HOW AM I STILL ALIVE!?!? (Hart)
The knives of sunlight disect my eyes
Such a cruel way to convince me to rise
On this day that should have never come
I've seen it all, yet I'm somehow suprised!
You can find the meaning of life in anybody's measly breath
So now I'm more mystified about the meaning of death
And how
Am I still
ALIVE!?!?!?!?!?!?
THE SPELL HAS LIFTED (Hart)
Where I once saw a magic city
Was just a mirage, fooled like many before me
It was a desert before, where nothing could grow
Except that big delusion we just won't let go
Arrived so wide eyed my face began to disappear
I wondered why I never tried that mask with the tear
So I became every single thing that I ever feared
Obsessed with the mirror, making sure I was still here
But the spell has lifted...
The kingdom's blood is dependant on a game
Where the foolish flood the gates for fleeting fame
But they'll never know they have the wrong last name
Now aren't you wondering why the hell you came?
And everytime I find my new favorite place
They tear it down in their infamous unsacred ways
And after they make sure it's history is erased
Everyone's dumbfounded by the scowl on my face
Well, the spell has lifted...
They invaded my street to make some bad movie
They used my building for the housing projects scene
Somebody got beat, then somebody screamed
Then I realized I was acting in their movie for free
And I was forced to play with people that I hate
Or sit in the shadows and wait and wait and wait
And one time I did, and I couldn't escape
And I started to believe that it was too late
But the spell has lifted....
YOU WILL SURRENDER(Hart)
This tightrope is made from the same string
You tied on me in order to bring
Luxuries I could not afford
And every single thankless reward
But darling, don't look so bored
And tell me you're still in love with me
And one day you'll surrender to me
Like a child sick of all it's toys
You've stopped responding to my voice
But I would have gone on forever
A trip down a pit for a feather
Cause I've always been much better
At defining eternity
And one day you'll surrender to me
I thought love would conquer all
Even when we hit the wall
But as I lifted up my feet to climb,
You glared at me, whispering
"This is the last time."
I kissed a stranger just to convince me
We've been severed permanently
But as I tried to pull her close
My hands, they just dropped and froze
Cause I felt like I was cheating
Our love to me is still bleeding
And one day you'll surrender to me...
I remember every single fine line in between
Contrasted against your own denial of everything
My heart is broken while the rest of me's somehow working...
PEOPLE LIKE US ARE EXTINCT (Hart)
I laugh how these streets turn back to tar, under heat
And try to swallow us with a taste for rare meat
The faceless crowd gathers to shout obscenities
As we're forever burned into their memories
And when they study our skulls
They'll realize we never blinked
People like us are extinct
The insecure mob grows as the forboding storm
Covering everything until it's one giant oppressive form
Crushed to the farthest corners we unzip our skin
In an attempt to show the wild mess within
And our lives will be cut short
But our legacy is distinct
People like us our extinct
The mosquito royalty
Will steal our identity
And claim it just fell out of a tree
And they get it wrong, always
But we're all gone, in a blaze
Of such storied, ever-fleeting glory
You can't embrace the abyss, babe
With out being born from it's brink
And people like us are extinct
WE WERE STARING AT THE STARS (Hart)
With how fast she switches gears
She must have had this planned all along
OH BRAVO! What a smooth transition
Overacting in some endless audition
But I knew true authenticity
Countless nights in her night terror wakes
Begging me to hold her close
This death-grip, one of the many forms our loving takes
And I alone know how you were meant to be known
Unafraid to have your skin chewed right off the bone
Yes, those were the nights
On the cliffs, looking up, afraid of heights
We were staring at the stars
While the ground crumbled beneath our feet
Is this how you prefer to be?
A bit counterfit, flaunting your vacancy
We dug deep for the holy
Perhaps that's why
You always came back to me
But now your wiping away your footprints
And it's only because you're dragging your feet
And these shallow impressions?
You won't need them to find me
The names on this city's will were ours
Until they read us the fine print beneath
And some men think they've had you pinned under some silly orange tree
But I've had you in a nurse suit
Deep in New Orleans
Where I made you scream true
Back when I made you scream clean
I'M MY OWN DOCTOR (Hart)
I'm my own doctor
And I know what to prescribe when I'm feeling blue
I'm my own doctor
Darling, can I be yours too?
