PLEASE NOTE THAT I WAS WRITING THIS WHILST IN TEXAS, I WAS ANGRY, BUT I WANTED YOU ALL TO SEE THIS AS MAYBE ONE DAY IT COULD BE YOU IN THIS SITUATION SO I HOPE THAT ALL THIS CAN HELP SOMEONE ONEDAY.
MY TRIP TO TEXAS TO SAY GOODBYE TO REGINALD BLANTON
I left my home around 4.30a Monday 19th oct to get to Heathrow Airport London, I was full of excitement to see Reg again, even though I wished it was in better circumstances and not to witness his execution. I met Natalie, from Athena Films,at the airport whom was doing the interview with Reginald again on the Wednesday 21st for British TV, it really seemed a long journey over this time. We got to houston and Natalie picked up the rented car and drove to Livingston, nearer to livingston I remember saying, I feel like ive come home. I settled into the motel room. We then went to get some things from the store and then I went back to the motel room, and decided to call a couple friends,
Tuesday 20th, I went to polunsky to visit Reginald on a 4 hour visit, it was so nice to see him again, he had so much love to give, at first I didn’t know what to say seeing in the back of my mind that I thought I may only have a few days left with my king, because texas murders him. It was a very intense visit, Reg had lots to say about his wishes and what he asked me to do, it was hard to hear him say to me, that “I want you to sort the cremation out for me, I don’t want a funerel san, I don’t want a funerel, please make sure you make all the arrangements so I will be cremated, I will also have a separate envelope with your photos in, please make sure they are burned with me. I only want you in the execution san, only You, and if Andre will come, then him as well, no one else san promise me no one else. He then said he had already put his wishes on paper to polunsky, and he then said that when I next visit him the end of the week to ask the captain for the paperwork. There was a couple people that was going to visit reg on the day of his execution, he told me to contact them and tell them he didn’t want them to come on the Tuesday he wanted them to come to see him for a hour on the Monday 26th instead. Even though Reg had previously sent me a letter with those wishes on which he wanted me to send to his family to make them realise that they didn’t have do anything because he told them in the letter to me that I would be dealing with it all. I couldn’t tell his mother I tried to but she wouldn’t hear so I had to send the wishes to his elder brother and said for him to tell Mama, as the last thing reg wanted was for his mama to arrange a funerel when he didn’t want that. So I had to be hard, and as harsh as it may seem I had to put others feelings out of it, to make sure that Reg gets what he wished for. It was hard to hear reginald saying these words face to face with him. He then told me on the day of his execution that he would release ALL his property to me, and told me that he didn’t want any of his belongings left in the USA and wants me to take his property home to England to a place where he wanted to be. I promised Reg that I would make sure all his wishes were adhered to no matter what, after all this is what Reg wants and being his fiancee I have to do what Reg asked.
It brought tears to my eyes, I said to Reg how was he really feeling about it all, he said to me, san im not scared to die, this is something that I have been preparing myself for. Reg had some tears then said, “San I know ive been harsh on you lately but I need to protect you, as I may not be around for much longer and I want to make sure that you are alright when im gone. Dammmmmmmmmm the tears rolled down my face I couldn’t stop litrally, Reg was crying I was crying, dammmmmmmmmm the TEXAS system, how could they do this to a man that is genuine a man that has so much love inside of him, its just sick sick sick sickkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
Anyway that afternoon I did just as reg asked and found a funerel home, which someone told me they were very good and friendly and did not judge anyone, so we went to huntsville to the funerel home that is not contracted to the TDCJ and made the necessary arrangements, Reg also wanted his ashes to go into three urns, one for his Mama, one for his twin brother Robert and one for me, the rest of Reginalds Ashes they would ship over to England to me, where I can put some of those ashes where Reg asked for me to put them. I kept thinking in my mind, this is soooooooo dam unreal it cant happen it just cant. Ive never had to do anything like this in my life before yet now im arranging someones cremation who is in the best of health and is not even Ill, this I cant get my head around, its just soooooo not right. ( in tears now)
I had not heard from Reginalds lawyer even after numerous calls from myself and british tv, so on the way to the funerel home I decided to put the guilt trip to his lawyer, again it went to his answermachine, and I left a message saying, Hello John this is sandie, just to let you know im on the way to the funerel home to arrange reginalds cremation for him, please call me at the motel where im staying, I did it that way because he had previously said to Reggies mama that he would treat Reg as his own son, yeah bullshit, if that was the case he would of done so much more for reg, thing is these state appointed attorneys are too dam scared to speak up and go against the very government that pays theirs wages.
