseas.
good job on that one black man.
people who are disabled, physically and mentally still go on, even those who cant feed change or bath themselves and those who need day care everyday when noone can take care of them still appreciate what they HAVE got and dont commit suicide. arent humans the only animal that does that anways?

January 27, 2009 - Tuesday 
your the boss and im your beezy,
i'm so clean and your so sleezy
make my money workin hard
you just sit cause your a tard
I live a life and not a dream
take my coffe without cream

beezies got it easy when it comes to real life
boss's run and cry, if i'm not there to get them by
i got friends behind my back
you got thieves who all do crack

living a hard life isnt a bad life its got the best of all the rest of what matters
living a dream life would be so nice but reality escapes it, so in the end when --you depend you cant say that you've lived

to the boss its the cost
benift, profit and loss
nothing is real lifematters but the dollar to the baller
October 8, 2008 - Wednesday 

Current mood:  disgusted
Category: Life
The years seem longer
My pain grows stronger
My hate feels fonder
For you
To die!
You should be in a hole
Covered with dirt and mold
No pulse, nothing but cold
Face samshed, teeth pulled
When opportunity knocks
You know its time to talk
Save words cause i'll use rocks
The days are longer
My pains my ponder
My hate is fonder
For you
To die
Bludgeoned my fists upon your face
Smashed my car on your rib cage
All of this was anticipate
Hoping i would grant this fate
Some say that this is wrong,
I've waited for too long,
For my revenge to dawn
Your years have ended
Your pain suspended
My hate has mended
You've died
September 11, 2008 - Thursday 

Current mood:  catalyzed
Category: Writing and Poetry
Burn in hell will liars do
Your fairytale has fallen though
Ashes to ashes, its all come true.
Dust to dust, noone to trust.
Never was it said in heaven
You'll tell yourself that alls forgiven
To believe so is all too smitten
Blinding yourself to what you've thought
Clearly now your conscious stopped
Theivery of limits, focus cropped
So turn and tremble
What an ensemble
welcome,  Blind Society
July 5, 2008 - Saturday 

Current mood:  animated
Category: Art and Photography
June 5, 2008 - Thursday 
So fucked up inside.
 S cant run i cant hide.
All the lies and deceit.
That i lead all to belive
i cant take it anymore
drop dead hit the floor
i dont want to live no more
Sick of playing the federal game
 and getting shut down and pushed out like i'm nothing i'm dried up but they never know what goes on in my brain
fucking master plans that will drive you insane
and they dont stop just pile up in my head
taking litium before i get to bed
I dont want a part in this world
its all fucked up, there ain't nothing but death
i cant see a reason to stick around
just to put all this effort in and wind up out.
Everyday i get up with nothing to do but look in papers for jobs
and write resumes for managers
looking at everything like a scavenger
anything really anything would be a blessing from god but what the hell does he know?
all these little kids with cell phones and mommy's and daddy's that will pay for anything
all they have to do is whine and complain
they never earned a dime
working real time labor just to pay the bills and have nothing later.
they're all "look I'm a skater" well watch out i'm hater
wont stand for nothing dont want nothing to stand
but all this guilt has caught up and its got me full tilt
i just want leave forever and never have to worry about my family
i know they love me and i do the twice as much i just dont want to hurt them what i've done is too much
June 1, 2008 - Sunday 

Current mood:  bummed
Running blind sounds divine,
Flawless times, cardboard signs
Sleepless nights and endless days.


Too much rain and too many rays.


Time consumes you, your mind detached;
Stuck in ruts of childsih acts,
Years of nothing lost but slack,
All friends now have turned their backs.


Losing self and falling back
Falling victim to thine own trap.


Wasted all sources of good help and aid.


Mind has become to lost in this haze.


Twisted thoughts from manic depression
Fermented blocks of mental progression
Become known and subjects to question.


Good times and bad lost in lucid dreams
Tear me apart stressed in all seams
School wasn't worth it so is this as well
Try as hard as a i can and wind up in hell.

April 6, 2007 - Friday 

Current mood:  lonely

Portugese Glass,
The wierd thing is is that they make their glass out of taco shells, so it was a tasty way to die, yes dies because taco shells break at shjarp angles, and I happened to be running in a hospital bed not really paying attentnion to what I was doing. The cool thing is where I got the hospital bed it's almost the best thing in the story. 

I stole it from a homless guy while he was sleeping, but he woke up as I was trying to unstrap his bag of recyclable cans and he just gave me the bed. Why he wasn't sleeping in it was because he actually wanted to give it away to someone who wanted it and had the courage to come up and ask him. Yeah, this guy was pretty scary, one eye, and a hook for a hand. Well I started talking to this guy about life and what not and he said I should not care what happens it all happens for a reason, even though shit will piss you off or seem pointless because you may be just a part in making the incident a reason in someone elses life even if its across the globe.

This goes on for a while, so long it seems pointless even trying to desvribe that things happen for a reason because it contradicts its self, but not entirly, because the loop-holes, like religion assist humans in believing that it works, so it works, like the hypothesis that "if you try hard enough you'll get it." Because that is really simple; but it doesnt always happen, you could die in a car crash because the other person needs a lesson taght to them or because they are drunk because their emotions were casuing him enough trouble to risk his life and ignore everyone elses because human emotions really fuck with us, even if you want to believe in something, and are ok with it 100 percent of the time, they still hurt.


So then I ran into this poison frog, big enough to get in the way, so I asked him to move, and then he asked if i could stand still, and just think, and if I get stuck, try thinking of something else, try to philosophize on why I'm trying to get somewhere. And to notice my surroundings as a whole and not parts, and then as parts and not wholes, and as I was doing so, I got lost in my own thoughts and dreams, because I decided to lay on the bed and I fell asleep, so the frog got to move when he was ready and I never saw him again. Just like that, I'm influenced enoguh by something so small to lose myself to it.

But I did hear from the fox that watched from his perch on the grass beneath the green tree, so green that the grass looked...... but yeah the fox said that the frog licked me on my ankle as I was sleeping, and thats when I realized that I can love. Because I happen to still miss that frog,  

March 22, 2007 - Thursday 

Current mood:  irritated
Category: Romance and Relationships

You had control of me but not anymore
Cause you just aren't worth my time.
I realize that you aren't worth living for
I'm tired of you controlling my mind.

So I say I dont give a fuck
Maybe I mean it for once
So take your tears and dry them up
Cause I really dont give  fuck

Guess what, i dont give a fuck
Hell yeah, who gives a fuck
Hear it? I dont give a fuck

We used to spend so much time together
So much we could read eachothers minds
Now all that matters to us is whether
Or not we feel feel fine, but it's all lies

Well now i dont give a fuck
Give me a reason I should try
Just as long as you shut up
I cant stand it when you pry.

Guess what, I don't give a fuck
Hell yes, who gives a fuck
Say it! I don't give a fuck

The only thing that appeals to me right now
Is that I can believe all thats coming out
Because you're having trouble breathing as you
Scream and shout that you dont understand why I
I don't give a fuck
About your wants and needs
I dont give a fuck
About your feelings
I dont give a fuck