Ok, so this is a week late... But Halloween weekend was great.

While I did get to dress up (makeshift outfit, not really a costume), and go out two nights in a row, I gotta say that the highlight of the weekend was handing out candy.

I loved it.

I got so excited as soon as it hit the starting time for trick or treating.  I absolutely couldn't sit still for too long because I was so ready to hand out candy.  The first time that bell rang, I sprang up from the couch and practically dove for the door!  I opened it up to a lady in a mask, and a little itty bitty trick or treater in an orange shirt and black skirt standing next to her.  The lady had to say Trick or Treat for the little girl, because she was too young to understand what was going on.  The little one looked like she was old enough to have just figured out the whole walking thing...  Halloween wasn't quite on the "grasped concepts" list yet.

So, as adorable as she was, I let her pick out her own candy.  She reached into the mass o' candy and pulled out two pieces, one in each hand.  Once she had made her choices, she just looked up at me like "Now what?"  She figured she was done there and turned to leave when the lady told her to put the candy in their bucket.  After the little girl put the candy away, she turned back to me, pinching her fingers together with a look that said, "Ok, my hands are free.  I can get more right?" 

She was just soooo darn cute!  There were a couple other itty bittys that came through, and a few older kids (like 8-10yr olds).   I got to be the "cool house" for a couple of groups.  They were astonished at the amount of candy I gave out.  I actually had one kid leave my house staring at his bag with his eyes popping out of his head and his mouth hanging open!  Ha!  It was great!!

So, next year the plan is to decorate.  This year didn't see much in the way of decorations due to the fact that I wasn't sure I would be doing anything for Halloween.  Just can't get in the decorating mood when you can't tell if you have plans or not...  But like I said, next year there will be plenty of decorations!

I have survived the looooong week of work I just had.  10 days in a row.  Bleh.

I finally get a day off tomorrow!!!!  Hell yeah!!!

Ok, so the last tech guy who came out was apparently the guy who set up our cable and internet. (Even though he was the dude who treated me like a little girl and expected me to love Lifetime, he actually was very good at checking everything to make sure it was working.) Now, apparently he did the same thing when he came out to check the internet the other day. Went over everything, double checked, etc. Even gave my bf his personal number and told him to call the next day to make sure things still worked. It also sounds like there have been complaints about the service guys that this guy was pissed about. He said he was going to look into that as well. Of course we've complained, but I'm not sure if there are others. I'm assuming he's getting yelled at for the coworker's stupidity, which is never fun.

On the plus side, we did find out that our neighbors on both sides have been having Charter problems too. Hell, there was another Charter truck outside the house later that afternoon that went next door. HA! So guess what? It was never our problem!! Turns out it was some outside cable that was affecting all three houses. Oh, what's that Charter? Are you crying now that you actually have to accept the blame on this one? Aww, poor little baby… Hope you choke on those tears you worthless piece of crap company. We'll definitely be following up and getting money back over this issue…

And another hearty FUCK YOU Award goes to Charter, winner of both Worst Customer Service and Worst Company Ever categories!  Congratulations on being the biggest assholes out there!

Yeah, have I ever mentioned that I hate that company?  That I absolutely LOATHE that company?  Yeah, such an understatement...

Today's episode in customer service hell began with the tech guy calling to say he'd be here, and then not showing up for almost an hour and a half.  Yeah, waiting for your ass to show up isn't exactly my idea of fun jackass.  Next, after he finally shows up, he proceeds to tell me the same exact bullshit that every dipshit on the phone has told us.  "It's not our problem, it's yours."  What the fuck?  Don't you people ever listen?!?!  It's not my computer.  Other computers and the XBox 360 have the same issues.  It's not our router.  We've checked things when directly connected to the modem and we still have problems connecting.  Guess what? Other people have had issues too apparently, so it's not our fucking fault!  Fix your shit Charter!  At least this time the tech guy didn't treat me like a little kid.  I hate that shit.  "Oh, your a woman? You couldn't possibly understand this technology stuff, let me talk in small words for you and show you where the Lifetime channel is..."  Assholes...

So, once again, congratulations to Charter for employing the biggest douchebags in the country.

At least I got to smile at the fact that the tech guy had to sit by the litter box to change a wire. (Surprise surprise, our fault.  Our wire is bad, theirs is good... Right...)  Hope you enjoyed the shit smell, cuz that's what your company is like.

Today's topic spawns from the fact that I am completely unmotivated when it comes to trying to do just about anything. Gotta get that necklace done? Meh. Gotta update my site? Meh. Gotta buy that music program? Meh.

