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Sunday, October 26, 2008 

Current mood:  sad
Category: News and Politics

Well, as you may or may not be aware, me & my mom threw a couple of jabs at Jennifer Hudson and her fiance David Otunga in recent weeks. It started out when I spoke to one of my favorite magazines, who asked me for a little bit of dish concerning Jennifer's engagement to David, who appeared on the reality show "I Love New York" with me. Some of what I said was printed in the article, and some good things I said about them was left out, but I wasn't upset about that because I understand how the media works and that the general public prefers a little drama to hash over. It was all in fun.

I heard about what Jennifer Hudson is going through right now regarding the tragic loss of family members, and my heart sank to the floor. All that other nonsense is out the window when something like this occurs. This makes us realize how precious family is to all of us, and how important it is for people to love each other and unite together during times like this that test our faith.   

I can't imagine what Jennifer must be going through right now. I would like to offer my deepest sympathy and condolences to her and her family, and I'm praying for them. Peace and Blessings

    

Tuesday, October 21, 2008 

Current mood:  blessed

New York Talks to Pop on the Pop, Explains Why She Gained So Much Weight!

Photo of New York Talks to Pop on the Pop, Explains Why She Gained So Much Weight!I was workin' the red carpet last Friday night at Kress nightclub on Hollywood Blvd. for L.A. Direct Magazine and Planet Funk's L.A. Fashion week kick off bash.

I didn't expect to see New York there, and I have to admit I kind of morphed into a groupie. Upon spotting her across from the red carpet, I also thought, oh geezus, I have to meet this diva bitch? WTF? Initially I liked New York and thought of her as a great entertainer, but with every Vh1 reality tv season her attitude seemed to inflate 10x more than it was the previous season. Whatever. I decided to find out whether or not she was a bitch.Photo of New York Talks to Pop on the Pop, Explains Why She Gained So Much Weight!Flattery ensued, 'New York, you look good, girl!' I said. She said, "oh thank you" while someone was shining a light in her face from a video camera, capturing footage. She later said, "everyone keeps telling me I look good tonight."

She then said that she's "fabulously single." Uh, does that mean a I Love New York 3 is in the works?

New York then made her way to the red carpet, posing for pictures. When she finished posing, a pair of reporters on my left wanted to begin interviewing her but she said, "No, I want to talk to her" looking at me then walking over to me. See the, 'You look good, girl!' compliment works. Even on men. Try it.Photo of New York Talks to Pop on the Pop, Explains Why She Gained So Much Weight!She also told me, "you're so cute!" I guess I was just excited to be in the presence of reality TV royalty, LMAO, which she may have found cute. Then I told New York, 'It's okay. I can just talk to you when they're done.' and she said, "Oh, you're so professional!"

New York then asked if her hair looked okay, then she launched into some Q&A. She explained the reason why she looks so thick on New York Goes to Hollywood.

"I just want to clear up the rumors! The reason why I look so big on New York Goes to Hollywood… I had my celebrity friends, they were just texting me, 'are you okay, girl?' and the reason why I look so big is because I quit smoking and I gained 40 pounds!"

Photo of New York Talks to Pop on the Pop, Explains Why She Gained So Much Weight!Then I asked her when she quit and she said, "November 11th, it's almost a year now!" She's SO excited about quitting smoking, claiming her skin looks better, she can workout for longer periods of time and "everything is just better!"

Although she was rockin' heels, New York looks like she may be around 5′8. She was pretty tall and much more slender than she looks on TV. I think she lost most, if not all, of her 40 pound weight gain.
Photo of New York Talks to Pop on the Pop, Explains Why She Gained So Much Weight!Before meeting New York, I also thought reality shows finished filming and editing entire seasons before airing the first episode of the same season. Maybe Vh1 does it differently? New York said,

New York Goes to Hollywood just wrapped last week. It was a great show about me moving out here and just checking out L.A. L.A.'s been treating me really good. I love California. Anyway, being out here is just a beautiful thing. God is really just blessing me right now and the sky's the limit, so I'm pursuing my acting career.

Photo of New York Talks to Pop on the Pop, Explains Why She Gained So Much Weight!After multiple televised break-ups, New York's not really feeling men right now.

