The atrociousness
of your obnoxiousness
has smothered every inch of mellow,
crystal musing, i become so shallow
And your inescapable presence,
I loathe,
and your very existance
makes me cringe beneath my clothes.

I remind myself I only have a few more hours to endure your helish torture
the way u make me feel like i'm sum kind of creature
so immortal, and so discusting
"u only have a few more hours to bear it" i keep persisting
But I can't help cringing inwardly a the thought of it
cringing beneath my skin
no matter how hard i try i cnt win
i'm ugly inside out
i'm clawing, scratching at the walls but i cnt get out
cant stand one more second of being here with u
and make me feel like shit
i fucking hate you............
I’m almost crying evry night alone in my room Cuz I’m torn
U dnt kno that I’m fading
Still telling myself that evry rose has its thorn
Its been a while since I pushed that blade in
But I’m still feeling imprisoned
Looking 4 a way to kiss the pain goodbye
But my lips are poisoned
Cuz I seem to kill evrythin I touch evrytime I try
And I cnt seem to find out y they drive me insane
as they fuck with me
Insecurities growing stronger, anger scratching at my brain
Constantly tortured mentally,
I’m trying to find a motive for what they do
Light at the end of the tunnel grows darker
they’re pushing me bak to despair evrytime I make it through
there’s no use anymore in making things right
that glimpse of hope in my eyes is already dead
as I fall into the shadows of despair
becoz of u,
u fuck me and everything up, u dnt even fuckin care
u av no right 2 put me through all u put me through
makin me feel so ugly, like u cnt c all da good things
makin me feel like shit, like I’m nothing compared to u
u jus point out all my flaws
and wen I try to leave ur shit behined
u close all da doors
everything u say to me, takes me 1 step close 2 the edge
and I’m about to brake…
everything u say 2 me takes me 1 step close to the edge
how much more u think I can take?????????????
U all hate me 1 minute then subtly make me feel like shit wen ur secretly hating
I’m nothing around u, nothing compared to anyone else
But you don’t know that I’m braking
And you expect me to love myself !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!