i feel the riverr rushing my cup bubbling, i thought of you , strawberry moon,  living in the tall grass, , stretched out,,,,,,,,  a child, a howlin wind, a thousand words tangeld in dalions den, ,i cant Bdone dreamingyour hair with flowers and fire, the man upstairs callin momma       

baby bee flew away there. .  leave me 

while the water comes ..cover  up, in the lighting cutting  sky> oh when i  die< 

 in the heat of the mud bleeding

before the sun

B the paint > draw out the poisn  

when a town was  acity wild eyed anyoung > i begun > > remeber her the ways s he was

"they" say

the tiger is bitting the fingers thet feed

sugar cube. no one belives    me 

 in my dreams

unable waking

to retrieve

a cloud of birds

before ive seen

where i was before

sleeping dead      horses

wild and free

i's the storm

crying roar, 

fell for the devel in many forms

 he takes on their faces.  

leave wolfs pacing

 breaking a heart like yours

what is

dreaming   old faces    new 

forgettin g  

what is  

 a song 

 singing   sinking  

l ost and lone

   have u seen me ?

 missing 

a stray  no home

scratching n alley s

digging for bones

money and meaning

silver sliver

o

hope

send your angels . . impossible imposter . 

face is stuck ,  mouths open and shut ..

er ec ong niz able ..

f rantic searching ..  

lost     lamb   . kings   fo    men  

lion     diamons 

i   the   demons  .   you    mean by ..   love    

up to my knees  ..  

in a sea  sons end

what is the day what it holds where it goes 

 on and on and on gently down the dream .

oh so full it spills from a hill  the winter widow happy still . my love it is . never gone, oh nthing is .. it just changes its song changes its face it just in a new place its where your music  makes .. you fall to the sea back to a seed ... can you hear it sting in the trees that ring and rise with the tide and break with the wave till jesus  saves ... we re all but a a grain, given a name just a mustard stain.. oh it changes it s shape and the color s it makes .. in a cave .. on the walls . the trupets call going going gone some s mouring the lost .. pawing the dust of f     . sail on ..rise and belong  still ..and  seek   and  seek and im filled ...in love with the lesson,   such a mystery11!

when thsy put me under there was a nurse on my left and right hand confusing me with questions .. distracting me .. asked me .. if i was a dancer .. "not professionally" i almost cryed and wouldve as  they placed sticky monitors onmy chest and tummy hooking me up to the machines tomake sure i was running .. that i might nor be as they put the needle in my inner elboe ..looking out the window .. lord send your angels .. helo teh help the doctor so do his best job good as new .. i dont want to be left with a frozen face .. the nerve .. i jsut want to eat gilt free chocolate ice cream and watch movies and let momma love me .. baby food ... i was maybe dreaming .. or maybe awake .. i could see and hear what was going on in the room while they operated ..i want ed to tell them i was awake and they sould turn up the iv.. and then they were walking me out the back door them and daddy into his monster truck a nd a he couldnt understand me saying sseee eeevvv  sssss  .. and then i say.. after i the swan swollena blooda and cotton " lift facial recondoctor s . lip inplants cheek implants . removal of a third nipple ..." oh and i was probly bleeding fromt the mouth as he took me into CVS for good drugs the girl working there looked at me like i was crazy . as dad held me up and walked me aroung the store while i shopped for fo water .... and then sleep . sleep ... that day and yesterday .... today yes i have thos thivk cheek . loss of my smart teeth .. ay and dull and stiff . coctail salt water jello  . ice head band . cl;assic movie of brad pitt . hot socks .. he musthave been 20 .. vacation .. and no cigaretts  .. oh yes feeling lovley .. reeady to rock on saturday ..

i have found a new peace.. a familiar place ,, all bymy lonesome. safe and dry .. my home my haven sturring soup watching soap smoking while rain s and wind howl outside the tornado swept the house . ruffling feathers passes over .. upside down and backward falling  snowing seeds as darkk as it was the shiningdying grown.. whoa whoa slitlte hearts otut.. what was the word the feelijng wasnt there something we could say to understand the magic or the ma n ... o i m still waitng for that  ship to cme .. cowboys in the wind always ending always beging >>  birds circle my little heart purple .. what is the word .. what is the weather .. what have i been who could i be and then.. and thenn..  and then.. the ened

home home the blue the sailors delight.. teach me alright wont we want bloodred. that. light. the sky tonight to shine... shine down till the mud safest love while the boys leave for higher ground the turkys callin trains holler the skys cloudy... aall day... found my love out there your mind circles... we wind round a whisky smile.. were here for a mile for that song bird child killed quiet lonley and wild.. sleep in a new bed.. derailed... dum da dum.