You know what, fuck love! I don't need a man right now. Right now it's all about me getting out here. On a serious note you guys, it's not really about me finding a love mate right now, it's about me focusing on what I want. This is what Tiffany wants. Right now I just wanna pursue acting.

Also, I just want to note that all the reporters on the red carpet said that New York was "so cool" and "really nice." We were all so impressed with her. She is nothing like the character we see on her shows. She is still hilarious in person, you know how she does. But she's shockingly sweet and kind.

I felt fooled once again, like a celebrity I thought was one way is completly different. That's typical for performers, not so typical for reality stars. She was really nice, so yeah, there ya go. Quitting smoking makes you fat and New York is really sweet!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008 

Current mood:  breezy
She's made men fight over her, women hate her, and an entire state her stage name; but for vh1 reality TV icon, Tiffany Pollard, aka New York, her career is just getting started.

You may have wondered why Tiffany hasn't been seen chain smoking, per usual, on her new series "New York Goes to Hollywood." She has ditched the butts as a means to improve her life, lungs and salvage her skin.

Much to the shock of one who has watched her tantrums and rants, the infamous diva on camera really isn't a diva at all. Gasp! Like her on-screen persona, Tiffany remains hilarious in person, but with less attitude than New York. Think Sarah Silverman with manners. In reality, one of reality TV's biggest stars is actually a very sweet, friendly, down to earth woman.

The aspiring actress gives the inside scoop on gaining 40 pounds, filming her latest reality show, how L.A. has been treating her and, most important, her love life.

On the extra weight she's carrying on New York Goes to Hollywood:
"I just want to clear up the rumors! The reason why I look so big on New York Goes to Hollywood... I had my celebrity friends, they were just texting me, 'are you okay, girl?' and the reason why I look so big is because I quit smoking and I gained 40 pounds!"

On when she quit smoking:
"November 11th, it's almost a year now! I'm able to workout and I don't run outta breath. My skin's better, everything is just better!"

On filming her current vh1 show:
New York Goes to Hollywood just wrapped last week. It was a great show about me moving out here and just checking out L.A. L.A.'s been treating me really good. I love California. Anyway, being out here is just a beautiful thing. God is really just blessing me right now and the sky's the limit, so I'm pursuing my acting career.

On her love life:
You know what, (expletive) love! I don't need a man right now. Right now it's all about me getting out here. On a serious note you guys, it's not really about me finding a love mate right now, it's about me focusing on what I want. This is what Tiffany wants. Right now I just wanna pursue acting.

Tuesday, August 05, 2008 
 
with Kam Williams

Headline: The Sultry Side of the Sassy Sister Known as New York

Tiffany Pollard was born on January 6, 1982 to Michele Patterson and Alex Pollard and raised in Utica, New York where she graduated from Thomas R. Proctor High School. Tiffany skyrocketed from obscurity to fame as the scene-stealing seductress with a world-class attitude on Flavor of Love, the reality TV-series where contestants vie for the affections of hip-hop star Flavor Flav. The clock-carrying rapper didn't choose her as his lifemate, but he did give her the nickname "New York," and had the good sense to have her back for his program's second season.
Since her outrageous antics had been so good for ratings, VH1 offered Tiffany her own show, I Love New York, flipping the script by letting her have her pick from among a score of fawning, eligible bachelors. She was assisted in this enviable endeavor by her ever-sassy mother, Sister Patterson, who helped her daughter settle on Tango, the first season, and on Tailor Made, the next.
Although New York accepted marriage proposals from both of her hunky heartthrobs, neither relationship would even last long enough for an exchange of wedding vows. After several years of frustration at trying to find Mr. Right, Tiffany recently decided to shift her focus from romance to her acting career, now allowing TV cameras to follow her around from audition to audition, of course.
Judging from the snippets I've seen so far of Tiffany's latest reality series, New York Goes to Hollywood, her fans should be happy to know that the flamboyant vixen hasn't toned down her act one iota for the sake of casting directors or studio execs. Here, she talks about all of the above, including the new show, which premieres on VH1, Monday, August 4th at 10 PM (check local listings).

