Where have you gone?

The title of this blog is in reference to me. I am a fuckface who doesn't deserve anything in this life. I'm a terrible friend, a cold and callous human being, and just a downright bad person. I've let down those that matter most to me. I really wish that I could wake up from this nightmare and that everything could be okay. But reality is a cold and cruel bitch and I know that all of this is real. Please reconsider if you look on me as a friend. You don't deserve to put up with it. I'm sorry to everyone for being.

Could you laugh about it? I know that I could live without it all. Vengance is swift and sweet and sure. So insecure. You will grow to love me even if it kills me. Do you laugh?

Are you one of us, flying blind?

Ice cream snow trees and ballons. I should go see you in June...

Hello one and all! I hope everyone is doing well this fine evening. Not much on my mind so I figured this would be a good time to blog!! Well, I guess there is something on my mind...this has been the worst, most non-relaxing vacation that I've ever been on. For starters, I went to work on my third day. I was told it would be something important, so I volunteered to go in for an hour or so. It turned out to be a complete waste of time. I've lost all respect for the management at my store, but more importantly, I've lost all trust as well. I'm not a perfect employee by an means, but I do put forth my best effort and take things like INTEGRITY, ACCOUNTABILITY, and TRUST very seriously. Those three things are extremely lacking at my store right now. So in reaction to this, I've decided to take a new approach towards my day to day interaction at work. I will no longer participate in any playful banter with anyone or group. I will maintain a 100% business only attitude. And I will not, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, TRUST THE WORD OF ANYONE EVER AGAIN! I work under this false veil of "TEAM" and putting the "TEAM" before the business. This is a big misrepresentation! It is, in fact, an outright lie! For those of you who I'm close with, please do not take offense to my new attitude. It is not directed at any one person. It's the only way I'll survive. I'll still be your friend outside of the business environment. I just refuse to let my guard down in front of management. I apologize for this long-winded entry, but I had to get this off my chest (although I'm not sure if myspace is the best outlet)...haha! a joke....

RS

p.s.- I forget the rest!

HOMEWORK SUCKS!

So normally when I get home from the movies I usually just throw my stub in a tray on my desk. So I thought it would be fun to look back at all the movies I've seen in the last year! The number of stubs I found is 29 dating back to 10/2007. That's a little more than 1 movie every two weeks. From what I remember, I watch a lot of crap. Let' see how much....

10/19/2007
30 Days of Night- Watching this one felt like 30 days of hell!

10/24/2007
Across the Universe- I had high hopes going into this one because I love Beatles music. The good news is that I still love Beatles music?

10/26/2007
Saw IV- I should've learned my lesson from the previous Saw movies. I didn't! Is it true there's going to be Saw V? Shoot me now please!

11/02/2007
Bee Movie- Took my nieces to see this one. It wasn't bad! It's nice to know that Ray Liotta is still remembered by some!

11/02/2007
American Gangster- Two movies in one day? Hmm. Anyways, this one was actually pretty good. I hear they're making a sequel. Only Russell Crowe is being replaced by Russell Crowe and Denzel Washington is being replaced by Leonardo DiCarprio. It will be called American Departed!

12/07/2007
Hitman- God I wish someone would've put a hit on me before I gave 2 hours of my life to this one!

12/21/2007
Walk Hard- Nothing bad to say about this one. It was hilarious!!

12/26/2007
National Treasure: The Book of Secrets- Nick Cage realizes that no one likes his movies yet he continues to make them!

01/26/2008
Meet The Spartans!- Yeeeeahh....about this one....what can I say? I'm a sucker for bad spoof movies.

03/12/2008
Semi-Pro- Does anyone remember when Will Ferrell was funny? I don't.

04/06/2008
Superhero Movie- see "Meet the Spartans"

04/19/2008
Forbidden Kingdom- Jackie Chan? Jet Li? It had to have been good, right? WRONG!

04/30/2008
Harold & Kumar: Escape From Guantanamo Bay- The funniest movie of the year (if you don't mind racist jokes and stereotypes)!

05/02/2008
Iron Man- All I have to say is that Tony Stark is a P.I.M.P!

