I never sang a song I couldn't sell. But, without my fodder, without my sun, and without my desire, my songs can never be sold at a fair price.

I'm done running from what I deserve. I still cannot explain why I run from the very things I beg God for. It's like unwrapping a gift over the trash, all the while preparing to throw it away. I cannot justify it. I never have been able to. But, what I've realized is that I've never tried the other side of the street. I've never done what I know I'm supposed to do. I've always discarded these kinds of things out of fear. And what I've further come to realize is that my fear is not linked to any existing thing whatsoever. It's linked to what I don't know. How can we be scared of what we don't know?

What's sad is that the things I do know, although big and powerful and real, have never been able to outweigh the things I don't know. It's a lack of trust. It's a lack of credibility that I place on my heart and the things my heart tells me are big and powerful and real.

If it rings true to your soul, chances are it's true!

I'm removing all fear. I'm removing all doubt. They don't even have sizable reasons to exist. They never have.

I'm getting what I want/need/deserve. If my fear is linked to nothing real, I'm proclaiming that it doesn't exist. And if it doesn't exist, I'm filling the gap it previously occupied with my fodder, my sun, and my desire which will significantly raise the worth of my songs.

It's not a statement, but a choice to say that "we are a product of our environments". And it's a choice to BE a product of our environments.

Sometimes, though, it is hard to hold onto clarity when there's an elevated sense of consciousness that leads the way, everyday.

We are all dependent beings. On a larger scale, dependent upon God for certain fulfillment. On a smaller, more relevant scale, dependent upon other humans. Whether out of love or companionship, our everything needs something, or someone, rather, to hold onto. We are not sufficient on our own. We are left with our own senses, all that we have been equipped with, and until God walks on this earth and we can see him, touch him, smell him, hear him, and taste him, we are left searching and striving for love. God is love, and when we find love, through love we can see God, touch God, smell God, hear God, and taste God.

There is a reliance and longing for support that all of us have. We are all exactly the same, but have something different to offer to each, and we translate these offerings into support and comfort. If we aren't comfortable with ourselves, how do we expect to be ourselves? It's amazing that another human being can instantaneously deliver the support and comfort that our hearts desire.

We must open up to our brothers and sisters. We must have love for them and accept love in return. God is love, and when we have love for others, we have God. When we accept love into our hearts from others, we accept God into our hearts.

Things can get tough, but what we have to practice every moment to make habitual is giving love everyday. If we love our jobs, our jobs will love us back. If we love our passion, our passion will love us back. If we love our environment as a whole, our environment will love us back.

We can't always be content, but what we have to realize is that our malcontent leaves no room for love. We can't possibly exist negatively and positively at the same time. Seek to find and/or produce love in every situation. This love will be returned to you and this gift also exists as a step forward towards contentment and comfort. Contentment isn't something we can embody. We find contentment in knowing that we must always move forward towards contentment and that the love we give and receive along the way is cleansing our souls and others' souls.

We all exist as one. We are all a part of this earth, this universe, this energy. If we create and exude positive energy, we are helping not just ourselves, but everyone and everything.

This is clarity. This is simple. This is consciousness. This is consciousness with love. Consciousness without love creates despair and loneliness.

We need not make our realizations our own problems, but observe as a whole what's around us. What we see needs love. When we love it all, the good and the bad, but understand the choice to make good or bad relevant, we are blessed by God with love, because God is love.

So love. It's simple.

Karma.

Firstly, I'd like to say how much I apreciate people like Shelly for their ideas about karma. You can almost live your life by it. It's more than the commonly associated "treat others how you would like to be treated." Way more than that! It's about doing what you think is right, continually fighting for what you believe in, having faith in the things you are pursuing and sticking with your dreams despite not always receiving gratifying outcomes.

I have spent the last x-amount of years of my life devoting every free second to things that are going to help me out in the long run. Sure, I haven't always been as devoted as I'd like to be, but I've maintained a sense of consciousness of what I'm doing well and not doing so well with the never-ending effort at change and bettering.

It's validating to finally see changes around you that coincide with the changes you've made to yourself. It embodies all definitions of faith.

That is what karma is. You serve others, yourself (in an unselfish way), and most importantly, God. No amount of prayer ever goes unheard. Of course we would all like an epiphanic moment to happen now and again where God appears before us and tells us, humanistically, that everything will be ok. It doesn't work like that. At least not for most. If God believes you are strong enough to find therapy in simply talking to Him without direct responses, He is going to be no more than a listener. And that is faith, my friend!

So I've arrived at a place in my life where my outreaches are finally connecting with destinations. It's exciting to know that it's more than a trend and my life will continue this way from here on out. You work hard without immediate gratification to receive it later, meanwhile trusting you'll get back what you put in. And trust me, you do!

One of my videos is on a TV pilot. I love the music I've been making. I love that people are actually interested in my creativeness. And most importantly, I've got a new job that is going to be a very efficient vehicle for bigger things. I can save a lot of money. I can buy a full drum kit, bigger proTools system, and maybe even a sweet keyboard. I am going to travel somewhere every 2 months. By myself, of course. I'm going to see as much as possible and meet as many people as possible.

I've finally reached a place where I feel more mobile than ever and I'm running with it.

See, there is a reason for:

-never defending myself
-being forgiving no matter what
-working hard at getting better at understanding
-sleepless nights praying to God for my voice to improve overnight
-all of those pointless web sites I've designed
-starting my own business, despite not making much money
-having faith that I am fully capable of comanding my life
-having faith that I am going to be HUGE
-never letting go of my dreams
-not letting peoples' negative energy effect my energy
-not letting peoples' insecurities effect my insecurities
-being focused
-meditating for focus-ness
-loving the good/bad about everyone
-AND BEING HONEST

This is your life. You don't have to have any obligation to anyone accept for yourself and the God whose hands have fed you.

So think about what you are doing/saying/judging/eating/feeling/breathing. It's all a reflection of your life and who you are. Every piece results in an effect that can create good karma or bad karma.

GOD BLESS!