KW: Hi Tiffany, thanks for the time. I really appreciate it.
TP: Oh, you got it, no problem.
KW: I must admit that I'm a bit intimidated, having seen you go off on so many people at a drop off the hat.
TP: Aw, you know what, Kam? I'm going to be good today. I don't want you to be intimidated. At least not a lot, just a little bit.
KW: Thanks. Well, I watched some of the new series, and I have to admit I really enjoyed it. It was a refreshing change of pace from seeing you in nothing but romantic situations.
TP: Well, it has a different vibe. It's definitely New York, but it's New York grown up. I had fun making the show, but I'm serious about the acting business. So, I want my fans to know that this is a real chunk of my life, like this is my dream. You don't know how people might receive it, because like you said, it's different from Flavor of Love and I Love New York. I'm not running around the house with 20 guys looking for love. Basically, I'm on a mission. I think the show is going to go over well, because I had fun doing it.
KW: This program seems to have a much wider range of possible activities than the previous shows.
TP: Absolutely, because there's so much room for error on this show. When I was with the guys, we had things planned, so I knew what to expect from day to day. But shooting New York Goes to Hollywood, you couldn't escape day-to-day life.
KW: Should we anticipate seeing your mother on the show?
TP: Oh, come on Kam! Do you really need to ask that? You know my mom's going to be there. Definitely, definitely. I couldn't do it without her. She's going to come down and make sure everything's in order. You know how she does it. She's going to be there for a large chunk of the show, actually.
KW: What happened to you and Tailor Made? I thought you lovebirds were getting married?
TP: Umm, Tailor Made and I experienced the ups-and-downs of a typical relationship. Unfortunately, we succumbed to what everyone succumbs to eventually. We broke up. I wanted it to last, but it didn't happen that way. Nothing lasts forever. However, I'm back in my happy place. I'm in a good zone, and hopefully he is, too. I don't see him losing any sleep over what happened, because he's mostly to blame for the break-up.
KW: You initially declined his marriage proposal on the show. Why had you been hesitant in the first place?
TP: Why? [Laughs] Oh, you caught me out there. Why? Because I didn't know if it was real, if he was just proposing to me because Tango did last season. There was a lot that went into it, and I didn't want to make a hasty decision.
KW: Why do you think the relationship failed?
TP: The main ingredient that we lost was definitely the passion. And when I say "we lost" I really mean on his end. If you were to speak to him, he would admit it to you, because he even admitted it to me that he pulled out emotionally. We weren't connecting or spending as much time together. We had a new relationship, and a very public relationship, so it needed a lot of nurturing. But he started doing his own thing, so I had to go on about my business and do my own thing. So, we kinda fell apart. But there's nothing bad I could say about him, because he's still the same person he was when I picked him on the show. He's still a good guy.
KW: Do you think becoming famous might have gone to his head?
TP: I want to be honest, so I'm going to say, yes. That's my take on it. I'm entitled to have my opinion and perceptions, and that's what I saw. Tailor Made did everything for me from top –to bottom, until the show aired. And once he was able to get gigs on his own, and hang out with all his fans in all his glory, he didn't know me anymore. He wasn't calling me. He wasn't texting me. I was the one trying to make things happen. It's unfortunate that it ended up like that.
KW: Would you say Tailor Made broke your heart?
TP: [Pauses] Stop. I said I was going to be good. [Laughs] No, he didn't break my heart. My heart never came undone with him, because he went his way, and I went mine.
KW: What is it like dating 20 guys at once?
TP: You definitely know how to be a multi-tasker. And you have to know how to separate the guys who are there for you from the ones who are there to be on television. I may have been in a house with 20 guys, but I only really connected with 2 or 3 on an emotional level.
KW: Did anything happen between you and Flavor Flav while taping that reunion show? I heard that you were off alone in the bathroom with him.
TP: He followed me into the bathroom, but not into a stall. Nothing happened. Definitely not. We were just talking, and he was hanging by the door. I was kinda like flipping my hair, getting the oil off my skin, and patting my nose down.
