Sitting here in front of me
still giving me your lies
can't you see the tears
building in my eyes?

one moment you love me,
and say we'll never part.
the next you're off
breaking my heart

How can you sit there
and accuse me this way?
Take a moment to listen
to everything we both have to say.

The pain is so deep right now
but you keep going on
I guess it's true what i feel,
our love is truly gone.

I really care for you baby
can't you see that's true?
and no matter what happends,
Remember i forever belong to you.

With these bare walls all around
One window with the light peering through
Sitting alone in the still
with only my mind on you.

Wondering what's on your mind,
what dreams live on so deep
wishing to be involved
in your quiet restful sleep.

Seeing you in mind day by day
wishing to be alive in your heart.
but we live in different worlds
and by mistakes we are set apart.

Needs are my strength
not knowing what life will unfold.
Wanting love and someone here,
but yet you i still can't hold.

Bare walls hold me here,
the light only in my heart
to be with you once again
and never again to part.

Dressed my wounds with alcohol so the sting would remind me there was significant reason to keep grudges
Pouring out this baby with bath water was the biggest mistake made time gives nobody in life second chances
Blessed by a higherpower and karma when it came to breaking laws and appearing before merciless judges
Scoring Benzos that's been known to leave those who chase it feverishly either dead or in trances

Stashing limbs in stored luggage, I fucken had it necktie high with the haters
Steam rolling over their bones until the fuckers disintegrate without any trace
Shredding unidentified strangers integrity with sharpened, stainless, grators
Disposed of like snagged bait, the ocean floor becomes yer final resting place

Tye dyed tourniquet tightened around the jugular vein of all this world's users
Anything 2 escape realities cruel truth from street dealers and hardware stores
Inhalants,stimulants, opiods, barbituates, benzos, and alcohol for the boozers
Nothing can fufill this empty void so the time has arrived now 2 even old scores

Pinned beneath the wheels satiating hate with loud blood curdled screaming
Capturing hunters and trappers in their snares my type always "flys by night"
Fixing whats already been broken only exists inside minds that are dreaming
Marking every last enemy for death from an unreachable, an invincible height

Holding ground barely existing while ignoring the loud tick of a cheap old clock
Nothing matters anyways when you've been hated by most on a shitty planet
Raked over societal coals, being lead 2 death becoming slaughtered livestock
Given up on chasing dreams now I'm treading my own shit miles deep, damnit

Wilting since birth, lacking sustained nutrience, suffereing psychological neglect
Waving red flags until I'm dead, unclaimed at a hundred in some lost and found
Banished from my own hometown alienated by man like some kinda tribal reject
I'm currently locked away, that don't mean you can't disappear without sound

 

 

 

 

YES, I actually wrote this.

When I was locked-up, I mailed it to a friend. She just gave it to me. Holllahh~~~