On the Wednesday visit with Reg he was in so much better spirit, he knew he had the british tv going in again that afternoon and Reg was on form to give it all. That afternoon I was back at the motel with a lady from the Netherlands named Irma, and then Tony medinas mama came over to bring my goodie box, which Tonys mom looks after for me when I go back to uk, my mugs, knifes forks spoons etc. Golda stayed for a couple hours and had a coffee. Then I had the call from John reginalds lawyer stating that the cca had denied reginalds appeal this devestated me I started to get the shakes, as up until that point I have tried to stay brave infront of other people, his lawyer said to me there is still a last chance and that writ would go in before the weekend, oh my god before the weekend its now the 22nd october 5 days before the execution date and they are going to file a writ before the 24th, which is Saturday, I chose NOT to be going to the cedp annual march in Austin, as I have my own personal reasons NOT TO GO, a couple members of the austin branch said we could get more petition signatures, more clemency letters, sorry if any of you members are reading this but I speak as I find, and Saturday is too dam late to be getting clemency letters and petition signatures when they have to be in this dam week. All these little rallies that has been done in san antonio etc, what good has it done NOTHING in my eyes. The New York Branch of the CEDP kept me up dated on Everything, to me it was them that more or less pushed the local austin branch to get things done.
To me it doesn’t matter who does what, anything anyone has done for Reg was a blessing.
I may be talking out of turn, but ya know something, I don’t care, Im speaking as I find, and until some of these organisations steps up and does things the right way, or make the smaller organisations together to make big organisations then my god, nothing will change. That’s all im saying on all this crap.
Reg also had some thankyous to say, so il put this down now, Gloria and Lee from the New york Branch of the Cedp Thankyou to the both of you and the new york branch for all that you have done for me.
To ATHENA FILMS (Natalie, and G) Thankyou for given me the chance to say my bit when others didn’t listen, you did, Make it good on TV Natalie, Make people know who I was, Make people understand that the Texas Systems kills more than any other state.
To Adam (soundman from Houston) Adam I could see how hard it was for you to say goodbye last Wednesday, Buts its Ok, you have helped me with Athena films
Tom (cameraman from florida) It was good to meet you, thankyou
To KADP- for the videos you did to try and get more support for me thankyou.
To Caro and Gabriele from USA, I love you both, stay strong, and keep the fight alive. Thanks for the support and love you both gave to sandie and myself.
To Karen from Australia, Thankyou for keeping sandie sane, and making her smile.
To Elish from UK, Thankyou for your support
Gloria from the new York Branch of cedp, Thankyou for everything, for the support you gave to Sandie and myself.
Sue (thelma) from UK, Thankyou for being such a great support and friends to sandie, and giving her the support she needed.
To Antwan, and The Bottom Boyz music, thanks also for the support you have given me and to sandie. Take care of yourselfs when im gone.
To sandie my Queen and wife, I will love you until eternity, I know you fought for me when others didn’t, one day we will meet in heaven to be together even though we couldn’t be physically together in this world we will be together in the next world, be happy San, im out of here be happy for that. Don’t let the tears run too much, and always remember what I taught you. You were the only woman I ever really loved, you even still stuck there when I wasn’t being so nice, you knew didn’t you San, you knew all along, because you knew I was saying things for your own good. I couldn’t bear to know that one day you may find another man, but I want you to be happy, I don’t want you to spend the rest of your life alone, you don’t deserve that. But make sure who ever you find in the future that he can treat you well, I will send you the sign somehow. Please Tell Tasha and Kye I love them, and please tell Tasha that when my step grandson grows up, please tell him about me. I love you my Queen I love you, Please never forget me, I will wait for you San, youl never be alone my Queen.
To Sandies New friend Irma from Holland, thankyou for supporting her in your time In texas, I thankyou.