KW: Are you still friends with any of the losers from either season of I Love New York?
TP: Any of the losers? [Laughs]
KW: How about Boston or Buddha?
TP: Yyou know who sends me the cutest text messages occasionally? Midget Mac. He's still really cool. And Buddha, will send me text messages, and It leaves me crazy voice messages. They're both cool, too.
KW: What do you think are the odds of finding true love on a reality-TV show?
TP: I'm still optimistic, Kam. I definitely think it could happen for somebody but, unfortunately, some people, like Tailor Made, pull out, because they're not used to having the fame.
KW: Does that mean that season three of I Love New York is in the works?
TP: [Laughs] Do you know something that I don't know? Actually, right now, I'm on a journey pursuing my passion for acting. But if someone approached me to do another season, I would certainly consider it.
KW: How much would you say you're similar to the person we've seen on TV?
TP: Seriously? I'd say I'm 100% like that person. I love makeup. I love hair. I'm larger than life. If you press the wrong button, if you step on my toes in the street, I'm gonna get pissed off. That's totally me. When you go onto a reality show, they don't draw a character up for you. I'm that same person. But you have to understand that you might see me fight a little more on reality television, because the circumstances cause me to fight since people are always coming at me. When viewers see me defend myself, they think I'm this crazy, loud person, but that's not true.
KW: Why do you think the medium of TV loves you so much? Have you thought about what it is that makes you so magnetic?
TP: [Chuckles] I hear that a lot, that I'm so captivating. But I'm a humble person. A lot of people might not know that about me. I'm just an individual. There's nobody else who looks like me, or walks like me. I would guess that I have some special ingredient.
KW: The "It" factor. Will that special quality translate to the big screen as an actress?
TP: That's a different league right there, a whole different ballgame. That's what's so exciting to me about acting. You have to work extra hard at it. Reality-TV, you can just jump on the screen and be you, but with acting, you have to show up and be that character they need you to be. So, I like the challenge of it all. That's what draws me toward it. If I keep working at it as hard as I'm working at it now, something definitely will come my way.
KW: Which actresses would you say are your role models?
TP: The ones who inspire me the most are the ones I grew up watching transition to the screen. The first one that always comes to mind is Queen Latifah. Watching her evolve was such an inspiration. I love her… Vivica A. Fox… Angela Bassett...
KW: Are you worried about being typecast as the sassy sister?
TP: To be honest, unfortunately, that's the bittersweet reality of the business. You're going to be typecast. It is what it is. It's up to you to stay strong and try to break down the door, because it's going to happen. Nobody's going to cast me as a nurse or a lawyer right off the bat. So, I'm going to have to break down those barriers.
KW: What director would you like to work with?
TP: Spike Lee. I loved Jungle Fever, Do the Right Thing, Girl Six, all of his films.
KW: And what leading man would you like to be paired opposite as your romantic love interest?
TP: Love interest? Let me see… I have the biggest crush on Laurence Fishburne from back in the day right up 'til now.
KW: "Realtor to the Stars" Jimmy Bayan asks: Where in L.A. do you live?
TP: When I first came out to Los Angeles, and lived here on my own, before anybody knew me, I lived downtown.
KW: Where do you live now?
TP: I don't want to give too much information, because I'm a private person, but I'm really close to where we shot the last show.
KW: Which was?
TP: I think we shot this recent show in Sherman Oaks.
KW: Where were the mansions you lived in during I Love New York located?
TP: Oh boy, somewhere in the Hollywood Hills. The last mansion we shot in was right above or below J-Lo's place. It was really huge and beautiful, with security guards at the gate. So, you couldn't just walk onto the property.
KW: Are you living in New York City, too?
TP: Right now, I'm mostly in L.A. I kinda miss New York a little bit. I can tell that I'm going to be taking a trip back East real soon.
KW: The reason I ask is because a friend of mine, Danielle, was recently house-hunting in Manhattan, and she said she met you and your bodyguard. You were both looking at the same three-bedroom apartment in Nolita [North of Little Italy].
