...and maybe I'm just feelin' a little isolated since my family and most of my friends are out of state...and most of my local friends have been distant (or most likely, busy), but it seems like this time of year brings it out all the more. 

Or maybe I'm just barking up the wrong trees...again.  Expecting more from some people than they are prepared...or capable...of sharing.  I have other friends.  I socialize and attend dinner parties and other social gatherings.  I have spiritual mentors and friends I can call upon for help, emotional support, and companionship. 

It just seems like some people just don't do what they say they are going to do and for some reason I allow myself to be disappointed by it.  I really ought to know better.  So, why do I keep putting myself in that position?  Why do I place that level of importance on some people and not others?  And why are my choices in trusting so miscalculated? 

I dunno, maybe I still have trouble accepting that people are what they are...just as I am what I am.  I can see in the rush of words flooding my mind, that I am wanting more...more out of life...more out of relationships....more out of friendships.  It's as if there's a void that is still seeking something to fill it, even though I know that there is no void...that I am complete.  So what is this yearning?  This expectation?  This feeling that something is missing?

Of course, I don't really expect any answers...I'm just trying to get some of this stuff out of my head so I can sleep tonight...

Yup!  There's no doubt about it...Winter is movin' in!  What happened to Fall??  The leaves are just now starting to turn...and there's Winter Storm Warnings going off all over the place....with some predictions of 9" of snow over the next few days!  Yipes!!  Guess I won't be riding the motorcycle this weekend...

But, that's okay...I'm going into hypermode for cleaning and interior painting.  My goal is to have it all done by Thanksgiving....  Now, I know I've not been all that good at keeping to my own schedules when it comes to these sorts of things...but I am really making a concerted effort this time.  I'd like to have it all done for the holidays this year.  So...keep yer fingers crossed for me!

Yesterday's sudden thunderstorms were so strange...one minute it's sunny and warm and a moment later, lightening is snaking across the sky and raindrops the size of walnuts are plummetting towards the earth!  It was an amazing thing to see and experience...and reminds me so much of our daily lives.

Sometimes it seems as though the tumultuous storms in our lives come out of nowhere, wreak havouc on our emotions, and just as quickly leave....leaving debris everywhere.  But like the atmospheric thunderstorms, we must remember that the accompanying rain serves an important purpose and will nourish our souls whether we realize it or not.  You just have to pause, allow the tears to seap into your being, and go on living your life....

What a bizaare week this has been...and it has only just begun.  Had the last two days off, got a lot done.  Still have a lot to do...but don't seem to be moving very quickly this morning, so I'm playing hooky with the dog for a little while. 

Spent the last two hours wandering around the neighborhood, stretching her legs and letting her visit her favorite cow-friends and the mini-horses out in the pasture behind the house.  I suppose I should get my butt in gear and start preparing for work.  Here's to a swiftly passing work week!

I wonder if my mind will find itself today or will I still be at loose ends this evening?

Sometimes it seems like no matter where you are or what you are doing, there just isn't enough time and there's just too much to be done!  I've never been so exhausted in all my life! 

Taking a Time Out today to get some much needed R&R and the chores be damned!  There's always tomorrow to work on catching up again....

Back to work this morning...or, at least, I will be as soon as I hose off and head that direction!  It was a BEAUTIFUL day yesterday and looks like it's going to be a beautiful week!  It seems like I've got a gazillion things to do this week, so I'm gonna focus on doing whatever is in front of me or think I may become overwhelmed.  Quilts to sew, floors to clean, junk to sort, friends to visit, podcasts to record.......okay...focus....fo-cus!  :)