To Lynette. Sandie told me about you at visit On Friday. 23rd, she told me that you may meet up in livingston to meet her, Lynette I have to thankyou for the support that you have given my Queen, and I really hope that your brothers case will go the way you want it to go. Peace.
To Brina USA, thankyou for all your kindness in helping, and for getting Sandies and my letters to each other. You’re a star Brina a good person, never forget that.
BBB (KC) Thanks KC for also getting my letters to San, you have been a great support to both Sandie and myself. Thanks Kc, never give up the fight, Keep the fight alive.
To all that has supported me throughout, I want you all to know that I will not walk to my death on Tuesday 27th, they will have to drag me from my cell. I want you all to know that one day the truth will come out and you will see for yourself that I was INNOCENT, INNOCENT I TELL YOU INNOCENT. I want you all to keep in contact with sandie from Time to time, to make sure that she is ok, this has affected her more than she or I realized it would. Don’t hate her for what I have asked her to do for me onTuesday if the execution goes ahead, it was my wishes and she was only doing what I have asked her to do. So I do not want any of you getting at her over this. These are my words to you all. Ur brother, OMARI HUDUMA, AKA REGINALD BLANTON, IN THE HIGHEST SERVICE.
FRIDAY 23RD
I went in to visit Reg today for an all day visit, I had some time with Reg alone, Reggies mama came in. It was good to see her again, I made sure that I went into the visitation area so that Reggies Mama could have some time with Reg alone, and Mama let Reg and myself have some time alone too. But that afternoon the officers came to give Reg a letter, I could tell just by his expression on his face it was not good news, I hung my head, Reggies Mama knew what it was too and got upset and went out into the visitation to have a word with a lawyer that was in visitation, Mama came back for a while then Left Reg and myself alone, I really think she knew that Reg wanted to express his fears. Reginald cried, id never seen a man cry so much in my life, it was hard to see this, this made me cry, all Reg kept saying was, San San im going to die, im not scared, im sorry san, im sorry to put you through all this, if I could just hold you One time, Just one dam time. I felt I wanted to puke, to see this loving Genuine man who has a heart of gold be going through all this, because of a lawyers failure to do the right thing for Reg, this just …… dam its just not right, not right at all. I just felt I wanted to smash that dam glass down to get him out of there, this is just not happening to him, its not.
I left visit at 4pm so that Mama could have time with Reg on her own, Tony medinas mama picked me up from visit and took me back to the motel. After she left all I could do was lay down on the bed and cry, I could still see Reginalds face in my mind, his tears, his worries, his fears and there was not a dam thing I can do about it.
That night I had to contact friends to ask them to put some bulletins out, to try and get some money in to the defense fund, to enable me to pay for reginalds cremation if the execution goes ahead, there would have been enough in there if a civil lawyer hadnt insisted on money to help pay her expenses when she went to visit reg each week. For wear and tear on her car, gas for the car, and money to feed Reg whilst she was there, for a few weeks, and to pay for the clemency which was denied I may add. I cant believe that money went from the defense fund for that. Even though previously I had told someone not to let her have that money, and she had the nerve to interupt my visit with reg, more or less just asking if she could be put on his list to witness his execution, I thought WTF, however Reg changed his mind about that, and would not put her on it.
SATURDAY 24TH
I did not want to go to the Austin CEDP rally, my own personal reasons why I didn’t, I wanted to stay as close to Reg as was possible so spent most of Saturday in my motel room making phone calls or receiving phone calls.
SUNDAY 25TH
A friend of mine came over to see me, it was nice to meet her we went out for food, then I really wanted to just find a bar and have some vodka and we did, and yes I had a few vodkas, I needed that time to try and forget what may be happening in a couple days time. I got back to the motel room and litrally fell asleep in the clothes I went out in. I woke up at 4.15am made a coffee and had thinking time, all I know is I don’t want to go back to UK,
MONDAY 26TH
At 9am this morning British Tv and Myself are having a telephone interview with Reginalds lawyer. Then straight after I will be going to see Reginald. I will be leaving visit today at 3pm, so that Reginalds Mama can have time with Reg as she is not going to visit Reginald tomorrow, instead she will be attending another rally for Reg in Austin. 8PM- i stayed until 5 at visit as reg didnt want me to go at 3.