TP: Yes! Oh my goodness! That's so funny. It's such a small world. I was looking for a place in Manhattan, because I didn't want to be on the outskirts. But I didn't take that apartment. Did Danielle jump on it?
KW: No, she didn't either. What do your high school friends think about how you've turned out?
TP: Growing up in such a small city inspires you to want more. Any person from Utica who knew me prior to my moving to L.A., would say they knew I had big dreams. I never let that go. I made it known to all my friends that I wanted to get out, do my thing, and be on television, because I always had that dream. And they supported me. So, the people back home are not surprised.
KW: What would you like your fans to know about you that might surprise them?
TP: That I have a real solid, spiritual background. I have a great connection with God. People probably don't see that side of me, but I want them to know that it does exist.
KW: Were you involved with the church growing up?
TP: Was I? I went to Sunday school every Sunday, to Friday night Bible Study and to Sunday services. My grandfather is a pastor, so I grew up in the church. A lot of people probably don't know that.
KW: Then, how do you explain your use of foul language?
TP: I look at it like this: nobody's perfect. When I pray, I always tell God, "You know, I'm your work in progress." I'm here on Earth just like everybody else. I'm not claiming to be a perfect person who is not going to slip up from time to time. He understands, and I really don't answer to anybody else, so I'm good.
KW: You strike me as even tempered and totally different from on the show, where you always seem to have a very quick trigger. Do you ever try to stop yourself from blurting out an expletive?
TP: I definitely have that mechanism that can decipher right from wrong. But when I'm having a bad day, and you're in my zone, and up in my face, you're going to hear it. Basically, that's what happens.
KW: The Columbus Short question: Are you happy?
TP: Columbus Short … he's cute. Am I happy? You turn on the news, it's trippy. Things are crazy. I don't even remember it being this crazy five years ago. So, yeah, I'm ecstatic. I got my pets, my friends and my family. I'm doing great.
KW: How many pets do you have?
TP: I have my Chihuahua living with me. My mom has my cat, and I'm thinking of adopting another Chihuahua this weekend.
KW: How many kids do you want to have when you find Mr. Right?
TP: Three.
KW: The Tasha Smith question: Are you ever afraid?
TP: Of course. This is life. We had an earthquake in L.A. just last week. You never know what's going to happen. But that fear can actually sometimes be a good thing. I like walking into a place and not know exactly what's going to happen. That's a healthy fear without any anxiety.
KW: That's interesting, because most people probably see you as tough and fearless.
TP: No, no, no, I experience the full range of emotions of any other human. Yeah.
KW: Bookworm Troy Johnson asks: What was the last book you read?
TP: Russell Simmons' Do You! 12 Laws to Access the Power in You to Achieve Happiness and Success. It's a self-help book to get your life together and make it happen.
KW: That's a coincidence. I'm supposed to interview Russell at a CD release party this week. I'll tell him that you said his book was the last one you read.
TP: Thank you. It's a really great book.
KW: What's the most outrageous question a reporter has ever asked you?
TP: If I were really a woman, because of all the hair and makeup and the larger-than-life personality. He said, "That can't be real. You must have some extra business between your legs." I think that was the craziest question I've ever been asked.
KW: How do you want to be remembered?
TP: As a person who encountered life's ups and downs, and twists and turns, and survived it all. I'd like people to remember me as a fighter and a go-getter, because that's who I truly am.
KW: Who are you supporting for president?
TP: Oh come on! Barack Obama! I couldn't shout it loud enough. Seriously, I have to say that I'm so proud of him. I never thought that I would see what he's doing in my lifetime.
KW: Well, Tiffany, this has been delightful, and I'm going to tell my readers that you didn't come close to using foul language even once. Good luck with the show and your career, and I'm eager to see what happens in the upcoming episodes over the course of the season.
TP: Kam, it's been wonderful talking to you. This has been a really cool interview, and I'm glad you're as excited about the new show as I am.
KW: I hope I'll be able to get another interview when you're a big movie star.
TP: Absolutely! We'll definitely have to do this again. Take care
Monday, August 04, 2008 

