well, got engaged last saturday the 10 of april. smart? idk yet. i thought it was at the time. i mean i truely love her with all my heart but it seems like something is not right. it just feels like she keeps alot of things from me. i know that i am not the most open and sharing person in the world, but when she gets mad at me for not sharing and then does the same it kinda makes me think that there is something going on. we are moving to little falls the first of the month, maybe that will help me calm down a bit. she just bought a new car that i am not allowed to drive even though i am the one paying for it, go figure. i got to drive it the other day only because she felt bad for me i think. its things like that, that make me think there is something, or someone else going on in her life. like i said i am not the most open or even honest person in the world, but practice what you preach. if she wants me to be open more than i think she should do the same. dont you?? now about the not being totaly honest part, yes i lied to her. i told her that i graduated high school when in all acuality i dropped out in the 10 grade. why did i do it? idk. just one of those things i guess. i knew she would eventually find out, which she did just recently, im glad she did. i dont think she trusts me much anymore, expected though. the only reason i lied about it is because im ashamed of it. other than that ive been completely honest with her. i dont think she has shared the same honesty. i hope she has but its hard to think that with everything that goes on. well thats enough of that for now. ttyl