TUESDAY 27TH OCTOBER 2009 7AM
WELL Im just about to get ready to go and see Reg for four hours, maybe my last visit of seeing Reg alive, im nervous and somewhat anxious waiting to hear the supreme courts decision, Im hoping today that Reg and myself can have some alone time together. I feel empty im not sure why, I have a bad feel about today, my gut instincts are trying to tell me something. God I wish this day hadnt come, my god if I could change places with Reg now I would, Im thankful for the support that Reg has had, and im thankful for the kind people that had phoned me this week whilst being in Texas, this reality now has become my worse nightmare. WHY cant someone do something, anything ohhh god. I need a coffee. Ok im back. Ive ran out of ciggerettes too, but have taken the tablets the doctor prescribed to me to take the nasty edge off of what could happen today, I feel dosed up to the eyeballs. I know now how others in the past felt I never expected to be here to see a loving man die. I wanted to be here to hear good news but the time is coming upon us all. I feel like I want to puke up I am going to leave now for my last visit ever with Reg, this is going to be the hardest visit and the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I cant believe that Reg is being so strong, that makes him the warrior and soldier that I fell in love with. Please keep Reg in your prayers and in your hearts. God bless you all. I will write some more later when im at the hospitality suite. That’s when il get the telephone call from Reg, so he can hear me for the very last time, ohhhh shitttttttt this aint right not right at all, I wish for a miracle right now. Reg asked me to go and see Donut (christopher young) and to go in to see him this week, Reg said because if you don’t go back into polunsky, then I don’t know if you will ever visit polunsky again. I told Reg that I would think about it, as I don’t know how I will feel after. I also said to Reg if the execution goes ahead when the poison has started to flow after he has done his last statement if he is going to do one, please please if you feel ok inside please smile try to remember to give me a smile so that I will know that you are not in pain. Reg said San my Queen, my wife, even in the spirit world I wont have to look back and say oh I wish I had said this to san and I told him a few months down the line, I wont have to look back and think I wished I had said this to reg or that to reg, because we said all that we needed to say with so much love.
Wednesday 28th 09 9pm
Im devestated, feel lost, alone, and angry, upset, angry against the system, angry towards certain people. When Reginalds and my visit was over yesterday at midday, the spiritual advisor and a guard came to the room to tell us visit was ended, they wanted me off the unit and quick. I went to walk over to the main visitation area to see if Reginalds Friend and my friend Julie was still there, a couple guards stood in the way and said you have to leave the unit. I was escorted off the premises by guards and the spiritual advisor, they got wind that Reg was going to protest, When I got outside there was all guards in a row one telling me to get to my car and go, I shouted I don’t know where the dam car is and not sure if my ride was here, then I saw Natalie waving, and was then escorted to the car, they sure wanted me out of the way. Yes Reg did his protest a few minutes after I left the visitation building, they took him from the room where we were visiting and down on the floor he went, they dragged him he was protesting his execution, eventually they got him on the gurney/trolley and took him to his cell where they got all his property then put him in the van to take him to the walls unit where the execution would take place, Chris young that morning was not even allowed his attorney visit, they didn’t want all 3 of us out in the visitation area at the same time. They knew I was on Chris youngs visiting list too, and Reg and Chris were really close and good friends, one of the few that Reg trusted in there. That afternoon I went to the hostpitality (Tuesday 27th) Where myself and the other two witnesses were spoken to and had things explained to us from the chaplins. I had a few calls from Reg that afternoon, he was in good spirit considering what was going to happen to him. That morning when I was visiting Reg he also had Julie to come in visit for an hour, she chanted the buddist type of chant similar to the monks, that put reg in his meditative state, he felt at peace. Anyway I passed the phone around to a couple family members that was at the hospitality suite, the last call when I spoke with him was 4.50pm Reg had a couple laughs, that man even said to me, San dam it I could do with making love to you right now, I said ohhhhhhhh my god Reg how can you think of that at a time like this, he laughed and laughed then it went serious, and I told him I love you I love you I love you over and over again, he said be happy san be happy, don’t let this break you, because it hasn’t broken me. Even then he was more concerned about others and yet this was an hour before his execution, an hour, he told me he had written a couple letters that will be given to me after with his glasses, and the rest of his property which he wanted me to take back to UK he didn’t want anything of his left in the USA, the very country that let him down. Then at 5pm the Chaplin and Spiritual advisor took us over to the administrative building, where we had to wait, then it was time, we were escorted across the road to the walls unit, there we went to