Cause you know, I never keep well enough alone
When there's just too many good feelings to be felt
I'm no quack, so there is no cover to be blown
And I'm not doing this for my health
I'm my own doctor
And I'm taking all of my shots in the dark
I'm my own doctor
Doing everything I can to leave a mark
There's remedies that go beyond a human's healing touch
You'll forget you have any hands at all
Remember when we were scared?
Well, we won't care too much
When we willingly dissolve
Now, I'm my own doctor
I've lost all my patients!
TOUGH LOVE (Hart)
I knew we were so young when we made the deal to seal our fate
We'd live each day like it was our last and leave tomorrow to wait
Well, I kept my side of the pact but you paniked and locked our door
And I never had my lover be my mother before
So don't you give me your tough love
Don't try to turn something so sweet into a chore
Don't you give me your tough love
Becasuse this purple heart wouold never dream of declaring war
Just look what you have done, I've turned into your teenage son
Rebeling against my premature disciplinarian
But you're such a textbook case of guilt turning into rage
While I'm gently trying to turn your page
So don't you give me your tough love
I'm trying so hard to see past you crossing arms
Don't you give me your tough love
Just like the day I put my fist through my alarm
And now I'm going to live my life
Exactly like
When you first fell in love with me
I was an animal back then
Now when you pet my skin
You try to skin my hide off me!
So don't you give me no tough love...
SOMEBODY LONELY (Hart)
I'm gonna find somebody lonely tonight
I'm gonna look at them dead right into the eyes
They'll look at me scared
Before I will dare
To spill these guts about how it's been such a long time
Like a man on a meathook, I've been strung up and stripped
And with what's left of this flesh it's not liike me to give a stranger the first pick
But I've saved the last little bit of me just for you
Someone I don't even know but who's paralyzed by lonliness too
You're on your 8th gin and tonic, and you're almost passed out in that thing
And your wild blue eyes have started to cross like a Picasso painting
But I've seen beauty before, obscured by a storm that passes with some patience and guts
And I've had encounters just like this one before that ultimately ends with a kick in the nuts
But please don't be scared
It's like looking in a mirror
One you can always replace instead of going through the trouble to repair
(After the glass is smashed, I will disappear fast...)
THE HONEYMOON LOOP (Eagleson, Hart)
The night is young but always gets old quick
The wine has spilled as we prepare to lick
Our teardrops to gag our screams
But who knows where you'll be?
And it's sad this night is through...
But if there's one thing that's true
It's that we still love you
And if there's one thing that's nice
We should all just close our eyes
Like curtains always save a shaky stage
We've all made a very special noose
Around our necks, but we've luckily kept it loose
To cheat death of this beautiful thing
But still continue to swing
Don't let our mess get in the way of our obsession
We will solemnly swear to pay magnifying glass attention
And it's not so bad to walk on tightropes, going in every direction but the end...
BLINDTIMES (Hart)
Wide awake in blindtimes
With our arms oustretched in vain
Howling in blindtimes
Screaming down the opposite lane
Oh these are blindtimes
So we're all wearing shades
Bring on the blindtimes
Before the memory fades
So easy to bear the blindtimes
When you know
When you know
You'll never see again
Blindspots in blindtimes
Seem to remain like a stain
Proud, lost in blindtimes
Sight shorted by sideways rain
Alive in blindtimes
Who needs eyes in their face?
I'm stickin' out my tongue
Parading all my bad taste
And somewhere in all these blindtimes
There's a secret shortcut to heaven
And against our better judgement
We chose to walk a crooked path
And the second you don't just love it
Is the second you feel it's wrath
Just gaze into these blind eyes
And you'll see they're bottomless
Backstroking in these blindtimes
I
Will
See
You
In the deep end...
THESE FLEETING MOMENTS (Hart)
You don't look at me
The way you used to look at me
What the hell are we living for, dear?
Just to create new memories?!?
These fleeting moments we share
Always escape from me
Like A Bullet from a cold gun
Penetrating a warm body
Just consider the source I was born from
You'll know that there's no stopping me
From these fleeting moments, beware
Of trying to take them from me
In these moments there's no second to save
They drip past our hands and go right down the drain
Suspend every word I say
While I derail this train.
Moments of reflection
Show me what I don't want to see
The face of such a boiling brooding
When all I want to do is freeze
These fleeting moments don't care
About our epiphanies...
