Got pics up from the honeymoon!!  Enjoy

Hey everyone!  check out my pics, I've been posting wedding photos.  There's still more to come though.  I'll keep you posted

Woo Hoo, got to go see Finger Eleven and Chevelle in concert last night!  Chevelle was a bit disappointing in their performance since I love their stuff on the radio.  Oh well, the one I realy wanted to see was Finger Eleven.  The show rocked!  The lead dude for FE is either flat out nuts, slightly mentally handicapped or on something, but I think that made the show all that much better!  Can't wait to see them again some day.  I think I might even be willing to say that their show was better than Saliva's show, which I think was pretty damn hard to top!

Well, we're getting everything all worked out.  We have a pastor and a church for our wedding ceremony.  The only draw back at this point is that our pastor is an actor.  He has a performance the night of our wedding so the ceremony has to be in the am which means a lag time between ceremony and reception.  I hope everyone is okay with that.  I know it means more will show for just the reception instead of attending both but that is not a problem at all.  Lets all get ready to party!  The reception is gonna have an open beer, wine and soda bar, (sorry but it's cash for the hard stuff).  I'm getting so excited to the point I can't hardly stand it, but at the same time, "HOLY SHIT! I'm getting Married!"  okay, got that out of my system, for now.  Well I gotta get going, have class in a few minutes.  Everyone take care and see you in June!

Damn, weddings are expensive!  I've having a great time planning it, picking out candles and all that jazz, but I NEVER thought I'd spend so much on one candle!  34 for a Unity, 25 for a holder, 500 for a DJ, 60 just for a bra!!! I used to watch the birdal shows and ask how the hell a woman would spend 1200 just on seat covers, and now I understand.  No, we're not usuing seat covering, but if we were, there are some out there for 15 bucks FOR ONE chair!  15 X (just) 60 = 900, and that's for ONLY 60 people!  On these shows some women have had over 300 people at their weddings.... 4500 just for seat covers in that case.  It's insane! I've thought about just jetting off to Vegas and doing it out there.  Rob won't agree though, because he knows that I really do want a real wedding with the dress and the music and all.  He doesn't want me to regret anything.  I wouldn't regret it, as long as I'm with him, but we've already made the nonrefundable down payment for the reception.  No point in being out that 750!  I really can't wait though, I'm so excited and yet I still have a few months.  God knows how crazy I'll be when I've only got just a week left to go, and after a week is a Day...The Day!

Yesterday was a month since my dad died.  It feels like a lot longer, then again it feels like I just lost him today.  I'm just having issues with it all I guess.  He died 10 days before my birthday, and only 5 days before his first grandson's 15th birthday.  Like everyone else in our family (his side) the cancer spread fast, 3 months and one day from the day of diagnosis.  towards the end he looked like he aged 10 years in just one week.  I got to say what all I thought I wanted to say, even at his funeral I couldn't think of anything else to say to dad other than good bye, but I still feel like I should have said, or done more.

 I had been thinking of having my brother Scott walk me down the isle at my wedding.  Now I'm thinking I would rather just walk alone.  No one to give me away, or walk with me.  If my dad can't be there to physically walk beside me, then I don't want anyone to take his place.  He will be there, with all of us, and I don't want to take walking with me away from my dad by having someone else in his place.