I have so many ideas in my head that just don't want to materialize. Today's new thing was "I want to look into making a radio show/podcasting." Did I start looking at it? Yes, I did. Did I go through with it? Nope, of course not... This is just one of the many things that I can't seem to follow through with lately. I don't know what it is, but I just can't seem to finish things. I get all motivated to try it and then after a few minutes, it just disappears. It's not like it slowly fades though.  It's there, and then it's just completely gone. I'm then left with a "what's the point" question overwhelming my brain. The podcasting idea was shot down by the "who really wants to listen to me talk" comment that my brain spewed forth.  Sure, I've probably got things to talk about and could maybe have fun with it, but that nagging voice inside my head always screws things up.

sigh.  All I do is sit around and dream about what I could be.  I have potential.  I know that.  I just don't know how to get there.  The whole "radio/dj" thing could be lots of fun, but I always get stuck on the "how to" part.  I mean, the music thing in general is something I've always been interested in.  I used to write a lot of songs (well, poems since there is no music behind them...).  I have actually made music using some simple programs before, and I did have fun with it.  I even made some money with it back in the day.  Not much, but enough credit on the mp3 site I used to buy like three cds.  Music is in my head almost always.  I have a soundtrack.  It's sharing that with the world that's the hard part.  Will anyone like it?  Who knows.  I have to get off my ass and actually start making things and sharing it to find out.  If I made some music, I could then do the podcasting thing and truly have my own radio show.  My music highlighted by my discussion.

Meh.  Why do I always stifle my creativity?  There are so many artsy things I would like to do, but in the end I just sit around and waste time.  At this point, I don't think it's really procrastination.  I guess I'm just too self conscious about it.  Most of my writing and ideas for music and other art have such a personal tone to it.  That makes it hard to share.  It's like I'm scared to put things out there for others to see because then I'm revealing too much of myself.  Plus, I know how the art community is.  Everythings gets critiqued and compared to everything else.  Well, I don't want a critique.  I don't want to be compared.  I just want to be myself.

Now if only I could figure out who I'm meant to be...

Today I had an odd thing happen on the bus during my ride home from work. Now, riding the bus is usually uneventful. It's mostly quiet, except for the few regulars who love to talk to the bus driver, and it gives me some time to chill before I get home.

Today, however, I actually had someone start up a conversation with me. That's a first. Some young guy (18yo I think he said) got on the bus and sat near me and made some comment about the expression I had on my face. I guess he thought I looked sad or something. I was just tired. (Being up at 3:30am will do that to you…) He also turned into yet another person who thought I was younger. He was guessing 20. Yeah, 20+7… Anyway, somehow we ended up having a conversation about "what fun stuff is in town (nothing)", psychics, games, dating, and college. Heh. It was rather random. He seemed like a nice guy, very friendly and it was actually a nice little conversation. What I didn't expect from it was that I was suddenly being asked for dating advice and tips on college life.

Yeah, that's not something that usually occurs on the bus with random people. Not sure why he was asking me for advice, but oh well. Apparently I just look helpful or something.

Note to self:  Stop being such a slacker!

As usual I'm not making much in the way of chainmail...  I've got some nice ideas but never sit down to work on them.  What do I do instead?  Sit around and play games and whine about how I never get anything done. 

I R Smrt!@

Must get to work on that stuff soon... I've got a sterling silver byzantine necklace "in progress" that will get a nice amethyst pendant when it's done.  Should be very pretty.  And shiny!

Ever laughed so hard that you started crying?

I have.  Plenty of times.  Today was just another moment of hysterical laughter.

Why?  Well, today I was reading the forums over on TRL (no, not the annoying MTV show... The Ring Lord. My chainmail materials supplier...).  I get to a post describing the events on Easter at someone’s house.  There are two pictures which show how the son’s candy stash got pilfered.  I laughed so hard at the first picture that I had tears streaming down my face.  It is insanely cute!

Not going to repost the pictures, since they are someone else’s kids, but I’ll give you a link to the post: Chocolately Goodness?

Woohoo!!  Only one more day left at Soap Opera Central!  I’m going to be starting a new job soon and tomorrow is my last day at my current job. I won’t have to deal with the gossipy drama anymore!  I’m excited!

The only thing I will miss there are the people.  Well, most of them.  I’ve met a lot of cool people there and it sucks that I won’t get to see them every day. :(

Today was rather nice.  I actually felt like people cared that I was there.  I didn’t get that feeling at my previous job.  When I quit there, no one even really said bye.  I was just done and moved on.  Never really made friends at that place, so whatever.  Today really made me feel like I was actually going to be missed at the current place. 

I have contact information for most of the cool people so that’s awesome. Such fun, creative, and dirty minded people.  Gotta keep in touch with them. :)  Going to miss the entertaining conversations we usually have. ;)

Tomorrow night is going to be interesting.  Going out after work so we’ll see how much celebrating I end up doing.  As long as I can still walk at the end of the night... I’ll be good. :P

I was bored so I made a song.

What?

Yes, a song.  I have a demo for FL Studio which is a music making program.  I was playing around with it tonight and the new song on my profile is the result.

It’s fun to think of what I could actually create if I bought the program.  It would be nice to be able to save a project... Actually work on it over the course of a few days or weeks instead of trying to get it done in a few minutes. I’d be able to fine tune things and really explore the features of the program. Possible fun is just a quick order away...