'Hollywood' is new flavor for 'New York'

By Amy Amatangelo

New York loves VH1. The cable network loves her right back.

Tiffany Pollard, known as New York ever since Flavor Flav gave her the nickname during the first season of "Flavor of Love," returns to VH1 for her third unscripted series tonight.

Instead of looking for love, Pollard tries to make it as an actress in "New York Goes to Hollywood" (tonight at 10).

"The network is so supportive of me," Pollard said. "So they're like, 'If you are feeling like you're ready to act, we want to give you a platform. We want to help you.' Once they figured out that I was serious about it, they totally helped me do it. They went all out for their girl."

Viewers who watched Pollard on two seasons of "Flavor of Love" and the two seasons of "I Love New York" know that she is prone to vulgarity and screaming matches.

"I am actually a really nice person," she said. "A lot of times when I meet people for the first time, I think they are taken back by how warm my energy actually is. Because they watch the shows and they just figure me to be this nasty, angry, negative person. But what it was, is that I had a lot of things coming at me. I had girls to compete with and then I had guys in my house who were there for the wrong reasons. You have to know I got that way because my buttons were pushed. If I'm not on the battlefield fighting any battles, I'm going to put my swords away, so I'm good."

Does that mean viewers see a kinder, gentler New York in her new show?

"There are a lot of ups and downs in the show," she said. "There's times when I lose it and there's times when things are going really great. It's a different fight, but I'm still fighting."

Both her fiance, "Tailor Made" (from the second season of "I Love New York"), and her equally outspoken mother will appear on "New York Goes to Hollywood." But this will probably be the last viewers see of Tailor Made.

"Unfortunately, when he came out to see me, we actually broke up," Pollard said. "So I haven't seen him since then."

She wouldn't say if she lands any acting jobs, but she's not closing the door to doing another reality show with VH1.

"No matter what happens, I will always have time to do another reality show," she said. "Reality is my start. I'll always have a deep love for it."

Monday, August 04, 2008 

Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
She's looking to leap from the reality circus.
By Choire Sicha, Special to The Times
July 27, 2008
TIFFANY POLLARD, also known as New York, came to America's attention on VH1's "Flavor of Love." And "Flavor of Love 2." And then "I Love New York." And "I Love New York 2." Her latest, "New York Goes to Hollywood," hits VH1 on Aug. 4.

So how is L.A. treating you this time around?

You know what? I love L.A. I lived out here before I became famous or whatever. It's good to be back. The weather's perfect every day.

I can shop a lot more than I was able to before. Things are looking good financially. The first time I came out, it was more like play. This time it's more serious, about me work- ing toward my goal: getting this acting thing going.



How does one become an actress?

You know? For real, it's a lot of hard work and dedication. I've been slacking off, sleeping late. You have to maintain your goals, be fit. I'm practicing cold reads, taking acting classes. It's a lot of preparation. I have such a lot of respect for actors and actresses. I didn't know how much went into that career.



Does your reality show history help out there? Or does it hurt?

Honestly, I definitely wanna say, the majority of the time, it helps. Before I walk into the audition, the other people I'm auditioning with recognize me. The casting director recognizes me. I get an advantage. Sometimes I might mess up the read and they let me take it from the top.



This new show sounds like a different iteration from "Flavor of Love." There's probably less brawling.

Well! I don't want to paint this perfect picture now. There's times when I lose it. When I'm making a transition it's usually not an easy thing. I don't like change! I had to make a lot of changes, with my life, on the show, the cameras rolling. I do lose it.



I feel bad when I watch reality TV sometimes.

Uh-huh. You get that feeling like, where do you go from here? That feeling. Because it's almost like, what's next? The thing I want people to know the most is before I went on reality TV, I always had a dream to become an actress. What reality TV did to help me was make a name for myself.



You have been on, like, six of them, if one counts "Charm School"?

Oh, my goodness. Wow. Yeah, I been floating around for a while. It just happened so fast! It's been three years since I been on and off television. Time flies, when you're making money on TV. I love reality television.



I do too, but I wonder if I like it because I see people acting ways that I keep myself from acting. You know?

OK. Yeah, I do! But those people can be a lesson on how not to act.



Yeah, but then why do I want to watch it?

Because it's addicting. Like, the same with me, like, I swear, oh, my goodness, I have to stop TiVoing all these reality shows! But I still do it.