CHEAT ON YOUR NEW LOVER WITH ME (Hart)
Remember how easy it was to break somebody's heart to be with me?
And remember how simple it was to make me cry like a baby
When you left me for another...
I know the world's my oyster now but I have such a hard time escaping
The thought of you as the pearl
Oh all the other girl's are just cunts
And you owe it to me just this once...
Cheat on your new lover with me.
And now I get to run around town, looking just as sharp as a knife
While you have decided to put a lid on your own life
In the form of a walking fraud
And I want to open you back up babe, anyway I can for old time's sake
And I'll let you run right back there, half-naked for him to see
Then I will disappear, just like God
Cheat on your new lover with me...
UNTITLED (Hart)
I thought that I knew torture 'till
It made a wishbone of my will
It was so sly and slow-burning
Oh my God, what is happening?!?!
That dizzy familiar feeling
I thought I'd never feel again
And she's standing right beside me
But I'm not supposed to do anything....
Where her bad reputation lies
I saw a softness in her eyes
I know it's a sight she's saved just for me
Those times we snuck off into the night
And now my heart's so full
And I'm trying to deny it all
But it started with her in the hospital
When I just couldn't do anything...
It's so impossible
Now not to want this girl
The stupidest thing in the world
When two lovers can't show their true feelings....
(Do You Think We're Gonna End Up In) SKID ROW? (Hart)
Well I'm sorry I punched that hole in the wall
But the landlord raised the rent
And that's just fine cause drinking cheap wine
Is the way we'll deal with it
Do you ever think, dear
What's the difference between us and the bums!?!
We're all self-medicating and living off of crumbs!!!
Nothing will ever chance the way I love you so
But do you think we're gonna end up in Skid Row?
One day they decided our shithole could be
Too good for us
They want to kick us out so they can finally
Fix it all up
One foot in the grave, babe
The other tappin' to the beat
And what's left of us gets left out in the street
Until Hell itself, where are we supposed to go?
I hear there's free rent down in Skid Row...
CONSPIRACY IN YOUR EYES(Hart)
There's two spiral staircases I'm teetering down
Your eyesockets I'm trying to get to the bottom of
The stare that goes nowhere but makes my stomach drop
Down a hundred likely stories, aimed straight for my gut
And what a perfect time!
All my insides past their prime
The air is so thick but it's clear for once outside
I wish I could say the same for your mind
There's a heaviness in the air tonight
From the conspiracy in your eyes
I used to know you like I knew every hole in the wall
But I'm a man I'm not a mouse and you're a cryptic babydoll
Your image starts to fade, you're an eternal sillhouette
And nothing is revealed except you eyes becoming wet
And my mouth's been so dry
But I'm not thirsty for a lie
If only tears could leak inside
But you just can't make a cold statue cry
DISCARDED ARMS(Hart)
Just take a look at these discarded arms
Too weak to strangle, or to even strum
I've been left with the taste of my own careless haste
And if you think I;ve abused the moon
Just see what happens to the sun
When I draught those fertile fields
Making your skin easy to peel
When I condemn it as a lyer
That coward ball of fire will hide again
There's a black hole between these discarded arms
They stole the work from God
The fires and the flood
But now their work is done
And they're waiting for YOU dear
To hold you now
Oblivious
In blissfull ignorance
To the beating death drums
Echoing on and on...
And as night falls like an anvil on our heads
I vow to never rest till it swallows up the West
We're two bitter pills that could never be refilled
But the night's holding me under it's tongue...
IT WAS NICE TO BE LOVED (Hart)
Don't try to look for anything I'm trying to prove
In the way I try to screw anything that moves
And don't try to say I've lost all my morals
When my path has always been so un-floral
And you've never taken one single step down it in my shoes
There was a time that was so bright it made a blinding glare
That was the time I somehow still had the guts to care
But you can't say I never had any love in me
When I'm empty from giving some to everybody
Instead of just one single woman on a double dare
But it was nice to be loved
And it'd be so nice to be loved once again
I cannot help it if my imagination won't lie
I cannot help if I'm the world's farthest gone guy
I entertain thoughts of bloody passion
Where everybody gets their very own ration
But I still walk home alone, cursing the sky!
It was nice to be loved, so then
It'd be nice to be loved once again...
