Ive seriously got to be the stupidest girl on the planet...so Michael was a dick and left after all my money was gone....guess we know wat he wanted...he dont have a job, lol.  So that went out the window....and now....you kno wat im gonna say i kno u do lol....im talking to Damin again hahahahaha....im a loser I kno, but thats ok.  We are trying to fix things but to me it still all feels the same...and I dont feel as close to him as I used to...so I dont kno wats gonna happen..But, yesterday I hung out with my neighbors...they all got big trucks that they go mudding in...they are some pretty cool guys so far...AND, I finally got a job YAY!  So things are looking better for me finally...

Me and Damin were together for a year on Nov 7th.  But a week after that we finally broke up for good.  Its kinda shitty cuz i miss how we used to be but shit happens i guess.  He was too controlling, jealous, and possesive.  He didnt want me going no where or talking to anyone....I was tired of being stuck in the house for weeks at a time while he was away with work...I couldnt do anything unless he was home to do it with me.  Cuz when I would try and go do stuff Id always get yelled at for it.  Theres a lot more but its embarressing and scares me and I dont like talking about it....but now Im talking to someone else...he got out of the Marines 2 years ago, he is 36, my height, brown hair and eyes....Ive never met anyone like him before....he's so different.....heres something for you to think on...wat kind of guy will sit in the bathtub with a girl and shave her legs????   Well I found one that will, hahaha.

Ive never been treated like a Princess before but for almost 3 months now i have def felt like that. I love my bf so much. Every day my feelings for him get stronger. I dnt know how i ever lived without him. My life was hell for so long and i became such a bad person. But now that ive been shown wat true love is and now that i know how good it feels to do for urself i could never go back to my old life. I have the love of my life i have my mom and my sister and im wrkn finally. Im so proud of myself these days. I know me and Damin will be a forever thing. Im so glad i came here. And i just wna say thank you to every1 that was supportive of my decision. A lot of ppl know how much i needed help. To all my real friends, i love you guys!