Of Pyramids and Questions.

The task at hand is for me to question and re-evaluate every line of reasoning (or as many as I can) and every point of conclusion that I have yet come to create.

On the subject of becoming:

If we create ourselves by consciously taking what we admire of others and bringing them into our own lives, how can we be better sooner? How exactly do we undergo this process of making something apart of us and can we at all do it? We become by taking from and by taking we then have. I have, for a long time, believed that we can be anything that we imagine for ourselves at any time from the time that we decide to be it. But it seems to me to be impossible to imagine anything for ourselves without first having an example shown to us. What we can be and what we can do to become once aware of these ‘examples’ can vary in certain amounts. I now understand that the decision to be and the process of copying are two adventures in themselves. The decision must be made constantly and also acted upon. But what is the ratio of final ‘achievement’ of becoming to efforts towards such an action?

What we are is one. The overall co-ordination of the many hundreds of little things that compose us like: persona, attitude, physical compound, sense of reasoning, awareness of consequence, memory, relationship skills, communication skills and so on, work on a level lower than the ‘one’ that we are. Everything fits into a level from the overall ‘one’ down to millions of millions of tiny things (for we are also billions of things) with everything in-between, like a pyramid with varying degrees of denseness  that has every lower point composing the points above it and also, the points above having just as much relevance to the points below. We are described in just one word and also we are talked about in millions. The point at which the example enters the pyramid is proportional to the change it will make.

On the subject of communication:

What is communication to achieve? Two human beings come to an understanding of what something is. But why label something the same between two without reason? Perhaps action is the reason for communication and for labels. Is the most fundamental function of communication to get someone to do something? Inspiration is such (though the term ‘inspiration’ is often referred to the result of communication that is achieved by means of communication that are not as commonly used). It seems now that there is no difference between inspiration and the result of language. Communication relies on a message being coded, sent, de-coded, and then returned to the sender. But surly there must be a reason to communicate and surly that should dictate the nature of its function. I have been long at the conclusion that I send my messages out without the dependence on a return message. Not being able to verify the return message as the result of the first or even if the original message fulfilled its purpose or not, I have submerged myself in the process of ‘original sending’ to the point of total concern for it and total disregard for all other. Perhaps we are able to understand though. Perhaps that is what we must do to communicate. But why strive for communication if we can be sure that we are doing something by sending the messages and yet never be aware of the result?

Language is acquired and developed by doing what others have learnt to communicate to do. Forms of language are never in isolation for there is always someone who does something (or on a lower level something that happens) when someone sends a message. If the English language as I write here on this document is the base of the pyramid then art would be the tip.

On beauty:

Why do we take an interest in things? What indent of a message on our perspective is strong enough for us to pursue an idea or occupation. Perhaps the ‘why’ is not as relevant as ‘what’ in this situation for why or how could we set out to consciously change the waves that arrive on us? We have this drive and for whatever reason it is there and that is the matter at hand. In ‘Love's Labours Lost’ (1588) Shakespeare writes: “Beauty is bought by judgement of the eye” which has since been simplified (or maybe just paraphrased) to the more commonly known phrase: ‘Beauty is in the eye of the beholder’.  So the question is: what do I find beautiful and what am I to do in terms of perusing or attaining this beautiful thing? What we find beautiful depends on the composition of our pyramid and with the consideration of sexuality it seems that biology and other topics that are as deep as biology also form part of the pyramid that makes us up. To think generally (as in the apex tip) on beauty alone is not advised as it is not in any situation or on any subject.  The sex drive is only one part of what a Human is capable of when considering beauty. This is why celibacy can come about as a matter of prioritising the pursuit of what one considers to be beautiful.

The combination of factors that make up our pyramid is what makes us one thing or another. It is also what makes us individual, though a lot of us are similar because of our similar background. Any level of our structure can project beauty from one person to another, implying what the rest of the being may be. Upon investigation (which can be triggered for any number of reasons)   one may find an infinite number of things that are similar, different or irrelevant to either of the sides of participation. Diversity is what makes beauty possible but it is also what makes it difficult to find.

The rare is what I find beautiful. I like people who think in a different way and perceive things from a background that is seemingly removed from the surrounds, though we know it cannot be.

On the process of thinking:

I am aware of the possible fruit abstract thinking can bear because of my past successes. I am also aware of a dangerous trap that is easy to fall into due to the troubles I have had. Circles can arise that turn thought into a non-productive wheel that is forever spinning but never going anywhere. Generalised conclusions and broad observations must work hand in hand with tangible, little and a very real understanding of everyday things. There is always away to step further back and there is always a way to further place multiple branches of thought under one over-all ‘title’ or ‘heading’.  This is not to rule out the purpose of lower level contemplation at all, on the contrary, the extremes of general to detailed are smoothly connected by a perfectly inclined plane. We must be as aware of the tip of our pyramid as much as the base and everything in-between for a line is made of an infinite number of points, and a surface an infinite number of lines, and a solid object an infinite number of surfaces. Working on every point and being aware of every point is the name of the game as well as being able to move to any point from any point.

Questionary.

How many pairs of shoes do you have?

One.

Have you ever caught a duck?

No. But someone I knew once did once and it did a poo on them. Once.

What is the longest gig you have played or seen live?

Lakeside Circus did a 90 minute set once (with no breaks). Some double drummer jams were pretty long too.

What is the longest you’ve been without sleep?

A day, a night, a day and then another night. I slept that morning.

Do you sleep with a teddy bear?

Only if it’s on the pill.

What was your most smart arse moment whilst driving?

When an old lady parked near me as I was going to my car and said: Have I left you enough room to get out?” and I got in the car and reversed at full speed, out of the parking lot onto the street and around the corner and out of sight.

What was your most smart arse moment in class?

When I said: “HOW PROFOUND” at the top of my lungs when my English teacher had finished reading a poem.

What was your most smart arse moment involving alcohol?

When I mooned my friend at the pub and he came over and smacked me on the bum.

Have you ever wiped your arse with a leaf?

Yes, when I was out in the bush camping. It’s important to find the right leaf. Otherwise you can get a rash and that is one place you don’t want a rash.

Have you ever seen a person so sexually attractive that you thought you would cream yourself?

Well yeah, but it was just some beach babe at Cronulla. Who doesn’t like those beach babes? Besides, what’s profound about a hot surfy chick? Nothing. It’s just like: Wow, I want to fuck you. So what?

Have you ever been stranded somewhere without any cloths?

No. But I would like to one day. It’s not the kind of thing you can pre-meditate.

Have you ever seen your friend naked?

Yes. He pulled out his dick and said: “I have a big dick” and so I pulled out mine and said: “This is what a dick looks like when it hasn’t been wanked in 4 months” and he said: “Dude, that’s what a dick looks like normally anyway”.

How far are you from the next water hole?

Too far.

Have you or will you ever make a tee-pee for you to sleep in?

I hope I do one day. Like the lost boys from Peter Pan.

Is that the end of the chapter?

Yes.