an office where we waiting for about 10 minutes then we were taken outside to walk to the witness room, how strange that it was all at the back out of site. The door was opened then you are faced with seeing Reg on that gurney, I stopped for a few seconds at that point in time I wanted to turn away and not go in, but I wanted to be as close as I could to reg at the end. I went up to the glass window and put my hand up at the window like Reg and myself used to do at visit, Reg said his last statement, then oh my god he smiled, Reg remembered what I said at visit that morning, yet I knew he got himself into his meditative state, after he smiled, his lips went straight, I knew in my heart and mind that was when Reg died, the man checked his eyes and chest, they pronounced him dead at 6.21pm yet I know in my heart Reg went to the spirit world a few minutes before that, I still say and will continue to say 6.16pm. Reg did not take long to die, he had learnt to properly meditate over the years, and this helped him greatly, After I got eye contact with the warden, I glared with as much anger passion as I could, he stopped eye contact, it was my only way of showing him how discusted I was. I turned round to julie who hugged me, and I remember saying in the witness room the murdering bastards, Julie heard, I don’t think anyone else did. But im glad I said it.
After they opened the doors and led us out, I will say that the two officers that was in the execution witness room that evening, I could sense their compassion, at one point I know I saw the female officer wiping her eyes and the male guard was very nice and human, not like some. We then left was more or less just escorted back to the administrative building and left, The british cameraman G said just before 6.21pm a big flock of birds flew above the walls unit, he said it looked like they actually flew up from the prison, I said to G, that I knew Reg had died before 6.21pm. I told them as much as I am against the deathpenalty Reg did go peacefully, I was expecting to see the things that other people had told me happens when they have been into an execution i.e. the person on the gurney turning side to side the raising of the chest, the last breath like a gargling sound, there was none of that, Reg stayed still in his meditative state, I did not hear his last breath, there was no turning side to side, no raising of the chest, this man the man I loved I saw the life sucked out of him, yet peacefully.
We went back to the hospitality where all Reginalds property was signed over to me, which Reg signed out to me, then we went to the funerel home that is contracted with tdcj, I had to tell them that another funeral home would be picking up Reg from them, as reg did not want them to do the cremation. Andre which is reginalds older brother and some of Reginalds family who had not seen Reg in years, nor written to him, came to the funerel home, they wanted to pay their last respects to Reg, they were very upset. I was able for the first time hold and kiss Reg I even wiped a little sweat away from his forhead, and even though his life was gone I still spoke to him, I told him again and again how much I love him and he would always be my king, I told him I would not give up the fight, and would never stop trying to prove his innocence I put my arm underhim, and my other arm over his chest and laid the side of my face to his face, I cried on him I held him tight my tears ran into his eye and those tears came out the side of his eye as though he was crying, deep down I know that Reg will always be with me, he gave me his soul, and because of that I will fight on.
I stayed in huntsville overnight at a motel with the british tv, they have been a blessing to Reg and myself, You wont get another filmcrew as much passion as they have. The following day we called the funerel home that picked reg up from the contracted one, I had to go and fill out forms sign paperwork, because Reg asked me to sort his cremation out, he was adement that he did not want a funerel he wanted straight cremation, he even told the british tv in the interview with him the 21st oct which was filmed, that he did not want a funerel, the funerel home wanted to see that as well, incase of any problems after with family etc etc etc, I was only doing what Reg asked of me, and making sure his wishes was adhered to. They said I could go in and see him, But Gina said to me, he wont be as warm as he was last night, but do you know what, he looked exactly the same, as the night before except colder, I hugged him again and again, then I said my goodbye to him, yet I went to walk away got to the door and something pulled me back, it wasn’t my time to leave reg, so I went back and kissed him, held him stroked his face stroked his head, then I said goodbye, again I had to go back to hold him again, then something inside told me, ok its time to leave him. I walked outside the funerel home, and this gust of wind came from nowhere, we knew that was Reg telling us its ok to go now. Reg wanted as much filmed as possible, he even gave the british tv rights to film him after, he wanted the world to know what the system is really like. Soon I will have photos of myself holding reg, some of you may not want to see, however you have to understand one thing, I needed those photos of me holding him, it brought comfort to me for me to be able to hold him, eventually I will put them on reginalds myspace page, but again il say its up to you all if you want to see. Reg wanted me to get out everything I possibly could, which includes that, so please be aware of this.
