I have come to the conclusion that Reno and it's people suck and have sucked the life out of me. This blog is directed at 4-5 different people who I call my "friends", enjoy.

These are the things that you have replaced me with in our friendships:

-Booze.
-Boys.
-Drugs.

I refuse to have friends that do not stand up for me just because they want to go to a "rad g-nar rager!!!" I refuse to have friends that ignore my calls because they want to look cool in front of a bunch of fake people while at a party. I refuse to have friends that don't talk to me because I don't have a car anymore. It's pretty amazing how fast people forget about you when you aren't fucking driving them everywhere and buying them things anymore. It's amazing that when I had a drivers license my phone rang at least 20 times a day. Now that I don't, I'm lucky if it rings once or twice. It's awesome how I used to drive everyone around for FREE for the past 2 years and now just to get a ride into town I have to pay people at least 10- 15 dollars for gas. OH AND I STILL PAY FOR BOOZE. It's also lovely  when someone tells you they are going to hang out with you and never follow through then wonder why you don't give them the time of day. So you can all go off with all of your cool friends and your cool parties and get mega hammered and hook up with some hotties and shove it all up your pitiful asses. BECAUSE I'M DONE!

I SEE THROUGH ALL OF YOU.
Fuck you very much.
cvag.

when you realize how many wonderful friends you have.

GAH i love it.

This new year is going to ring in so many changes for me.

I am not here to please everyone anymore. I am not going to do it. Losing my drivers license brought along a very large lesson about who my real friends are. They are few and far between. For so long I have been caught in the hustle of constant partying and have been on such an immensely destructive path. I have had blinders on for so long about so many things. I have been so passive and have taken everything that so many people have done to me with a shrug. I am starting to realize how easy it is  to be happy by myself. I do not need to have constant reassurance from people who ,very likely, do not give one shit about me. I have, for so long, needed reassurance from people who are nothing more than low-life high school kids who wouldn't know the true meaning of friendship if it slapped them upside their silly-ass heads. I have finally separated myself from this group of people who have dragged me down and sucked the life out of me for so long. People who I was never anything more than a free ride somewhere or a "awesome party to hit up" to. People who likely were best friends to my face and very likely said something rude about me the second i walked out of the door. People who claim to all be best friends but say more mean things about each other than nice. People who will be your best friends one day and act like they don't know you the next.

Here is a little advice to this group of particular people:

1) Grow up; the number of parties you attend, beers you drink & highschool girls you fuck does not define who you are. If it does define you, you need to seriously check yourself.

2) Being successful and doing something with your life is A GOOD THING. I'm starting school, hopefully I can be a good influence on you people.

3) Being fake to people is a waste of time. If you hate someone then get over, let them know and move on.

4) Stealing things instead of buying them does NOT make you a badass. It's whitetrash/trailortrash(whichever suits you). If you can't afford it than maybe you should get a job and save money to pay for it. (what a concept)

5) Having two innocent little highschool girlfriends at the same time does NOT make you a player, It makes you look like a pig/scumbag. Not to mention it makes you look like a douchebag who isn't intelligent or successful enough to date somebody your own age.

6) Fucking 20+ girls before you are even 21 years old is not something you go around bragging about. There is counsling for people like you. Not to mention diseases.

With that all said I am so content at the new direction in which my life is headed.

I will be starting esthetician school within the next month.

Then I am out of Reno.

I feel like the lightbulb finally went off in my head, TIME TO GROW UP.

hopefully others of you will choose to do the same.