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Charlotte Renninger



Last Updated: 11/23/2009

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Status: Single
City: Olympia
State: Washington
Country: US
Signup Date: 11/13/2006

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Monday, November 16, 2009 

“A Place where noone can find me”

A place where no one can find me,

Where stumbling is dancing,

The wound of my sighs are symphonies

Inside-outside

My perspective recording visually

To finally be aware

Of myself.

I am always riding clouds!

These clouds are metaphorical parodies,

I am not riding clouds.

(but only because words do not have the same infinite descriptions that body & movement manifest)

I am unlimited. A am wearing a cloak of some sort. This velvety layering of the warmest linens stuffed with goose down is weighing me at least twenty pounds heavier.

We're playing beat around the bush

We're laying the bricks lower than planned

We're implying too much, and giggling (wake)in it's breeze

We're rubbing fur backwards with the sweetest of ease

When it got down to the nitty gritty

I was just as easy and sweet as the ripest

I wasn't teasing the bait with the slightest

But I was building a nest whilst reaffirming and unbiased

My ears are swollen and heavey

Everything that comes through is muffled by a wirr

of appliances

and lights.

But I'm nibbling on pieces of Dialect

And I thawed out these excavations

And They weren't the findings I'd expect

but merely his quietest meditations

A room where no one can find me

But my love's sweetest bindings

Revealed for the purpose of fine things

Exploited for the nature of timing

And the darkest rooms,

with the warmest glow,

and the quiet tug

this is a place we know

We've been before

We'll all  go again,

but the honest warmth

between honest hands

Sugar Salty sweet, the mess of Am I complete?

Daylight hits me again, and I am caught unaware for the last time.

I am waking up and singing my dreams. I am dancing with manequins.

I am looking at the sky beneath the dew of my nighttime remenents.

Every Cloud hangs with a laugh, and the grin of street sign has great presidence

If we were dreaming, she says, like a stallion we'd have a glorious saunter

If Dreams were fleeting, she says still off key, they'd have flown off with me

The one thing left, we all had to say was less consistent and more for play

We said it with all of our momentum anyway. Make no plans for life Today.

We are a rhythm, we are a wind, we are a weapon, of body and sea

We are a tide pool, we are a river, we are the bodies drifting the hills

We are the memories, melodies, the moments and and every moment before.

We're the conception of what we live for, we are the history and lore.

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Tuesday, October 20, 2009 
I was eating a popsicle in the garage, with a heater between my knees surfing the interwebs, 

uhg

decadent. 
Sunday, October 18, 2009 
"well don't bring it up unless you're ready to deal with it" Said most confrontationally.

Needing to calm down to the utmost degree, before coming to terms with something that has to be spoken about, and not shouted about.

An injured state can mean opportunity, to others.

Fess up, some said.
Be accountable, others chimed.
Blame sin, few hummed.

Just acknowledge it. Acknowledge that you hurt me. And love me in return.
Monday, September 28, 2009 
Looked at my tongue's piercing, and pondered upon my mouth organ, "did I mutilate my tongue?" As though hoping to arouse arguement, and protest. I know what I did to MY tongue, but what do other people call it. And where is their source, is it experience? Or doctrine? Why did I suddenly worry about it, after the fact, as though it would make a difference now, affect my vanity and increase my confidence and faith in actions.

Oh Faith, How you dictate me. Designed within the confines of expectiation,
and response. What I believe I can do. What I believe in. Mental investments.
Santa clause, enchantment, and myth, hold me close enough to muddy my senses and design me via thought collections. Based loosely, and taught enough to maintain speed, and Efficiency. You money mongering myth factory.

And because of it, I love my tongue ring moreso than ever, as it is mine. It is part of me and you, as disgusting and beautiful as each, and neither.
Sunday, September 20, 2009 
Incomplete.

Repetition.

And, recognition.

Doesn't it make you feel good?

Good advice for writing: Write about what you know best, because even if you think it's boring, its what you know best, and it will interest people.