I have been all over the place, not even knowing what time of day it is, I just want my king back I cant shake off the picture in my head of seeing Reg on that gurney, but one thing Reg has taught me many things in 4 and a half years, with Reg giving me his soul I have decided to continue the fight, I know I have told some in the past that if they take reggies life and take reggie from me, I will move away from deathrow activism, but Reginalds courage, and him never letting the system break him, even to the last minute, made me determined to carry on the fight and to prove his innocence. He was such an inspiration to me, showing me the way, giving me courage even though they were to take his life. He was and is a warrior a true soldier that should never be forgotton, ever.
Thursday 29th october.
Today I decided to do what Reg asked of me, and went to visit christopher young, Reginalds close friend/brother. Both Chris and myself needed that visit, we spoke of things and he told me a couple funny stories what Reg had told him, we did have some smiles, chris then told me that they wouldn’t let him have his attorny visit the morning of the reginalds execution, as explained above. Reg had told me that he sent a kite to Chris, telling chris he loved him, and to look after me to make sure that Im going to be ok. Chris then told me that he had a kite from Reg and what he said, Chris said san you’re my sister so I have to look after you, I said to chris il be ok, im a survivor and il get through it all. But when I walked into polunsky today, it was very very difficult, there was a lot of people in there that I knew, some of the men, and also their visitors, it gave me a sense of people care, everyone in there said sorry for the loss of Reg and hugged me, except ONE british woman, who I have to say, when its her husbands time for a date shel want all the support, yeah right. We were all supposed to be in this fight in unity, Yet she separated herself from me, and her words to me once was, I have to take off my husbands page from all your pages because he isa friend of chuckys (my ex husband) what aload of fucking bullshit that is. Not one time have we seen her help anyone, except herself and her husband. I don’t want to name her or her husband, but those of you that know me well know who that is.
Tony medinas mum took me to visit as she was visiting tony so it was nice to see Tony again, I was also able to see Willie trottie and his friend at visit, also Yosvanis Valle, and his lady victoria, Yosvanis has a execution date 10th november, Victoria is such a sweet lady, I only hope that she and yosvanis does not have to go through the same thing. Im praying for you both.
I walked into polunsky with my head held high, more or less proving to them, that the TDCJ has not broken me either. Some may have thought, what what she just watched her fiancee be executed, a couple days later in polunsky visiting Chris, well think on, because whereas before I cared and worried what people thought, but not any more, as far as im concerned these people as in that British lady and her husband who I will add is on deathrow, . Do I really care, at a time like this what you feel or think, NO I don’t, because you and many others who didn’t bother to help Reg in my eyes helped kill him, you may have signed a petition, but what else, I mean what was the point of the democracy now interview on the day of reginalds execution and what was the dam point of cedp austins branch rally in austin on Tuesday 27th october the day of his execution, where reggies mama was, Gov perry wasn’t even there, he was in New York or some other place.
Heres another thing, the day before Reginalds execution I had a call from my friend, who told me about a certain member from the austin branch of cedp, asking my friend to contact me to see if I would do the radio interview with her THE DAY OF REGINALDS EXECUTION wtf. I Kindly said to my friend to please message her and use my words as follows or similar. “No I will not be doing the interview with you, I will be spending my last time with Reg, and I don’t have time to do an interview that Reg asked you to set up months ago, and also asked a couple people to set up last dam year. So no I will not be doing the radio interview with you”
These people the austin branch of the cedp, people that doesn’t like returning emails, I more or less in the end told them to contact the New York branch of the CEDP, Even then they didn’t, It came to it I had to give Gloria of the new york branch their emails, it took along while for them to even contact her, this we all found discusting, this austin branch of the cedp who supposedly fighting for reg, supposedly. Alittle rally here and there, with maybe one member of the cedp present, then continued to give out the message about their annual march which was october 24th, 20,30, 40, maybe 60 people turned up for that. These are the people that come in at the last minute yeah the last minute or last couple months. One of these members had been writing to Reg alittle shorter time that myself, don’t you think she would of known all I mean all about his case, yes, if so, why did she email me, asking me for the facts of reginalds case so she could do a fact sheet, I thought wtf. She then asked me if Reg had a facebook, if not she would do one for him, I told her yes he has a facebook you should know that because you are on his facebook.