WHAT DID YOU DO (WITH MY GUN)? (Hart)
Well it was here
And now it's gone
Things come and go
But this seems so wrong
These things don't just get up and walk away unless they're in their owners possession
I know you hated to look it in the face
But you hated it, even
In it's hiding place
And now I fear I should have never introduced you to my Mom
Don't you dare tell me it just disappeared to where all our stray socks go
I just want to know
What did you do with my gun?
Oh, and what nerve! To blame it on the gardeners again!?!?
How many times have I heard you blame it on all my naughty friends
Well I don't wanna call the cops
And I don't want to change the locks
Cause everybody knows the theif is always the one with the mop
Pretending they're well-meaning when they just got done cleaning
Every last trace of their own slime trail
And didn't I agree when you said it serves no purpose other than to kill?
But one day you will see I am a man of the highest strength of will
If you would so kind to disregard my kaleidoscope of vice
It just would be so nice
If I knew
What you did with my gun
And what did I say to you and the gun shop guy?
"NOW, WE WILL NEVER DIE!!!!!"
I AM FUCKING CRAZY (Hart)
This is my heart's confessional
It's better you know now than a year down the the road
That way you cannot say you were never told
Sit down, but don't get too comfortable
Just in case you want to sneak out the door
I've seen that reaction before
Cause I am crazy
I am fucking crazy
Now that you know, what are you gonna do?
I just can't be cared for enough
I just assume that's the way the rest of the world works
So I will kiss anyone until their lips hurt
There's always a price to fall in love
So be prepared to pay with your own sanity
That's how it always works with me
Cause I'm crazy
I am fucking crazy
Now that you know, what are you gonna do?
While it started with a kiss
It still remains such a risk
As the wounds of my past
Fall apart stitch by stitch
And my name in your little red book will turn up on your blacklist
If you want to save me, then maybe you're nuts
But I don't think that you've got the guts
To be crazy
I am fucking crazy
I wouldn't wish me on my worst enemy...
CRIME SCENE (Hart)
When you're thrown to the lions
Your skin must be tougher than their teeth
But when the gutter sticks out it's tongue
You just lap up it's drool in the street
Our own shadows are trouble enough
And we may never be redeemed
But does it have to be a....CRIME SCENE!?!?
There are no angels in this gang
You can't take us anywhere with out a leash
Vultures will squak mockingly
Should any of us have the bad taste to preach
But you turn us diamonds right back into coal
Everytime you play the fiend
Does it have to be a....
Someone's read too many comics or seen too many bad movies
Someone does not realize just how scary real life can be
And now this rebel has lost all his meaning
WHEN WE'RE TOGETHER (WE LET OURSELVES GO) (Hart)
We've known each other for so long
We've seen each other in so many other lover's arms
Now we reach for each other but away from what makes us whole
When we're together,,,
We make each other feel so immortal
So the closer we get
The quicker we get into trouble
Now you've got a black eye and I can't get off of the floor
When we're together...
We see in each other things that no one should know
Proving the world wrong
Through sex, wine, and song
That there's no tomorrow
While every resolution went right out the window
When we're together...
Remember how witty we were
When we actually tried?
Now we're just merely content to hide
Remember how pretty we were?
Exposing all our insides
Now I'm afraid the best part of us has died...
REMEMBER!!!
You were alone when I fell for your rogue spirit
I thought I would die if I could not possess all of it
Smothering each other's fire that once made us glow
When we're together
We let ourselves go
We're closing out the rest of the world!
As we just stay shivering in our dark corner!!!
I THOUGHT YOU WERE SOMEONE I KNEW (Hart)
Excuse me, but you have the same exact hair
Looking through me, with that same deer-in-headlights stare
But to make this mistake once
Should not warrant that kind of response
I was only reminiscing about the love I believe we shared
I just thought you were someone I knew
Won't you please pardon these open arms just hangin here
I just thought you were someone I knew
You know how they say everyone's got a lost identical twin?
Well this is not the first time I have seen hers again and again
But the biggest difference
Is the cold irreverence
Frozen over every crevice of hers I liked to jump in
I just thought you were someone I knew
Talking to me like you're someone's rude secretary
When I thought you were someone I knew...
...and I knew it was you all along!
All these streets have sure changed
But our weathered statue faces remain
But you..
You won't give me the time of day!
You head lived in my collarbone and my hands lived around your waist!
I just thought you were someone I knew
We took a trip to Hell and lived to tell it's secrets
I just thought you were someone I knew!