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Ok, I'm taking a break from working on my novel just to write this blog so obviously these thoughts are attempting to take over my mind and need to be let out in some form, SO....I will tell you this...I am THE BEST friend you could ever have...seriously..I am.  I will always do anything in my power to keep those I love as safe and happy as I possibly can.  I will give advice, I will lend an ear, I'll call you stupid when you need to hear it but I cannot make your self imposed problems go away, nor will I try.  And the instant I begin to lose respect for you, I will pull away from. 

Difficult as it may be I realize that some friendships cannot last, I cannot allow myself to be constantly drawn into the internal battles other people have with themselves.  I care too much to constantly exert myself and though it may be selfish I will remove you from my life before I allow you to become a poison for me.

I've made the mistake in the past to hold onto those that are obviously poison, and obviously bad for me to be around simply because I loved them, only to be ultimately let down in the end.

I have been through too much, especially in this past year to take on ANYTHING that I don't have to, and I simply won't. 

My main focus right now is to stay sane and better myself so that I may improve my quality of life.  It is not to be a broken record, nor is it to put up with unneccessary abuse of my kindness.

So basically..the point of this is if I have to choose between taking care of you and taking care of me...I pick me...just like you'd pick you.  The only difference is that you would pick you because you see no other option.  I pick me because you you would only bring me down with you, and leave me there even after you move on. 

This may make me sound like a bitch, and no it's not directed at anyone in particular I just feel I need to say it..so friends of the past..friends of the present and friends of the future will know.  I can only help you as much as you want to help yourself, and if you don't want to help yourself, if you don't want to grow...I will not be your friend...period.  And as I've learned...once again...the hard way...people who don't want to help themselves essentially cannot or will not help you when you need them most.

yes...I babble...and yes I'm done...so yay my mind is clear, and my heart is unburdened.

alrighties..haven't done this in awhile but thinking maybe I should...maybe not considering the tequila I have coursing through my veins.  I'm tempted to give a 2008 recap but not only would that be excessively depressing, I'm sure a few more bad things will happen to bitch about before new years so..I'll save it.
For now..I want to bitch about people in general..Why is it that the nice, truly good people like myself always seem to attract the creeps and crazies..no I'm not just bitching about dating..men would be a blog all their own, and might end up being just that if the right person pisses me off, but in general I'm over their bitchery, and will probably steer clear of anything with a penis for awhile....but I always say that.

Really this blog is pointless aside for the fact that I would like some insight into why the bastards of this world seem to be constantly awarded for their douchebaggery whilst people like myself have to struggle to maintain something as simple as friendship, or sanity for that matter.

And what happens to all the bad people at some point in their lives to make them want to treat others like crap?  Furthermore, why are the good ones always making excuses for the douchebags???

Again...pointless blog...but...venting is good I guess...expect more pointless and not so pointless blogs in the future...there may be another tonight if I get drunk enough..or wait..this morning...:-P

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.  If it changes your life, let it.  Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.  

This was sent to me in an email by one of my best friends, and anyone who knows me, and what I've been through lately knows that this message arrived right on time. I figured someone else may need it too.

Well Cinco De MAyo IS Technically over but I wanted to share my intoxication with whoever wants to read this.  Damn margaritas are good.  I got cut off by someone for the first time tonight...tracy declared no more for adriana, but then I snuck some, then I talked them into giving me more. la dee I so should not be typing this blog, it will be pointless.  Do you see a point.  I wonder how thiswould look if I wasn't concentrating so hard on the key pad so I can see when I spell shit wrong.  Damn dude. I probably had 2 margaritas too many....was it like 4 or something....whatever they were pitchers  damn I am gonna stop typing now....GOod night biiiiaaaattccchchchchchchhchcchchchces

 

 

bueno noches

They will still buy you drinks though......but they won't leave you alone until you are rushing out of the door and into your car telling there drunk ass you already gave them your number.  Pointless Blog?  I believe so, but I've still got tequila coursing through my veins...or tummy..or liver ...or whatever...Javier is a nice name, he was the only nice/cute one, the other ones....old perverts.  Has anone evry asked you to blow a bubble with your gum out of perversion.....I felt violated.  I am tipsy.  Tipsy Typing Tipsy Typing......Love Yas.....Peace Ums.ot Drunk but it's the closest mood to Tipsy....Still Can't Wait Till Cinco De Mayo.........I will pray for the hot Mexicans.

Lord.......please let Denise not have to work all day Saturday, and let her find that out tonight so I can buy tickets for the PBR....Lord, please keep the bull riders safe and hot, and with all there bones intact after all of the rides........Oh, and Lord let the country boys that come from places other than Saint Louis have all of their teeth, and lots of cowboy hats,  and Lord please don't strike me with lightning for this prayer.....Amen

SO who thinks Adriana just opened up someone's trick virus infested myspace page...I DO I DO.  Damn being a leo......WE'RE BIG ASS CATS........WE WILL DO DAMN NEAR ANYTHING JUST CUZ WE WANNA KNOW.......ANYWAYS, I dont feel like typing all about the weird message, so if anyone actually reads this blog, just ask * Has to scan her comp for viruses now*

I think my mother just kicked me out, then let me back in before 10 minutes was up. Funny huh?  I guess some may blame it on the menopause(if that's how you spell it), but I'm not that nice, my dad thinks she losing her mind, and maybe I agree,  I just think that I didn't react the way she wanted me to, so she changed her mind, maybe if I had started screaming and crying, then she would have thrown my stuff out of the door and told me never to come back, she loves the drama, and I don't give in to it.  Anyways, I think I've made this my own little venting spot, so I'll probably leave another soon.