wow, so much has happened just with in a couple of days its unreal.... nothing like having the one you love tell you they love another after they sit there and tell you that no other women can compare to you, not even their own mother..... to sit there and be with you because they feel they owed it to you.... to say they need you in their life and they realized that they fucked up the 1st time and will do what ever it takes to get my trust back and possibly even me back... i dont understand, if im such a great person and i did nothing wrong, then it leaves me to wounder wtf is wrong with you?! i thought you had changed, well you have but not in the ways you really need to.. you tell people that they need to let go of the past when you cant even do it yourself.. a bit hyprocritical to me... why even decide to bring me into my life if im just gonna get thrown right back out about 2months later?? it just amazes me how you could sit there and not only tell me but another friend how bad of a person she is, how you want her to die, to die by you... that you could never possibly be happy with her because of the type of person she has become from when you 1st met her... you make no god damn sense!!! all i know is if things go wrong (again) dont expect me to welcome you back with open arms... im not gonna put myself through that again... i cant handle it, plus i dont need it.. if anything i can thank you for giving me the kick in the ass i need to get my life on track... but thats about it... not for the memories, cuz all they will bring me is sorrow..... i saw what kind of a future we could of had together.. it was beautiful. nothing but happiness n full of love n life.... well i hope your happy with the path you have chosen... the best of luck to ya buddy ol' pal!!!


"And I'm here to remind you, of the mess you left when you went away, It's not fair, to deny me of the cross I wear that you gave to me, you oughta know"