I need to brain storm about what I know best, which might be indecision, procrastination, intensification, climax, music making, music block, Love making, love avoidance, love deconstruction, interdisciplinary randomness, irony, apathy, over sensitization, paranoia, bi-polar, regret, network dissection, self righteous erections, ego fueled inflation, balance, tolerance, ego-centrism, id, misinterpretation, fear, control, OCD, and failure defined by success.

Saturday, September 19, 2009 
I will be your puddle,
You can be my rain
I'll be your soggy earth
If you promise to retain,
My weathered pebbled
storm shaken roof,
Let me stand alone and aloof
as isolated desolated
resistant proof.

You can be my harness,
I will be your noose.
And when we wed ourselves off
to friends of the family
we'll commit joint suicide.
Holding hands, and coka colas
That we plan to clean the blood off with.
She was seventeen,
when they stopped lying to her.
Or was it Nineteen?

Graditude is a hungry young
child learning how to hold onto
his mother, long enough to be filled
and sleepy.
You can only experience appreciation
you cannot learn vacany.
You cannot add before subtracting.
Hunger is rarely learned.
But it will keep you awake,
and there's nothing wrong with that.

All inclusive evidence led us in complete circles. With the sun setting on our conclusions, and the stars before letting us solidify.
Monday, September 14, 2009 
I'm thinking about putting up a myspace for Demallcrazy Meow. My silly radio show on 106.5 KOWA. It might just be too many websites for me to manage, especially since I keep breaking my keyboards. But I have live music on each week, with amazing artists, and what would be cool would be to put up some of the live performances online so people could hear them. Oh yea.

I hear there's a KOWA myspace, but It's not active.

Also, KOWA would have a live stream online except they need a third computer to do that because their's don't have enough "RAM" I believe.

They're taking tax-deductable computer donations! If you know anyone who needs a tax deduction, and has an extra computer laying aorund! *wink wink*

Well... It's nearing that time, RADIO TIME!
Wednesday, September 09, 2009 
Hours and hours of cataloging had made him ill from the chemicals inhabiting the ink. He has a rattly cough that sounded like tinkering in the basket of left behind paper weights. The format of all this organizing was so that there was little way to encounter anything without first, searching. Those without direction were meant to be lost. It was an ironic and cruel saying they would label to the kids who we raised too timid and spoiled to know any better than to hope all of their needs would bite them in the ass. As they eventually would, but never on their schedule. A schedule meant you had to be an asshole in this town. Prioritizing over top of everyone else's lively hood. Like you were valued more than their 10 to 5 minimum wage could ever fancy a thought of protecting.

A live wire once lived in the same neighbor hood as me.

We hid our water and love from her.


Friday, August 21, 2009 
The practice of Exploitation.

Oh, resource squanders. How shall we flay thee?
By aiming disappointed implications carelessly?
There between the raised beds, and industrial fields
What bitterness the large scale wields.

So we named it and wrote it in the sand,
So everyone could see and understand.
If you use our hearts like clock cogs
when you're dead we'll eat your face like dogs.
Monday, August 17, 2009 

In the epic beginning of the awesome world, there were my fingers around my belly curled. And this was only the beginning of my world, but how it mattered, and now it’s important still.

The Wild extrication, of my heart from my sexy nation was a standing birth into a field of Echinacea and lavender. We were one, then I was separate from her.

 It was like a myth in totality, but we held on to the quaint reality.

 

In the epic beginning of the ending, the room was rotating, and the world was spinning, and continually encountering nothing fully, but Always leaving just as were coming.

So there I found myself brand new, though older than before when neither her nor I were two.

Separately, but wholly complete she held my head to her wise heartbeat, and it echoed onto my little drums, and taught me the first rhythm as I tapped my thumbs.

 

In the epic beginning I twisted dandelions into my hair, as her mother had taught her to be dainty and fair.

 She sewed anything wild onto everything tame, any gown that she wore was just another arts’ frame.

So explicitly labeled instead of plainly relieved of any author named plotline I ran faster in weeds, as they begged no direction, and only swayed for the wind, as the world spun in the direction of the beginning of the end.