05/10/2008
Speed Racer- This is the best the Matrix guys could do? It's been 5 years since the Matrix! I'm surprised the 3 people who saw this movie didn't suffer from epileptic seizures!

05/17/2008
The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian- Although they butchered the book, they made a pretty good movie out of it.

05/22/2008
Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull- Aliens? Really....aliens?

05/31/2008
The Strangers- I wish I could make a living making movies where no plot is required.

06/06/2008
Kung-Fu Panda- This one was really good! Despite Jack Black...

06/09/2008
You Don't Mess With the Zohan- Adam Sandler movies have become part of our everyday life like Global Warming.You know there's a problem yet no one really wants to do anything about it and it's easier to just deny that it's there.

06/13/2008
The Incredible Hulk- Redemption!

06/16/2008
The Happening- It's been 2 months and I'm still waiting for something to happen! It can't be the wind....it can't be!

06/25/2008
Get Smart- Steve Carell is starting to become very predictable in the roles that he chooses. Not bad but not great.

06/27/2008
Wall-E- Another pixar gem!

07/05/2008
Hancock- My life isn't complete until Will Smith has his cliche on the verge of tears scene in all his movies. Independence Day, I Robot, I Am Legend....

07/11/2008
Hellboy 2- More like Pan's Labyrinth 2

07/18/2008
Batman: Dark Knight- Only Bruce Wayne is more pimp than Tony Stark! This one was outstanding. But seriously, why does Christian Bale make his Batman sound like he's got gravel in his throat? He sounds like Animal from the Muppets!

08/06/2008
Pinapple Express- Right behind Harold & Kumar in funniest of year! Red is my new favorite movie character ever!

08/13/2008
Tropic Thunder- It was as billed. Ben Stiller was Ben Stiller. Jack Black was Jack Black. And Robert Downey acted.

Wow! I can't believe I've seen so much crap! Why do I do it? Why!!! Someone pleas stop me!

RS

although i laugh and i act like a clown/ beneath this mask i am wearing a frown

Hello to everyone in MySpace land! It's been a while but I'm still here. Just here to rant about a couple of things that are really bothering me at this moment...

First:
When you shop at any retail store, please do your best to not be an asshole. Just because some of us work in retail, it doesn't mean that we are less than human. So don't treat us that way. I had a very bad experience with a customer yesterday. Someone decided that because I refused to break a rule and risk my job that it makes me, in her words, a "very rude person". Basically I wouldn't use her sons discount over the phone. I told her that it was against the rules whiles she was apparently calling her son on the phone and in a very rude and awful tone, she told me "DON'T INTERUPT MY CONVERSATION!". Well, she fucked with the wrong employee! I told her that I'm not going to be talked to in that manner and I told her to leave. She complained to my manager and will probably call the corporate office on me. But I don't give a fuck! I'm not going to sell out my dignity for $39.99! Fuck that bitch and fuck anyone who enters a store with a superiority complex! Contrary to belief, THE CUSTOMER IS ALOMOST ALWAYS WRONG! Fuck you if you think that I will ever take that abuse! It's taken me 15 years to realize that there is no hope for society. I see it everyday. People don't respect anything in this world. I can't wait to leave this hell that is retail!!

Second:
Why do college textbooks have to be so fucking expensive? It's going to cost me almost $400 for books this semester! It's only 3 classes! The reason that I go to community college is because I can't afford a 4yr university. So why would they think that I could afford this much for books? I feel like I got raped when I paid for those books today!

Sorry for the long rant. I didn't expect it to be this way, but what are you going to do? Other than that, everything is going okay. If it wasn't for my friends at work I don't no how I would survive! Thanks guys...you know who you are! ;)
Thank you to my non-work friends! You guys piss me off a lot, but help to keep me sane!

All right....this has gone on long enough! This is the end....I swear!

RS

you wanna fuck with me, don't fuck with me, cause i'm what you'll be so don't fuck with me/ don't fuck with the bad side of me/ stay away from the bad side of me

So the album has been out for months now, but it is FUCKING AMAZING! Everyone should buy it an listen to it!!

That is all...
RS

I've no idea what I'm talking about/ I'm trapped in this body and can't get out