Ya know, Gloria, Lee and the rest of the New York branch, were the only ones that was keeping me updated, The NEW YORK BRANCH!!!!!!!!!!!! Gloria has been calling the motel im in, she has been a great support, ya know it came to it, when back along when I had written to Reg, about it, he knew the austin branch was not doing what they should have been doing, and even told me to tell Gloria to do whatever she needed to do, to get the austin branch working, and they succeeded. I take my hat off to the New York Branch. The problem with Texas is that there are too many little small organisations, that should come as one, then maybe they would work better. Im sure this all offends some of you, but im angry and have a right to have my say, I say as I see it.
I also want to thank Gloria rubac, who did us all proud in what she done outside the walls unit the evening of Reginalds Execution, and for the anti deathpenalty supporters that did turn up too, and another thankyou for gloria rubac when I met her at the funeral home after and she hugged me, I hope if she ever gets to read this, to realise how much that meant to me, I thankyou Gloria.
I just want to thank each and everyone of you who did call me at the motel a few times you all gave me so much support and encouragement, im sorry if at times I may have come across alittle harsh, but the valuim and beta blockers that the doctor perscribed to me was just doing their work. Id like to thank, Elish,(uk) Sylvia,(usa) Carolina, (usa) sue, (uk) Gloria from the newyork cedp branch, Sabrina,(usa) Karen, (australia)Kc, (usa) Christy armell,(new mexico) Anita (USA from LAC)Gynette, Lynette and im sorry I know there was a couple more that called, but I was litrally out of it, so if you called and I havent mentioned you, I just want to say thankyou so much.
Ok now on to something else. Ive had a couple calls that let me know that people do care, however out of this some people has tried to say things for their own gain, this to me is false, and fake, if you couldn’t of done something for Reg, or even messaged me over the years then why start your sorries now, now that is fake. Some of you I know is genuine, some of you I know well, but when people put things out like, oh dear oh dear, that could be my fate soon, I tried to do so much eh what, where did that come from, this particular lady didn’t even know Reg, nor know me personally, some were genuine in their comments I know this, but you all know and realise what im trying to say.
On top of all of this, Ive now had problems with the family, shouting at me down the telephone, shouting asking me to give them reginalds property, dam it, this is so wrong, all I was doing is carrying out Reginalds Wishes,which was documented, so apart from losing the man I loved, watching him die, I now have to contend to all this bullshit. Right now I just want to go back to Uk, to carry out Reginalds wishes. I was also accused of witholding a letter to Reginalds Brother Andre, of things Reg wanted Andre to find out, to carry on proving his innocence. I had two personal letters from Reg one he wrote at 5pm an hour before he was put on that gurney and one he wrote 4.45pm does these two letters sound to you to be addressed to andre, I will typed down the first couple lines of each letter. (these two letters are in a separate blog)
4.30pm 27th october.
My Queen.
I will always be with you. Everytime you feel stressed out, think of your King, and my wisdom will come to you. Baby I love you so much.
My Queen, divine woman, wife, bestfriend,protector, my entire universe, I love you with everything I am, Baby ok let me get some of these things out since I write much slower that I type. There is a subsection to the 11.071 statute of the texas code of criminal procedure that says the courts specifically the court of criminal appeals is suppose to appoint us “competent” counsel, then it goes on to say more about this. Reg ends that letter with. “I love you with my soul my Queen, Il aways be your King etc etc.
This does not sound like it was addressed to Andre does it. There was one short line in that letter at the end after saying I love you wih my soul my queen, Reg put, I love you too Dre.
I understand the pain they go through, but im hurting too, and I did not want to have to deal with this shit too. There is so much more I want to say on this, however I wont, I will know when the time is right to do so.