What are your favorites?

Right now, I'm not even going to lie to you. I'm so caught up with the move and everything. I have my baby here with me. I haven't been watching TV.



I remember "Charm School" really vividly. It had a whole subtext, guided by Mo'Nique, both about black self-representation and about being a good young lady, quote-unquote.

Well. You know. There is such a thing as being a good young lady, quote unquote. But you can't clump everybody into one box. Different women are going through different things in different parts of their life. You might get someone who hates you on the street, but you don't know what she's going through in her life. This lady might be hurting! For Mo'Nique to basically paint everyone this one perfect picture, she's crazy and I want to know what planet she lives on.



Also, you've said you're no one's role model.

Oh, hell no! I'm the first to admit that I'm a work in progress. I can improve every day. Also in the progress that I make, I can go backwards a few steps. Don't watch me; do your own thing.

On those shows, did you ever feel like a circus freak?

Honestly, I have to say, ever since I was a little girl, I wanted to be an actress. Being in front of the camera felt so natural. Only -- I think I did have to get used to being barricaded, locked down in the house, no TV, no cell, no Internet, all that stuff.



That's what they do before stuff airs?

While we're shooting, it's like all those luxuries we don't think about are taken away from you. It's not easy.



So I loved "Charm School," but it was also like sort of conservative. I felt like the message was white America shouldn't look at black people acting badly.

Oh, yeah. Basically, I feel the same. Like she was trying to give those hints. Making it a white-black issue. But Mo'Nique is crazy! White girls shake their asses too. It's every race. She's trying to get down on these girls for how they dress and how they act. I know some crazy white people too! She was trying to make it seem like we were looked down on by white America because we fit the stereotypes. I didn't agree with the message she put down there. She wasn't trying to embrace these girls on an individual level. She was doing this broad thing.



How deep is your relationship with VH1?

You know what: I have, of course, such a deep relationship with VH1. This is the network that gave me my voice. They continually treat me like royalty.



I hear from reality stars sometimes that they feel used or burned, but that hasn't happened, I guess.

No! I tell everybody what happens is, people go on reality shows and regret what they did. But nobody makes you do anything! You're free to be whatever you are! Then they want to blame the network. That makes no sense.



You are 26. What is 46 going to be like?

Oh, boy: 46. You know what, my goodness, that's a great number. I see myself making macaroni and cheese, having three babies, two boys and one girl, going on vacations. And definitely still acting. I wanna be active when I'm in my 40s, loving life and doing things.
Saturday, December 30, 2006 

Current mood:  bitchy

IS IT REALLY SO HARD TO IMAGINE ME AS A NORMAL GIRL?  I REALLY APPRECIATE ALL THE LOVE BUT I AM MORE LIKE YOU THAN YOU KNOW. I AM NOT A ROLE MODEL BUT IF YOU WANT TO TAKE EXAMPLES FROM ME AND COPY MY STYLE LET's START WITH THE FACT THAT I'M A GO GETTER WITH A SPIRITUAL BACKROUND, COMMITTED TO WHAT I BELIEVE IN AND FOCUSED ON MY GOALS...I'M NOT AFRAID TO SHOW MY FEMININE SIDE WHILE SO MANY YOUNG LADIES TODAY WANNA ACT HARD AND MEAN, AFRAID TO SMILE...  OH AND I'M SO CONFIDENT AND COCKY..

YEAH BABY THAT's RIGHT MAYBE THATS WHY YOU DON'T LIKE ME OR MAYBE YOU COULD FALL BACK AND LEARN A LITTLE SOMETHING FROM ME AND USE IT IN YOUR OWN LIFE TO SUCCEED IN WHATEVER YOU SET OUT TO ACHIEVE...

IS IT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND THAT i AM ALOT LIKE YOU? I WASN'T AN ASPIRING ACTRESS WHEN I TRIED OUT FOR THE SHOW..I BROUGHT REALNESS AND THAT'S WHY I WAS CALLED BACK TO MAKE FOL2 HOT AGAIN...I'M GONNA HIT YOU UP HER EVERY NOW & THEN BUT FOR NOW JUST WATCH MY NEW SHOW...