A blog/frog of updatestowngirl...

1. st. louis = awesome (pictures soon)

2. steven wright is hilarious. also, sad = me. I didn't MEET him! We were running in circles and somehow I managed to leave too soon. I even dreamed about it. :( :( :( His road manager was even looking for me. I'm pathetic.

3. I was 630 feet high. St. Louis Arch.

4. 20 hours of work in 2 days. Back to ordinary, huh?

5. New wedding date! 11-5-2009!!

6. Still going to Vegas next July. (moving)

7. Going to the Project Runway 5 Wrap party friday to do photography. Personal invite by Korto.

8. I love Ben Folds.

9. We got a kitchen table and a vintage sewing machine.

10. I moved the litter box.

11. ok

12. Oh, I still need a car. I wrecked my versa in may and I STILL don't have one. Aaron takes me to work EVERYDAY!

13. <-- character on House. Speaking of House. The last episode of season 4 made me cry. Not random. I watched that episode last week.

I'm late getting around to posting this. My papaw passed away in the night on Friday. We knew he that he didn't have much more time due to his body rejecting chemo therapy and they could just see him slipping away as time passed. It's hard for me because the last time I saw him he was perfectly fine and he was happy and funny, as always. I never visited him after he found out he was going to die because I didn't want to see him in that condition and now I regret that decision. I miss him and I'm ashamed of myself for being selfish. He would have wanted me to come see him. I hate myself right now. His funeral is Tuesday. I am scheduled to work so I'm kind of worried about that, but I'll make it there. Office Depot can find another cashier if they get mad about me taking one more day off. Pray for my family.
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Again, If you read this please pray for my family. This is a really hard for all of us. My nana's birthday is in a couple of weeks and papaw won't be there to celebrate with her.

2008. A year of ups and mostly downs. The beginning of the year was fine. I don't think I can remember one thing from January besides school starting and it being cold. Well, come April I quit my teaching job (which, I regret, but I had A LOT going) .. and everything went even further down. My 2008 Nissan Versa was totaled May 2nd. I didn't cause the wreck. That same day Nikki passed away in a wreck of her own. That shook my world in the worst ways. It's hard getting behind the wheel of a car now. After that things seemed to get worse. My grandfather was diagnosed with lung cancer with no hopes of remission. A couple days later my aunt found out she was dying as well. Some rare blood disease. I found out that my stepmom is pregnant, which trust me, isn't good news. I'm twenty. I don't need MORE siblings. Aaron and I were having horrible relationship problems because of all the stress I was under and all the stress I was putting him under because of my own. I said things I regret.. as did he. I thought we were going to fall out. We took a week break to help out and it just seemed worse. Everything was fine, but it shook up my emotions and I couldn't help, but be miserable and feel even worse. I didn't even try to get a new job. Therefore, I've been broke since May.. which is definitely not a good thing. I have bills to pay. Plenty. Student Loans! Chase credit card. Gap. Old Navy. I'm an idiot and a fool.

Healing takes time.
So..... time passed.

Here we are almost 3 months later and (some) things have drastically improved.

I got a new job at Office Depot. Thank you, Ryan Lee!!!!  I talked to a guy at the Democratic Gazette today about a possible photography internship and he's interested in me so I'm totally stoked. I lub Photography.

Aaron and I are much better. We worked out our differences and we're back to being cute and cuddly. No more arguing about EVERYTHING. We talked. We cried. We hugged. We're better. We're happier than ever. We got a new apartment in Maumelle. YES! It's pretty great. We signed a new one year lease ... so that's one more year of Arkansas. We plan on moving to Las Vegas next year. :) That'll be fun.

Aaron PROPOSED (7-27).. hence the word "betrothal."  It scares me because of our troubles, but if we can push through anything and everything for 2 and 1/2 years I think everything will work out. We set a wedding time frame - one to three years from now.  We're doing a Fall theme. So it'll be awesome.  By then I should have my own studio.

Oh, my photography has been progressing. I've been doing some free shoots for OUTONTHEROCK.com Do look at my photography albums. I've been working so hard in between everything.  I've got to work on my photography portfolio for the internship. I'm so excited! :D

I'm taking off this semester from school to focus on my financial needs and photography. I need to get caught up. Make some money. Do some shoots. I probably won't go back to school until next fall. Hopefully, I go back in January. Who knows. I can only hope right now. Honestly, I hate school. I don't learn anything. I don't feel that way at least.

....ANYWAY

Pray for my grandfather. He doesn't have much time. He lies at home crying about being afraid and he knows his fate. I hate that he's going through this and I hate that I can't bring myself to see him like that.


Love or whatev

Life's a Beach

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JFf2vYJ7T7k

I want have this song constantly playing in my ears.