FRIDAY 30th october.
Today I am staying in my motel room to rest this week has been the most horrific of my life, I just cant get that picture of Reg on that gurney out of my mind, I feel much stronger today, but it helps writing all this, and talking to people on the telephone, I will never forget your kindness ever. Reginalds lawyer still filing things around 5pm the evening of reginalds execution, and apparantly that was denied by the supreme court around 5.30pm I think, im not exactly sure on all this, things that should have been filed long before, then theres a lawyer a female civil lawyer that interupted my visit, to ask if Reg would put her on his list to witness his execution, ohhhhhhhh my goddddddddd, this same female lawyer, who had money from reginalds defense fund, to go and visit reg each week for a few weeks, to pay her gas money and money to feed Reg, that’s why there wasn’t enough to really pay for the cremation,but that has been covered now. I think about 650 went to her. But the strange thing is, she wasn’t just visiting Reginald, she was also visiting others, did she go to the families of those too, to get money for gas, and to feed them too. I know this woman was trying to help, but at what expense. And what did Reg tell me on Monday afternoon 26th october after she saw Reg, Reg was angry very very angry, saying how fake people are, this woman had connections in high places, from what Reg said, that could of saved his life, yet she didn’t use those connections because it ALL cost money, dam it, damit dam it.
3.30pm, im feeling hungry, ihavent really been able to eat much this week, but I need to eat something, Love you all.
NOW YOUR GONE
NOW YOUR GONE
BY SANDRA BLANTON
Reg, My King, I never got to touch you, until you were gone,
I held you, I wiped alittle sweat from your brow, I stroked your face, I kissed
your lips, even though you had departed this world, I wonder did you feel my arms
around you, I held you close Reg.
When I saw you on that gurney, my heart broke, all our hopes and dreams
we had, suddenly was being wiped away in a few minutes.
After you said your last statement you smiled, you remembered what we had spoke
about at visit that morning, You smiled, Your eyes were fixed on me as mine was fixed on you, everyone around us didnt exist and was out of mind, our eyes on each other, as you departed from this world.
A world full of hatred and deceit,
I tried to obide by your last wishes Reg,
but you know how family is, family also hurt by your departure,
made it difficult for me to obide by your last wishes, but I did obide
by most of those wishes. Im sorry my King I could not fulfill all, im not
at fault for that.
But I have your prayer rug, that you told the chaplin to give me, with the
message from you saying, you wrapped the rug around you, and that you wanted
me to take it home and wrap it around me, to always remember you by.
And your glasses, a standing joke between you and me, as everytime I visited you, if you were going to tell me off about something, you would put those glasses on
and look over the top of them., So thankyou my king for giving them to me,
you are still watching over me as you said you would.
Most of your Ashes will soon be home Reg, In England where you wanted
to be, and I will do what we spoke about at visit, I will keep them in a urn close to me, the gold heart, as you always had a heart of gold. An urn to go to your Mama and an urn you requested to go to your twin brother, Yes my king I did that for you, the rest of your Ashes will sail in the british ocean as you requested me to do at visit, Your free now Reg, free to roam the universe and do gods work as what you intended to do.
I have not slept since you departed this world, each time I close my eyes
all I see is you on that Gurney, the murder machine, Im scared to go to sleep.
At visit you gave me your soul, I have your soul my King.
You said you would always be with me by my side, I feel your presence,
so I know you are home here in England where you belong.
I miss you so much, and love you so very much.
I love you My king, My husband,lover,bestfriend,soulmate and my protector
ALWAYS AND FOREVER
with Love from Your Queen, Sandie.
REST IN PEACE
NO ONE CAN EVER HURT YOU, NOR BETRAY YOU EVER AGAIN, NO LAWYERS FALSE PROMISES, NO LAWYERS ASKING THE FAMILY FOR MONEY TO FEED YOU, NO INDIVIDUALS LIES SAYING THEY WERE DOING THINGS FOR YOU WHEN THEY WASNT, YOU ARE AT PEACE NOW MY KING, AWAY FROM THE HELL HOLE OF DEATH ROW. YOU ARE FREE MY KING, FREE MY KING.
YOU ARE MY ANGEL IN HEAVEN.
GOD BLESS YOU.
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